podiumdavis

Damien is to confront his own demons, to confront his past, and his future in one foul swoop. Through the help of (others), although unknown, he learns to confront old hurts and see them for what they really are.

Damien awoke in the shadows, a place from one of his nightmares. It was a frightening thought, being afraid of the dark for the past forty some odd years of his tenured life, and yet now the darkness was his only companion. “Hello? Is anybody in here?” he called out in a panic, his voice trembling with each syllable. “Is anyone here? Please, someone help me!” His own voice echoed back towards him, scaring him even further. “FUCK! HELLO?” he beckoned once more. No body replied. Damien was on

Sorry for the delay. Should have a chapter for you guys in the next few days I'm excited. I hope you are too!

I'm having a go at this..... Let's see what I get .. I'm anxious LOL.

Kinda wanna do this. But kinda too, um, yeah... Been drinking... FML.

Like some, I only had come across vic through chat from time to time. But it's shocking that another has been lost (even if the last one was fake, or not) it stills rips to my bones. May his family know rest, peace, and serenity and may God give them comfort in their time of need.

Dunno what's funny right now. But hey, you can enlighten me I have to fix it for Thomas? What's that supposed to mean. If you mean get the low down on his life at home, the wait won't be long, don't jump the gun here.... Jacob and Kyle are what they are... You might call it thick, I might call it, accepting someone else's wishes, unless you talking about Thomas' sexuality.... Then that's a different matter

There's always something that'll get missed, no ones perfect, but it doesn't stop me from trying. If you could point them out, I can fix them

Congrats Andy ol' boy... *HUGS AND KISSES*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! MAKE IT A GOOD ONE>>><<< CAPS MEANS I'M YELLING! Now who's gonna spank him?

Thanks for all the support. It means a lot. In real life, I hate disclosing such details, because ultimately it makes me feel weak. I think this lies with being a man, I don't know. Nor do I like asking for help either. So it's a big step for me, personally, to be so forthright. But I felt maybe some accountability was in order, to share my struggle, to see if any thoughtful advice, tactics could be applied. I appreciate it, truly.

I found this really good and well thought out. Give a try and see how many mistakes you, or even I make http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRMRCeQBAKI

While I've done my best to be as transparent as I possibly can with all of you. I can't honestly sit here and say that I haven't been lying to myself, because with every alarm that’s to wake me for the beginning of the day, I proclaim: Today will be the day I don't get alcohol, I swear to God, and by all that is good and Holy, I MEAN IT! Then as my work day comes to a close.... All I want is that one sip, that luscious taste hitting my tongue. The sweet bitter goo going down my throat, and I must say, now that I'm here, I never thought I'd become addicted to this ball of sludge. And really, that's what it is. My father struggled with this, but he'd never care to admit it, but he followed in his own father’s footsteps as well. This has been a generational curse that has consumed at least half of my family. I honestly thought I was stronger than them, that I'd never go down this road to alcoholism. Over these many months it has robbed me of everything I’ve held so dear, and I have no one to blame but myself. This has, at least in my eyes, taken many things away from me, such as, my ability to write, as I’m sure is blatantly obvious. I’ve also robbed my readership of that consistency as well, and for that I’m ever sorry. Even as I sit here in this present moment in time, and for once, I didn’t get anything to shove down my throat until it knocks me out for the night. I can honestly say that I still have the urge to have a drink. It’s a constant reminder even when I put up my fists and say, ‘NOT TODAY DAMNIT!’ I wholeheartedly want this cycle to end, truly and honestly. I know it would be easier to take that drink, I know this. But as this psychological warfare continues, I grow ever weaker. Today, or should I say, another attempt, is my first day without a drink. Yes, I’ve said this many times now, it’s a constant struggle and yet, here I stand again, trying to be transparent and hope that this time, yes this time, will be the last. I can only hope and pray.

There was definitely a lot of drama this week. I happened to come in late to this announcement since the blog is no longer posted on the front page, but regardless; I think this was sickening for many, including myself. As anyone who does any form of artistry knows, it their baby and for someone to simply sweep up, change the content to an extent, and then claim it to be their own is not only catastrophic, (as I'm sure KC can attest), but it's downright appalling.... But at the end of the day, no one is to blame the GA team, for they did an excellent job by not only proclaiming this loudly within the community, but they were very open about it and should be commended for their actions. While I may not agree 100% of the time with the admins, I do respect them for what they do for us authors. Again, golf clap all around... ~CHEERS~

Thanks Benji. It's surely been a long road. But I'm doing the best that I can to move forward as best as possible. I think Bill realized what was most important of all, clearly by his thought process' when he dumped the sherry. Thomas is filled with problems, hidden behind a vail that will slowly unravel for all to see. Hope you're well Benji Andrew

Yes, it is Forrest Gump. And it made complete sense. Today I read this review at work. It made me smile, as well as Jo's and Clocks. I love re-reading reviews. If I'm down I read them and it makes me feel happy.. Anyway.... Thomas has a horrid self image. This is very apparent. Jacob is that rough and tough kinda guy, he doesn't think anything through prior. Kyle's response was just in my eyes though. Remind me what PDA is.. grr.. Will there be a fight at Kyles? You'll find that out later........... but..... Nvrm. I think a better resolve for Bill is what did he write??? Love you Lisa..

Compassion is something that's very well and off. But anyone with a compassionate heart knows very well, that if you piss them off..... you'll feel the brunt of their anger, and that is a bad place to be.. I'm that person myself and I'm not one to piss off lest you feel my anger LOL. Is Thomas gay? hmm.. Maybe.. I think the signs are there.. But the definitive answer won't come anytime soon.

Self pity indeed. I don't think Jacob so much, more so, Thomas. But they both did. Kyle's outburst came from being fed up. But like the chapter says 'In some ways, he felt like Jacob'. SURPRISE! Only time will tell on Bills resolve. The question really is... Why in the hell was he writing a note? And to whom... What comes next for him. And why weren't Matthew and Nicolas in this chapter... hmmm.. Sorry I love playing..

Chapter #15 has now been release. Read, like, review. ~CHEERS~ First let me apologize for the long delay between chapters. For those of you that don't know; I've been struggling with drinking ever since Oct, and then my cousin committed suicide on Valentine’s Day. So I've been struggling a lot lately and unfortunately my writing took the brunt of all that is life. I hope you enjoy this work; as it's been a long time coming. I love you all. May God give you hope, and strength. Andrew

The Journey of Jacob and Kyle Chapter #15: This Cold heart (Cont.) Time line: Monday Mr. Morris couldn’t stop himself from giving a cheeky grin towards Jacob. He felt a deep affection for this young lad, and he didn’t quite understand why, but he felt like a proud father, and as any father would’ve done he rubbed Jacob’s hair and tousled it until it was a knotted mess. A nod quickly followed and he casually let himself out, leaving Jacob devoid of another word. Jacob was now by his lonesome

Without such AMAZING people in my corner. My stories wouldn't ever see the greatness that they have. First and foremost, my team isn't always thanked enough, or even credited at times. I love them to death for sharing the vision that I have for my storie(s) released and unreleased. They have been my sounding board, my deepest of friends, and true patriots for my corner. I love them dearly. Andy021278 (My Editor, who has been nothing but fair, just, and very easy to get along with. He explains things very well where things don't line up, or the likes. He's a man to have in your corner.) joan414 (My friend who loves to hear me talk about J&K and some small glimpses of unreleased chapters. Without her, I wouldn't have the drive to write at times, she's AMAZING) Lisa (My Beta, who I love dearly, first a fan of my writing and then a beta for pitiful me.) Secondly, all three of these wonderful people have been there for me, emotionally, as I've struggled with my own demons and life’s situations that have left me paralyzed. Without them I don't know where I'd be. These are the three main people in my corner and I love them dearly. Also of note, I would love to thank all my fans, those who follow my story, and comment and just plain old read what I write. As there would be too many to list I'll cover you all in a blank and call "THANK YOU!" at the top of my lungs. Yours always, yours forever, yours today Andrew

I'm just glad that you're okay..... That's scary stuff...

Blatant and honest is key; I believe. I always, no matter what I'm doing, will speak from my heart. That one line is indeed powerful, and one of shame, and fear. How can one say that while knowingly that this will cause scars beyond belief? Maybe they don't think and that's how they get by. The sick fucks!

I'm glad that my words can bring life to another. It's an honor for me, to share my life, and how I see it. I'm sorry you went through this as well. I hope your wounds have healed. :*(

My stregnth is in my writing. Ily babe.