Ok, so the first week of school is over and shockingly enough, I haven't got any major catastophic events to write about. The work seems pretty simple (so far) and it's kinda nice not to be at the bottom of the food chain anymore. Last year wasn't so bad, as far as being a freshman went, but it's nice to be able to say I'm a sophomore.
I had a good talk with my dad yesterday on the way home from the doctors office. I had an appointment at 11 and had to leave school at 9:30, and on the way back, we talked about his attitude towards me and mine toward him. He told me that he knows how mad I am at him for not letting me get out and do stuff like he used to, but that he wants me to know that it's because he's not taking a chance with my heart.
A couple of weeks ago, I got cleared from the cardiologist to do whatever I wanted as long as it wasn't too strenuous(sp), but then last thursday, I woke up in the middle of the night and my heart was racing fast and I couldn't breathe. My dad freaked out and rushed me to the emergency room and it turned out to be nothing. But because of the fact that I have a little hole in my heart, they ran a grip of tests to be sure before they sent me home.
Well since then my dads been on the war path. He wont let me drink Red Bull, he wont let me go out and do anything(including a party I was supposed to go to last night) and he wont leave me alone. He wakes me up at ungodly hours of the night to make sure I'm sleeping okay and he's basically been driving me crazy.
At the same time, while he's busy bugging the crap out of me about my heart, he's stressing me out about school. He wants to make sure I have all of my hw done and that I'm not staying up too late. He said that if he see's me doing my hw in the morning even one time this year he's going to break my computer
So needless to say, we haven't had a civilized conversation in a while. That's why it was kinda nice to actually hear him say what's on his mind without also hearing, "If I catch you doing this, I'm taking your permit away," or "If you don't stay inside, I'll ground you from your computer." Basically, it feels like he's threatening to punish me if my heart doesn't get better. I know he's not really doing that, but that's how it feels.
Of course, having said that, he also caught me trying to sneak out last night to the party I was supposed to meet my bf at, and I got stuck here at home. He didn't ground me or take away my computer though. He just made me stay home, which was his plan from the get go. Then I had to call my bf and tell him why he's dating a total loser who can't go out and do anything. Then, being the sweetheart that he is, my bf ditches the party and walks all the way here to see me so I'm not just stuck here by myself.
So then this morningI get up and I check my email, and I couldn't believe it. I had one of the sweetest emails from someone who asked me if he could use one of my poems to take to his bf's grave with flowers and balloons. I can't believe my writing has that kind of effect on someone, and it really makes me stop to think about how lucky I am that some of the people who read my stuff found me. I know a lot of people write to thank me, but I think I should be thanking them.
Boxerdude, Xiao_Chun and Afriendlyface are awesome for having links to my stuff in their sigi's, too. I really owe them a lot for the support they've given me, and I promise to make it worth it. You're all awesome, and I couldn't ask for better friends on GA than you guys
So anyway, I worked a little on Chapter 32 of What's the difference, but then I went back to bed and had a crazy dream, then I woke up and here I am Ok, back to writing now