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agreed just go in the buff, daisy dukes are best left to ... well... daisy duke

Saturday night I was at my uncles house, they surprised me with a strawberry cake. It was cool there were candles, three of them anymore and the fire marshal would have been called, and people singing happy birthday. I had a few beers and tried to relax in the spa as my cousin spouted on about the end of the world in 2012. Not my belief, but hey who am I to deny him is above just saying to him people have been saying it is the end of the world since the world began. Disney is doing this promotion right now. You sign up online, and they let you into the park on your birthday for free. Sad thing is, for those people who have an annual pass, the offer is kinda moot. So they offer annual passholders three alternate options. 1) a gift card good for the amount of admission. 2) a birthday fastpass card ( one for you and up to five additional cards for members of your party) and 3) a voucher good for 1 admission ticket at a later date. Anyhow, I went out to disney chose option 1 and went in to California Adventure for this bomb ass chicken salad they have there. Turns out one of my cousins on my dads side was at the park visiting with his family. Met up with him, then the other sister, went over to disneyland. Di dthe riding rides eating... etc. Had a dole whip and saw the enchanted tiki room staring Maynard (look him up) that was very enjoyable. Outside, my cousins two little blonde daughters decided it was time to sing happy birthday to me. Complete with the missing stanza "...May Jesus bless you. May Jesus bless you ... love you and keep you, May jesus bless you." I don't even know where to start with this... other then there is a sunday school teacher running around out there somewhere that needs a right good throttling in my opinion. However being the nice guy I am I let them sing it, several more times though out the night. I had had my fill however, when I was forced ino a large hat shaped like a birthday cake, and was assaulted by a stuffed mickey mouse that was chirping out the birthday song in all of its fading digital glory. These ... little angels thought it would be fun to hit me in the face with said stuffed novelty... Escape was stalled by fireworks... and everyone just standing watching. It looked cool... what I saw of it; I just wanted to escape. Too bad, we made it to the emporium on main street where more "browsing" took place, and said little girls got magic wands ( yay something else to assult the "birthday boy" with!! ) and of course another rousiong rendition of their "birthday song" all small world like -- never ending -- . All though this day I kept getting calls from a blocked number, WHich belongs to this guy Im intereseted in getting to know better. He was supposed to call back last night at 11ish never did. Timing sucks like that I guess. Thanks to everyone who passed on birthday wishes in various avenues. It was appreciated, even if I didnt hear from everyone *cough* Joe *cough* Dan *cough* Myr *cough* I think that was about it... Steve Oh and if anyone is interested, you should totally check out "Sometime Around Midnight" by Airborne Toxic Event. I'd youtube but those usually have shitty quality...

what are we disagreeing about exactly? I didn't allude to any position on the whole issue. I simply think such a lawsuit is frivolous and a waste of time. You want to change the national motto fine and dandy. Start a letter writing campaign. Congress set the motto, they should change it. guess how this is done? By popularity of course. Leave it on... take it off... In God ( Jahova, Allah, etc) doesn't really matter to me. I have more important things to do with my life then worry about four words on my currency.

Zealots are a group of people who, intrinsically, just can not leave well enough alone. Whether they be Christians, Muslims, or Atheists. Gay or Straight

Eric are you feeling alright? Cause damn I remember someone telling me off for going to a closed system.... Its a toss I use windows xp and vista and OS X Leopard. XP is on the desktop. Vista is on the hp laptop as well as on the macbook pro using bootcamp. All and all OSX is damn pretty but I prefer to use windows. Ive had the macbook for about 3 months and in that three months my overall computer usage has dropped. I wont list the reason as there are many little things that have contributed to this, but the biggest on ehas been the Mac experience. Its beautiful and intuitive and "almost" everything apple advertises. Still I find it just off. I would prefer to run the windows installation, but it doesnt seem to be overly stable while running on the Mac. I should try an XP installation perhaps. Then I am shallow and much prefer the dark vista themeing over the XP theming...

I like the term re-evaluate and reject. I think its good practice for people to re-evaluate what society expects of them and what they expect of themselves. One can't, however, re-evaluate an instinct. the nature of an instinct dictates it as being done without conscious thought. Wanting kids is, at base, an instinct. It is something we are all bound to want at some fleeting moment or another, even with constant exposure. It's a nice thought really. That one, inside, whispering "I can do this..." Don't lose it, and don't discount it because it doesn't fit into your life now, or what you expect your life will be later. I'm sure you will again come to a time when it is right to re-evaluate those expectations.

I'll echo the majority of what is being said, I like it, I'm just not sure of the placement.

While all the little comments are fun and cute and what not, if they are not included in a post that has a response to the topic, they are off topic and do not belong in the thread. Lets be sure to include a response to the thread with the little comments. As for me, I'd have to say Bourbon, because I think it would be fun and challenging. I am like him in many ways, and in others very different. If I was playing someone else's character? thats a tough choice because there are tons of great characters on GA.

I took a creative writing class--well workshop--last semester, did you know these things, blogs, are supposed to be carefully planned out? If that is the case, blogage = FAIL, EPIC FAIL even. I dunno I guess this would be a more entertaining blog if everything was thought out and well rendered into some pseudo-journalistic spin-off. I dunno, to me a blog should be more personal, It should be clearly partisan, and one should never turn to a blog for precise facts. That is just a fools errand. My problem is I have structuring my thoughts and feelings into something halfway entertaining. I just come off sounding like a whiny little bitch. I guess that has it's place, but not in a public spectrum. What I am saying I guess is bear with me as I try to figure out my balance of bitchy/entertaining... I started the summer session, yeah summer school , anyhow the first week one of the professors was out. In his stead was a substitute, who was barely mobile and recovering from back surgery mind you, and a rambling fifteen page syllabus. I'll take this moment, to say that his attendance policy for the summer term... A student who misses one or more classes should check their enrollment status before resuming attendance... So... basically he is saying if you miss a class, he is going to drop you. This seems an empty threat considering most Professors, and the school policy clearly state that it is not the professors job to cut your enrollment, its your own. They would rather just give you an F and screw with your GPA. Anyhow I was really hoping he was one of those people who is just a dick on paper, and more agreeable in person. Turns out he is. He is even willing to let absences slide if you are scoring well on the exams, if your not however, well that's your own harvest I guess. History is the other class I'm taking, American to be exact, colonial times to 1877. Its required by the gov because they subsidize funding or something or another. its completely online. I don't know how to feel about this, or if I am self motivated enough to pull it off. Case in point week 1's work is due tonight by midnight. I have yet to do anything other than read 2 of the 3 chapters. So we shall see... What else, oh yes. Many may have heard of my atrocious mini golf skills, a lucky few have even bore witness to this first hand. I have great news! Apparently I mini golf a helluva lot better after I have had a few beers . #2 get well... I know the hotel was getting on your nerves, but really a hospital is just the same, but without the smiling desk staff and knocks to announce housekeeping. Instead you traded down to Nurse Ratchet and bad food. Then again, I have heard great things about sponge baths.... fill me in when you are able won't you? Lastly I have a question. What do you guys think of Babe vs Baby? Personally I'd rather hear Babe, the latter grates on my nerves for some reason. What are your thoughts? Steve

90 million? there is a house in the LA hills. It's amazing. Its just been listed for 15 million, and would take substantially more in ongoing restoration efforts. I'd buy that, and pay for school, and a car. After that I don't think there would be much left. the house though is amazing and it has all sorts of Historical landmark designations. It was designed and built by Frank Loyd Wright for Charles and Mabel Ennis. yeah that's about it.

I still think he should ditch the stripper and go back to San Francisco.... I may be biased though

I have no idea what you are talking about

I had an odd dream last night. Well, not so much odd, for me, as unexpected. For some reason whenever I dream about a home, it's always my aunts house. The one I moved out of some 5 years ago now. It does not matter if the home is supposed to be my home, or someone elses home it's always that particular house. Anyhow I dreamt1 of it again last night. In this incarnation, it was not my home, nor was it my aunts home;it was the home of a guy I was interested in. He seemed happy, content even. Hell, I was happy. Just something seemed off about it. I don't know if it was the familiarity of the house. Maybe it was being in that moment, when the moment can't exist outside of Nod's realm. Maybe it was the older man two rooms away. He said nothing to me, just watched like a lion in the grass, and a thin whisp of cigarette smoke. I don't know what the symbology of this all means. I could venture a guess or two, or simply say: a dream is a wish your heart makes... I dunno though, that all seems so cut and dry, the dream seems more complicated then that. In other news... I've been chatting with this guy, It's become clear that he is more interested in me than I am in him. I don't want to be a dick and say yeah this isn't gonna go anywhere, but sometimes we have to be a dick to get our point across yes? Steve 1 For all you grammar nazis I checked and dreamt is an acceptable past tense term for dream, so is dreamed... that one just sounds ill educated to me for some reason. ... I've been in school too long if I'm including foot notes on blog posts.

It has been quiet in here. I suppose that is majorly my fault. I could say nothing has been happening, but that is a lie. A lot of things have happened in the 8 weeks since I have written anything round here... The spring semester came to a close, I only managed a 3.15 GPA for the entire semester, so I dunno what to think about it, good on one hand but meh I could do better. I should do better. Doing so wouldn't take much more effort on my part. Im a year away from transfering to the University. This is both exciting and scary at the same time, but Im looking forward to it more than anything. Mostly because it is all there is to look forward to pretty much. That sounds bad I guess, but its what it is. I hate coming online anymore. I dunno why it happened but everything feels so strained. Its weird to see a list of people I used to talk with on a daily basis. I'd like to talk to them, but I dont want to "bother" them, and some days its seems like that is all I do is bother them. So I stayed away for awhile trying to avoid all this awkwardness and loaded silences. It didnt work so well for the most part, conversations are strained, they end unexpectedly... and I end up feeling like the bad guy. I made some choices and for better or worse they were my choices. Not the choices of another person or what not. I dunno where Im going with this, I guess I sometimes just dont feel all that welcome here anymore, and I know its has nothing to do with anyone here, its something inside me. Its dumb, I go through phases where Im all into something. I work hard at it and what not, but there comes a time when something else catches my attention and I move in that direction. Im trying not to let that happen here. Im trying to get rid of this disconnect I feel, but it seems like Im the only one who is trying. Again this is an issue of my own design. I just don't know if I've burned all those bridges.

I havent been going nuts.... I went already and came back

Surely goat you aren't condoning cannibalism?

3 admins 3 mods I knew I should have started this thread the other day just so you could have the knowledge of it hanging over you... happy B-Day Eric Steve

The doctors and interestingly enough the damn wii fit as well, all say I need to gain weight. yet I look at my stomach and am convinced I need to loose some. Its kinda screwed really.

figured Id share again... its huge, but tough Im too lazy to re size it Anyhow, it was taken this past weekend on a daytrip down to the shore. Steve

So here is an interesting exchange that happened between one of my co-workers and I this afternoon. He was a little apprehensive, apparently he had made plans with another coworker--We'll Call him Coworker #2--to go to the gym and workout. It didnt work out too well and he ended up standing up COwroker #2, so he was scared that #2 was going to be all made and cause some friction in the work place. Well coworker #1 had some issues with his phone and by the time he got them resolved there were a few text messeges and a few voice mails from coworker #2 asking if they were still going to the gym. Coworker #1 tried calling back but his calls went unanswered. A few hours later Coworker # 2 Tries to call back, but #1 answers the phone to late. He tries to call back, and it only goes to voice mail. He was explaining all this to me , and I'm fairly sure that by the last call #2 was looking at his phone all "f**k that Bitch..." About this time, I mentioned to #1 that he better be careful, because #2 was gonna get the pink mafia on him. He responded, Ohh get him boys, in an effeminate voice with a laugh trying to dismiss threat. I warned him not to laugh it off, not all of them are like that, they could send the leather Daddies after him. He laughed and mentioned He doesn't know what a leather daddy looks like. I told him he'll know them when he sees them I think I'd rather enjoy seeing that. #1 is definitely cute, and definitely dangerous. and sadly straight... not that it matters that much. If he was otherwise inclined, I could get into a lot of trouble. Somehow in all his little sexiness I believe he would be worth it. anyhow... that was the fun today, catch ya'll on the flip side Steve

WHat do you want it changed to from rather? I can take care of that. After all Joe will just tell me to do it anyway Steve

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Happy Birthday maddy. Hope you have a great day! Steve

I don't understand it. I guess it isn't something that can be understood, because in order to understand, an uncomfortable conversation would have to take place. Questions would have to be asked... questions that in all likelihood have no answers. So, in turn, we accept silence. Silence is easier... Well, silence sucks; the void created is only filled with self doubt. I thought I was over this years ago. I thought the whole angsty part of my life was far removed from the routine of my life, yet as I lay in bed most nights the same question chews at the back of my psyche. "What the hell is wrong with you?" "NOTHING!" I know that is what a fair amount of you are screaming at the screen right now, or at least whispering in your mind. I'm willing to bet that you are following that term up with "You're a great guy..." Please don't say that. I don't want accolades. I want brutal assessment. I don't want that sappy comment that one feels they need to say when someone is kicking themselves. More-over I just want a hey how are you doing... and not from the usual suspects. I know who cares about me, and lately I know, brutally, who doesn't... and that sucks worst of all. It makes me feel a million degrading things about myself. Which is probably all me over reacting and over thinking the situation. I know I do that, and I am sorry for it. I'm sorry I am not confidant enough. It sucked that I couldn't be the man you want... but what really hurts is I'm not allowed to be a friend. Maybe that too is me over-thinking crap; maybe our definitions of friend just differ, cause after all we are good... Actions, speak louder than words. I understand that, this bitch that is life keeps teaching me that. What I don't understand however, is all or nothing. All or nothing can kiss my ass. Sorry, this isn't what I wanted. I just... I'm sorry. I told you anything you need, ever, anytime... the offer will always stand. It's just the silence. I hate the silence. The monster attacks in the silence.

No Carl, NO tequila is good, or great or anything other than bad Bad BAD! Thanks for the heads up Vic, unfortunately I know tequila is bad. I just forgot that tid-bit around beer #6 and still didn't recognize that fact several shots later I'm not Eric, the liquid makes me black out and loose several vital pieces of information. It may sound like a generalization on the surface... but it isn't tequila is bad... at least in regards to me it is. Waking up with out having remembered going to bed is bad I don't care how it is rationalized. No no Dan unfortunately... or wait, maybe that is a benefit to me Steve #2 keep your taquitos and your nice Mexican liquor... I curse the Agave! I'm lost as to how Benji can support me... No there will be no need for shirts that read "don't Tequila the shadowgod!" Trust me, standing orders have been issued to knock me upside the head should I ever think tequila is a good idea.