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  1. GREEN
    I Just wanted to let you guys know what I've been working on. I have a new story that I'm working on. The first part to MR. Black is finished. I'm just waiting for my editor to return that one. I am working on book two to No Matter How far aswell as finishing At the Edge Of Our World. My friend Jonathan has done incredible artwork for my stories.
     
    What happens when being yourself is not enough?
     

     
    The rewritten sequel to A Hero in the Hallways. Two will be lost and one life will be changed for ever.
     

     
    Things are not so easy this time around.
     

     
    GREEN
  2. GREEN

    I'm alright.

    By GREEN,

    I am in a hotel room somewhere I can't pronounce. I am about a day away from where I live and I feel good. I guess you can always feel good when you drive away from the problem. I still havent told Selene and Chaz. But you'll be happy to know that I did talk to someone even if it wasn't face to face. It was on the phone. I talked to a friend that lives a few states over and I'm headed to him now.
     
    Selene has called atleast twenty times I knew she'd call. Chaz hasn't yet but that is because of what I asked him. I'll tell them when I get back sometime next week. Julio has no called however. I was going to call him but my concious doesn't let me do it. I guess sometimes you have to remove yourself from the problem all together like I'm doing. I must admit that it's not going to help me when I get back but right now it really is.
     
    I also called my friend's David and Rob, they are going to meet me here tomorrow and were going to drive somewhere I just don't know where yet. I guess I'm still not telling Selene and Chaz because they know too much. They've seen it all and they know how I feel about everything that happens to me. I guess they are too close to home. David and Rob I barely see and I know because of this they will give me an outsiders point of view.
     
    I also called my friend Jonathan and he told me that things will always change but you have to be willing to adapt and that way you can be fine and he offered to go to spain and deal with Julio for me. He also told me to hang in there it isn't the first breakup and it wont be the last. He said that atleast this one was mild compared to my last.
     
    So I leave you guys. I am alright a bit sad but I know I will make through. Oh by the way Libbonobo I only started to say Julio's name when he said it was alright. Count how many times I mention my bf LOL.
     
    GREEN one day away.
  3. GREEN

    This is not good.

    By GREEN,

    I woke up this morning, I made breakfast and I called Selene and Chaz over. When They walked in they immediately noticed that Julio and his stuff were gone. "What happened?" Selene asked. "Did you guys break up?"
     
    I tell them whole story as selene gets angry. Chaz however doesn't say anything. He doesn't even look at me. Selene is angry not only with Julio but with me for not telling her. I gtried to explain what happened to her and how I felt like a jerk for asking them to give me some space, but she wasn't having it. I guess it hurt her that I didn't tell her.
     
    Then there was Chaz who still hadn't said anything and I asked him why but he just picked up his book bag and left. I followed him out and I tried to stop him but he just shrugged me away. He got into his car and drove away. Selene came out a few minutes later and yelled at me some more.
     
    "Stop it Selene," I said and stormed into my house once again.
     
    "He likes you and your stupid if you let him go," she said.
     
    "Selene I don't have those type of feelings for him," I said. Then I explained to her why but once again stubborn Selene wasn't having it. She walked over to me and put her finger on my forehead and then tapped on it.
     
    "Now you stop it. How are you ever going to know if you like him back if you don't give him a chance," She said. "Look why do you think he hangs out with you all the time huh?"
     
    "The truth is that I really don't have those feelings for him. Chaz is a great guy, no doubt about that but he and I will never have anything beyond friend ship even if he's mad at me right now. I don't get with my friends for the same reason that I do not play cupid," I tell Selene.
     
    "You are making a mistake this time Green," She said, leaving me to think about her words.
     
    David Came by a few minutes later and I talked to him about it. Rob also came by and we all talked for an hour when Chaz walked into my house again. He appologized for leaving and sat down with us. I recounted the whole story and I told them about my little day long trip. They all gave me what I needed not advice but words of encouragement.
     
    David left for class and so did Rob. So I was left alone with Chaz who seemed nervous. OH NO not again I thought. So I decided to tell him how I felt about him and how I thought that we should just be friends. I kept giving him reason after reason when I realized that maybe there was something there. I tried to ignore it but I now know that I did feel it. I began to see things that I hadn't noticed before like the way he taps on the table when he's nervous.
     
    So I panicked and I told him that I had to go. I just wanted him to leave so I could think and get my head straight. So now I don't know what or how to face Selene.
     
    GREEN crap I don't know.
  4. GREEN

    Thank You All.

    By GREEN,

    You know what I thought about what Libbonobo and the rest of you said and you guys are right. Maybe I was just hanging on to something that wasn't there. I decided to go back I'm actually back home now and I will tell Selene and Chaz what happened tomorrow. The thing is I think Chaz is attractive but I don't see anything beyond that. Even though he might, I just see him as a friend. A good one, dont get me wrong but that's all. I know what I felt for Julio is real but we weren't good for each other in the long run.
     
    He called today and we talked. He told me the same thing and he said that he's rather see me happy with someone else than miserable with him in the long run. I told him that he should have talked to me about it rather than leaving a note on a computer screen. He said that he is sorry for that but he had to catch his flight. He said he had tried to call but his phone wouldn't work.
     
    Either way I have decided to stay where I'm at. I put away all of the stuff he left and I'm going to try and get a roommate. I don't know, it was pretty rough for a minute but I know now that it's better for me in the long run. Well anyhoo I Leave you all and I thank you for your comments they really did make me feel better.
     
    GREEN back at home.
  5. GREEN

    I just want to leave.

    By GREEN,

    I want to thank you guys for your words. I havent told anybody yet. He never called and I don't expect that he will. I am numb right now. Last night I went through the motions but today I'm just drained. I couldn't even tell my friends I feel like a fool in front of them.
     
    I don't know what to do I'm restless. Things are definitely going to change and I don't know if I want to stay in this house. I am going to go away for a couple of days. I need to get away from everything that is my life. I really should be telling my friends but I can't face them after I asked them to give me some space for a week. I'd feel guilty after doing that.
     
    So I want to thank you guys once again for your words. I'm going to be away for the next few days. I might check up if I find somewhere to plug in my lap top. See ya in a few guys
     
    GREEN
  6. GREEN
    Julio my BF is very mad at me these days. He's very jeallous of my friends and he thinks I'm going to leave him for Chaz. It freaks me out when he talks like that. I've already told him that my friends will always be there but that doesn't mean that he is second to them. I mean I planned on marrying him some day and he's the only person that I have dated I could ever say that about. I love him and it kills me inside when he says these things.
     
    Today I told my friends not to come over for a while. I told Chaz that I needed to stay away from him for the next week or so and he understood. Selene was mad ans so were my other friends but ultimately they understood. So I went home and started to cook a nice dinner for Julio and My sure I had a good movie waiting so that we could snuggle. I waited for him and he never came home. I went upstairs and his stuff was gone. It hurts when someone you love decides that they can't be in your life.
     
    He left me a messsage on my computer screen. All it said that he would call me when he gets back home to spain. I am sitting here waiting for his call. I can't believe it and I'm writing this to make sure that it's real and that I'm about to puke. He's really gone and for some reason I know I can never forgive that he left without talking to me first. If the problem was so great then why didn't he tell me before. It's over, It's over I am not an optimistic person so I sit here knowing that it's over and I'll have to pick up the the pieces.
     
    GREEN
  7. GREEN

    Ready? Lets go!

    By GREEN,

    It's started again. I found myself in the worst situation once again. Selene one of my best friends, not one of the good best friends but rather the evil one, had invited me to this hell night somewhere I never want to visit again with her annoying brother that should find a way to cease to exist. Whew mouth full. I went to the god forsakened thing making sure Chaz came along for moral support because I was one step away from killing someone.
     
    alright so this place we ggo to is decorated or rather made to look like a satanic church. We're all into it for a little bit when we notice that this is a satanic church and were to be their new additions. I quickly head for the door making sure I'm pulling everybody with me except for Selene's brother who I hate even more for inviting us here. JERK!
     
    We are not three feet from the door when we're cut off by this big freaky guy. "Where are you going?" he asks us. Now this guy is by far the creepiest person I've ever met. Seriously this guy could have been Lurch's twin just shorter. Selene screams and Chaz flinches as I try to dodge the man. I make it out safely and so does Chaz but Selene's brother pulls her back and the creepy guy now looks pissed.
     
    "Hey!" I yell and I pull her back away from him. He gives me this look and I close my fist. he backs off but the creepy guy doesn't he pushes me. I'm like Ready? Let's go, and my fist seems to have a mind of it's own because it quickly connects with his face. He doesn't even flinch. I'm like Crap so I toss Chaz my car keys and we book it. We share a good laugh once we leave and Selene yells at her brother on her cell phone, for bringing us to a cult. We decide to go to a bar to let out some steam because I was really mad at Selene's brother and I could see myself punching him also. I don't know what would compell anyone to join a cult but I really don't like it when they try to pull that on me. I was part of the church once and that was enough.
     
    At the bar we run into some friends and that guy I used to have a crush on in high school (see this high school crush) He's there and we're all having a good time. Then I notice the attraction between him and Chaz. So I grab Selene and we walk away from them to give them some time together. Not a minute passes and Chaz joins us saying, "Dude would you mind if I," I don't let him finish.
     
    "Chaz what are you still doing here? Go!" he smiles and mouths the words thank you when we see Selene's brother and the creepy guy walk into the bar. I"m like OH SHIZZLE and I grab Selene and I walk over to Chaz and I motion for them to follow us. I know the owner of the bar so after a quick explanation he lets us leave the bar through the back door.
     
    I am writing this from Chaz's dorm where I'm hiding out. Julio is going to be very pissed when he hears this. I'm really never scared to fight but they did seem to have alot of cultist in that church and GREEN never underestimates the power of cults in large numbers.
  8. GREEN

    My halloween

    By GREEN,

    My Halloween
     
    Midterms all is good all has been passed. House all is good boyfriend is great house is clean. Friends all getting along, no more ex's, no more stupid brothers of friends. Green seems healthy, no yelling feels calm. So then why is everything feel like it's going to collapse on me? Because it's going to.
     
    Julio my bf decided that he was going to cook a fact that I descourage alot since he almost burned my kitchen down a couple of months ago. I wake up from a nap and I hear something boiling, something being chopped, a gorgeous man singing. I feel heat, steam is visible, I smell something good.
     
    As I walk into the kitchen I see him, he smiles, he walks over, he kisses me a huge flame comes from the stove. I scream, I run, I grab and the chicken drops. Headache, need pills, need food, so we leave.
     
    The store: there is a robbery before I come, we leave. Second store: flirty clerk, old man licking his lips, I'm disgusted, we leave. The italian restaurant: twenty minute wait: elevator music no ipod, sacry host.
     
    Car ride home: Julio yells at me, I yell back, we see Chaz, Julio's mad, we drop Chaz off. He Yells once again, "Green too controlling. You never let me cook, you never let me help you, you never seem to need me!" Green's turn: I yell back, I scream, I eat alive, He cowers he holds my hand, he's sorry, I feel guilt, "I'm sorry."
     
    Home: We make up Hmm Hmm, good night, no sleep headache still....
     
    GREEN he scares.
  9. GREEN
    I received an email from my friend Jonathan from across the country. He gave me a name and a song to look up. The name of the artist is Sia and the song is breathe me. Alright so I am picky with music but I know good stuff. So I can't buy it of of I tunes so I go to the local record store and I find it. I put it in my car and I listen to this gentle, almost fragil voice singing what is the most relevant song I have ever heard at any given time.
     
    As I drove I started to cry. I was crying so hard I had to pull over so nobody would see me. The song reminded me of everything I am dealing with right now, including family and friends. It even reminded me of Chaz so I made him listen to it and we looked like a bunch of fools crying in my car behind a circuit city. My friend Jonathan has the uncharectaristic ability to know me too well. Even if he's across the country. I guess that's what best friends are for huh?
     
    I am adding the lyrics here in hopes that you guys actually listen to this song. By the way somebody informed me that this song plays at the end of the series finale of Six Feet Under.
     
    Breathe Me: Sia
     
    Help, I have done it again
    I have been here many times before
    Hurt myself again today
    And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
     
    Be my friend
    Hold me, wrap me up
    Unfold me
    I am small
    I'm needy
    Warm me up
    And breathe me
     
    Ouch I have lost myself again
    Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
    Yeah I think that I might break
    I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
     
    Be my friend
    Hold me, wrap me up
    Unfold me
    I am small
    I'm needy
    Warm me up
    And breathe me
     
    Be my friend
    Hold me, wrap me up
    Unfold me
    I am small
    I'm needy
    Warm me up
    And breathe me
     
    GREEN contemplating a flight across the country.
  10. GREEN

    Talk, talks, Talking.

    By GREEN,

    What is it about gossip that get's my blood fuming, even if it's about somebody I hate. But when it's about me for some reason I have to let them indulge themselves. I went to the library today with Chaz he was looking up some stuff and I needed to write a paper on an author. I finished early so I took the time to print a paper I had written that is due monday. When I was done I sat down near some people.
     
    Alright so here goes a little background on myself. I was born in Guatemala. Even though my parents were white I learned the spanish language first. My parents were missionaries to some church they have long since abandoned. I moved to the states when I was three where I had to learn english.
     
    So that said. I caught some people speaking of someone named Green, calling him a gay immigrant that thinks he's better than anybody because he can speak two languages blah blah blah. So I joined in it seemed like fun. I said, "Yeah he thinks that he knows good music. I met him once he seemed like a snob."
     
    They kept on talking at one point they made a crack at my name and I laughed so hard. They thought I was laughing at the joke but I just couldn't help laughing at the stupidity. I had to laugh. Apparently they were making fun of a paper of mine they found in my schools printer (the same one I had printed I forgot to get it from the printer). So after a while they begin to recite from it. The paper is autobiographical it told of my upbringing in Guatemala and how I learned to speak spanish and english. It also told of my being gay. As the spoke of my paper Chaz yells my name across the library.
     
    "Hey Green, you ready to go?" I smile and I nod and I say bye to the three most amusing and red faced people I've ever met.
     
    Gay green GREEN Guatemalan immigrant.
  11. GREEN

    He held me.

    By GREEN,

    After yesterdays nonstop interruptions. I decided that I was going to take a day for myself. I went to the beach alone. It was cold but I always like to go to the beach when it's cold. For one no one is there and I can actually walk on the sand without falling into it and two sometimes you can see seals at the edge of the shore. I didn't see seals but I was alone for a good time and I could think about everything that is happening.
     
    It was actually beautiful and I took out my camera and took some good pics. It's good sometimes to take the time for yourself. The air felt so clean. I went to a local restaurant where I just read a book. I also put my cell phone on off so I wouldn't be interrupted. all in all I had a nice day today finally.
     
    Then It began as I got home. There were three cars in my parking lot. One was Chaz's brother, the next one belonged to Selene and the third belonged to David. As I walked into the my house they rushed me. "Where have you been we've been so worried," Julio says.
     
    "We were so worried," Selene said.
     
    Then Chaz who had apparently driven here in his bro's car gave me a huge hug. "Dudewe thought something happened to you," he said.
     
    So i asked them why and they told me how they had called my cell phone and I hadn't answered. Then they called my mothers house and no one knew where I was so they got worried. And here I think that I'm paranoid. So I told them where I was and then they looked at me like I was crazy and I really felt bad abaout not telling them so I made them all dinner, Making sure Julio didn't help, I know better.
     
    So were actually having a good dinner when My ex burst into my house again. "What are you kidding me?" I yell. "Get out of my house!" Julio is already getting ready to pund some ass and Selene pulls him away.
     
    "Dude I already told you I want nothing to do with you," comes from Chaz's mouth. I'm like what?
     
    "Can't we just talk," my ex asks Chaz.
     
    "No. Get out!" I yell once again. I walk over to him and start to push him out of my house, still wondering how he got in and that's when I notice the alcohol in his breath and I really don't want him to drive. I ask Chaz to call him a cab and I fish his keys out of his pockets.
     
    "I'll drop your car off tomorrow," I said. I should just drive it to the junkyard.
     
    "Why are you always trying to make me unhappy?" my ex asks me.
     
    "Look your drunk right now so I'm going to be nice to you even though I shouldn't be," I said pulling him outside so we could wait for the cab.
     
    "No," he says, pulling away from me. "I want to talk to you. I want to know why you think I'm so horrible to you?"
     
    "No I'm done talking about this and I've moved on alright come on your cab'll be here in a moment," I tell him. He looks at me for a long time.
     
    "Why?" he asks me.
     
    "Because I don't want you to control me ever again," I said. He gives me this long look like he was searching for something but I know that what I tell him is the honest truth. "I'm happy now can't you be happy for me?"
     
    "No you're not," he says laughing. I really wanted ot kill him and thank god that's when his cab shows up. So I put him in the cab and I actually give him money to go home, because he didn't have any money. The sad part Is I actually pitied him as he left. I watch the cab pull away when Julio came and put his arm around me.
     
    "You're too good," he whispers in my ear. For the first time I actually told him everything I went through with my ex. Julio held me the whole time as I did.
     
    GREEN of the good kind.
  12. GREEN

    LEAVE!

    By GREEN,

    I thought today was going to be a normal day. I had no class to go to so I was just going to stay home and write some of the new chapters in my five stories I've decided to debut all at once which are coming soon I promise. but no I get home and my BF was entertaining some of his co workers. I really like them so I joined them, making sure that he didn't burn our kitchen again (That's another story altogether). So I had a nice converstaion with one of them, a nice lady and we shared a couple of laughs. We were seated and eating when I notice a car pull into my driveway. It's my ex boyfriend. Damn, I thoought. I really didn't need this one to show up now.
     
    He walks up to the door and my boyfriend, julio gets it before I can. I quickly leave the kitchen and I join them. Like I've written before Julio isn't what I'd call very laidback when other guys come near me. He had forgiven Chaz because he thought he was straight but I can see him getting ready to kick my ex's ass so I interveen and I tell him to leave us alone for a moment. Julio leaves reluctantly something that he would have never done if he didn't have company.
     
    So I ask him what he want and he starts telling me this whole story that leads up to him asking me about Chaz. I do not play cupid amongst my friends and I certainly wasn't going to give this guy the info he wanted. It's really disgusting that he would show his face after what he did to me. I wont get into that but rest assure this guy is a jerk. So I ask him to leave but he doesn't he just keeps asking me saying please like that was going to help. Julio came back asking if everything was alright and I tell him what he told me. Julio proceeds to kick the twirp out of our house. An hour later he calls me again saying that he's practically in love ever since he saw us together in a bar.
     
    I told him next time he see's Chaz he should ask him out himself and I hang up. So I thought that I could finally spend some time alone doing nothing when Chaz's brother shows up demanding that I tell him everything I know. I don't because It's not my business to tell. He gets angry with me and as I slowly fell into boredom he kept talking to me about his own problems. Why do people like to share their own problems when other people are having a much harder time, I would never know. So I give him some advice and send him on his way. I swear that a second after I close the door my Friend Selene burst into the door with her own issues.
     
    another hour wasted she announces that she is hungry so I find myself in the kitchen again. Then she invites more friends and I'm close to screaming, LEAVE ME ALONE GO HOME! But I don't I just get very touchy and I end up yelling inside. The sad part is that they are all still here.
     
    GREEN about to kick alot of people out.
  13. GREEN
    I'm angry right now.
     
    I just received a call from my father telling me that he is proud of me for beating up my uncle. I guess my mother told him so I told him off. Twenty two years of anger, hate and regret spewed out of me for ten minutes and for some reason he actually listened. Then he had the nerve to say that he forgives me. What?
     
    So I explained to him using a few choice words why I actually hit my uncle. For the first time in his life he took my words seriously. Like when i told him I was gay he thought it was phase. When I told him I had a boyfriend he thought it was just someone for fun. Then there was the first time I told him I hated him in front of my whole high school class and he still just took it in stride but no not this time. This time I made sure he knew that what I said I meant. I told him what I've thought about him for almost my entire life and I could here him breaking down on the other side of the line.
     
    I told him how much he's hurt me and I heard him say that he's sorry. I wanted to cry but I couldn't give him that satisfaction. I will never cry for him. Now I sit here waiting for him to show up at my house. I wonder if he'll pass on coming over like he did when I was ten so that he could go meet up with some woman.
     
    GREEN
  14. GREEN

    Saw a different man today.

    By GREEN,

    I saw Chaz today after a week. He just smiled and kept on walking but I felt that I owed it to him to give him an explanation as to why I booked. So I catched up to him. I could tell that he was extremely uncomfortable speaking of this in public so I asked if he wanted to go somewhere private and he said alright.
     
    I drove him to his dorm and I said I'm sorry for leaving and I explained to him how much I am in love with my BF and I could never cheat on him with anybody even if I liked him. He seemed to understand then I asked him the question that's been nagging at me since it happened. I asked him if he was gay.
     
    My heart broke for him because he started to cry and then he slowly said that he was but he was afraid to admit it. So I asked him what he had to lose. His family didn't seem to mind and he sure as hell had people who cared. He then told me a story that I will not share here and I realized that Chaz has alot on his plate and I have decided to be there for him every step of the way.
     
    I took him to speak to some friends of mine that have gone through the same situation and then I took him out for dinner and I told him every thing is going to be alright because in my mind it will be. He smiled and gave me a huge hug when I dropped him off. He thanked me and then he asked me if I could ever be a bad friend. I said I couldn't I just like people to be happy. Please don't ask me to share what he said because I won't tell you but in time I might need some of your guidance to deal with this.
     
    Sometimes you just need someone who cares and I'm glad to give out a helping hand.
     
    GREEN
  15. GREEN

    The Return Of Green

    By GREEN,

    The next morning I woke to find that Chaz had pringles all over him and my body was half off my bed. So I wake Chaz up and he goes gets in the shower and I clean up. An hour later were on the road again. Chaz is driving but I see that we're going back a completely different way.
     
    "Where are we going?" I ask.
     
    "Oh I know a faster way," he says. So I say alright and I fall back to sleep. About an hour later I hear squealing and laughter. I open my eyes to see two really attractive people looking at me.
     
    "Hi I'm Chaz's mother," the woman says sticking her hand in the window. I groggily take it and then the spitting image of Chaz which I assume to be his brother opens the door and helps me out of the car then he pulls me into an embrace. "I'm Chaz's twin," he says.
     
    My first words are directed to Chaz who is approaching me with an older man that also looks like him, "You have a twin?" I ask.
     
    "Yeah," he says, messing up his brothers hair.
     
    "Hi I'm their father and I'm very greatful to you," the older man says. As you know these beautiful family belongs to an ex friend that I saved from having an overdose. The man pulls me into an embrace. "You saved our son and we wanted to thank you for that."
     
    I do the usual modest thing and I try to get them to stop thanking me but they seem very good at it. they treat me to dinner and then they ask me to stay at their home but I decline. I really just wanted to be in my house and considering that it was only half hour away I was itching to see my BF.
     
    So I say good bye to the family and Chaz decides to stay with his family over night. Then he walks me out to the rental car to get his stuff. But there is something amiss. Chaz is acting weird. He walks around the car and stands before me.
     
    "Alright dude call me if you need a," I try to say when he plants a kiss and I'm frozen and shocked and bewildered and I feel like I'm betraying my my Boyfriend and hell freezes over and Green flees into the rental car and returns to his home.
     
    I tell my BF what happens as soon as I get home. Godbless his soul because my boyfriend says, "I thought you knew that he liked you Green, and I've been worried these pass two days that you were going to leave me for him."
     
    My heart melted right then and there and I knew I fell in love with him again. I havent seen Chaz since that night.
     
    GREEN love for all, but true love for JULIO my BF.
  16. GREEN

    The Dancer

    By GREEN,

    So you remember that hot guy we saw walking into the hotel? Well apparently he was staying in the room across the courtyard for us and we can clearly see into his room. Chaz notices this when he comes back from the convenience store acroos the street with alot of junk food. We were going to watch a movie that night and I really needed comfort food. So I took a shower and made sure my nose wasn't bleeding anymore. When I came out of the shower Chaz is sitting on the bed laughing but the TV or the light isn't on.
     
    "You have to see this," he says and points out of our window across the courtyard where that guy is staying. I sit next to chad and I see what's going on. The guy is dancing all by himself and he's dancing really badly.
     
    "Oh my," my mouth lets out when I see that he's about to take his clothes off.
     
    First goes his shirt and I gasp, he has an amazing body. Then goes the tank he's wearing. By god I see abs and then the pants and he's not wearing any underwear. But the amazing thing is that he has the smallest Penis I've ever seen (Not that I've seen many, thank you very much).
     
    "Oh snap where's his sh#$," Chaz says really loud. So loud that the guy actually hears it and looks out of his window. We both duck to make sure he can't see us. Not that he can we're both in the dark. So I guess the guy gets off on this sort of thing because he gets on his bed and starts to play with his willy. Mind you thats what I thought he was doing because it was so small we couldn't really tell. At this point I notice that there is another man in the room sitting away from the guy.
     
    Well Chaz is in hysterics and I'm like, "what a waste." Just then the other man gets up. It's an older dude and the older dude hands him some cash. I was afraid that Chaz's jaw was going to hit the floor and I just about propped mine up with a pole. Then the guy gets up and puts his clothes back on when another guy comes out of the bathroom. I thought that I saw him mouth the words thanks and the man leaves but he stops and looks at us from the door.
     
    GREEN witness to the small things.
  17. GREEN

    The boys that Cry

    By GREEN,

    so I'm my way back home I start to think about what happened and yes tears begin to fall from my eyes. How could my aunt do this to me? I'm some way I felt betrayed by her and I began to feel phisically ill. then I started to shake. "Pull over," Chaz said.
     
    Chad got out of the car and just held me. A minute later we found ourselves both crying. "I'm sorry it's just. Well I feel like my aunt betrayed me," I said.
     
    "Yeah I know," he said. "Why don't we find a hotel and stay for the night?" He asks and I nod.
     
    So I let him drive and we find a hotel. The receptionist takes down my information and asks for my ID apparently she thought my name wasn't real so then she looks us over. "Yall boys together?"
     
    "Oh no were just friends," I said. I don't know if he was trying to cheer me up but what he did next had me on the floor.
     
    "Oh he's just being modest," he said in a feminine accent. "Weve been together for two years."
     
    "Oh that's great, so you guys want a single right?" the receptionist asks.
     
    "Oh no we'll need a double," he says and then gets closer. "He snores you see."
     
    Then a really good looking, I mean drop dead and gorgeous man walks in. Chaz looks over to him and laugh when he saw me blush. "He's such a flirt," he says to the receptionist in the feminine accent. The receptionist was also blushing.
     
    fried Green tomatoes.
  18. GREEN

    The Fallen Boy

    By GREEN,

    The gossip factor is thick at the family reunion. My cousins are swooning over Chaz and I'm dying to leave this god forsaken reunion. I can kill my aunt for asking me to come. Hence why she's avoiding me like I have some some disease. It's very clear that some of my family members do not agree with what they call, "That Lifestyle." My uncle pulls me aside and ask me if my get this, Choice Was Worth it. To which I reply, "Yes I'm sure I picked the right one, did you? Because you and your seemingly over weight wife have been having problems. Why don't you try a guy?" He doesn't flinch and I walk away where I overhear one of my cousins using the F word, I want to kill that little drug addict in the making but I don't and I head towards the liquor.
     
    One of my aunts is standing there and hands me a cup of of something I never want to re experience. ""Hi Green," she says. I say hello and quickly try to walk away as this is the aunt that could milk a stone for gossip. "Wait a minute I want to talk to you," She says grabbing my arm.
     
    "What about?" I ask when the cousin that uttered the immortal f word comes to the table and pushes me.
     
    "What did you call my mother?" he asks. My cousin is really drunk and a bit unstable.
     
    "I called her obese, fat, Overweight!" I yell. He swings at me and hits me across the face. Apparently he's too drunk to put power behind it and the punch just barely grases my cheek when I pull my head back. I'm already pissed and I'm not one to back down from a fight so I swing back connecting with his eye. Then I swing again getting the other eye. I watch him fall when his father comes at me from out of nowhere. At. this point It's a brawl. He hits me hard across the head and my vision blurs a bit, but I get my chance when he misses his next shot and I punch him in the gut then I get his face and he goes down taking me down with him. I hit him a couple of times and he gets me in the nose before I'm pulled away. Chaz is holding my cousin who apparently wanted some more of me.
     
    My other uncle holds back the uncle that hit me. Then he says something that just curdles my blood. "You and your father are both f**king faggots," he says and I punch him square in the nose. I was told later on that I broke it. I don't exactly have a relationship with my father and I hate being compared to him.
     
    Needless to say I rented a car that same evening and I left. Chaz watched me with a concerned eye. I'm sure he was wondering where I learned to fight.
     
    Bloody nosed GREEN
  19. GREEN

    The Never Ending Trip

    By GREEN,

    I received a call from my aunt desperately asking me to join her for a family reunion. I hesitantly said that I would. So I tell my bf and My friends about it. My BF can't go beacuse of his job but Chaz asks if he can join me. I found that weird but back to the story. So I ask my aunt and she says he can come. I don't know why I did it but I decided that we should take a train, A TEN HOUR TRAIN. Let me tell you this is a bad Idea.
     
    We sat behind a couple and their children. Chaz is out like a light and that's when my imsomnia hits. So I put on my head phones and I watch the scenery. About an hour into the trip My ipods battery runs out. "Damnit," I whisper to myself. Then I hear the last thing I ever want to hear, coming from the mother of the children in front of us.
     
    "do you guys want to watch a movie," the mother asks her kids.
     
    "Yeah let's watch the never ending story," says one of the kids.
     
    I want to scream. I look around the car to see if there is any empty seats I can move to. None of them are empty. You see I was tortured with this movie for years when I was a small GREEN. I avoid this movie like the plague. The soundtrack alone could killl me.
     
    Then I realize that these kids know the whole story by heart and insist on repeating every word. I look to my left there is a girl that seems to also be annoyed and I hate her because her Ipod does work. Chaz is still out like a light. for the next two hours I am tortured with this movie. I let out a sigh of relief when I realize that the movie is over, but no that couldn't be the end of it. The little peice of unholy crap then says, "Do you guys want to see part two?" I'm tweaking at this point. The girls ipod seems to has run out of battery and I'm like ha revenge is sweet.
     
    "Dude that music is killing me," Chaz adds.
     
    Things are on the way down when Chaz looks over the seat and kindly asks the family to turn the music down on the portable dvd player, making me look like a total idiot as he falls back into his slumber.
     
    THE NEVER ENDING GREEN!
  20. GREEN

    The Morning Fiasco

    By GREEN,

    My Pc Broke and It really pissed me off. So I was in a bad mood. My friends tried to cheer me up but nothing was going to make Green happy. Until Chaz thought that he came up with a great plan. "Let's all go for some drinks," he said and every one seemed to want to go. I decided to get away from my pc I couldn't look at it. It made my blood boil.
     
    So the bar is crowded and Everyone seems to disappear. I'm left alone at the table which pisses me off even more. So I decide to take off. I walk out of the bar and downa block when I hear really good music coming from another bar. To my surprise it's the emo boys I had met a week ago. So I go into the bar and I see a couple of friends of mine and they wave me over.
     
    An hour later I find myself laughing and enjoying myself with the emo boys and my friends. Every one is sharing stories and talking about people we know. So I don't know if it was the alcohol or what but I hit on the waiter serving our drinks and he hits on me back.
     
    When his shift is over the waiter asks us if we want to go to an after party. We're all game and we head over to the party that's in a basement bar. The windows were blocked and alot of people were there including Chaz and my BF. This is when everything get's blurry and the next morning I found myself in some girls bed.
     
    "Oh hey you're up," she said. I was freaking at this point and I guess she noticed because this is what came out of her mouth, "Don't worry hon you were good last night."
     
    "HOLY MOTHER Of GOD. MY BF IS GOING TO KILL ME," Came out of my mouth.
     
    "Oh is that your Boyfriend because he was good too," she said pointing at my boyfriend who was laying on the ground. Then she starts laughing histerically. "I'm sorry He made me do it. You really didn't sleep with me and by the way you guys are loud."
     
    GREEN DAZED AND CONFUSED AND GOOD IN BED?
  21. GREEN

    The Bunny Wars Redux

    By GREEN,

    Monday the 10th of October 3:12 p.m.
     
    The devil returned on this day. As I took out my trash I saw him. The little bastard that has given me sleepless nights. He waves from the back seat of his parents car as his parents drive by. "Dude what's that kids problem?" asks Chaz.
     
    "I don't know man but I'm fearing for my life right now," I answered as the chill climbed down my spine.
     
    Monday Night 5:35 p.m.
     
    a loud thud comes from the back of my house. I walk towards the back to investigate. Somebody has written the words F-U on my door with spray paint.
     
    Monday night 6:00 p.m.
     
    A police cruiser is parked outside of my house. As I explain to police officer what the little bastard had done another police officer is yelling at the boy. The parents are furious not at their son but at me. "How could you call the cops on our son," The mother asks me.
     
    To which I quickly reply, "Because apparently you guys can't control your own son and I was given no choice. I tried to be nice to you poeple but that didn't work. I tried to speak to you personally and that didn't work. I could have called the humane society on you and I didn't. I did what I thought to be right but apparently I was wrong. So now I am getting a restraining order on you and your sons."
     
    She looked down right outraged. This is when the fatehr spoke up. "Listen Green can't we work this out? Is a restraining order really neccessary?"
     
    "I think it is," said my Bf. "I think that this is the only thing that is going to work."
     
    "Do you want to press charges?" asked the officer who I was falling in love with. Bad Green, Bad Green, now back to the story.
     
    Needless to say I didn't press charges but I did get the restraining order. That night I heard yelling coming from their house and the very next day the cops took the boy to juvenile court for psychiatric evaluation, as he had threatened his father...
  22. GREEN
    Rest your fears and dry your eyes for on the 18th night of October, the Green one shall return. Much will be told and much will be learned as adventures will be shared and the reasons for Green's disappearance will be revealed.


     

    The Bunny Wars Redux

    The Boys Who Cried

    The Dancer

    The Fallen Boy

    The Never-Ending Trip

    The Morning Fiasco

    The Return Of Green...

     

    GREEN'S ODYSSEY

  23. GREEN
    If you guys read my earlier posts you would know that I made a new friend named Chaz and I made an ass of myself. Well I went to a local bar and we hung out. He is a really cool and genuine person and seems to be interested in alot of the stuff I do. Unfortunately I had to explain to him why I hate his brother but he just shrugged his shoulders and said that he too hates his brother sometimes.
     
    So we're having a good time sharing some laughs when a couple of extremly beautiful boys walk up to us. "Is your name Green?" one of them says. I was a little drunk at this point so I blurted out in a very old mean lady voice, "yeah what d'ya want?"
     
    "Well we just wanted to let you know that we like your stories," The other beautiful boy adds. I'm like oh shiznits I have to find a way to leave they know who I am.
     
    "What stories?" asks my new friends Chaz. "Do you write?"
     
    So now I have to be greatful to these extremely beautiful boys and I have to explain to the very attractive straight Friend Chaz how these boys know me. So after a few modest comments on my part and a quick explanation to Chaz, the Emo boys show their true intentions.
     
    "Well we're kind of mad that you are ending Mr. Black. We live by this story and James here, is a former run away," they keep on like this for awhile. Chaz is looking at me like I need to explain some more.
     
    So after he's done speaking I tell them this, "Guys I'm just ending part one." The Emo's faces light up. They start hugging me and the image of two dark haired cherubs crosses my mind. Chaz is still waiting for more explanation when my bf walks in and gives me an incredulous look.
     
    For some reason or another my bf is drunk and he walks straight towards us. "Get off my boyfriend girls," he says, with his drunken spanish accent. I swear to what ever created me I expected the emo boys that due in fact look like girls to start beating the crap out of my boyfriend. To my surprise they dont they just get angry and say the f word a few times before one of them starts to cry for some reason unbeknownst to me. At this point I feel like grabbing Chaz and running away while appologizing and giving him I'm sorry cards.
     
    "Listen bish! You don speek to me thaat way okey'," says my Boyfriend in his best impersonation of one of my aunts that speaks with a very thick hispanic accent. Meanwhile Chaz is downing two shots and I feel like the world is closing in on me. I really should have been taking my bf away but I was frozen in place. The Emo boys leave and I give them an I'm sorry look the one that isn't crying just smiles. When I hear the last sound I ever want to hear from my bf and I smell the last sound I ever want to smell and feel the last thing I ever want to feel on my legs.
     
    "Oh my god dude," Chaz says in slow motion.
     
    "Get him out of here," says the bartender in slow motion. "Joe come clean this mess up."
     
    "That's gross," says the lady to my left who I quickly give the death stare to.
     
    "I'm sorry Green," says my bf.
     
    You can imagine what I said. You can Imagine who is sleeping on the couch. And to those Emo boys if you are reading this can you please explain to me why you were crying? You know it ruins your mascara.
     
    My name is Green this is my story and I'm sticking to it.
  24. GREEN
    Sometimes I wonder why I even plan to go out with my friends. Like my life isn't as hectic as it is they seem to never agree on anything. So the last night I decided I was going to take charge. I asked my three bestfriends over for dinner. I also invited Chaz who told me that he might be able to go If he didn't have to do something or other for his brother who's apparently trash talking about me now but that's another story.
     
    Well as the night progressess I end up burning the dinner so we order out chinese which ends up being very good. So after an hour of friendly banter, food and alcohol consumption, my friend Selene decides that we should play strip poker. We're all tipsy so we're all game. I close the curtains and we start the clothes shedding. We have a rule that we never go pass the underwear and if we're out we have to stay in our underwear until the game is over. So my two friends Selene and Rob lose real quick and their out. David and I are still in the game.
     
    We play for about half an hour when we start raising the bets. I am down to my under shirt jeans and boxers. He only has a wife beater left. He says that he will go completely naked if he loses. I'm like hmm interesting so I say that I will lose every thing too if I lose. At this point Chaz walks in with his uninvited brother and gives me an appologetic look. I just shrug and return to the game. "Can I join," Chaz asks. "I'll make it fair and he strips his shirt." Selene's jaw is on the ground. I explain to him the risk. He says, "I'm game but if you both lose you have to run outside naked."
     
    So we agree and Selene joins a minute later. So we play the round and it's down to me and Chaz. I have four queens and I'm really confident that I have won. When Chaz drops his four aces.
     
    Green, four queens down and running nude through my back yard.
  25. GREEN

    That Boy Is Crazy Hot

    By GREEN,

    It was a wonderful day outside today. When I mean wonderful I mean windy and a bit cold, but that's just me. I also love it when it rains that's another story altogether. So I sat outside in between classes a friend joined me a few minutes later. We spoke for a bit just catching up because we hadn't seen each other in a while. When someone just randomly sits with us.
     
    Now I'm a very paranoid person and I get nervous so I was already itching to leave when I looked at this boys face and neck and chest and arms and I swallowed hard. This boy was crazy hot. I mean brad pitt had nothing on him even the way he looked in fight club. He introduces himself, his name is Chaz and as it turns out his frat buddy's asked him to get my friends number. She was already writing it down for him even before he asked.
     
    So we all get to talking and we find out that he frequents a local gay bar. I was like hmm potential, no you have a bf a BF! He tells us that he has a brother who is gay and since he's new in the area he visits his brother. His brother works at the bar. At this point I'm dying and fighting the urge to jump on him when his brother shows up and he ends up being one of my former friends. I'm like shizzle I need to find an excuse to leave. So I say this in one quick sentence, "Hi how are you, sorry I have to leave, class is starting see ya later."
     
    I walk a few steps and then Chaz yells, "Wait, I'll walk with you." Once again I'm like shit. So I stop and wait for him to catch up. We walk for a few minutes and we talk about school and such when he asks me if I'm gay. I tell him that I am and i share with him the experience I had on the train with the christian lady. He laughs and he shares a funny story and then he asks me if I would like to go for dinner sometime. So I'm like damn they never asked me out when I was single. I let him down easy, telling him about my bf and how much I love him and how much I love him. He smiles and says, "Oh I'm straight. I just thought that you were a cool dude and maybe since you knew alot about music we could hang out somewhere in the city and see some bands."
     
    The only word for that is embarassment.
     
    GREEN embarrased.
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