The Reluctant Master - 20. Chapter 20

Gael

From Gael: hello sir i am not too far away from you perhaps we can become better aquainted what types of things are you most attracted to

From Alan: I tend to keep my clothes on these days.

From Gael: hello yes i would like that it would be nice it is hard for me actually to meet men since i live with my estranged wife but i am going to progress with my divorce i would like us to meet and you can see how you like me and we can spend some time i am very discreet and masculine you seem like a nice guy and that we can connect in a special way i enjoy pain alot and am extremely masochistic so that would be great if you want to use me for pain and testing and to explore with me my email is gael1324@email i hope to hear back from you soon im near your area so we are close to one another thank you so much

From Alan: I keep my correspondence entirely inside this site, so thanks for your e-mail address, but it’s cleaner for you to write me here.

From Gael: hello yes i understand i will begin to see where we can meet where my body will be naked and available for you to work on and test i understand about us being discreet and i will never breach that between us i hope you will also contact me often as well i have been looking for a sadistic dominant to test me on a regular basis and help me to expand and learn i do have a place in des moines another home that i can stay at in total privacy as it is mine i will go there for a week or two perhaps next week and would love someone to train me with pain there regularly would you like to meet first for an introduction for coffee perhaps thank you respectfully

From Alan: Coffee is fine when you’re dating, but we’re not.

From Gael: yes of course i understand i will try to figure out a private place for us to meet for the first time as well as every time i apologize as it was just a suggestion for you to see if you feel you could enjoy me perhaps the most private for us to meet would be a hotel sir perhaps thank you

From Alan: Not a hotel. And don’t apologize for making suggestions. That’s a given.

From Gael: yes of course i understand i will see if i will have some privacy at my home or perhaps a friends home i know you need to feel free to express your needs and wants in being dominant and in control i would like to learn how to expand my submissive and masochistic nature to the levels that you might expect from me how long will you need me to be alone with you so you have enough time to enjoy yourself thank you so much

From Alan: The point is not for me to express my needs so much as for you to experience yours.

From Gael: hello sir yes i understand i know when we meet we will get along well and quickly develop a good understanding between us i hope you are attracted to me so far i am thankful that you want to see that i am satisfied in my submissive and masochistic needs it is very nice that you care and i am glad that we are connecting so well thank you so much

From Alan: You’re welcome

From Gael: i know you do not make reference to your level of experience nor the depth of your intensity that you enjoy or expect it would help me to understand your skill level sir meanwhile i will look for a private location for us thank you so much

From Alan: I wouldn’t worry about my skill level or the extent of my experience. I know my way around a man, especially one as eager as you are to be taught.

From Gael: yes sir i understand i did not mean to suggest anything other then if you can be intense and physically challenging to me sir

From Alan: I can be as intense and physically challenging as you need. You’re possibly stronger than I am. But muscles don’t help when your mind is bound.

From Gael: hello sir you are correct i have a strong body but am gentle in nature submissive and also very giving if your nature is sadistic then you will have a great advantage over me despite my physical strength sir your nature will dictate the debth of my experience

From Alan: Then we’re waiting for you to find a place to meet.

From Gael: yes sir we are just waiing for me to find a location for you to enjoy yourself with me i wish we could meet soon sir and see if we can have an ongoing arrangement for your use of me i would love to meet you sir even if it is to just say hello thank you

From Alan: Wait till you find a place to meet. Patience is a kind of discipline.

From Gael: hello sir yes i understand i will be patient and find a location i am excited to bond to you and to become close to you you know my nature i am sure and that i am not like most others i wish we could meet prior sir if only for a few minutes i am attracted to you in many ways and happy that you understand my nature

From Alan: I understand your nature. That’s one reason I insist on your patience. When it becomes important enough for us to meet, you’ll find a place.

From Gael: yes i understand i will find a place for us

From Alan: That’s a good man.

From Gael: i have a friend that has a house in Marion i think i may be able to get him to leave so we could be alone there for a while would that work for you and be acceptable i know i will feel intimidated and powerless due to our size differences im so much shorter then you

From Alan: I may be taller, but you’re stronger, so it balances. Though you’d be powerless no matter what my size.

From Gael: yes sir i am physically strong but i know that being restrained will allow you to enjoy giving me intense pain i dont know what my pain limits will be how long will you need with me to be alone i need to develop a connection with someone like you that is dominant yet able for me to bond with are you naturally very sadistic and controlling with someone like me will i have many marks or bruises that i will have to conceal afterwards

From Alan: There are many ways to cause pain without leaving marks.

From Gael: yes sir

From Alan: And I’m guessing you’re been traveling for work, since you haven’t been writing.

From Gael: hi no i am still home i spoke to my friend about using his house and hopefully it will be fine with him i am going away on business for maybe 2 or 3 weeks i have a vacation home as well as the house here where things seem to be so out of control always i enjoy structure and organization i will keep you informed thank you

From Alan: Let me know when you’re back.

From Gael: yes of course i will i wonder if we will really like one another and bond really well??? i will let you know its nice you seem really sweet and we connect so well on so many levels

From Alan: I’m hardly sweet, but if that makes you feel more comfortable, that’s your choice.

From Gael: i will find out for sure about my friends house what will you look for with me to determine if you would see me regularly i know i gained a bit of weight im happy i am working out hard and up to 193 lbs today

From Alan: It’s all a matter of mutual satisfaction.

From Gael: hi yes i think it will be most likely during the weekday in the day time but i will let you know what days work for my friend and you can see what works for you im hopeful we can become friends i am feeling a nice connection to you already i have also been isolating myself a bit and resting as well for emotional reasons i hope i can meet and see you soon

From Alan: That would be fine.

From Gael: i wish you could come with me on my business trip we could have a nice time i wish we had met and introduced ourselves to one another i will be there for 2 or 3 weeks i am taking time off from the gym for a few days at least as i feel i am over training

From Alan: Pace yourself through training.

From Gael: yes sir perhaps we can go away together to relax for a few days at some point when i get home sir

From Alan: I’m not in a position which allows me to take trips with other people’s husbands. So let me know when you get back.

From Gael: yes i understand i dont know what i was thinking

From Alan: It’s hard to remember other people’s commitments when you’re focused on yourself.

From Gael: hello sir i have been isolating a bit there is a sadist master in davenport that is pursuing me and he has a very magnetic personality i know it cant work for us first of all he is quite extreme at least with others and also he is older and i am close to your age i really do wish i had a master to love permanently and full time i will go to the gym now and i hope you may be online when i return

From Alan: Loving a master is difficult if his main desire is to hurt you. I’m not capable of giving you love, if that’s what you’re after, but you should be able to find a middle ground – a man who will give you discipline and accept your love in return.

From Gael: hello sir yes i know you are right on all accounts i like you alot and i am actually looking forward to having a strong connection with you i think we both have opposite enough characters as well where we can find a good base to build on i wish i lived alone and was not married so that you could come here when ever you had time when i receive pain i give love in return and i need to give my love badly for people like us that is normal and natural

From Alan: You need t to remember that many masters put you in pain to make themselves happy. But you’re still the one who’s suffering.

From Gael: i understand but i still want that pain i need the intensity the worse the better

From Alan: I’m really sorry then, but I need to back away from this. You want more than I can ever give. I want to see you stop hurting, and I thought that writing you might keep you distracted. But you know what you want. So take care, and I hope you find a man who’s better suited for you than I am.

From Gael: hello sir i am sorry you decided to not meet me and play i apologize for giving the impression that i needed some emotional response from you or interaction it was not my intention I apologize for that i was sorry you said that you didnt want to meet me i am usually in alot of emotional pain so i am used to it i suppose

From Alan: Again, I’m really sorry. Take care.