so i went to this partay the other day and there is this dude on the fringes of my friend circle who somehow got invited. in the past he had problem with alcohol, i wasn't really in on the story but i guess he was borderline alcoholic, vanished for a while i guess got sober. and he obviously wasn't drinking
well the WHOLE fucking time at this digger he kept forcing the "idea" of sobriety. for the sake of my friends i didn't call him out and make him seem like a douche, cause he was being a douche. he is like one of those vegan people you know who swears that vegan is the way and there isn't any other way. well this guy was preaching. i assume he went through AA which is a great thing, good job etc etc. and being able to be sober from something so sabotaging is a hard discipline and journey..and i get the whole "changed man" thing, i do i really do.
but i mean, if you're one of those people, ugh. just because you couldn't handle the heat while you were in the kitchen doesn't mean the regular people like us can't. i understand addiction is a very deep thing this and that, but he was telling me how bad alcohol (I did D.A.R.E in elementary school. i knows) was, how i should be sober and acquire clarity. i have clarity when i feel like it. he went around to all the little cliques chatting and injecting his ideas. i focused on it the whole night i hated him for it. there were even cute hipster homos there but i couldn't focus on that, i focused on sober samuel preaching his ways.
and everyone i meet in LA is like a fucking actor (or a dubstep producer lolool) and is all holden caulfield about the world. i see things in a less romantic way now, my uniqueness dribbles away i feel sometimes. my hate is existential, i wonder if that makes sense.. everything is asphalt and metal, curse words too and traffic. there is so much traffic.