JamesSavik

Which story are y'all talking about?

I called the dog "Shay" because I had an ex named Shay who was a dog. In fact I caught Shay humping quite a few legs before I threw him under a train.

You can't be too angry. *spoken by a guy who was asked to leave hell because they were afraid that he would take over*

he looks like the kids I used to shake down for lunch money

Actually- its very easy to build the database. You simply enter the ISBN or Lib of Congress catalog number- a query is sent to the database and POOF! There's a record. The more you have, the longer it takes but its worth it. Library thing has a limit of 200 records for free accounts but I paid $25 and have a permament account.

If he's wearing a red shirt, he's a dead man

That's not much these days since everything sucks and the world is circling the bowl. My library is bad assed. It gives me something that I can get lost in for days. There's a web site called Library Thing that lets you build a a online database of your books cross linked to user reviews. You can gaze upon my library in all its glory and despair here. Everyone should have a database of the contents of their library. It's good to have over and above the insurance purposes. It's important to know what you have. It prevents duplication when you go on a Barnes & igNobles frenzy and face it- who doesn't go nuts when there are piles and piles of books that you haven't read and there's earth shaking knowlege to be had. Who hasn't impaled their Visa card at Borders or Books-a-million. I confess: I have a club card for all three. There is power in knowlege and I am powerful. Now if I can just stay sane, I might just amount to something more than the angry depressed web guy that I've been lately. The holidaze are over so things are looking up. trying to end on a positive note: when you don't have any friends, you don't spend to much on Christmas. L8er

Chicken Salad *runs from large hurled objects*

I've been to hell. They asked me to leave when it became obvious that if they let me stay in six months I would be running the place.

Screw "being supportive". Tell him if he wants a b*tch that he's got the wrong orientation.

I agree- the best room mates are NO room mates. If you must have one to make rent, that's another issue but I believe in being self-sufficent. I don't put myself in the position of needing to depend on anyone else because people suck and you will be disappointed. If you depend on someone else to make rent, a ride to work or anything else, make it your business to become self-sufficent ASAP because it is only a matter of time until you get burned and you can be burned badly.

One of the big bones of contention over Collision was how dark we allowed the plot to get. Some of the authors wanted it to stay rated G. I like to address sociological issues/social trends in my writings- prehaps allowing some people to see how the other half lives or see something in action that they've only heard about and probably never thought much about. When I suggested that one of the characters had been abused and filmed under the influence of the date rape drug (GHB) as a possible MOTIVE some of the other authors responded like I had cloven hoves and a forked tail. Then we had the old debate: if you write a murder mystery are you advocating homicide or is it simply an element of the plot. Some people have a real problem with that. If you are going to do a collaboration, then you've got to know where the boundaries are. Otherwise it will be the seeds for a fight that could potentially wreak the project.

Only y-o-u can choose to allow yourself to be abused. You can tell them to get lost at any time. On the other hand you might consider yourself lucky to have some friends around. Most of mine have been dead for years and its during the holidays that I really miss them.

I hate boy bands. It's not they they aren't cute and all- their music is usually sugary sweet crap. Listen to some Bay City Rollers, Leif Garrett's band from back in the day and one of the first "formula" boy bands- and see if it doesn't make you want to hurl... despite an obviously talented shirtless Leif. Boy Bands target market are 10-14 year old girls and it sounds like drivel to more mature ears.

In a second. It sucks to be gay. We are stalked by our very own special, incurable virus that can kill you all sorts of agonizing ways. We face all kind of discrimination from day 1, many of us are abused horribly in the guise of loving dicipline to motivate us to change. Not to mention it's so hard finding a mate that's not promiscious, mentally scarred and/or screwed up. In my experience the pain of being gay far outweights any joy that goes with it. This is of course a generational thing. Many kids (thirty and under) have grown up in very different conditions in which they were accepted for who they are. Their answer will be quite different.

Thanksgiving to New Years sucks. It's the time of year for drooling sentimentality that makes me want to slap the shit out of low brow yokels humming Jingle-bells. I want to murder those bell ringing f**kers at the mall and set them on fire. Why do I hate the holidays? It's the time of year when your're supposed to get together with old friends. Have a drink or ten, party, make a jackass of yourself- all the stuff I used to be so good at and enjoyed immensly. What if all your old friends are dead? What if you watched them all die one by one in the eighties and early ninties? I'm at a weird age for a gay man in my part of the country. I'm sorta like the last of the Mohicans. All the other gay men, or at least the ones with the guts to be out, my age are either long gone or long dead. That'll f**K you up. You start wondering why you survived when so many others died. How did I get lucky? Or are the lucky ones already gone? What did I do for Christmas? I looked up the squares of my old friends on the AIDS quilt. I probably would have cried but I think my pain receptors are burned out. I no longer have to do drugs to avoid feeling anything.

I am concentrated evil. It is more of a matter of finding an editor that can tolerate me.

I've done one- Collision. Created the writers guidelines, characters and set up. Recruited many of the authors. Won't do another one. Creative people are arseholes... myself included. Espically me.

I saw something like LabView for Dummies at Barnes & igNoble over the weekend. My understanding is that LabView is a language well suited for data manipulation/reduction and stats. If I had to learn it, I'd get the Dummies book first. It'll be cheaper than the higher powered books on the market and it will offer a good into. If you need more, goodness knows there is plenty out there.

It'll get better.. Oh really? How is that supposed to happen? When you've seen dream after dream go up in smoke. Everything you care about is gone. Everyone you care about is dead. How is it f-ing supposed to get any better. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem... A temporary problem? I've had to fight every f-ing day of my whole life for the right to exist. How is that a temporary problem. You've got so much to live for.. You can f-ing have it. Life is sacred... That's a joke. There are places on the planet that will have you shot and charge your family for the bullet. America is more subtle about destroying life but its the same game. You hurt your loved ones... You mean the parasites that suck the life out of you? In the end what is there left to hang onto? Love? Hope? Those things are dust and ashes. What do you hold onto in the dark of a sleepless night when everything is gone? Hate and Rage. The rage for revenge. The hope of causing pain and misery to your mortal enemies. The chance to live to piss on their graves. The possibility that through guile and treachery one day you'll get to see the look in their eyes when you put the blade between their ribs and twist it. That's enough for now.

Why fight it. I'm evil. I'm a bastard. Your suffering makes me laugh. I stomp the brains out of puppies and kittens. I push old ladies into traffic. I think starvation in Eithopia is a hoot because there is no food there and the f-ing idiots hang around waiting for it to show up. I like wars because they test my latest technologies and the lame f-kers don' survive. I say nuke the f-ing whales. What did they ever do for anybody? I eat beef and punch vegatarians because they are wide gaping pussies. I slap preists because they molest little kids. I slap nuns because... they just bother me. I like cold steel because it cuts the worthless and weak in half. I like smart bombs because nothing is more useless than an explosion that doesn't kill people or break things. I like cluster bombs because they are real crowd pleasers. I like the classics: although its out of fashion, we really should bring back napalm because it sticks to kids. I like hard radiation because those who aren't used to it puke like little girls on a rowboat in a hurricane. I like mass executions cuz the tailgate parties are the bomb. I like bio-warfare agents because they kill mass numbers and leave their wealth in tact. I like Joe McCarthy because shaking down rich hollywood sh*theads never gets old. I like Israel because nobody kills ragheads better and makes it look easier. I like South America because if they hate somebody down there, they just shoot them in the f-ing head and call it a day. I like Russia because they kill their dissidents or send them to Siberia instead of giving them talk shows. I like France because they are some of the most ruthless f_ckers that have ever walked the planet and everybody thinks that they are civilized. I like Germany because everybody thinks they are green passificists and they have the most lethal tank on the planet. I like the British because they know how to kill people and break things, stop for tea and then give 'em some more. I like Sam Kinison because he's the funniest guy in hell. Joe Stalin and Adolph Hitler were pansies compared to me. I want to destroy your world, ruin your economy, shatter your dreams and make YOU cry. I'm a republican bastard who is going to find a way to get rich, not pay President Osama's taxes and shit on your politically correct world.

No but the reek of bullshit is too much to bear.

Comment deleted. It's my blog. If your going to post bullshit in it, it will be deleted.

Bond- There is an old saying: there are no atheists in foxholes. For those who are simplistic enough to be lieve that all the right has going for it is anti-abortion, anti-gay racists, just keep on thinking that. Some of the most anti-gay racists are conservative democrats from the South. The tame leftist media isn't going to show them to you because they aren't eveil republicans. The influence of those groups is diminishing. The socially liberal/moderate libertarians are on the rise. There will be a new republican party and the evangellicals aren't invited. JS

Most of you were children when Clinton ran the country with trial balloons and focus groups. You probably remember Bill Clinton as a guy who played the sax on MTV, liked to get hummers from interns, got in trouble for getting spoo on a blue dress and was married to that horrible b*tch senator from New York. The same one who was just thrown under the democratic primary bus by the failed President Elect Barry O'bumble. You are probably too young to remember how Clinton betrayed gay voters not once but twice. Clinton got a lot of support from the gay community and he had to give us something but what would it be. It couldn't be anything of substance. Gay issues were too unpopular and would come back to bite him. It was simply too politically loaded to allow gays to serve openly in the military so Clinton did the most nothing that he could get away with: that's how we got Don't Ask and Don't Tell. He did this in the early weeks of of his first term so that it would give voters plenty of time to forget about it. It has really not changed the culture of the military because they still ask and if you don't tell the truth they call it perjury, hang a felony on your ass and a dishonorable discharge. Clinton's second betrayal of his gay supporters was signing the DOMA (Defense of Marriage Act) which makes passing gay marriage/civil unions, nearly impossible, even more difficult. What you don't remember is how democrats operate when they are in power. Screw what they said that they were going to do- everybody knows that democrats lie to get elected and the media lets them get away with a wink and a nod. Democrats do what is popular. Whenever a democratic president is about to make a decision, the staff conducts focus groups and leaks various versions of the plan to the media called trial balloons. The decision is based on not what is right or best for the country, not on the basis of core beliefs or ideology but what is popular. Yes- that's right. Democrats are constantly running for office. They will always do what is popular because to democrats what is good for the country is for democrats to stay in power. You will never see a democrat take a tough stand on an unpopular issue. Democrats are political yes men: they will always tell you what you want to hear. They will tell you that they will lower taxes. They will tell their special interest group voting blocks that they are going to get whatever it is that they want. THEY WILL ONLY DELIVER ON THESE PROMISES IF IT IS POPULAR, PRINCIPLE BE DAMNED. That is why we will be betrayed by the new, failed Obama Presidency. Gay Rights issues are never popular. Here is how it is going to play out: we will be told that they (congress & the administration) are too busy with the economy to get to gay rights. It'll be put off and put off. Then we'll be told that the administration will make it a priority in the second term. If indeed he wins a second term, the democratic party will put pressure on him to leave it alone because we'll be facing a close election in 2016 and gay rights is never popular. We might get another little symbolic nothing like don't ask, don't tell but you can forget about all of those campaign promises. Ain't gonna happen. Not now. Not next term. Not as long as democrats are chasing popularity and their next election.