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  1. GREEN

    Is it worth it?

    By GREEN,

    Hi guys I know Ive been a little silent for the last couple of days. I've been dealing with a lot these two days and it's left me very emotionally drained. I through some circumstances I cannot mention as it affects my personal and professional life have taken in a homeless teen of the street. He's was living in a park for two weeks until I was made aware of it by other kids.
     
    My friends are somewhat cautious and Chaz is treating me like I don't exist right now. I am being cautious trust me but I know this kid and he's a very good kid. He's just having a really rough time right now. His parents have kicked him out over some stuff they found on his PC. We can all relate to this I think. I called social services and the social worker told me that I should keep him here until they could find a stable environment for him.
     
    I feel for this kid so badly right now. Imagine going from having everything to losing it all with just two words get out. David, even though he's being cautious I can see the concern in his eyes every time he talks to the kid as his situation was exactly the same. My mother asked me if I needed help with this maybe she could get the state to let him stay with her as she is still certified to be a foster parent (she was a foster parent for five years) I told her that it might be a good Idea.
     
    Steve has been very good with him too. Selene is in Chaz's camp right now. They are being nice to the kid but they give me their cold shoulder. I slept in the living room last night. David came out and watched a movie with me for a bit. We talked for a while. I could hear Chaz walking around in the kitchen but he never came in. This morning he left before I could wake up to go to work but I felt him kiss me. This afternoon however he wouldnt even look at me.
     
    The kid's parents have made it clear that they do not want them anywhere near the house when i went to get his stuff. They told me the most hateful things I have ever heard spew out of anyone's mouth. I couldn't believe it. I was fuming inside I don't know how I didn't flip and start hitting someone.
     
    I've been living in a dream state and I don't know if I am even doing the right thing. I want this kid to find a permanent home. This kids is one of the brightest people I have ever met even though he's only fifteen I can see a bright future for him but seeing him broken down to the point where nothing matters anymore I feel like I need to help. All he needs is for someone to care for him enough to see him through.
     
    I know Chaz is angry at me right now but I have reassured him that I wouldnt bring anyone into my house if I didnt trust him in my house. I just want to help someone that needs it right now. So you guys tell me am I doing the right thing here?
     
    GREEN + COUCH
  2. GREEN
    So my mother and Chaz's mother finally met. FIASCO was all I could think to describe this. My mother and Chaz's mother are opposites in every sense of the word. My mom is very shy and reserved while Chaz's mother can out yell a crowd of opera singers in full soprano. I was definitely nervous as we waited for them to arrive. I can also tell that my mother was nervous. I mean the woman made the Liar disappear.
     
    So we see them pull up and my stomach is upside down. They meet and they greet and my mother shows them the house and my stepfather seems to have a lot in common with Chaz's father. I was definitely relieved. My mother and Chaz's mother were getting along famously. My mother didn't even get mad when Chaz's mother asked her how she came to name me Green.
     
    SO at Dinner we all sat and really embarrassing moments in our lives were shared. Then the alcohol flowed and my mother lost her inhibitions and Chaz's mother decided that she needed to dance and Chaz and I watched in utter shock as they all started to dance very badly.
     
    Then as if that wasn't horrifying enough they started to talk about where the commitment ceremony will be held at. Chaz's family offered their house and I said absolutely not because their house is too nice to have many people there. I don't want to have anything damaged. My mother offered hers but I said no we were getting a hall no matter what. So then they sat around us and they basically told us that we had no control over this. Chaz said that it was ours to decide and Chaz's mother gave him the mother stare. Anyone with a mother or grandmother knows this stare very well. Shoot I was scared too so i didn't say anything.
     
    So now it's all in their hands and we have no say in it.
     
    GREEN + CHAZ + PARENTS
  3. GREEN
    First read the lyrics:
     
    Gold Lion by The Yeah Yeah Yeah's
    (Or listen to the song.)
     
    Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is
    Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is
    Take our hands out of control
    Take our hands out of control
    Tell me what you saw
    Tell me what you saw
     
    There was a crowd of seas
    Inside
    Outside
    I must of done a dozen each
    You was the height I grew
    Wait the show is crushing you
    I've been around a few
    Tell me what you saw
    I'll tell you what too
     
    Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is
    Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is
    Take our hands out of control
    Take our hands out of control
     
    Outside
    Inside
    This is a moon without a tide
    We'll dim the fire in your eyes
    We'll dim the fire
    When the colors
    Gettin' brighter
    Cold as I
    Makes a move without a tide
    Tell me what you saw
    I'll tell you what too
     
    Three days ago I was driving to work and I was listening to "Gold Lion" by the Yeah Yeah Yeah's. I got so into the song that I forgot that I was on a very busy road where children were people were driving during rush traffic. So I ran a red light because I was too busy singing to actually realize that I was crossing an intersection.
     
    Then after my initial shock I was Like (this is very stupid mind you) Damn I need to listen to that song again. So I play it again and I nearly sideswipe a couple of bikers. I got angry so I rolled down my window and I yell at the bikers, one of which flips me off.
     
    So when I reach my job I sat with a co worker and I let her listen to the song not knowing that my boss hates that type of music. He calls me into his office and proceeds to grill me on how I should use discretion when I listen to my music. "Not everyone likes this type of propaganda music," He says. My boss is a very conservative guy. I mean in the very extreme sense of the word. So I tell him that the song is not really political and it's not hurting anyone, because it was on my ipod and not on the loudspeaker or on a radio.
     
    He then tells me that maybe I should listen to it at a lower volume. I really didn't want to get into some big fight so I told him that I would and I walked away. Mind you this isn't over not by a long shot because an hour later he is playing his own annoying deep country music that I was quite sure had a very derogative comment against women so I got angry and I saw my chance when I saw his superior walk in. I asked him what the policy was on music and he told me that there wasn't any as long as it wasn't played too loud. I asked him what about the ipods? He said he didn't have a problem with those. So I told him what my boss had said. He got pissed because we could hear his own music from where we were and his office was closed.
     
    So he walked into my boss' office and the next thing I know my boss was walking out very angrily. I had gotten him fired and I really didn't want to do that. Other than this I had never had a problem with him before. So his superior walks over to me and said that he was here because he was going to fire him anyways. Apparently he had done something really bad. I didn't want to pry so I didn't ask what he had done. So were expecting his replacement soon.
     
    Then during lunch I found myself listening to that song again. It had definitely grown on me. My friend Jonathan bought me it on Itunes, saying that I needed to listen to it. This is when I decide that I should take a walk. I was listening to it so hard that I was almost run over by a dump truck. I think that maybe I should stop listening to this song. So I stop and I pretty much have a normal day after that. Then I go to my house where I find Chaz and David And Steve and Selene and Chaz's brother watching the songs video. I was like oh no not again, so I walk away.
     
    Chaz walks into my bedroom behind me and looks at me weird and I can tell he's shaking. Then he gets on his knees and proposes to me. I was like oh my god no, I mean yes I mean we need to go now and I pull him out of the house. I needed him to come with me.
     
    Since our really bad valentines day week fiasco I have been entertaining the idea of proposing. Even if we can't really marry right now, but the idea feels right so I bring him to my car and I drive him to my mother's house where the ring I had bought him was.
     
    Right in front of my mother I proposed to my boyfriend. I had to, he couldn't outdo me I wasn't having it. We're aiming at a fall commitment ceremony. Steve said he'd cater. LOL
     
    Um our rings arent the same but I hate yellow gold so he gave me a white gold band. I gave him a gold one and where going to etch our names on them soon. So Gold Lion is either going to kill me or make me the luckiest person on earth.
     
    GREEN + CHAZ + GOLD LION
  4. GREEN
    Hi guys. Hello guys! Are you there?
     
    Alright so Chaz and I got to talking and we decided that we will not be posting in our blog anymore. It's time for us to concentrate on our own lives and lead our own private existence. We've been very open with this blog so far and we want to try to move on now. It's time you know?
     
    Just so you Guys know Chaz and I are engaged. Yes who would have thought right? Well it happened last night. He bought me a ring and I bought him a ring. You should have seen the look on David when he saw them.
     
    Our last post will be the last chapter to the Shadow Boys. I believe that were on post 124. Our last will Be post 125. Again Thanks a lot You Guys. Chaz and I are very grateful for all of your replies and all that was shared. You guys are all truly great and we will really miss you guys. This doesnt mean we still wont be around GA so drop us a line here and then.
     
     
    GREEN + CHAZ
  5. GREEN

    That Sterile Smell...

    By GREEN,

    It's over for now. My back hurts and I am cranky. Chaz is irritating me,but it's sweet. Selene has fallen of the face of the earth which is good and David seems to have turned into a mute. My brother and mother seem to think that I am entertainment and my father keeps throwing his god fearing rhetoric in my face.
     
    I don't know why they have to even be here right now. The only one not annoying me is my stepfather and that is because he is being quiet and helping Steve cook for everyone. Oh speaking of Steve I have conviced him to go to culinary school. So we are his guinea pigs.
     
    Now about the surgery. Everything went fine and I dont have cancer, but they did find a fourth tumor that they did remove. Other than that i am okay. My back hurts but that is to be expected as I am trying not to take the pills they gave me every other hour but as prescribed, but they arent working.
     
    The worst part of it I must say is that sterile smell the hospital has. I can't stand that smell.
     
     
    GREEN cut up and bruised.
  7. GREEN

    Why?

    By GREEN,

    Chaz and I drove back to his home town today. He wanted me to meet his friends. Yes this includes his ex girlfriend. I only agreed with the condition that I could see his grandparents. I love his grandparents and I really wanted to see them, plus we have a card rematch to take care off.
     
    Chaz said that he would take me if they were around as they go on trips every other month and this one was the other month. I agreed and we were off. His grandparents weren't home they're in Chicago right now. I was sad but he took me to see his parents that seem to just want to talk to me about the removal of my tumor next week.
     
    Then we met with his friends at a restaurant. His friends hate me. It's fine I don't expect anyone to like me. They are his friends not mine you know? So I kind of kept to myself as they talked. But they tried to bait me. I guess Chaz had told them about the music collection and they found it extremely funny to call me a music guru. Whatever I wasn't about to be baited into their trap. Even chaz was getting uncomfortable. I guess Green isn't good enough for their Chaz.
     
    So I kindly excuse myself and I leave them. Next to the restaurant there is a luckily enough a Barnes & Noble. I quickly head in there because it was an easy place to hide. I called Chaz and i told him that when he was done with his friends to call me. I found a book I wanted and I found a corner.
     
    About five minutes later I am interrupted by someones shadow. It's Chaz's friend Dumb ass I mean Craig, He sits next to me and proceeds to ask me what makes me think that I am good enough for Chaz. I was getting angry at this point. Chaz's friend actually asked me this? So i asked him how long he's been waiting to tell Chaz that he himself likes him?
     
    He looked freaked. I told him that whatever he has against me to drop it because Chaz and I are together and until we decide to end our relationship he doesn't have a chance. He couldn't stop looking at me. I told him that I wasn't here because I wanted to make new friends. I was there because Chaz asked me to go. I could care less what any of them thought about me because I don't have to talk to them. He walked away after that.
     
    I sat alone for about another ten minutes when Chaz came in looking furious and gave me a huge hug. We left after that but his friend decided that he needed a ride. Please any one of his friends could have given him a ride they were conspiring against me and I wasn't going down without a fight so I asked him how long since he came out?
     
    He looked freaked again. "I'm not gay," he said. You see the goal was to make him feel as uncomfortable as they had made me feel. "So then I asked him why he keeps gawking at Chaz?" He looked so awkward that I started to feel bad. So I stopped and we drove in silence until we reached his house. He got out barely saying goodbye. Chaz gave me a look that could kill and we drove in silence once again until he kissed my cheek and made it all better again.
     
    GREEN
  8. GREEN

    He thinks he's sweet...

    By GREEN,

    I woke up this morning to find my boyfriend sitting next to me Indian style watching me. After I jumped across the room from fear I sat down next to him. I exhaled and I asked him why he did what he did? First he pulls out a check made out to what I had spent. I tore it up and handed it back to him. He frowned and then he pulled out a couple Styrofoam cartons filled with breakfast food. He also pulled out a rose. I had to give it to him because he was trying to get to me but I am not forgetting.
     
    We ate in silence and then I got up and took a shower. He tried to get in with me but I said no. He's not out of the dog house by a long shot. I got dressed and I left the room. I could feel his sadness so I came back and I gave him a kiss. I told him to meet me for lunch.
     
    At lunch I was still kind of cold with him until he licked mayo from the side of my lip and kissed me. I couldn't stay mad at him after that. I kissed him back and I told him that I love him but the next time he pulls this crap it's over no questions asked. I wont deal with it.
     
    So I am finally home. He's been good ever since I came home. He's so happy right now and I feel like an idiot for letting him off that easy but he's my Chaz and I love him Plus I am tired of being angry.
     
    GREEN
  9. GREEN
    :nuke: Chaz and I are not talking right now. We had an argument last night. I had planned this whole romantic day including a limo, a fancy restaurant and a B&B. He never showed up. He never called me and I found him yesterday morning sleeping on my doorstep. He had forgotten his keys and he still didn't think he did anything wrong.
     
    I asked him where he was and he told that he went out with some old friends. Which is totally fine with me except when he knows that I had planned something great for him. I feel a little bit rejected and I have been staying at my mothers house.
     
    David called me and told me that Chaz keeps asking him to call me because I don't answer his calls. Selene has been threatening murder. I told her to cool it and she said she would but not to ever expect her to treat Chaz the same again. David said that he would talk to him and find out what the deal was.
     
    This all has prompted me to write one of the angriest chapters to my story Mr. Black Sings A Sad Song. It is so angry that I have to scrap it, for it would change the story from it's current path. Oh I feel like a bomb ready to explode. I had to tell the Liar to get away from me numerous times so I wouldnt take out my anger on him.
     
    He came by earlier. I had my stepfather tell him to leave. I want to be totally calm when I do speak to him. On top of that my friend Jonathan is ignoring me. He's dealing with some personal stuff and just like me he's running. Uhhh I want to fight something right now...
     
    GREEN counting to ten but it's not working.
  10. GREEN

    ALLO LUV!

    By GREEN,

    We're here we're here at the cold beach. Oh it's freezing so we arent going to venture outside anytime soon. I am working on some artwork for my site and Chaz is writing a couple of papers he has due. So everything is calm here. No drama and I am very happy with that.
     
    My ankle is good enough that I can walk on it and I don't get dizzy every time I stand up anymore. As predicted Selene called me this morning asking where the beach house is. I didn't tell her but Chaz saw her drive by the house. Good thing Chaz had parked his car in the garage. That girl is obsessed.
     
    So tonight we're going to watch some TV and veg over a pizza. A boring night is exactly what he and I need. I might die his hair, he said he's tired of the blond that I love ever so much. Lol he's my first blond boyfriend.
     
    GREEN
  11. GREEN

    TENSION OBSESSION

    By GREEN,

    This is not what we really look like but Jonathan made it and I thought it was cool.
     
    Here is the real reason for this though.
     

     
     
    For those that follow my Story Mr. Black Sings A Sad Song 2. The next couple of chapters are going to be the turning point to the series. Things are happening that cannot be undone and when it's all over things will not be the same.
     
    GREEN
  12. GREEN
    I had a great time last night. We all did. We had so many people here. Selene made an a&$ of herself when she got drunk and sang a really bad rendition of I will survive. David and Steve couldn't keep their hands off each other all night. My brother the Liar seems to have found himself a boyfriend. They were dancing in a corner. Some girl tried to kiss me then offered me something I really had to say no to. She called me a prude.
     
    Chaz's older brother brought enough alcohol to drunkefy everyone in the tri-state area. Good thing he decided to bring his bartender buddy to help him serve the drinks. He flirted with me. Chaz didn't like that. Our neighbors down the street showed up and partied. I was really surprised that my neighbors next door didn't call the police.
     
    My ex and my high school crush showed up and brung a girl I knew from high school. She and I chatted for a few minutes. Apparent she knew my crush used to like me back then and tried to get him to ask me out. I blushed.
     
    Julio showed up at some point. Chaz wasn't too happy but when the guy Julio was dating showed up he seemed to calm down. I need to speak to him about that LOL. David's sister also showed up and she brought her boyfriend who I know from my job.
     
    Mike showed up and he seemed to generally stay to the wall. Until I introduced him to this person I know. Then he disappeared. more on this later.
     
    As the night progressed my loving boyfriend Chaz got drunk. I mean stripping and dancing on a table next to a drunken and apparently horny Selene drunk. I had to pull him off the table before he took his pants off, much to a lot of people dismay. I made sure he was cut off at this point. To bed with you I said and he did go to bed but not before he made me go with him. "He didn't trust the other boys with his Green." I let him fall asleep before I rejoined the party.
     
    Julio and I had a very good conversation about his move and his current guy. I really feel like he and I can be good friends. I know we didn't work as boyfriends but we work as friends. the guy he's dating seems really nice. At first he was nervous about me but when he saw us just talking as friends he warmed up to me.
     
    I stopped Steve and David from making out for a second so I could introduce them to Julio and his new boyfriend. They talked for a bit so I could pull Selene of my table before she either broke it or fell off. I sat her down and made her drink some coffee. her boyfriend took over a few minutes later.
     
    As the night wound down and everyone started to leave it occurs to me that I am missing a person. Mike is not there, and I don't know where he is. So I looked around until I found him sitting with the person I knew having a conversation on our porch. I walked over to them and sat next to them.
     
    I talked to them for a bit. Then I felt like I was interrupting something so I left them alone. When I walked back inside Chaz was up again. I walked over to him and I gave him a huge hug. Then the phone rang. I walked over to it and it's Rob he calls me crying saying that he feels like he wronged me. i was like well yeah and I hung up.
     
    By the end of the night there was only a drunken David, Steve who was making all of us eat, Chaz and me. We sat down and talked for a couple of hours. Steve and I got into a friendly debate over drugs. Well Marijuana in general. He thinks it should be legalized. his theory is that if it was legalized their would be less crime. My theory is that if it didn't exist there would be less crime. Then he dropped the medicinal card on me. Then he asked how I can condemn something I haven't tried. I told him because I have lost friends that started with weed and moved on to other drugs. I think that it is a gateway drug and I wouldn't want any of my friends to do the same thing a certain friend had done. So I asked him if he does it. He said that he had but it wasn't his thing.
     
    At some time we all wandered to bed. The next morning I woke up next to Chaz and a very stinky mouthed Selene. She smelled like a drunken sailor. I also smelled breakfast. I wandered into the kitchen to find that Steve had once again made us breakfast.
     
    No one else was up yet so we sat and talked for a few. He told me that he respected my views on certain things. Then we talked about him. I guess he really hated me in high school because he thought that I was a big snob. I told him I hated him because he was always better at stuff than me. He told me that he wasn't, the teachers just liked him better because he was a butt-kisser. We laughed about that.
     
    We also talked about what happened after high school. He said that when he went to college things just fell apart because the teaching style was different. He didn't have the personal environment he had in high school and he was doing really bad in all of his classes. Ultimately he had lost his scholarships and he left school. I told him how I took a couple of years off and now I was making it up. He said that he wants to go back.
     
    Then we talked about David and him. He said that David makes him happy. I told him that he does the same for David. Unlike Rob who just complicated things until they ended up fighting. I really like Steve. He's perfect for David.
     
    After we ate he helped me clean up. We were almost done when I see a foot sticking out behind my couch. I walk behind it and it's the Liar. I just left him there he looked peaceful sleeping right there on the floor next to his boyfriend.
     
    GREEN
  13. GREEN
    We are throwing a party tomorrow. it's Green and David's annual Spring break party. I invited a couple of friends from back home and my brother and sister as well as some friends from school. Green is a little sad about this because Selene will not be there. More on this later. Well back to this party. We went shopping for supplies. Steve came with us as he and Green Decided that they were going to cook for everyone.
     
    We ran into Rob and that creepy guy he's dating. Green darted out of the aisle before they could see him but Rob saw me and Steve and walked towards us. This was awkward in itself because Steve is now Dating David and they were holding hands right there in the aisle. I could see Green on the other side of the aisle looking back over to us.
     
    Rob wanted to know about the party. Since the party happens every year he was expecting to be invited. I told him that we were shopping for it. David told him that he wasn't invited. The creepy guy scoffed, Rob asked why, and a cereal box fell on Green's head causing him to yell, revealing his hiding place.
     
    David told him that it was just better if he wasn't there. The Creepy guy asked us if we were little kids. Green walked around holding his head and said "No but I wish we were." Rob looked pissed and he stormed off. Later while we were at the check out we ran into them again. Rob walked over to us and tried to apologize. Green said that the apology was accepted but he still wasn't invited to the party out of respect for David and Steve. He stormed off again.
     
    Then Selene walks into the market. She sees us and walks over to us. She pulls David away they talk for a few minutes. David was smiling. David says, "she wants me to tell you guys that she might have overreacted and that she read the blog, and that she is sorry." I walk over to her and I give her a big hug. She pushes me away and kisses me on the cheek.
     
    "Chaz, things are alright with us," she says. Green heads over to us but he falls before he can reach us, taking down a Little Debbie display. I am still laughing Lol.
     
    Chaz
  14. GREEN

    SELENE Get Out!

    By GREEN,

    So it's pretty much clear that Selene is persona non grata at our house until she stops her nonsense. She came by last night demanding that I speak to her. I pulled her outside to the backyard and we spoke, well rather I spoke and she yelled. She cant believe that I am dating someone that would hit me. I told her that Chaz didn't hit me on purpose for the upteempth time. She then pointed out that it's the reason why I have stitches and I told her that it was. I reiterated the fact that it wasn't on purpose.
     
    She then brought up a sore spot with me. She brought up my first boyfriend, Ricky. Ricky and I never had a stable relationship. He used o cheat on me and we fought all of the time. I mean physical fights. I remember one night when I found him kissing some else I beat the hell out of him. He came back and he hit me just as badly. This was years ago and I really didn't want to relive that whole situation ever again. last I heard he was busted selling drugs to minors.
     
    Well this is where I got angry and I tried to walk away but she wouldn't have it. She pulled me back and mentioned the fact that it was an abusive relationship and that it was where Chaz and I were headed. I wanted to smack her. I tried to walk away from her once again but she pulled me back asking me to think about this. "Chaz is abusive,"she said.
     
    "No you know what is abusive? You are abusive. You are attacking me right now. You are trying to force me into doing the last thing I ever want to do," I yelled. My neighbors the crazies were watching us so I pulled myself away and I locked the door before she could even get in.
     
    GREEN
  15. GREEN
    Chaz went to Selene's house a few minutes ago. Like me he's had enough of her crap. I dont get it to tell you the truth. She has always liked Chaz and she never had a problem with him. Oh man I just want a quiet week. Chaz and I have spring break and we're going to New York. I want to see my cousins and Jonathan. David is coming with us but he's going to see his brother and meet his brother's friends. This is just what we need. We need to get away from everything for a while. I cant wait.
     
    Julio called me this morning. He's moving here permanently in about a month and he wanted to know if I could help him find a new apartment. I told him I would. Chaz wasnt too happy but he said it was alright. To tell you the truth that amuses me. Chaz can be so cute when he's jealous.
     
    I saw my Ex this morning, he's been dating my High School Crush. They seem to be happy and I am happy about that. My Ex might be crazy but deep down he is a good person. I talked to him about Rob and my ex told me that he had seen him and he was talking about me, but he said that he misess David. I told him About David and Steve. He seemed surprised and I asked him why? I guess Rob had told everyone that David and he were still trying to get back together. I was getting a headache so I moved on.
     
    We went to lunch at the restaurant Chaz's older brother works at. We sat at the bar and talked to him. I guess Chaz's brother hadn't heard what had happened last week. I told them what happened as I showed them the stitches and the bruises.
     
    The first thing out of Chaz's brother's mouth is, "I knew Mike was gay," I nodded. Then it occurs to me that I just outed his brother to him. I asked him not to say anything he said he wouldn't and that he really didnt want to be involved from what he'd heard from me. He didnt want his brother to lash out against him too. Then he told me that he knew they were both gay a long time ago but he wanted them to come out when they were ready.
     
    I asked him about the Emo boys. I hadn't seen them around. Apparently one had transferred to another school upstate and the other wasnt emo anymore because he felt like he was posing. So he's not anymore but he had asked about me. I told him to give them my number if he heard from them. I liked them they are really nice kids.
     
    GREEN
  16. GREEN
    Green is so much a music fanatic that he has filled a 60 gig ipod. Have you ever heard of anyone able to do that? I mean he likes everything from rap to Brazilian folk music. Yesterday we were cleaning the closet and I found his collection of CD cases. He has 340 of them. Half of them weren't even open yet so he decided that he needed to listen to them. It's not over I am forcing him to get rid of them. He's crazy to keep so many around considering that he has a box full of them at his mothers house> I found New kids on the block CD. We also found the Michael Jackson collection, the Janet collection, the Mariah collection.
     
    I called a local record shop and they said they would buy most of the ones we, rather I want him to get rid of. I mean who needs two copies of a Cd. and most of these he has saved in a hard drive anyways. Green is not really a pack rat which is why I find this to be really weird of him to keep so many.
     
    David said that even he didn't know about the CD collection. Then this morning as if 340 CD's aren't enough I found a collection of Garbage Pail Kids stickers in the attic. I think he has the whole run of the series, all in mint condition covered in plastic and displayed in a metal album. I asked him about this and he said that he had been collecting them since he was a kid. That he and his friend Jonathan had collected these.
     
    So just out of curiosity I asked him if he had any other collections or obsessions and he unfortunately showed me his ninja turtle collection. Is this weird? I mean I never collected or kept much when i was younger and I wonder if I'm just reading too much into this. AM I?
     
    Well lets move on to this Selene thing. She still hates me. She's making it blatantly clear that she doesn't approve of me anymore. I know how important she is to Green but I am not going to stand by and let her treat me like this. I told green that if she doesn't like me she should just stay away because I plan on staying here for a long time and I really don't want to have to say something every time she comes over.
     
    He said that he didn't think it was fair either and that he'd talk to her about it because it's bothering him and David too. I hate this. I really used to like Selene. She was the first of his friends that I bonded with and it pains me to think that she hates me now.
     
    Chaz
  19. GREEN

    These things.

    By GREEN,

    So It has been a while since anything crazy has happened in my life. I mean weird crazy. Today I went to my therapist. when I got there her receptionist told me that she was running late. I had nothing to do today so I wasnt in a hurry. There was this guy there also waiting. He was looking at me really weird. So naturally my paranoid ass sat as far as I could from him.
     
    I picked up a magazine and was really into an article I was reading when i hear a voice ask me if my name is Green. I was like crap, someone knows who I am. I look up to see this really bouncy blonde I knew in highschool. I smile and she sits next to me. We catch up for a few minutes. The guy is still looking at me weird. I was going to yell but I didnt want her to know I was crazier than I already am. I also found out that she is in a very commited relationship with her girlfriend and they are rasing a son. I smiled at that.
     
    She leaves a few minutes later and my therapyst hadn't shown up so i get back to my magazine, when i hear is your name really Green? I look up over the Magazine at the guy. He's seated closer. I tell him that it is and he asks me if I write online? Crap I wanted to run, but I told him that I did. then he begins to ask me about my story Mr. Black. He wanted to know how I came to write such a story. I tell him how and why i wrote it and then he asks me about My blog. He wanted to see what my friends looked like. I was hell no freak you're not going to my house.
     
    I kindly declined as I see the therapyst walk in. She walks straight towards us and the guy stands up. This is where I die. My therapyst is his mother. So she introduces me to him and then leads me into her office. we do our thing for an hour and then we walk out of her office. The guy is still there. I said goodbye and I ran out of there as quickly as I could.
     
    So Chaz calls me telling me that he needs a ride because his car wont start. I go to where he tells me he is and I dont find him. So I call him and he tells me that he's at the same place just the other one across town. So on my way back i stop at a red light and guess who pulls up next to me. It's my therapysts son and seated next to him is my new mortal enemy Rob.
     
    Rob scowls at me and this guy just smiles so I pull away eating a red light ( I dont condone this, so please dont ever do this) and I get pulled over by a cop that comes out of nowhere. He didnt give me a ticket but he gave me a warning.
     
    When I pull into the parking lot next to Chaz who quickly hides a cigarette from me. This bothers me a little but I dont dwell on it, I just ask him what's going on. he said that he had just gotten into an argument with his twin brother because he had to bow out of their plans. His twin is really getting on my nerves. So far I'd tried to stay out of it but that is getting increasily hard.
     
    So Chaz asked me to take him to meet his brother and I decided that I should come along this time. Well his twin was angry when he saw me. He didnt say it but he was so I pulled his girlfriend aside and I let them have their own conversation. She told me that they had agreed to separate. I acted like this was news to me and I consoled her a little. A few minutes later Chaz comes over and says that we are leaving. I look back to his brother and he is angry but he is also crying.
     
    Chaz doesn't say anything on the way home but as soon as we reach our parking lot he rolls out the window and throws up. Do you guys rememebr when I told you that Chaz was dealing with some stuff. well apparently so is his brother. The same situation that has recently come to the surface.
     
    Chaz said that he would tell you guys. So I will let him do it.
     
    I called my therapyst and she said that she could help so I drove him back to her.
     
    GREEN
  20. GREEN

    Identical?

    By GREEN,

    I met my brother and his girlfriend today for lunch. Sometimes I wonder where my brother and I got so different. He's my twin brother and sometimes we can do the same things. We look identical but that is where our similarities end. He can be a little cold with people, something I am not capable of doing. He's never been shy but I seem to be. Ever since I came out to my family my brother seems to want to find reasons for he and I to relate. Normally I would welcome it but today he crossed the line. He wanted to pretend to be me so he could trick Green when he came home. This was supposed to be what proved to me that he and I were more alike than I think.
     
    I told him no and he really got angry at that. His girlfriend did too. I pulled him aside and asked him what the problem is. He told me that he doesn
  21. GREEN

    The Waiter Steve!

    By GREEN,

    I cooked dinner last night for everyone. We had a family night of sorts. My mother was here with my stepfather and The Liar. (oh by the way I had the talk with him about not being a jerk to my stepfather but that
  22. GREEN

    DAVID

    By GREEN,

    David's brother arrived today, from New York City. My first impression of him is that he really does care about David. I almost cried when I saw them hug each other for a long time. They held each other for a long time. It was like watching years of anger and pain melt away right before our eyes. I pulled Chaz away to the kitchen and let them have their moment in private. I am so happy for David. He finally has a real connection you know?
     
    They joined us a few minutes later where proper introductions were made. Selene bounced in a few minutes later. David's brother Craig was told by their aunt that David had moved to New York City. David moved into New York for about a month a year and a half ago. Apparently his parents thought that he had stayed there.
     
    We were having a good conversation when Selene asks the million dollar question. She asked him why he didnt stick up for David when his parents threw him out. I remember that night. It was junior year of high school. David called me at one in the morning. I found him freezing in a corner near a liquor store. Poor david had a shiner on his face. We took him in until his aunt called looking for him. David's aunt died, a few months after she took him in.
     
    David's brother told us how guilty he still feels about that. He says that he doesn't know why he didnt do anything. He told us that he didnt tell his parents that he too was gay until he had moved away. They had searched for David for months until his sister found him here.
     
    I am glad for David.
     
    GREEN
  23. GREEN
    I am the first to reach a hundred blog entries in a blog. Too bad its an angry one.
     
    I am fuming right now, I just heard some news I really didnt want to hear. A certain supposed friend is spreading rumors about me. He knows who he is and I know he reads here. I am very angry because when he left our group I was the only one to make an effort to talk to him.
     
    I feel like he's stabbing me in the back, but rest assured that I will not be making the mistake of talking to this person again. Normally I wouldnt be mad at this because this would all be speculation. But when you are sitting right behind the person and he's telling someone personal things about you that you can hear it tends to make you angry.
     
    So I confronted this person and all he had to say was that it was true. So i socked him and went about my way. Then this person has the nerve to come to my house asking me why I was being like this. When he sees his ex boyfriend speaking to another guy at my kitchen table smiling he gets angry and demands an explanation. All he got was a door slammed in his face.
     
    Now he's outside waiting for me asking me to talk to him. I'm tempted to call the police.
     
    GREEN
  24. GREEN
    I had the Liar over tonight against my better judgement mind you. I cooked dinner for him Chaz and I. Chaz has an early morning, or so he said so he went to bed. I stayed up and the Liar and I spoke for a while. The first thing he says is that he is going to move in with my father. Fair enough, I thought. then he starts talking about personal stuff I really didnt want to know about. I let him indulge himself.
    I had the Liar over tonight against my better judgment mind you. I cooked dinner for him Chaz and I. Chaz has an early morning, or so he said so he went to bed. I stayed up and the Liar and I spoke for a while. The first thing he says is that he is going to move in with my father. Fair enough, I thought. then he starts talking about personal stuff I really didn
  25. GREEN

    Julio

    By GREEN,

    Green is out with Julio right now and I'm freaking. Julio said he had some surprise for Green. I mean for some reason Julio makes me nervous. I know Green would never leave me and that is some comfort but Julio is his ex and he knows him in the same way that I do. The problem is in the fact that I know what I have with him. How can I not be cautious with our relationship when were just trying to just get used to each other. I dont know maybe I am being too honest here. What do you guys think? Ami Worrying too much?
     
    Oh by the way Im writing under Green's name because it wont let me post new entry's under mine.
     
    Chaz
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