Tiger

Every once in a while we lose sight of what is most important in life. Chief among these important things is taking care of one's self. That is something I had forgotten for a while. I had allowed myself to get caught up in something that just isn't needed right now. The only way to fix it is to distance myself for a while. I would like to personally thank Trebs for the advice he has given me. I have gained new perspective where a lot of things are concerned. I was at a point where I wanted to believe in something that, for the time being, can only be destructive. I had to stop and think about it for a while, but it makes sense to me now. I cannot allow myself to fall into patterns of the past. I have to understand my own self and understand others. I do have introspective tendencies, but I can easily lose sight of that ability, thus impairing my judgment and making everything unclear. I'm still struggling right now, but I am going to come out stronger than ever before. I'm treating my depression through medication and therapy, and I'm going to work through other issues I have. I happen to be a believer in having a guide through difficult problems such as these. For anyone who is reading this, if there's anything in your life such as issues like these, it's best to seek help. You have to be honest with yourself. That is the only way you will ever be right with the world, and it's the only way you will seek healthy interpersonal relationships, including the romantic variety. As for me, I have figured out that I need to reduce my online time. I need to focus on other things. I spend way too much time at my laptop, and it has gotten to a point where I'm missing a lot, and that is certainly not a good thing. It's also perpetuating some other patters that I thought I had broken but obviously haven't. I have a therapy session coming up next week, but in the mean time, I need to think about a lot of things in my life. There comes a time when it's time to stop worrying about others' problems and take care of your own needs, even the ones you don't know you have. Some of what I'm saying may seem a little cryptic. I'll help solve some of the mystery right here and now. I will not mention a name, but some of what I am saying is directly speaking to a friend of mine. I won't say anymore than that, but I thought I would mention it for those who may not understand some of my words and what the mean. I may have a lot to figure out, but I am still a fairly decent judge of character and will always pay attention when someone wiser than myself brings new evidence to my attention. Some of us want to believe that because we're at least in our mid-20's we have a great understanding of life. Compared to people over 40, I don't have a damn clue. That's the plain and simple truth. I'll probably update my blog more now that I have uninstalled all methods I have of instant messaging for the time being, so look for new entries more often for a while. I'm also going to try to write, so in case any of my fans are wondering, I'm going to try to have a short story within the next month or so. I'm going to be dabbling in another genre, but I think I can handle it. I think you'll find more of me in this one, at least that is one of my goals. Until next time, be well!

I'm glad you did that, Steve. Everyone needs a break from time to time. There's also the idea of building up inspiration. Sometimes we need to take a new look at the world and watch the interactions of people. That's very important author.

That's true. I'm giving up the latter for a while out of personal choice, but I couldn't live without the former. E-mail and IM are so much more practical than using pen and paper. It's also much faster. Letters take days to deliver. An e-mail takes up to a few minutes (because sometimes servers slow down), and IMs are, as the name suggests, instant.

I would like to wish Paul (scoopny) a very happy 35th birthday! Have a good one.

I have no intention of going to South Carolina. I'm sure it's a beautiful state, but if the people are that closed-minded, I have no desire to go there.

That's an interesting idea. I could be a part of it. However, there would probably be harassment from the police.

That's outrageous. They should be ashamed. There's no reason for that whatsoever. Tourism is a good thing. I think this calls for a boycott!

Well, as long as you don't take it any further, it should be fine.

If it is a romantic interest, it probably is a bad idea. Why is he in prison? How long will he be in prison?

I almost forgot about this one. I need to start remembering to read it every day. The message of strength and perseverance is something we all need from time to time.

I had a pen pal once. He was in prison too actually. I would never do that again. It's usually not a good idea.

It sounds like a problem I know all too well. I have the same problem. I have two or three stories, one of which only has about two paragraphs. It drives me nuts!

Bravo Graeme! The reason authors burn out and become blocked is simply because of all the pressure. It comes to you when it comes to you. When it becomes too much you stop suddenly like several authors here. I won't name names, because we all know who they are. It's better to pace yourself and focus on other parts of your life before writing becomes a chore.

My mind plays tricks on me. There's no way around it. I wish it would stop, but it doesn't seem to be. I find myself questioning people's intentions and misunderstanding some things people say. It's like I've been in my own little world where reality is bent. I have to get to a point where this is no longer the case. I need a sense of clarity and a sense of direction and purpose. I think I'm figuring out that depression creates an alternative reality where you don't always see the good in people. It's a horrible feeling, and there doesn't seem to be any solution to the problem. Then there's the fact that I can't seem to let go of the past. It eats at me... what might have been seems to be a question I ask myself constantly. I also think about people who I feel have done bad things to me, and it makes me sad. This hasn't been the easiest time of my life. I have to re-evaluate everything and decide what's really important rather than focusing on what is not. My mind doesn't seem to allow me this luxury.

So maybe this means that The Scar had something similar in mind. I will also note how you, C James, are a master of misdirection.

That's understandable. There are a lot of bands. As for the 80's, are you covering M

Actually, it seems to have the opposite effect on my libido. As for a crisis, I think I would opt to ask the doctor about a medication for anxiety if that's ever a concern.

I recently started taking Wellbutrin. It seems like ever since I started taking it, I have a hard time concentrating for any length of time. I can't write very much, and reading seems to be just as difficult. It's really frustrating too. I like to get lost in a story whether I'm a reader or an author. It's like Wellbutrin does something in my brain that makes it difficult to focus. It does seem to improve my moods though. Hopefully I will adjust soon and my brain will be able to function. I'm also starting to wonder if I have a shortage of dopamine. Dopamine gives a person a sense of pleasure. Thus, if dopamine is low, there is not as much motivation to complete tasks that are pleasurable. For me writing is extremely pleasurable and so is reading for that matter. I hope the medication isn't to blame. It's difficult to say at this point. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.

I just have a thing about avoiding pain. As for an adrenaline rush, roller coasters work well for me. By the way, welcome back.

With Luck A Rocky Landing I wasn't sure where this should go, so I opted for my blog. Anyway, these people have lost their minds and they jump from rock to rock. It's enough to make even C James cringe with fear. I mean, they could break their bones doing this. I don't care how drunk I get, I could never do this. The locals cite some kind of adrenaline rush as the reason for doing this. I watched the video, and I was wondering why anyone would want to do this. It scares the shit out of me just thinking about it. I have this thing where if I see someone doing something that I think looks painful, I just start to feel uneasy. Thus, the video freaked me out. How in the hell do they do this without risking serious injury? They make it look so easy. They do have a cord, but what it breaks or they miss their target? I am picturing one of those severe fractures where bones are protruding through the skin. There's blood everywhere too. It's only a matter of time before someone wins a Darwin Award for doing that. I could never do something like that. I don't have the guts to even attempt it. I thought base jumping was bad enough. At least base jumpers have a parachute. I think they were seriously screwed over in the brain department when God was handing them out. :wacko:

I have a Digg account. I had forgotten about it. I've been a member since 2006.

Digg is an interesting site. I have not used it a lot, but I might have to check it out more thoroughly now.

Those are beautiful James. Our universe is simply amazing!

Seether "Rise Above This" Take the light and darken everything around me Call the clouds and listen closely I'm lost without you Call your name every day when I feel so helpless I've fallen down but I'll rise above this, rise above this Hate the mind, regrets are better left unspoken For all we know, this void will grow And everything's in vain, distressing you though it leaves me open Feels so right, but I'll end this all before it gets me Call your name every day when I feel so helpless I've fallen down but I'll rise above this, rise above this Call your name every day when I seem so helpless I've fallen down, and I'll rise above this, rise above this doubt I'll mend myself before it gets me (I'll mend myself before it gets me) I'll mend myself before it gets me (I'll mend myself before it gets me) Call your name every day when I feel so helpless I've fallen down but I'll rise above this, rise above this Forty eight ways to say that I'm feelin' helpless I'm Falling down, falling down, but I'll rise above this, rise above this, Rise above this, rise above this doubt

There is a sequel in the pipeline. Perhaps we will find the answers there. If The Scar is alive, he will be seeking revenge.