JamesSavik

There is a poll going on for author and story of the year! Of course the Doma-holics are all over the poll but our beloved Comicality is in the running for author of the year and his story Gone From Daylight is up for story of the year. go here to vote

Nick- The closest thing I can relate to this is being a good player on a bad team. There is some satisfaction in the other team running away from your side but you can't do everthing. When they do run your way you can make them wish they hadn't. :2hands: I don't have any experience with the stage. If it wasn't done with some kind of ball at my HS, it simply wasn't done. -JS

Hey Dom- People have to understand that it is *fiction* and that stories have plotlines for a purpose. If a writer did whatever his fans said, he wouldn't have very many fans. Rory could get hit by a falling comet in the very next chapter and DD could still end up being a great story. You never know until you read it. In other matters, I hope that you find someone to keep you warm and raise your spirits- Christmas and otherwise. -JS

Happy Birthday Kitty. Hope you are Queen of your new territory!

AFF- I am fellow Southner who decided to stay. If I had it to do over again, I would have left. People in the South are two faced little b*tches. If they know that you are gay, they will be one way to your face and screw you over behind your back. They have been indoctrinated by generations of religious fanatics. Even if they don't go to church, it is part of their culture. They know that gay people are evil and feel nothing about betraying you, screwing you over or using you. To them, you are not quite human. It doesn't matter what they do to you. Get out while you are young enough to build yourself a life in a place where you will be allowed to have a life. -James

What a cute puppy! Is he a yellow Lab? I had a black lab for a while named Spook. In the dark, all you could see of him was his teeth and eyes. My boyfriend said that he looked spooky and it stuck. My Mom used to say he was smarter than me. A euphamism for being neutered is having your dog fixed. It's really the responsible thing to do with all of the stray and homeless puppies and kittens that have to be put down. It is a sad necessity. However, let me be the first to say: "Yarp, yarp, yarp, yarp, yarp..."

Green I wouldn't be too concerned about your dream. Dreams are the unconscious mind's way of telling us things but usually those things are part of our experience. Note that there were people in your dream. Not strangers but someone that you know. Dreams are messages about ourselves viewed through the lense of our unconscious mind. It is not a scary premonition as a witch doctor might try to tell you. More than likely, it is just a sign of stress and anxeity. Anything stressful going on with you? I mean besides exams, an ex-boyfriend, a new boyfriend, friends that need a lot of attention, Drama (with a capital D), family issues... What I am concerned about is your level of stress and anxiety. I perscribe a nice, long Christmas break vacation WITH Chaz and WITHOUT your cellphone. Green, you've really been through an emotional blender this fall. Just look at your blog. You need and deserve a break! If it is just you and Chaz alone at a hotel with champaign and take out, the quiet would do you some good. Your fan, JS PS- Jung wrote a lot about dreams- Man and His Symbols and Modern Man in Search of a Soul are classics on the subject.

I am going to say that light trucks have a lot going for them. I have driven a Toyota truck for years now. In fact, I have purchased three Toyota pickups and a row. Nissans are pretty tight too. I'm now drive a 2003 Tacoma and I love my truck. I get to spend more time driving it than servicing it.

we "usually don't take freshmen out of state." Which is retarded, because I'm better at science (especially physics) than the rest of my team put together. And, I really wanted to go to Washington D.C. Oh well. SB- They deserve what they get if they leave their star on the bench. Hopefully, they'll understand that they've got a sharp freshman and start their real first team.

I agree with Nick. You are a sweet heart and will make someone a great boyfriend. I just hope you find one that good enough for you. -JS

Um, and lets just pretend that I purposely added Jude

AFF: So anyway if you can't be friends at least try to move on without letting them leave you with pain. OK all of the replies have been from the "high road" school. This is impossible. It is going to cause pain. Here's the good news: it doesn't have to be all your pain. People that have known you for a long time and blow you off or keep you at arms length because you are gay have stolen from you. They have stolen your time, friendship, trust and loyalty. These are precious things that money can't buy. If there is anything lower than a thief that steals material things, it is one that steals spiritual things. Such an act deserves horrific retaliation. If a junkie that steals $70 dollars from a stop-and-rob gets 10 years in prison, what does the a-hole that steals your spiritual treasures? You won't feel right about it until you've given the a-hole a final F-U for the road. Look- don't go out and do something stupid in the heat of the moment! Revenge is a dish best served cold. Very f-ing cold. When they least expect it. I've waited years for a plan to come together but it is so worth it to see your traitor scum squirm like the worm that he is. Have a plan. Think it through. Let the trail grow cold. Forget about it for a while- say 3 to 9 months. Be creative. A dead hooker in the trunk is so pass

Here in Mississippi, the white stuff doesn't come around very often nor does it bother me. But, if you get it in my hair I'll kick you azz.

Good luck with finals Green. Stress really does odd things to people, doesn't it? I wish I could figure out the formula to simulate finals week on the brain. If I could, people would forget about viagra. -JS

Boa- I'm afraid that you've run into the ugly side of coming out. There are some people that will never accept you. I'm not saying that to be mean but it's true. Your best bet is to count your losses, move on and call it a day. I've had a belly full of immature and insecure str8s. I have no problem blowing off people like that because you are just plain better off without their neurosis. I know that it hurts but having homophobic str8s in your life is like having a splinter. You've got to get it out of your hide before it's going to get any better. Otherwise it'll just stay there festering and causing trouble. There is an old expression that comes to mind: F- them if they can't take a joke. You are a good guy and you do NOT need people around that you have to constantly apologize to for being who you are. -JS

That works if you are a cute young pup like you Nick. If it's a big, scary older guy like me, it is the crazed, icy gaze of a psycho. Eye contact is a powerful form of nonverbal communication and you have to be careful how you use it.

I think the reason a lot of BAH HUMBUG Seems to go with the season is that the Christmas seems to start right after Halloween and by the time Christmas does arrive, people have heard so much corny Christmas music, they are either loopy or homicidal. As fo me, I simply ignore all the Christmas crapola until Dec. 10th. It saves a lot of sanity which I need to conserve. NO, I'm NOT a GRINCH. I just don't buy into who jingoistic, hypocritical Christmas commercial complex. There is a reason for the season. It has absolutely nothing to do with Tyco or Hasbro's bottom line.

I hope that means you're having some fun.

It's also posted at Awesomedude's Place under David Buffet's page. The format (and neighbors) are a little nicer than Shifty.

Dom- You could always get a cat. They can be annoying but never boring. They also create several non-paying jobs that even starving Ethiopian immigrants won't do: cleaning the cat box, cleaning up hairballs and the never-ending game of brinkmanship- chemical warfare genocide of fleas (they must all die die die!). The trick is using something powerful enough to kill the fleas and not the cat or the family. Now that's excitement. :nuke: -JS Aren't they cute and irresistible?

Well I guess that depends on what kind of hero you are looking for. A fighter pilot with 20 kills? A pro quarterback with 35 TD passes a year? A barbarian with a big battle axe? An Olympic champion? The heroic archetype usually battles some evil and triumphs through the use of force or wit. Beowulf for example. He fights the monster Grendel and restores his King's and peoples fortunes. This begs a more interesting question that the authors here should think about: Is it a gay hero that is sought or a hero that happens to be gay? Consider two works: Comicality's The Secret Dairy of Billy Chase and Dom's The Log Way The protagonists in these two stories, Billy and Owen, are are ordinary teens dealing with their sexuality and all of the tricks and traps that come their way. They have faults, fears and quirks but they serve to make the characters more human. Billy is a little self-absorbed and lives in his head a lot. He has a little trouble distinguishing between what is real and what he wishes were real. Owen is reeling from the rejection and abuse by his father while he tries to rebuild his life. He learns that to live again, he has to take some risks despite his bitter experience. Neither Billy or Owen is a Beowulf but they are very human. Their experiences, struggles, triumphs and failures are so very real that you can feel them. There are many characters in gay fiction that behave heroically: Brian of Dewey's Brian and Pete is pretty heroic when he's not angsting himself to death. Evan of Driver's Plan series stories is also fairly heroic. Just don't expect gay heroes to storm Normandy Beach. That's not to say there weren't gays there but the army wouldn't have let them play their little death games had they known. Gays, as heros, fit an entirely different mold. Their struggles exist in several different dimensions at once: the physical, the emotional and the spiritual. Yes, there may be one or several "bad guys" but as often as not, the battle raging inside is every bit as ferocious as the battle in the playground. Gays from different eras faced entirely different sets of challenges. The gay kid in 1950, 1970, 1990 and today are shaped by very different times, attitudes, social pressures and advantages or disadvantages created by their region. Even Today a gay person from rural Louisiana might have problems communicating with or relating to a gay person from New York, San Francisco or Toronto. So where are the gay heros? They are all around but they are mostly invisible going about the business of living their lives.

Gay people who face oppression and discrimination are heroic by definition. It takes courage to stand up for yourself in the face of hatred and bigotry- much more courage than it takes to hide and conform.

Welcome Naiilo! You'll love this site. If you haven't discoved DOM or Comicality, go read! -JS

Nope- the Wall doesn't count you little hippie.

Green Dude- Transference: a psychological defense in which the source of anger/anxiety is transfurred from its real source to another. This usually happens when the source of the anger is unreachable or unassailable and the anger is transfurred to a "safe" target. This is very destructive to relationships and causes anger completely out of porportion with the irritation. In the four cases of your friends rubbing you the wrong way, yes- what they did was annoying BUT none of them had any reason to think that it would be offensive. The boys making out probably didn't think you would be mad. Selene asking you to pick her up was a favor between friends that you've exchanged a hundred times. Chaz bringing other people to the movie may have been irritating but you didn't say not to and as soon as he saw it was a problem, he was sorry. Having read your blog for a while, I think I have a pretty good idea who it is that you are really angry at and why. Put that focus where it should be and you can avoid hurting the friends that you love and are close to. Another thing that may reduce some friction with your friends is to create clear boundries. When you don't have clear boundries, and you show yourself to be accepting and mellow, people will tromp all over them. This is not out of malice but because they don't know where the line is and you have to gently show them where it is. -JS