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April 13 So, like, I've been fussing about this card and this Marie thing since yesterday. What am I gonna do? Do I have to 'call her maybe' and set a date for something? Good God that makes me nervous! I can literally feel my stomach tie itself into knots just thinking about it. I've never called a girl on purpose before! Why would I? I really have very little interest in them at all. Most girls can get that, I figure, because most of them seem to ignore me entirely. That's just fine by me

Anyone like Brothertiger? I think he's FABULOUS Soundcloud: http://www.brothertiger.net/music/

I don't like how this year is shaping up. It's early yet, can we start over?

Now #3 in this triad: Glenn Frey: http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/glenn-frey-eagles-guitarist-dead-at-67-20160118 With Don Henley he founded the Eagles. A great rock group from the 70s for all you kids out there. Hotel California set records for how many records sold at one time.

There will never be another where Brandon is concerned. Never.

Alan Rickman has died, guys! http://www.nytimes.com/2016/01/15/obituaries/alan-rickman-dies-at-69.html What the heck is up with the age 69? Is it the new 27? What the Creampuffs, dudes? RIP Greatest Villain/Anti-hero Evar Evar Evar!

This was the first video I ever saw: RIP Thin White Duke.

So passes a legend.

....Wow. Jimmy has gone freaky manic! Maybe it's time for Brandon to reveal to Billy he's a 'Kung Fu Fighter'. Thank you for the continued hints about the relationship between Brandon and his father. I have a feeling it's more complex than Billy thinks. anyways s! Thanks for the wonderful new segment! I can't wait for more and I'll check out the eBooks.

I love Priorities optimism. I've told True this a lot of times. With me, it is like a breath of fresh air after being in a dusty broom closet for years. It is in such contrast to my own stories where there is always some sense of impending doom waiting over everything. I love this story and I hope True can get to more of it.

Losing a partner and not being able to mourn openly because it will expose the homosexual relationship. The sexual fluidity of loving a transgendered person. The difficulties in cross-cultural relationships in regards to homosexuality. The silent horror of male on male violation during war. I don't know how common these are but these are themes I explore in my writing.

I just got done drinking Martinis and eating French food with some of the friends I made there tonight.

I made use of a website called MeetUp.com. I am actually an organizer of one of the Gay MeetUps here in San Diego. When I first came out recently I was totally alone and an outsider in the Gay Community. I had no gay friends still with me so I was quite alone and isolated. So, a coworker of mine introduced me to MeetUp.com where people can get together to plan 'MeetUps' with people of similar interests. For him it was a French Language MeetUp. For others it's a sports or activity MeetUp. For me, it was a Gay Singles MeetUp. From this web site I have made many friends and two possibilities for a relationship. For socializing one's self it is perhaps the most powerful tool I have ever encountered. It is NOT a Match.com or a Grindr, it is merely a place where folks of like interest can plan face to face Meetups. Also, for friendships, do not limit yourself to just 'Young Adults'. If we lived closer I'd be your companion for shopping, movies, games, concerts, etc. I'm actually a lot of fun for a middle aged person and I'm surprisingly well versed in current youth culture. I keep up with things, best I can. So don't limit yourself age wise. http://www.meetup.com

Our only openly gay venue back then was. The Brass Rail. There was also the Hole in the wall, but no one ever talked about that place. Both are still going strong!

A long time ago in a San Diego far far away.... I saw Star Wars for the first time in this theatre, circa 1977-78. I saw the 70mm version of it on a screen the length of a football field. The minute the Star Destroyer, Devestator (Darth Vader's flag ship before Executor) cruised ENDLESSLY 'over' my head in full chest vibrating thunder I was forever enslaved to this franchise. Star Wars became my childhood and has greatly entertained me at all points in my life since. Though I liked most of what was in the Prequels, I am throughly HYPED that I'll be able to see all my heroes back together in action! It is a dream nearly 40 years old for me! Alas, the Valley Circle Amphitheater no longer exists. It died about the same time as Luke's father. Betrayed and murdered by the Commercial Development side of the Force.

This was a short one. I was going to add more, but more took away and made less. A slight correction. Brandon is trying to put armor on against Billy because, as you will see, Brandon will become Billy's love slave. Brandon's already hopelessly attracted to Billy, but unlike Billy's way of going about things, rather manically flitting about and trying to find the best option, Brandon is dead focused. He knows who he wants. It's just that he has no idea of how to make Billy see see how much he wants him. Jamie is a cute boy. Billy idolizes him. Brandon fears him.

April 11 It’s almost like a dream. What happened with Joe. It’s like it didn't happen somehow. Like it was just another one of my 'impure' fantasies so I could finish myself off before going to sleep. The only thing that lets me know that it probably was real is that the memory is more vivid than a dream. I can remember the feel of everything. Most importantly, I can remember the smell! I didn't even notice it at the time, but today, when I came back from the gym, I caught the smell of

It's funny. A bizarre method I used to outline my stories is to create a soundtrack for them. I've always been a musician at heart and music speaks to me better than outlines. I created one for Brandon's story (or what we know of it so far) and it's finale is directed right at Billy. I finish with U2's 'All I Want Is You'. Carry on, My Master. I am listening.

A Merry Unbirthday to you!!!!

Happy Unbirthday, Songbird!

For me, story research on the Internet often invokes whisperings and promptings from those in spirit. This sweet soul led me to his story. His final wish was that his story be told so that others could avoid his fate by stopping the cruel torment of bullies. I encourage you to explore the world of Brandon Bitner, a beautiful child who fled from this world to escape his tormentors. Share his story if you are so inclined. He will love that you would do this for him and his memory. http://www.brandonbitner.org

Yeah. This was a hard one to write...that's why it took so long. It segueys into a cool and sexy Second Act, though, so stay tuned!

Thanks True. I hope you guys can hang on for the ride. Just like a great ski course, we're going to be going up and down a lot on our journey.

Jimmy ~~~~~~ "Sabrina!” Oh sweet Jesus! Comin’ back from my room, I heard a big thump while I was passin' by Sabrina's room. Vic was with me, thank God! He came back to the resort after he did his business in San Francisco. I'm so glad he did! I go into Sabrina's room and she's lyin' still as death on the floor. Sweet Jesus on Calvary! Vic follows me in and gasps. There's just a trickle of froth comin' from her pretty mouth, and I can't see her breathin' at all! "Oh Christ! I think

The etheral beauty of Liz Fraser's voice is truly an underground treasure: