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So you did have a good day then! Awesome! Sorry I'm a bit late! Take care and have an awesome year -Kevin

Happy Birthday, Patrick!! Have a very special and awesome one! -Kevin

Way to go, Eric! I'm proud of you!

Thanks everyone I really appreciate all the support and kind words!

Awww, you're the bestest, Jamie!

For the past several months I've been subconsciously aware of a sort of disparity between my feelings and my professed identity. I mean, I guess the feelings were always there, but I'd gotten into the habit of writing them off as unimportant or irrelevant. That's sort of the best I can do as a means of introduction, and it's still not very accurate. It's not that I only became aware of the feelings a month ago, and it isn't quite that I had written them off either. I always admitted them, both to myself and anyone who cared to ask, but...somehow in the last several months they've become increasingly difficult to marginalize (still not the right word because I still don't really feel like that's what I've been doing). I'm gay, but I'm not homosexual. I'm...well, honestly I'm still largely figuring it out, but given the inherent limitations of the labels I think the best I can do is, "bisexual leaning male." That's right, I've finally said. No more skirting the issue or looking for ways to semantically soften the impact. I could write volumes (which I'm sure no one doubts) about how I define and understand my sexuality and the internal thought processes and attractions of which it consists. Truth be told, I'd rather do that than smack a little label on it and expose myself to all the prejudice and misconceptions. Oh well, screw it: I'M BISEXUAL I'm still working out what it means though... I actually feel kind of isolated and confused about who to turn to. I actually don't feel like this is really the best place. I kinda am expecting most people reading this to shrug it off. I've talked to a few close friends about it...but they're gay and homosexual...and at least one of them is partially biphobic even though I know he doesn't mean to be. It's funny how all of this came about. I subconsciously started becoming more and more interested in bi issues and combating bi-phobia..and gradually I accepted that I had a vested interest. That's actually almost exactly how I came out to myself as gay. On the bright side both experiences mean/meant that I felt comfortable and okay with the new identity I was getting myself mixed up in, but in a lot of ways this is pretty much just as confusing. I suppose there's also the risk that I'll never do anything with it. I mean I don't have to because I'm already living my primary attraction. I dunno, maybe I'll try girls and decide it was just a phase and that it's out of my system now. I kinda doubt it somehow though.

Adorable picture! I think you look great! Your mouth has a really cool, brooding quality in that picture Great pic, Steve!

I actually came across a resource that really helped: http://www.doobybrain.com/2007/10/12/gramm...ying-vs-laying/

You're very fortunate to have had so many things X-rayed and yet never had to stay overnight in the hospital! I like that movie quote; what's it from?

LOL, you're welcome, Tim And Gabe, he sooner I start evading them the more time people have to completely forget my age! By the time I'm truly "old" I'm hoping I'll have hidden all evidence of it

Happy Birthday!

LOL, I was thinking that when I typed it. I actually really enjoy preparing meat based dishes. Tigers are pretty cute

A - Age: It isn't polite to ask that. B- Bed size: Queen C - Chore you hate: Ironing and general laundry stuff. Not a fan of taking out the trash or changing the cat litter either. D - Dogs or cats: Cat E - Essential start your day item: Big glass, or bottle, of cold water. F - Favorite color: BLUE! G - Gold or Silver: BLUE! ...well okay Silver H - Height: 5'10'' I - Instrument played: None J - Job title: Supreme Ruler of Everything K - Kid(s): Yes, please. L - Loud or quiet: Both M - Mom's name: Sharon N - Nicknames: Kev O - Overnight hospital stay: Once P - Pet Peeve: People who drive really slowly over speed bumps or take forever to make a turn. Q - Quote from a movie: "Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a f**ked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours." R - Right or left handed: Right S - Siblings: none T - Time you wake up: 7:45 M-F; LATE on Saturday and Sunday U- Underwear: All sorts V - Vegetable you dislike: I'm a vegetarian; I tend to like vegetables. Ummm I'm not a fan of most beans though. W - Ways you run late: I have a tendency to lose track of time. X - X-rays you've had: Teeth, arm Y - Yummy food you make: I make this really delicious baked swordfish Z - Zoo favorite: Elephants

You'll always be 'Tiger' to me

Well, as long as it's okay You know, Jamie, I've always thought you were just nifty the way you are and you never have to do anything to prove that to me -Kevin

I shall definitely have to check out these threads. I expected to have a lot to say about them, and I haven't had the time to say it, so I haven't read them yet. In general terms though, I absolutely agree with you about your assessment of laws better left as a relative entity and instead having ethics as the corner stone of an intelligent person's values. Regarding everything else, well I'll have to read the threads. I know you didn't ask for sympathy so I won't give you any. I'll just say I think you're a nifty person and I hope good things happen to you -Kevin

That's fantastic! It looks great I bet you had lots of fun!

I misread that as jazz. I was thinking, "That's true, a lot of gay people do like Jazz." I really like total darkness. So dark in fact that there are no dark shapes and figures. The pitch blackness is the best, where you really can't tell if your eyes are open or not. I love sleeping in such darkness.

She certainly sounds like quite a character!

Happy Birthday, Vancey! May the day bring you all the peace, happiness, and love which you most definitely deserve! -Kevin

I love this! I have no fear of vaginas. I'm not uncomfortable with them at all. Indeed, I'm fascinated because as a male, a gay male, I have no regular contact or first hand knowledge of vaginas. So I always relish the opportunity to learn more about them and see them up close the same way that I generally enjoy learning about new things.

Hey Chase! Welcome to the site

Yay! More guys that know how to kiss! That seems very sensible. I'm perfectly comfortable with PDA, but that's Public Displays of Affection, not Public Displays of Sex. I think hand-holding, cuddling, and light kisses in public are fine and sweet. I think trying to steal your boyfriend's gum or dry humping is better done in private. So yeah, I think it does depend on the situation.

Welcome to the site, Chase! I'm looking forward to interacting with you around the site and checking out your wordsmithery :-p Btw, I'll even forgive you for your signature -Kevin

because I watched them fall apart. Two of my closest friends are breaking up. They were two of the first people I met when I moved to Houston and they were a brand new couple at the time. We were so close because I was their friend. I didn't belong to either one. I had an individual relationship with both, and the three of us had a great dynamic. It was nice, it was...equal. I didn't realize it would make a break up harder. I mean if I was primarily one of them's friend, it would be so nice and easy to just pick a side and write off the other person as the bad guy. I can't really do that here though. I can truly and deeply see each side, and I can see both sets of motivations and feelings...but I can't do anything about it. I just spent the evening watching them hash it out it my own living room. I mean, I was aware things were bad, but I didn't know they were quite as bad as all that. It was so odd, feeling like an intruder in your own house. Yet I somehow felt like my presence as a neutral party might have been helping. Regardless, I was uncomfortable interrupting to say, "excuse me, I should go upstairs and give you your privacy." I thought about doing just that the whole time, and it was pretty much always on the tip of my tongue. Nevertheless, it didn't feel quite right to say. So I sat there, quietly, watching them fall apart. On top of that I have other friends feuding, deep schisms in my immediate family, as well as a great deal of serious health problems plaguing my family. I sort of feel like I'm watching them all fall apart, and I'm just standing here, in tact. I'm fine, I'm in good health, I'm not struggling with anyone. I am emotionally and physically stable. But what can I do? I know the answer to that; I can do nothing. I can't take sides with my dear friends, the breaking couple, because that would only make things worse and add another layer of complications to the whole thing. As it would if I picked sides with my family or my other friends. I certainly can't make anyone healthy either. All I can do is listen, be supportive, try to remain positive, but neutral. So that's what I'll do, and I won't make this about me, and I won't butt in, and I won't feel guilty about being okay. I'll just watch the pieces fall apart and once it's over I'll see if I can remember where they go.