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Always follow your heart. If your heart tells you to press 'send' do it. What is served in screwing yourself into a stomach ulcer? Love deserves more. Perhaps a long heartpouring email would be too much for her all at once. Maybe just a few sentences that you have thought about and are calm and clear and soft, rather than a passionate rant (not that I am suggesting your letter would be a rant but things written in this kind of state are rarely level headed and sensible). Not that love should be sensibe either. I just think that there is a danger of overwhelming her, especially if she has no idea you feel that way. Take it gently but make yourself very clear. THere are too many hours spent heartaching because you don't think someone has picked up on a hint that might be so obscure to them but so clear to you. Be straightforward and gentle and very clear. Make it absolutely plain that it's okay if she does't feel the same way and that you would want your realtionship as friends to continue no matter what. If she is a good friend then she will understand even if she doesn't feel the same way. If she is a true friend it might be unconfotable for a while but then there will be laughter and sniggers and teasing and things will go back to normal. If it ends the friendship then it wasn't a true friendship and it wasn't worth having anyway. A for letting love die... that would be criminal.

That was one of the most incredibly moving things I have ever read. Don't apologise to anyone for putting this here. If anyone feels discomfort then they have their own reasons and maybe it is good to feel that at this time, whatever those reasons might be. We can't hide our heads under the pillows and pretend it doesn't happen because this is what happens when we do. I am incredibly sorry for your loss. This was a terrible tragedy. I hope that everyone involved eventually found/finds peace.

YAY I was a wonderful and sensitive mother today and am allowing Ef to have his Christmas present early, on the strict understanding there i an acceptance... in writing... that there will be one less present under the Christmas tree, that he can have his Cataclysm early and we should be receiving it tomorrow as I pre ordered on Amazon. YAY.

Yeah and you've got me just as obsessed with the bloody thing now. I am way too technophobic to even try and find it and download it but I've got the girls on it

Cheeky... just because you always get here before me Sucking is just about the only think I can do at the moment... and the real tragedy is that all I can suck is a straw:( Welcome hun. Looking forward to reading your story

If they're young free and single and don't mind being tied up and bitten then go ahead. On second thoughts... don't tell them about the tying up and biting thing

Hey to everyone who's come in since I was last here. How the hell do you do it... I mean sneak in without me noticing? Anyway... Welcome to GA I am looking forward to getting to know you all

I suppose it depends on the realtionship and the amount of committment given. Actually I absolutely agree with Ara. If you would be happy for your partner to do the things you are doing and/or knowing that you are doing them, then it's fine. If you are uneasy about the fact that they might find out or if you grind your teeth at the thought of them doing the same thing then it is probably not a good idea to do them as it would be cheating. For what it's worth, if I found out that my partner was having an intense relationship with someone online or over a webcam I would be devastated and I don't know if i could stay with them.

Sssshhhhh *conspiratorial whisper* I have a Pollyanna thing going on too And yeah... it's really great to know that there are pepople to vent to who actually care what I have to say and what I feel. It feels really great and I am thankful and grateful for every one of you

Of course I can. I had it myself for a while. Now... well I can hardly be described as shy any more but I didn't go to university straight after school because I was scared of meeting new people, and until I was in my mid twenties I couldn't look anyone in the eye and lurked in the corner at parties. I don't really know what happened but I think that I gradually built up self confidence and an attitude of f**k the world. If they don't like me tough Maybe you will get to that position maybe you won't, maybe you will always be shy but whatever you are you

The first movie I cried at was Bambi, then Dumbo. I cry in lots and lots of films Titanic, It's a wonderful life... loads and loads and loads

No one, and I mean no one can ever know something they have never experienced or learned. If you have never read a book how can you possibly know what's in it. If you have never watched a film how can you possibly quote from it. Another thing is that we tend to only retain the things that interest us so I suppose that you are knowledgeable about the things that really interest you. Your hobbies and interests absorb you and so you learn what you can about them. I wonder if your friend knows the things that you do and I suggest that it is your friend who is the ignorant one for making you feel like this. So what do you think everyone 'should' know?? Everyone knows different things. I can't quote from books or films but I can tell you the story of it. I know a lot about history because it interests me but I can't give you dates or often even the order that things happened. I read a lot because I love to read. My ex husband has gone through 48 years of life never having read a book at all. He's the regional manager of a prestigious factory chain and he knows a lot of things relating to art of management and the product the factory produces. He reads reports and all sorts of documents but he wouldn't have a clue about any of the classical characters or Star Wars or History Each to his own. Don't be brought down by this so called friend. You are who you are - a unique and beautiful human being and he's mean

There are a lot of thing said about the way you sleep and I am sure that the foetus position as it's calls means sensitivity and protection Okay so I googled it <LI>The Foetus: Those who curl up in the foetus position are described as tough on the outside but sensitive at heart. They may be shy when they first meet somebody, but soon relax. This is the most common sleeping position, adopted by 41% of the 1,000 people who took part in the survey. More than twice as many women as men tend to adopt this position. My link

Thank you everyone As expected my natural optimism has reasserted itself and I'm fine today... well apart from the toothache. I believe in love. I believe totally but sometimes, when I feel particuarly lonely... you know, with Christmas coming up and all... I'm very unoptimistic about it. I have said it often enough and it is a belief I live by... I would never turn love away no matter how it packages itself. All I ask is that they love me as I am and let me be myself. Unfortunately myself does not fit in where I live r where I work so... But that's okay mostly. I don't feel down today. I have had a little talk to my daughter. She pouted for a while but then she cleaned the house, put the cleaner over and cooked me beans on toast for lunch It was really really hard to sit here and watch her do it but I did and I think it's a minor victory. As you say Matty I have spent most of my life being a doormat and mosty I really don't mind being walked on because I get pleasure out of seeing other people happy. Its just that sometimes I get to a place where I don't have any more to give. Anyway... back again. Optimism in gear and excitement about Christmas reasserted. It helps that most of Ef's christmas presents arrived today and my Christmas shopping is pretty much done. Technically I don''t celebrate Christmas so there won't be any nativity. I celebrate Yule a few days late and that is all about rebirth and change for the better. In the heart of the wood is the heat of the flame. So I am hoping that 2011 will bring a change for the better for me. I am optimistic about that... mostly Everyone

I have been having such a hard time lately. I won't bore you with it all as I have been depressing enough in my statuses (if that is a word) I have struggled with my epilepsy and in particular with not having a car. I have lost my mother and my ex posted up the fact that he is in a new relationship the day before the funeral... not a surprise or a regret but the timing was crap. My daughter got sick with diabetes and then went through hell as she was unable to afford to go to Law School to finish her last year and so she and her girlfriend came to stay with me. Having 4 in the house instead of 2 have had its ups and downs. Having other adults around has been great but it is so bloody expensive. Add up the food (and Sam is a chef so it's not just fish fingers like it used to be), the added expense to rates, electricity, water etc. Then I had to give them all my savings to allow them to settle their bills and afford to travel to work before they had their first pay. So I am broke, wiped out. The deal was that they didn't give me any money but would do all the housework, particularly as they use every dish in the house when they cook. THey have cleaner their room weekly and the rest of the house once. At least after I spoke sternly they are now doing the dishes. I am exhausted. We have decorated for Christmas and getting excited. My daughter gave me

I voted the same as you, although the questions didn't really fit with my views. If I was sure that they were safe... eg if they got tested and were celibate until the results came through (something I wouldn't even have considered with my last 2 partners) I would be more than happy to ride bareback with multiple partners all of whom were doing the same to each other. With all this STD's around orgies aren't what they used to be Sorry but I think condoms are ucky and if I had a choice with or without it would be without every time. Watching porn with condoms is just frustrating.

I think you should look short term and long term. Jobs are not that easy to come by and if something looks too good to be true then it probably is. Write a pros and cons list and make sure you put job security and future prospects on there. The company you work for has to be a good company if there is such a low turnover of staff. What are sick pay, holiday entitlement, retirement pension etc etc like. WIll they be able to give a little raise or other fringe benefilts like travel expenses etc. Moving your job is always risky especially in this climate and if US law is anything like UK law then for the first year you are working they can get rid of you at any time. Check out the companies you are considering working for. Do they have a quick turnover of staff? Do they require long hours of extra work with no pay? do they provide good benefits? What are the working conditions like? What support will you get? What will you be expected to do? Be careful you are not going to be jumping out of the frying pan into a very tempting but very hot fire. Also although it's tempting to look for short term benefit especially when things are tight but you have to look at the long term prospects if you are career minded. Will the new firms provide opportunities for promotion? What is the scale of advacement like? Do people who enter at the lever you are entering, doing the job you are doing get promoted/advanced in the company. Weigh all this up and make your decision. No one else can make it for you

Well, I could say... why are all the cute ones gay... about some of the forum... and why are all the cute ones straigh about the rest. In this case it is DEFINITELY why are all the cute ones straight

OMG you DO have a face and what a cute one it is

That was very poerful and evocative. It was difficult to read but emotional and effective

Nice to hear from you. Glad that things are going well. Looking forward to reading your new project. I'm disappointed about Anticipation but hey... it's your story Hugs

I am an incredibly emotional person anyway. Emotions come and go. When I write I feel every single one and I often sob my heart out as I write. I don't need to get into the frame of mind to write it just happens as the words come out. When I finish I go back to feeling as I did before again, although sometimes I remain feeling melancholy which is fine becasue I like that

Very cool. Beats Spar

Pat... you do not look pre pubescent you are ALL MAN and I can't get enough of those eyes. Dragon... what can I say, you are totally adorable from any angle. Lacey... that is in the running for the cutest picture I have EVER seen. It is so nic to see a picture of you with a smile on your face. Looking really good my darling.

There are people listening hun and what you say is hard to hear but nowhere near as hard to live. Just know we're thinking of you. Do what you need and when you've done it come back and let us know you're okay. My thoughts and blessings go with you