JamesSavik

Hi Adam- I've been remiss is saying hello to you but let me remedy that now. I've been trying to get my paper out the door and I've been pretty busy lately. First- happy brithday! :king: Second- about the depression and suicide thing, I've been there. I had some people that got their jollies by making my life miserable. Well, they pissed me off. I decided that I couldn't visit misery upon my enemies dead so suicide was in conflict with my long term goals. Sure being too mean to die isn't the nicest way to survive, but it worked for me. Surviving a lot of pain and conflict: expensive. Living to see your enemies living as toothless hicks in a trailer park: priceless. -JS

My mother didn't even get mad when Chaz's mother asked her how she came to name me Green. Now there's a story that inquiring minds want to know!

Vance- Don't worry about whether a story has "bad elements" like drugs, violence, etc. For better or worse, that stuff is part of our lives and makes for good drama. If there is no conflict in a story, who would read it? Good stories exist on the edges and extremes. They don't come from comfortable places with comfortable emotions. The very best stories help us learn something about ourselves or force us to confront issuess that we probably would rather not. An author need only concern himself with making it a good story. Screw it if it isn't politically correct or has plot elements that some readers aren't comfortable with. By taking the reader to that edge, you have expanded his consciousness, world and understanding. If the reader doesn't have the intestinal fortitude to strap it on for a rough ride, it is his character that is flawed, not the author's. -JS

I hate to be a spoil-sport but it is probably not the smartest thing to do unless you are very secure in your work place. Thankfully the days of firing people for being gay are behind us for the most part BUT some employers will decide to find a reason to get rid of you if they discover that you are gay. There is a perception among some business people that gay employees will drive up their health care costs, steal or may sexually harass subordinates. [even though repeated studies have shown that gay employees are actually LESS LIKELY statistically that their breeder counterparts to do so]. Sex really does not have a comfortable spot in the work place. Given the litigious legal climate in the country today, employers are pressured to create a sexually-neutral workplace because they are libel for substantial damages if there is a "hostile work environment" and they don't do anything about it. I practice what I preach in this regard. I have NEVER, EVER dated guys from work. The simple reason is that it is not smart to s**t where you live.

Vance! I very pleased that you joined us. I've been hooked on yoour stories since I cried through the first half of Shane. -JS

Just as an aside to this thread, I'm not sure how useful it is to "test gayness". We've been fighting bad press and stereotypes forever. There really is no "gay archtype". We're all quite diverse as is born out by everyones various scores. BTW- my score was 33.

Glad you are home Green. Oh- and you are right about that smell. A mere wiff of hospital (vet) smell makes my cat bush up his tail. I suppose it might have something to do with getting fixed when he wasn't even broken.

I know it looks kinda gay right now

You kids have fun!

I'm sorry Chaz- I was hoping that you two could get away for a while.

Hey Tim! Hope you have a great year

You might want to go slow there. Chaz's twin (Mike?) may not be ready. No strike that. He's not read- please encourage him to go slow in the romance department. -JS

humm- I wonder what a huggle would be like. I suggest pecans, carmel and choclate. Oh wait that's a turtle. Mmmmmm turtles, *drool* they taste like

Does anyone else ever have trouble just writing sex? I usually DON'T write sex. I think it's better to leave some things to the readers imagination by creating an erotic mood and feeling without getting graphic.

The Drunken Idiot Song I'm a drunken Idiot but that's OK, I drink all night and I sleep all day. chorus: He's a drunken Idiot buts that's OK, He'll drink all night and he'll sleep all day. I drink beer and I drink scotch and occasionally even gin. I go to the lavatory. And barf and drink agin. chorus: He drinks beer and he drinks scotch and occasionally even gin, He goes to the lavatory, And barfs and drinks agin. He's a drunken Idiot buts that's OK, He'll drink all night and he'll sleep all day. I drink in pubs and I drink in the park. I drink from the morning till well after dark. I wake up hung over and wearing high heels, I guess I lost a bet or made a bad deal. chorus: He drinks in pubs and He drinks in the park. He drinks from the morning till well after dark. He wakes up hung over and wearing high heels, He supposes he lost a bet or made a bad deal. He's a drunken idiot and that's OK, He drinks all night and he drinks all day. I wake up in strange places with strange people with strange faces, They say I'm friendly when I'm drunk and apparently nearsighted, Waking up is an adventure hung over in strange spaces, Now my favorite organ has a rash and is blighted. chorus: He's a drunken idiot but it's OK, He drinks all night and he pukes all day, He wakes up in strange places with strange people with strange faces, He says he's friendly when he's drunk and apparently nearsighted, Waking up is an adventure hung over in strange spaces, Now his favorite organ has a rash and is blighted. chorus: He used to be a drunken idiot but its OK, He sobered up and he joined AA, He's still and idiot and makes mistakes, But now he can remember the promises he makes. ___________________________________________________ My apologies to Monty Python for butchering the Lumberjack Song.

You didn't collect as a kid? I used to collect coins, stamps, fossils, gems, rocks and albums. My parents encouraged collecting because the collections themselves had value. Now my biggest collections are books (~2,300), CDs (325) and, DVDs(42). And yes, they are cataloged in a database. Garbage pale kids were after my time. In my day it was "wacky packages" which were satirical bastardizations of consumer products. Purina cat chow became "Putrid cat chow". Of course the 'rents hated them so we loved them as much as our Satanic albums. Of course there is a web site dedicated to the preservation of these priceless artifacts of us children of the 70s collective childhood. Wacky Packages

Recently I had been taking something that didn't go down very well. I read the label, which was in very tiny print, that had a list of side effects a mile long. A couple of those were lethargy and depression- which both suck a lot. It is a real pain when the cure is worse than the symptom.

May cause cramps and bloating... If you have an erection lasting more that 4 hours... May cause diareah and nausea... May cause sexual side effects... May cause tremors, forgetfulness and hallicunations... Don't drive a car or operate heavy machinery for 4 to 6 hours after use... May cause sinus infection or nosebleeds... If you experience depression or suicidal thoughts please call your doctor... May cause delerium, euphoria or dementia... Screw it! I'll just walk it off. -JS

Please don't kill Eddie. At least not before you kill TLS Aaron would make good road gravy. The way he's been boozing it up, he's about due for it.

Nick- Good for you. CRVboy's site has a huge following. In fact Topher's Carter series was featured there. -JS

AFF- The constant in life is change. The trick is.. well crap. I don't know. :wacko: Stay sweet and good things will happen for you. Just don't quit and don't give up. -JS

Chaz & Green: I sent you guys a PM the other day that probably makes a lot more sense now. I think the two of you getting away together is a fantastic idea (which I think that I may have suggested at some point in the past ) Fly Away (by Lenny Kravitz) I wish that I could fly Into the sky Just like a dragonfly I'd fly above the trees Over the seas in all degrees To anywhere I please Oh I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah Oh I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah Let's go and see the stars The milky way or even Mars Where it could just be ours Let's fade into the sun Let your spirit fly Where we are one Just for a little fun Oh oh oh yeah ! I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah I got to get away Feel I got to get away Oh oh oh yeah I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah with you yeah yeah Oh Yeah ! I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah with you yeah yeah I got to get away I want to get away I want to get away I want to get away I want to get away Yeah I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah with you yeah yeah I got to get away I want to get away I want to get away I want to get away I want to get away Yeah I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah with you Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Dom- Maybe I can help you with some titles. Here's a few-- see if they spark any ideas. Here's a few ideas: Dog Guy, Cat Guy- the tale of romance between two very different people and the furr flies. Diary of a Neurotic Dog- a Dog's eye view of a romance. You did something like this in your blog but I think it could be expanded and refined. Night Moves- a grifter meets a nice guy and finally discovers what he wants but is it too late? Dawn's Early Light- two gay Marine heros survive the Gulf War but discover that the Corp is deadlier than anything that Saddam had. the Rochenko Gambit- set in the Cold War, a Western agent is sent to Moscow to seduce a Soviet scientest and steal his secrets but soon finds that its his heart that has been stolen. Here's a few potentially cool titles: the End of Winter the Polk County War 10,000 Shades of Gray the Destruction of Matthew Gentry Broken Victory I wish I was as good with the rest of the story. -JS

Ryan who?