Hey guys!!

So a bunch has happened since my last blog entry--and most of it has to do with my crush

Yesterday (he kids around a lot) he was telling me on AIM (and I quote)

[09:11:31 PM] Max: u r funnie man

[09:11:38 PM] AP Conflagrant: um ok?

[09:11:54 PM] Max: hehe

[09:12:03 PM] AP Conflagrant: hehe to u too?

[09:12:21 PM] Max: =D

[09:12:26 PM] Max: i lub yuu

[09:13:52 PM] AP Conflagrant: um...ok

[09:14:05 PM] Max: COOL

[09:14:14 PM] AP Conflagrant: cool?

[09:14:19 PM] Max: adam if you dont give me a hug tomorrow

[09:14:27 PM] Max: i;m gonna fcking bash your face in with a desk

[09:14:46 PM] Max: then pull the scissors out of my backpack and cut your arteries out

[09:15:12 PM] Max: when i'll take my fcking 20 lb backpack

[09:15:20 PM] Max: and beat you continuously to a bloody pulo

[09:15:20 PM] AP Conflagrant: mine weighs more

[09:15:21 PM] AP Conflagrant: hehe

[09:15:22 PM] Max: pulp*

[09:15:27 PM] Max: well then thats even better

[09:15:30 PM] Max: i'll use yours

[09:15:32 PM] Max: GOT IT?

[09:15:33 PM] AP Conflagrant: hhahaah

[09:15:45 PM] Max: dude i'm not fckin kidding

[09:16:05 PM] Max: i dont joke around with shit like this

[09:16:13 PM] Max: okay well mayb i do

So I'm really confused right now, because I had been asking questions to test whether he is gay and they all failed

Last night, the conversation that we had was one of the longest that I have ever had with him, because usually he makes it really short. Also, we have a short break coming up and he wants to come over . Under normal circumstances that's like nothing, but when you go to private school, it doesn't happen much (at least to me ).

He also asked my opinon on something, and told me that his day really sucked (but he wouldn't tell me why )

I'm really confused right now, I think he was kidding, but it gave me false hope again, and since before yesterday I was sort of trying to bury the crush, I'm not sure if this was good or not.

I really want that hug too

very confused- adam