What We Leave Behind
Do you ever stop to think about what you’re leaving behind?
I mean beyond money, jewels, your house, and yacht. What are you leaving that marked your place in the world that people can see and talk about?
My mum died when I was fifteen. Then I’d mostly written in school, mainly because I had to, but when she was gone, I searched the house with some feeling of desperation hoping to find a note, or letter or story. But I found very little beyond some cards with her signature.
I know a lot of writers on GA, don’t share their work with family or friends. I don’t much, it’s just not what people want to read I suppose. My husband has seen some of my poetry. So will my family see my writing here, probably not, except maybe my Gay nephew.
We don’t have any children and have no plans for them. There are reasons for that I won’t go into here. But I do have a brother with kids and Michael’s brother has them too, so we do have nieces and nephews. And while they aren’t ours, they stay with us and we see them fairly often and they ask questions. I find myself wanting them to know who I am, I mean beyond their Uncle tim who is easy to ‘drown’ in the pool!
I have for a number of years written a journal about my life, my life on the street, my escape from that life, the people that helped me—a history of me I guess.
And I think that it’s important to do that, so people will know you. I put in doodles and pictures and magazine articles, recipes of things I, and they love. Really then it’s more of a scrapbook, a memory book.
I encourage people to do that because I remember the feeling I had when my mum was gone, when I wanted her. Not rings, or gold or money—but what made her, her. And that was her words and thoughts.
And in this digital world, it’s easy to type things up, but as you do, think about saving it, but also making something physical, something they can hold onto.
Then you’ll always be within arm’s reach.
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