Nephylim

Goddamit. This just so totally sucks. Can't he send the story to someone else to post under a different name so that no one will know it's him, someone who won't care about what anyone says about them. I mean, hell some of my stories are so much worse than that.

Darling that was beautiful. Who gives a damn about disappointments when you have that. I only wish you could rush in like a knight in shining armour and sweet him off to a castle on the hill with a raibow flag and a drawbridge. :2hands: Keep heart, someday maybe you will Or maybe he will He is, after all, king of your heart

I'm sure you're all very bored by now with my sudden splurge of blogging but I just wanted to say that i've taken the job. Three days a week 9.30 to 3. I'll always be home for Efan and I wil always have a day off tomorrow. Still plenty of time for writing and painting but with a cheque at the end of the month. I am SO excited about telling the Benefits Agency where to stuff their benefits. There is nothing beneficial about them at all. As for the morphine well, I reckon I am going to throw that into touch. It isn't really working anyway and the side effects mean that the pain is worse since I started taking it than it was before. So... what's next? I am actually quite excited at the moment even though I am sitting here with a hot water bottle on my back again.

Don't you dare I know it's not something you can control so it would be stupid to give blind platitudes. Just know that there are those out here who are thinking of you. I can't be there to give you a hug but maybe knowing that I would if I could will help just a tiny tiny little bit

Am I so predictable

Ariel is such a darling. He might not come into his own in this story but he certainly gets his chance in the next. River and Silver have a way to go but they're getting there. At least they've made some steps forward and are together again

Well, we'll see about that. River's learned a lesson but he has an even more difficult one ahead of him. How does he learn to cope with the new Silver and all his baggage. Thanks for sticking with it

RIVER I haven’t been feeling myself lately. Nothing feels right. I go through the motions for Ben but he is as heartbroken as I am and most of the time we are supporting each other. As with most children he has bounced back more easily than I have and he is spending more and more time with Jake over at Sam’s. I feel bad about it but there’s nothing I can do. I am numb. Everything is dark and everything feels wrong. I never realised how much Silver lights up my life. I am exhausted. Sam and

Well, I have green hair, wear eye makeup that would scare Alice Cooper, wear only black with slave bracelets and sometimes collars and I have two black cats. The number of kids I have who follow me shouting things like 'missus are you a witch,' or 'didn't you know Halloween is in October?' i think I'd feel right at home in your neighbourhood Oh, and when I'm walking with my earphones in and music blasting in my ears, the only way i can deal with an almost irresistable urge to sing along is to mouth the words and walk in the rhythm of the song. So yeah...

Good advice but it's a port in a storm. I am looking at it on the basis that I have my house on the market and as soon as it sells i'm free. And it's only 16 hours a week so not too bad

Getting friends to make the approach is a VERY bad idea. I know from experience. It will give the guy all the wrong messages. intune is EXACTLY right. You need to talk to him and see where it goes from there. If everyone waited until they know someone before making a move then... God knows what would happen but it wouldn't be good

I would love to live there but I have way too much 'stuff'

I guess so. We're still in negotiations but it's looking good. One thing that is adding a huge plus to the decision to take the job is that it now guarantees the trip in august I have slept ALL day today There has been two periods of about an hour each when I have been awake and now I am about to go back to bed,

I hope that's good. Thanks for the review hun. It can't help but improve from here.

You are quite right Carl, I certainly do have a full life and there's no time for blank eyes. I'm in the details stage of the Ariel painting so i will post it soon. I have pretty much decided to take the job. Yeah she's a psychotic bitch but it's a job where I can take Efan in with me if he's not well or if it's a holiday or he's ill. And we need the money. And I HATE being unemployed

I'm really glad that Dark recommended this story. It was an absolute dream. I adored Adam from the first moment we met him. It was such an inspiration that there may really be love found online. It was intersting, exciting and endearing with tight writing and excellent dialogue. I really don't have anything bad to say about it

I think this is a reasonable complaint and I would put links in my posts if I knew how, but I don't

New challenges are always a good thing. All writers need to stretch and there is always something new to learn. I learn something every day; and some of them are difficult to hear but those are the most valuable.

Oh hell, darling I sympathise in a BIG way. The only thing I can suggest is garlic and cod liver oil for the joints and a spot of lavendar on the pillow for sleep. It helps if you take a warm bath before bed with a little lavender in it. i am finding morphine helps with the sleeping but unfortunately not the pain

Well, two weeks on Morphine and what difference has it made... pretty much bugger all. In fact, if anything, it's made it worse. The problem is that I have two levels of pain... the underlying toochache that is there ALL the time, whether I am sitting lying or walking and that is much better. The other type of pain is the... being stabbed by sharp knives or burning needles kind of pain. That's the kind I get when i twist or stand up or bend or sit down. If anything that is worse because with the underlying pain gone the early warning system is switched off. I am, however sleeping all the time which means that I am spending more time unconscious and therefore pain free. I have been offered another job. Someone just rang me up today and asked me if I wanted to work for them. One huge positive... MONEY Two negatives... I've worked for this person before and she is a psychotic bitch AND... my health is going to go downhill again. MEH Why does my life have to be so complicated? Just when I was getting used to the idea of being unemployed but relatively pain free I now get a choice. *SCREAM IN FRUSTRATION* On a brighter note I've almost finished a painting of Ariel

Okay, so i added the wrong review to the wrong chapter D'uh What i wanted to say about this one was that it was a lovely story. Sometimes you can tell a whole story in just a few words... well not a few but you know... and this was one of those time. I loved the fact that Jay didn't forgive him too quickly and the way that Scott showed that he was sorry. I love the gentle way the boys react to each other and the way that the whole thing naturally unfolded. Soooo sorry about the mess up but I can't delete

I thought it was Floccinaucinihilipilification But apparently that is the longest non technical word.

Into a better place by Riley Jericho. It was intense, extremely powerful, shocking, and well written

Well, I don't have anyone at the moment and that might be an indication why

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