Street Words - 9. Wait and Blind

It's interesting you use the word anvil in the first poem, because for me, your early work hits like a hammer. And I mean that in a good way. These are powerful and direct pieces, and yet the soul behind them is undeniably strong and beautiful as it looks out and asks us 'why?'

Incredible, Tim. Please post more of these early works.

These are an interesting pair. Were they written at the same time? Both are about the truths that have been ignored/avoided.
One small change I would make would be to move the commentary until after
Just typed it and now I'm not sure. The comment about you being on the street for 5 years at the age of 20 was quite powerful in its own right.

On 05/15/2016 11:03 AM, Bucket1 said:

These are an interesting pair. Were they written at the same time? Both are about the truths that have been ignored/avoided.

One small change I would make would be to move the commentary until after

Just typed it and now I'm not sure. The comment about you being on the street for 5 years at the age of 20 was quite powerful in its own right.

Hi B. Hmm were they written close together? Could be, I really don't remember. I was angry then, at the willing blindness of people. And of the men that i went with then, wanted me but then were repelled by me afterward.

These are devastating, powerful, unvarnished. I turn away in my own shame that I just laid bills on the table and would not feed you or clothe you or help you to heal. These are awesome in their power.

On 05/15/2016 10:49 AM, AC Benus said:

It's interesting you use the word anvil in the first poem, because for me, your early work hits like a hammer. And I mean that in a good way. These are powerful and direct pieces, and yet the soul behind them is undeniably strong and beautiful as it looks out and asks us 'why?'

 

Incredible, Tim. Please post more of these early works.

Hi AC. I was asking why then. But looking back, i was an addict and felt sorry for myself. There likely was help if I'd asked for it. But i had trust issues on top of everything and Jeff reinforced that feeling, probably so i wouldn't leave him. Thanks for your kind words. I appreciate them and your on-going support.

tim xo

'The pain I carry like anvils' That was some weight tim. I can sense your disgust I guess, or disdain maybe. You never hold back, your words are raw and honest and I'm glad you had this way of letting your feelings out.

On 05/15/2016 10:38 AM, Reader1810 said:

Hey tim

You don't mince words, you don't seek to manipulate you just speak the truth. Your words tell an important story that everyone should both hear and listen to.

I am constantly and forever impressed by your skill with words. To think what you produced these poems at 20 with little or no formal training is a testament to the inherent skill that is within you.

As always, nicely done.

Reader, thank you so much. By this time I had learned a little about poetry but I wasn't a serious student at the time. Sometimes i think i wrote better poems then, when i knew nothing.

Thanks for all of your support. I appreciate it very much.

tim xo

On 05/15/2016 12:17 PM, Defiance19 said:

'The pain I carry like anvils' That was some weight tim. I can sense your disgust I guess, or disdain maybe. You never hold back, your words are raw and honest and I'm glad you had this way of letting your feelings out.

Thanks Def! I was angry, hurting, full of self-loathing and hated people who judged me and used me. But the thing is, I let them. I could have found help, but i trusted no one and Jeff had good reason the reinforce those feelings. I learned a lot from that time, I guess it made who I am today.

Thanks for your support Def.. I do appreciate it.

tim xo

On 05/15/2016 12:14 PM, Parker Owens said:

These are devastating, powerful, unvarnished. I turn away in my own shame that I just laid bills on the table and would not feed you or clothe you or help you to heal. These are awesome in their power.

Oh Parker, don't feel shame, geez I look at all the good you do, helping kids, helping in shelters, those are beautiful things. I appreciate all the support and friendship you've shown to me. You've held my hand, lent me a shoulder, so you have nothing to be ashamed of my friend.

tim xo

They are so wonderful and powerful poems. I mean not the fate you fought so well, but how you showed it to each and every person in those small lines. You are wonderful poet and a good person Tim.

My eyes all are wet while I was reading 'Wait'. No one knows the hurt you get while you are waiting, in my opinion at least.

And talk about 'Blind', I always happen have that experience every time I get to see someone. They just blindside me. That's a lot of embarrassing and hurtful situation to go through.

I know your life not went well with all those things. But the thing we have to consider from those is: you are alive and learnt to be strong. That what the important matter is.

Great Poems Tim. They are really really wonderful...

~Emi.

On 05/15/2016 12:49 PM, Emi GS said:

They are so wonderful and powerful poems. I mean not the fate you fought so well, but how you showed it to each and every person in those small lines. You are wonderful poet and a good person Tim.

 

My eyes all are wet while I was reading 'Wait'. No one knows the hurt you get while you are waiting, in my opinion at least.

 

And talk about 'Blind', I always happen have that experience every time I get to see someone. They just blindside me. That's a lot of embarrassing and hurtful situation to go through.

 

I know your life not went well with all those things. But the thing we have to consider from those is: you are alive and learnt to be strong. That what the important matter is.

 

Great Poems Tim. They are really really wonderful...

 

~Emi.

Emi, you are beautiful. It's my prayer that some man sees that and has the inner strength to never let you go.

You're right Emi, I learned a lot from that time. But I don't dwell there anymore and I'm lucky today, I know that.

Thank you for reading these Emi and for your friendship and support. It means a lot.

tim xo

The first time I read anything of yours, I was deeply moved... not just by the subject matter, but by you talent. I'm serious when I refer to 'tim' poems, and these are more of those first ones. I'm not saying these are better than your later work, because they're not... but they do have their own magic... they are raw, tragic laments, but there is incredible beauty in the delivery of the words. You still write 'tim' poems, and your skill has grown while you still maintain the magic... you are consummate now, but these are still pretty damn special. Thank you for sharing more of your early work... I'm glad they were never lost, because that would have been more tragedy... both were brilliantly powerful in their simplicity, and Blind was like a dagger to the heart... Gary xo

On 05/15/2016 01:29 PM, Headstall said:

The first time I read anything of yours, I was deeply moved... not just by the subject matter, but by you talent. I'm serious when I refer to 'tim' poems, and these are more of those first ones. I'm not saying these are better than your later work, because they're not... but they do have their own magic... they are raw, tragic laments, but there is incredible beauty in the delivery of the words. You still write 'tim' poems, and your skill has grown while you still maintain the magic... you are consummate now, but these are still pretty damn special. Thank you for sharing more of your early work... I'm glad they were never lost, because that would have been more tragedy... both were brilliantly powerful in their simplicity, and Blind was like a dagger to the heart... Gary xo

Thanks Gary, for your support, for your friendship. You gave me a start here, and that gave me the confidence to do more. Never thought anyone would like my poetry. These were never lost because I always carried them in a backpack. After i was hurt, they'd left the pack behind with me, so i was lucky to still have these at least.

Thanks again Gary. I really appreciate you and your support of me.

tim xox

It's good you wrote these. (They are a powerful testament.)
It's good you shared them. (Thank you.)

As the others before me have noted, they are strong, poignant and brutal.

But they are also a record ...of how you survived, and how far you have come.

Damn...

On 05/15/2016 10:07 PM, skinnydragon said:

It's good you wrote these. (They are a powerful testament.)

It's good you shared them. (Thank you.)

 

As the others before me have noted, they are strong, poignant and brutal.

 

But they are also a record ...of how you survived, and how far you have come.

Skinny D!! Thanks for reading these my friend. I guess they are a record of sorts, not sure what i feel when i read them. Thanks for your support... I appreciate it.

tim xo

On 05/15/2016 11:41 PM, Carlos Hazday said:

Damn...

C! Thanks for your comments .. short but I get it completely. And it's one word but it's a multitude.

Thanks.. tim xoxo

Anvils... I almost had to stop at that word and breathe. As always it's the honesty that gets to me. Straight to the core, to the heart. I'm glad you're happy now. I'm also glad you feel you can trust us enough to share this with us.

On 05/16/2016 06:03 AM, Puppilull said:

Anvils... I almost had to stop at that word and breathe. As always it's the honesty that gets to me. Straight to the core, to the heart. I'm glad you're happy now. I'm also glad you feel you can trust us enough to share this with us.

Thanks Pup.. I am happy now, life is good. Wonderful husband, great friends in real life and here. This place has been a great outlet and i've met some very talented and caring people. Thanks for reading and for your comments. I appreciate them.

Honest to the 't'...your poems always says a story! N I feel like being pulled into these streams of your story/poem...Another great writing

Both of these break my heart.  They make me ashamed to be human. And I am glad you know men so much better than those who used you.