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Okay so not sure what the hell this weekend will be like. Tracey is due down for her visit sometime today. That is the good news. Dad went to his doctor's appointments today. That is the bad news. His primary finally got all the results back from the testing done in the hospital. Evidently dad is still leaking blood from somewhere. They suspect from his aneurism so he is being sent to see a vascular surgeon. His primary wants the surgery done asap. Originally we were left with the impression that the surgery would be done the end of September, maybe even in October. Now we know it is to be done as soon as they can get him and a surgeon together. So if my stuff is even more sporadic than usual, well at least now you know why.

Lord I must look like the king of lists but um here goes another one. Shelly - Glad to see you here. Thanks for the lesson on berries. I didn't know about them either and for me I am just one country below never mind across the pond. Bee - Not sure what to tell you. I know hugs and prayers aren't your thing. All I can say is I'm thinking of you and hoping things get better. Mark - As always hang in there. I know you are dealing like most of us and taking it one day at a time. Joann - Always happy to see you leaving words of support. Glad you stopped in. Harcallard - Hope you are hanging in there. Yettie - Still saying prayers for you and your family. Cancer is a scary thing. Keeping you in my thoughts. If I am not around for the next few days well have a few things come up. A close friend is coming for a visit and dealing with the discovery from Dad's doctors. Evidently he shouldn't have been sent home as he was. His primary is getting him a vascular surgeon and he will be undergoing surgery within two weeks if at all possible sooner. Originally we thought it might be the end of September or October. Things change fast. If you can spare any good thoughts or prayers I'd be most grateful. In the meantime keep your chin up and just keep on keeping on. Love to you all and a to those that need them.

Geez. Are we getting to sound like an old married couple?

I'm luckier than most people. Some people collect toys, games, or maybe books. I'm lucky, I collect people that become really close friends. Seven years ago, god where does the time go, a very special young lady began working with me at my job. I didn't know it then but she would become very important to me. She didn't drive and I didn't know all the bits and pieces of her life. She lived close to thirty minutes from where we worked and on more than one occasion I gave her a lift home. We became friends. Then her grandmother died and our worlds sort of collided. I was there for her and supported her. I watched as she grew up, came into her own, and became a beautiful young woman in her own right. I have been lucky to call her friend. She returned the favor when my mother passed away and she dropped everything to be at my side and support me. At work people swore we were dating. Tracey ran with the joke and began calling me husband. What is funny is she has been dating the same guy since she was 16. After many years, he finally proposed and she accepted. The thing is we are more like father and daughter than husband/wife anyway. With all that has happened with my father I was depressed by having to cancel her visit down. My "wife" isn't one to give up easily. Knowing she can't stay here, she simply told her fiancee they were coming down and is renting a room for the weekend. While down she is here to show me her ring and figure out if I am going to be walking her down the aisle (which I've told her should be done by her mother) or acting as best man (which is something I think her fiancee might have someone else for) but I know I'll end up in the wedding party and I couldn't be happier for her. So even when everything else is falling apart around me, sometimes good news is enough to turn your day around and just make you smile. Hope you are all having a good one.

Figured I would join the bandwagon and wish you a Happy Birthday Shadowgod.

I look it at this way. First you have to know who you are. Once that happens you begin to tell the people you love and trust - maybe not all at once but you will eventually. Sometimes it is your friends that are told first. Family comes when you feel you know what their reaction might be, or when you feel it will come from someone else first. But the one who has to be ready for anything is you. Being gay is part of who you are. I'm sure you mother is dealing with what she perceives are her failings which "made you" gay. She is still clinging to the hopes and dreams she had for you, not the reality of who you are and what you want for yourself. Smile, nod, and live your life. She will catch up eventually.

Running late as usual but Happy Birthday Jammi.

Yettie, Ouch. Cancer is a tough thing to deal with. It has a tendency to show up in families. Cancer and heart disease show up all over my family tree. My grandmother died from it. It was horrible watching a robust woman slowly seem to fade away before you while the cancer spread throughout her body. Breast cancer is getting to be very common, in both men and women. It is not something to play games with. Cervical cancer and prostate is also growing. It had to be hard but in many ways if your mother was going to learn about them having cancer, better from the source then from you. You will have enough just picking up the pieces. Thanks for the kind words. It is true, often the care giver falls to the way side as they put all their energy into watching and caring for whoever is sick. Remember your words of advice and take a little time for yourself. I might have had to cancel the weekend visit with woman I consider a daughter but I'm still taking time to go meet her and spend at least one day together. I need it do it for me. My best to you always. Just remember to keep hanging in there.

Thank you Trebs. Well was my first major work here on GA. While I usually prefer the short story form, can't complain about this one either.

i hope that means you have enjoyed your vacation. Taken some time to get your life in order, and don't feel totally stressed out. As much as I and everyone else loves your story, you still come first.

Figured I was overdue to check in so pardon me while I do my usual list of commentaries. 1) Breeze - Losing anyone you love is never easy. Each person grieves in their own way. What is impossible to see one day is your greatest memory the next. I am glad to hear you are feeling better. Any way you look it I will be keeping you in my prayers. 2) Yettie - Thank you for you words of encouragement. Trust me there have been moments in the last few weeks where I feel I am barely holding on by my finger tips, but I know I have too many people counting on me and keeping me in their thoughts. 3) Hacallard - You have been on a merry go round lately with highs and lows. Sorry things have been so rough, but remember there is one person you can always count on no matter what, you! Hang in there. 4) Joann - You have been so sweet to so many. Don't think your comments or wishes have gone unnoticed. The squeaky wheel might get the attention but the steady heart gets the praise. Thank you for your kind words and good intentions. 5) Mark - I love you and I know your time away from Stu has you climbing the walls. Just remember this job is just for the summer. Schooling is nearly done and then you two will have time enough to do whatever you wish. Till then my Nephew hang in there. 6) Mike - If you do that Stu will never finish school. I love you for the thought though. to all of you. Keep your spirits up and remember to be there for each other.

Welcome AJ. Prompts give a chance to get your feet wet so to speak. They also will allow you to see what works for you and what doesn't. In the meantime don't be afraid to begin writing your story. My biggest suggestion to you is one I offer many people, write at least a chapter or two then find yourself a good beta reader and editor. The beta will make suggestions on what is good and bad in your story. The editor will help make it shine. My best to you and enjoy it. Wayne

So either you are really "talented" or you have a very large bed.

Aww. I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this KC. IF there is anything that can be done to help let me know.

Kryshim, All it takes is time to sit down and write. Then find yourself a beta and an editor. Trust me, you will thank me for that info later. Best of luck to you and welcome to the site. Now just ignore the bad comedy and have fun.

Welcome Dave. Welcome to the funny farm. We promise not to bite, unless asked.

Lily - If you need to vent feel free. Otherwise know if you need us we are here. Mark - Glad you are climbing out of the darkness. Hate seeing you down. For those who have been following they know I have been dealing with my own crisis at the moment. Dad was bleeding internally and they released him from the hospital today. This is only a partial solution. While they stopped the immediate bleeding he has two aneurisms in his stomach area that they will have to operate on but want his body healed from round one before they begin round two. So panic one is over and now I wait for the second round. While not depressed completely stressed out and in need of some down time. In the meantime I try to soldier on. For those who have been offering support I can't Thank you enough. Just knowing someone was concerned was a big help in just keeping me focused and going. Wayne

Glad to hear from Lugh. Nice to know he hasn't given up writing either.

Figured I should update everyone. Dad had his endoscopy yesterday. They found blood pooling in his stomach and went in to do repairs. He was supposed to have his colonoscopy today, but someone screwed up and he had solid food. So now he is back on liquids and had to drink eight glasses of something to clean him out. He will have his test around 8 am tomorrow. His blood count is slowly returning to normal, Over all I am happy that things are improving. He seems to think he will be home by tomorrow afternoon. I wouldn't count on that but time will tell. In the mean time the one having the hardest time with it all is JJ. The poor dog doesn't know which end is up. She is use to his schedule, sleeping in his bed, and getting what she wants. With me she isn't being fed all the treats she normally gets, is having to sleep on my bed, and deal with my schedule. Poor baby won't be happy till she has him home. She has Dad wrapped around her little paws. Oh well. Work at some point tomorrow. They said they can flip flop my schedule if need be but I figure I will wait to see what is happening with him.

Thanks Anyta. I think everyone has one of these, I screwed up and if I had a second chance stories in their closet. Only most of us never do get that second opportunity to start over. Glad you enjoyed it.

I know there are some people who get along wonderfully with their fathers. My father and I have more of a gas and match relationship. However I try very hard to ignore the problems and help where I can since my mother passed. This week has been one trying week. Tuesday my father was very ill. He couldn't even keep water down. I wanted him to go to the doctor or the hospital but he fought me at every turn because he had an appointment with his doctor on Wednesday. Well Wednesday he seen his doctor who after checking on him suggested he go to the hospital but he refused. The doctor sent him for blood work warning him that if anything showed up he was going in. Thursday his doctor is off. Friday I get an emergency call to rush him to the hospital. They kept him in and around 2 am this morning sent him for a cat scan. His blood had very low hemoglobin. His blood pressure was extremely low and they did an endoscopy this morning finding blood in his stomach and did surgery on him. He has had three bags of blood and I have lost track of the iv bags, plus they are talking a colonoscopy to check the walls because of the amount of blood he lost and him stating there was no change in blood or stool. Sounds gross I know but more alarming is the lack of where the blood was going as it pooled. So he will be in the hospital till Monday at least. At least his nurses are sweethearts. i feel bad listening to them talk about the hours they have to work. Trust me, with a mother who was a diabetic and in the hospital more times than I can count I have always respected the nurses who work for the hospitals. They do incredible work, especially with people like my father who make terrible jokes. But then again it might be the opposite thing with me and my father. Thanks for letting me rant. If you can spare the prayers or good wishes, well I appreciate them. Wayne

Sorry trying damn hard not to slide there with all going on in my life. So going to drag both your asses out of it. Cry if you need to, scream too if it helps, but so help me God you wallow in it and my size 9 1/2 feet are going to make some interesting marks on both your tushes. Got it! Mark and Cassie you are both too good to lie down and let life run you over. Mark crying is nothing more than letting the emotions out. Nothing unmanly about it. Hell if you didn't cry we would worry about you. Cassie, I'm sorry you have been dealing with so much. Trust me, I get it. I get worried about anyone who slides down, but worse when they seem to wallow. A slide is fine, but wallowing isn't. Hang in there both of you.

We won't discuss the men she keeps in chains. Shameful. lol

Thank you Joe. I try my best and ultimately it is the reader who decides whether they like the story or not.

Well you definitely took the prompt and made it so much worse. Just think he went from being upset because he was gay to feeling worse cause he caused that poor girls unhappy death. Yeah, I doubt I would be that calm if I was Josephine's father.