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What am I going to say that wouldn't sound callous ? Kevin was tired of living his life with a long term illness, maybe if he had counselling he would've made it through that difficult day in his life, BUT that would be a huge maybe (I understand all 'what ifs' are useless) ... he didn't love himself enough and he didn't love you enough to choose life; and that was his choice. I would've screamed and shouted in his face, but again what would've been the point? In a fucked up way, he felt closer to you than anybody else in the world so he wanted to be near you when he died; he didn't care enough that this would hurt you so badly, so cruelly ... at that point he was being selfish. Ten years and you're still thinking of him, I just wish him peace at wherever he's at now. For you I could offer no other comfort than

I love pickled daikon, to me it's doesn't give off a strong smell at all ! Well, one man's meat is another's poison ...

It could be a vicious cycle ... well, in the story, hopefully Chris' therapist would help him out of this ...

I have only spent 3 to 4 sessions with a psychologist up till this stage of my life, so I've no in depth knowledge on this matter; but I suspect Chris had to wallow a bit in his guilty phase before he could move forward with his life. It would be unrealistic if he had an epiphany and then became a totally great guy ... As for his mother, I also think along the same lines as @centexhairysub She might have been horrified by the consequences of her actions ...

After reading the comments, I now understand more of the meaning of those verses. And I make a solemn promise to myself, never subject another person to the silent treatment (unless they are monsters themselves) ... I haven't realised how cruel it could be ...

Whew! Glad that's over. Now it's on to New Years Eve in Chicago! Wait? What do you mean, Wait? You mean there's more drama to be had in Texas, before we even get to Chicago. Will it never end? Please post your "comments" and don't forget to "like". Jim Dear Jim, Is that a spoiler alert ? A lot of ground was covered in this chapter. Paul seemed overwhelmed by the gifts that he and Maria had received from various members of the Adams Family <finger snap, finger snap> I hope the two of them would be able to work around this touchy issue ... O M G, it must be a miracle that Jeff and Paul didn't die of embarrassment when Maria pointed out the evidence of their fun time in the shower ... it was mortifyingly hilarious ! Okay, bring on the drama and let's see how it would go ! Best regards, Hoho

Really ? Better looking than the firemen ?!!

My heart yearns for that spark, that moment that seemed to never be ... that they would finally connect, despite the odds, despite everything ...

At last Bailey had opened the door a crack for Declan, what would come of it ? Whatever had happened to Bailey before, I suspect, had been more than the usual taunting, manhandling or bullying; did it involve Mason ? The joint practice session of the two teams should be interesting ... The path of their friendship would be riddled with obstacles, hopefully @craftingmom would be gentle with them ... but we'll have to watch this space ...

All of us will have bled inside at one time or another, writing it down is one of the ways to deal with it ... Letting wounds (even those unseen) fester is not ...

I've commented that this is the least angst ridden story of Ronyx's collection but it is not angst free ... Reggie was slowly coming to terms with the idea of coming out to those close to him; he did have the right attitude of this shouldn't be anybody else's business. What he wrote in his journal gave the impression that he was a sweet, quiet, thoughtful and shy boy; with a weird sense of humour ... we would see him grow up a little more throughout his journal writing period, kindly bring on the next chapter

Very true Gary, life is about achieving a balance in every aspect ...

I am NOT going to perform a happy dance, for fear of antagonising those of us not on board with Team Aleksiam ... but I too feel suddenly warm, despite my air conditioner working overtime, at the end of this chapter !

May your troubles be over soon and a smile will grace your day I will sing you Looney Tunes to keep your misery at bay

I think I could confidently say that we're all surprised by Raymond's revelation of becoming a father soon ... I think Daniel treated this bombshell really well and with a quick wit as well ... Hopefully Raymond would get his wish granted and have a full family before long. So, more gay cowboys on this ranch, they're coming out of the woodwork in droves ... Still waiting for that Christmas dinner at Joe and Mellie's ...

Like @Tazzle001 I'm a bit concerned about the fireworks (of the temperamental kind) between Rosarita and Paul ... hey you two, dial down the bitching ! But at least both were getting some ... I hoped the teacher that "Bumpkis the shit" had mentioned would eventually recover ... the evil Mayor and the dead ex-Sheriff had a lot to answer for. What are the "coyotes" mentioned and their connection to human trafficking ? About Daniel's father and Fred (I've to go back a couple of chapters and find out who he was) ... well I agree with you @sojourn his father had just a wee bit too much to drink ... Well, bring on Christmas sir and let's find out what shenanigans would take place !

Bumbling Bumpkis really was a greedy, disgusting, rotund piece of sh-t ... what he wouldn't do for the money ? Wow ! A baby brother for Maria ! And everybody in the Adam's camp would become a Santa's helper ... good for them ! And the tone of the story changed so abruptly once Paul and Jeff went inside that bedroom; then I needed a cold shower after reading through that scene but the chapter ended with a sweet romantic sentiment for Paul "home is where the heart is" Aww ...

Things seemed to be progressing very quickly in this chapter ... Big changes for Gabe indeed, I feel a bit overwhelmed just reading about the things he was facing; imagine Gabe living through it. Derrick had his own new set of challenges at work to go through and even Cass had to face a different school environment ... upheaval indeed for the whole family !

Within one's vision but out of one's grasp ?

A very late birthday wish to you Graeme ! Many happy returns !

Not all things evil are devil's spawn Not all demons are evil drawn From what recollection I have of the Adam chapter, his uncle was the epitome of evil - oh the things that we humans do and the poor excuses that we hide behind for those horrendous acts ... Is there a specific meaning to "trifecta", maybe I should google the word ? I'm so glad that the three would have an eternity to enjoy each other ... Ah yes, die you evil bitch, turn to dust and be gone ! One last thing, and this question shows I'm suffering from the early stages of old age, what is the "sparkle", must have missed it in the chapter ? Thank you @aditus

Oh I like the story very much ! Brian, his boss Leo and the whole team kicked ass (or arse) so that was awesome ! I even love the part when Charlie held Brian in the shower, calming him through his mini-breakdown; I'm really a sucker for this type of tender moments ... the sex scenes sizzled but my over engaged mind went looking for other things not even written ... meh ...

What I find fascinating is the way you understand teenagers, so much so that you've written a journal, if not exactly, then really close to what a real life Reggie would have written ... Most of what Reggie had written was sweet but we'll see how it goes ... @Rndmrunner really hit the nail on the head by commenting on how it is more difficult for you to advance the plot using this format ...

As I said in my comment for chapter 5, Chris was crushed and overwhelmed by his guilty conscience, so much so that he was driven to the brink; but luckily he talked with his therapist about it and received the help he needed ... Chris needed to find a place in his confusing world, where he would be accepted, I suppose more so as he was a wolf and they need their pack. All that he had known before, people and situations which had been familiar were all thrown upside down upon reflection. So here he was, with a second chance, trying very hard to be seen as useful, contributing to, hopefully, his new pack. He had set his expectations very low, so I believe he would be pleasantly surprised. We shall see ...

The first poem talks to me about trust and love that requires trust and the tentative steps in that direction ... For the second poem, I feel the power of anger, disappointment, disdain and all kinds of negative emotions directed at us, humans / society who are mean, cruel, greedy, hypocritical ... but please do not lose hope ... here and there, there are still sparks of real compassion and goodness ...