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Just a minor correction. Westie is not having ANY film with Yang unless I'm there too!

Well actually I don't think he can be found guilty of a hate crime... he should certainly be convinced for breaking his privacy and be punished accordingly. But this is not a hate crime in my view.

OK, it's been almost a year since my last entry. I'm bad! And to be honest, I would manage to go longer without a post but 1) I'm bored and procrastinating, and 2) I need to vent. And I guess it's safe to do that here. As many of you might have read, I'm moving to London soon. Well... end May at latest. We've done the plus points (Thanks Bob! ) and I persuaded my bf that it's best for us to move to London. I'm really looking forward to all that but I have to admit I'm scared. I tend to underestimate myself... which makes it quite difficult to promote yourself on a CV when you're looking for a job. More so if you're a foreigner "from the East", self-conscious of your accent, vocabulary and lately as I've found out even grammar. I've studied or used English for over 18 years now, have an Advanced certificate from Cambridge yet I make basic mistakes when I speak without any preparation and my active vocabulary is much smaller than the passive one. How will I look at a hypothetical interview? I don't want to wait tables or do jobs "East Europeans" usually do when they are in the "West". I have two or three university degrees and two years of work experience after all. (I've been mostly free-lancing the years before.) Yet it might be not enough. Hell I'm not sure I would find a good job here now. So how can I be success in London? I know I have some time still. And I know I can work on my English and not procrastinate writing non-sense blogs. But when I'm scared I won't be success, I tend to shuffle around, assessing the risks, thinking of how to do this to be perfect (yeah, I'm a perfectionist ) and I stall. I stall and think of what could turn bad, which usually means I discourage myself from doing it. But moving to London is not a thing I can run away from. My boyfriend has been a massive help. He revamped my CV, he's basically the one who is looking for job opportunities for me and I love him terribly for what he does. It's just I'm scared people in UK won't understand me, or I won't understand them; that I won't be able to find a decent job which will complicate our settling down; that if I find a job I wouldn't be able to adapt to the work pace in London or they I will fail miserably,... I guess I could go on. But I'm also super-excited about moving in with the love of my life, sharing finally our lives together, discovering a new place, country, culture, and way of life... I'm leaving my country, my home, everything I knew and learnt in past 28 years, and I'm exchanging it for something new, exciting and challenging. And now I feel like some attention seeker.

I'm really glad you're past this stage! Even if it must have happened last year or so. You come a long way since then but you know it. And wow, 6 feet 5? You're a giant! And I bet Stuby knows you're a beautiful giant.

This is a very strong story. Powerful. The fact it's a true life story gives it this special flavour but this story would be great as well on itself, as a fiction.

Joyeux Anniversaire, mon ami!

falling on the butt? Why do you ski without sticks? If you wanted your ass pounded I bet there would be many volunteers

How can someone even think coming out is moral/immoral? Who am I or who are his parents or anybody to judge on such an internal and private thing like coming out? Coming out is not moral nor immoral. Coming out is a decision of every one of us to do it when we feel safe/secure/confident to do it. Nobody has right to say anybody "you should have told me sooner" because I would love you less or whatever non-sense. Some people come out at 14, some take longer, we have people here who realized or came out at 40 and even some that never came out and lived a straight life. That's like asking if it's moral to pretend to be happy Mummy and Daddy for your kids when you internally lust after Uncle Frank. People have no right nor knowledge or experience to judge on such things.

Ohhh maaan, you're OLD! You should start saving for your retirement! Happy birthday though!!!

Wow! Those numbers are staggering, Vic! Do you know a year has only 365 days?!

I know the answer! I know the answer!

**chin drops** they would be great go go dancers I need to find a place for a pole around which they should dance...

I'm not really sure if it is doable for me and Westie as we planned moving in together for either late August or early September... So 1) our finances might be strained to max, 2) we will be busy settling down, job hunting and all. And we don't know how the economy is going to look next year... Other than that I'd love to go - the more it gets towards the END of the month the better. But since I'm giving it 20-30 % chance we would manage the trip, don't feel obliged to set the date around my/our wishes.

Well for beer and lager specially you need to go from Berlin to Vienna via Prague or any other Czech city/town. After all, "pilsen" lager is named after one of our cities. We make the best beer in the world anyway. Moreover, you'll LOVE Prague (even if there are other nice cities too ). Sometimes they translate "Glühwein" as "mulled wine" to English. Then there is the Christmas punch and hot mead. Great for chilly days. As for meals, our cuisine is very close to German one, we cook Schnitzel as well, the traditional cuisine is dominated by meals with thick, cream sauces. There is a web about good restaurants in the Czech Rep., so if you need any addresses or tips, then I can help. In Northern Italy I'd certainly not miss risotto - made from rice they grow there. And ham from Parma! In Belgium definitely mussels and fries ("frittes"). And Switzerland - definitely cheese fondue or raclettes. And mind that Switzerland is really expensive - and now with the exchange rate even more. Oh, and it depends from country to country how you tip. Sometimes the tips are included in the price or in your bill ("couvert" etc.), sometimes you round the bill up or you add 10 % and round it up or down to any amount you find suitable. And make a travel blog with your experiences! Enjoy your stay!

You don't understand your British friends, colleagues, classmates? Let me help you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEPHY!!!

Awww don't be such a spoil-sport!

Though I suppose you don't want it to become one, right?

Happy happy happy birthday Mark!!! Enjoy your day!!!

He's so cute. :-) It's a pity he's not active in the sport anymore, it might encourage more active sportsmen to come out, to show people gays are just people like others. Terrible accent though, had hard time to get used to it first. Graeme do you speak like that to? ;-)

Hyvää syntymäpäivää! wow... so many ä! Beautiful!

Awwww I'm sooo sorry Momma, I'm late!! I hope your day was FABULOUS! At least as much as you are!

I knew the cheerleader hunt was a cover up! He was after Peter Petrelli from the start!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Janko_Tipsarević - the tennis player from the video is Serbian the site reminded me of Shelley the Republican, a site I posted here ages ago... they're very good at this. Sometimes too good, one might worry their "jokes" get to the ears real followers...

Thank you very much everyone! I had a great birthday and my man was here with me to make it superlative!