I totally get Bailey's need to do 'it'... I know it's not socially acceptable etc, but I had a couple horrific years, thought the culmination was my father passing away a week after he seemed perfectly healthy. I tried to block the emotions, kept on scratching my left wrist with my nails wishing I could just do it. But I'm a parent so that wasn't an option. My occupation at the time also meant I literally had only 10cm2 of skin available, so I didn't. So I just numbed it out with alcohol and anti-depressants... not sure that's a better option. Tattooed that wrist and every time I wanna just give up, I look there and it's a reminder that if I survived that, I'll probably survive everything. I empathise with Bailey... hopefully Deccan will that bright light he need. mine is my son