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Well call me up girl!

I've been doing the constant-small-meals-through-the-day thing and it's worked wonders, not only because my metabolism and energy are higher, but also because I never made food decisions when I'm hungry because really, I'm never hungry except when I wake up in the morning now (which wasn't the case when, like you, I was sometimes only having one giant meal a day). I'm really frustrated right now because I can't do hardly any exercise, but if you can build some new muscle, as I'm sure you now, that burns calories like nothing else. Good luck!

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Gosh, I wonder who's next.

i have the expository problem with my latest bit. i start with just a little action then do four times as much explaning, but it feels necessary, and it feels interesting as opposed to silly background and character voicing.

What the hell man? That's a really rough day. Doesn't everyone secretly want a new job anyway? I'm not one of these "everything happens for a reason," people, but I know that a lot of good can come out of a change of environment.

this isn't the friendly face i know; there are far too few paragraphs.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a5uect48Vcc

along with privatetim:

In light of your birthday, I will reply only in compliments: 1) You are an inspiration to complainers anywhere to buck up and realize things could be worse. 2) There's a definite glow about someone who's working her ass off and not thinking twice about it, and you've got the glow. 3) And to think, you still have time to give the veteran writers on this site a run for their money.

Something I struggle with a lot is how one person can mistreat another simply because he feels socially more adept than the other, or, in more biological terms, he's a better specimen (read: more likely to reproduce) than the other. I see in a lot of this here in Athens. It's a college town. There are a bunch of late adolescents who have nothing better to do with their energy than to assert themselves over each other. If, for example, you go for a jog and a car-full of nineteen-year-olds drives by, one of them will shout something at you, something which he would not do on his own. This behavior is somehow socially acceptable, and even desirable in some circles. So: when you insult someone, what do you insult? When you dislike someone, what do you dislike? For me, everything about a person is traceable back to history and heredity. This is an essentially determinist view of things. There is no soul, there is no self outside of upbringing and genetics. For me, to like someone means to look favorably upon his genes and how he was raised. To insult him is to try to make him feel bad because of things that were entirely out of his control. This is a bleak and uncomfortable view for many people because in this view it becomes difficult to blame someone or give someone credit. What do you think makes a person? Is there some third factor that can't be traced back to history or heredity? When does it come into play, and what makes you entitled to make such a claim? Just because you feel like you are in control, does that make you in control? (Cue Gnarles Barkley.)

Do it! I read some Anais Nin my junior year of undergrad and it completely made me resee erotica. Done right it's really wonderful, especially when the sensual and the sexual do battle for effect.

I've been recasting my undergraduate experience in terms of penance done for not trying hard in high school. They were, and I suspect will remain, the worst years of my life. I could have gone to a great university if I had worked hard. I got A's on anything I tried on, but instead of trying played video games and sulked (and masturbated). The single thing every one of the friends I envy have in common is that they've been working very hard for at least the least few years, and as far as I can tell, they worked hard without measuring themselves up against others to see if they were getting dealt a good hand or not. Unflinchingly they pressed forward until they amassed talents and money and a comfortable future, and now they're reaping the benefits. I try to think of them when I'm having regrets or feel I'm having an unlucky spell. One of the only clichés I tolerate: hard work beats hard luck.

This is so scary! It's weird how something that small can mess you up so badly. I hope he's all right

I'm weird with this. I really want to be able to write cursive well on paper, but I just don't have a steady enough hand. On a chalkboard or dry-erase board however, I have beautiful writing because that's all wrist and arm movement. (Har har har.) Also I can write backward cursive with my left hand.

Eh, tone is lost a lot online. To tell the truth I didn't mean my first reply to sound really that snarky. Reread your first reply and imagine all the different ways it could be read: one of them, when all the comments are aimed at one person, is kind of an attack. Chalk it up to a misunderstanding. And I would not describe myself as chill. Too much anxiety for that. :2hands:

The question was does she inspire you and I answered affirmatively and gave my reasons why. I just don't see the need to go through and discredit all of them. It seemes like a weird thing to do. If she doesn't inspire you, fine, you can list your reasons, but maybe don't go after others'? I'm not "fast to scratch" or "throw down the harassment card."

I... don't understand why Yang Bang is dogging my post, but cool.

i would just like to point out that Marzipan's use of "happy point" should become the official name for the green button.

Absolutely. When I first saw her I remember thinking it had been nine years since I defeated her at the end of Final Fantasy VIII. She's made a lot of things popular that us nerds have wanted to see become acceptable for years. On occasion she pisses me off, but compared to other pop divas, I think she's remarkable. I can't understand what people see when they worship someone like Britney Spears. When you like Britney Spears, you really like an entire institution: her writers, her producers, her creative team; everything in fact, except Britney Spears. She has a hand in nothing anymore. When you see her live, she moves her mouth while her track plays. Granted, an industry has grown up around Gaga, but when she sits down at a piano in the middle of her concerts, there is no question that all the production can be traced back to her. It seems like people strike a certain pose when they decry Gaga or something she does, but that's a whole other argument. But yes: I am inspired when a twenty-one-year-old girl goes on a (so far) three-and-a-half-year spree where she makes history countless times. Does she draw heavily upon artists X, Y, and Z? Well duh: it's a lineage, and I don't think she pales in comparison to her predecessors. I think she could die now and people would still, fifty years from now, compare the next big diva to her. It is true that I have heard fans say stupid things about her, but I blame them, not her. Just look at Jesus's followers.

87 with 1 mistake. that was one awkward paragraph though, especially starting with a quote. most of the time i feel like i do over a hundred like when i'm typing a block quote.

It sounded, a few entries back, like your heart was in another place anyway. I think in a week, if not already, you'll feel good about the break up. I promise not to heckle your politics until June.

I'm not going to argue with you in a straightforward sense, but I am going to add a few thoughts. -It's all too common to view former selves as more naive than present selves, but you have to remember the movement from one party to another goes both ways. Former members of A who are now members of B looking condescendingly upon Present Members of A who are Former Members of B and look condescendingly upon them. What motivated you to be liberal is not what motivates all present liberals to be liberal. -When you say Conservatism is this or that, you mean YOUR Conservatism is this or that, and in a way blind yourself to the idea that it's the same ideal held by many liberals. -When you say "The American people is letting it die, because they want to be loud an angry," it sounds like your extending the problems of a few to the many. Why give agency to a populace as a whole? Who are you to say what they want? -The anecdote of the stealing seems kind of like a non sequitur. Someone stole from me therefore I became conservative? -Conservatives are more than "Jesus lovers, Screamers, Saber rattlers, and spend cutters," but they are ALSO that. There's more along this vein but basically: I want to steer you away from seeing the transformation from liberal to conservative as from naive to learned (or some other such enlightened state). I think of the housing developments near where I live, how all the signs in front of them support conservative candidates, and how it seems appropriate that none of the houses of a housing development face outward. They all face inward. Isn't there something naive in that kind of world view? "Everyone in my immediate every day life can get ahead by working hard, therefore everyone can."

Happy Birthday.

It sounds like you're feeling better, but I still have a few things: -The moment it becomes easier is the moment it becomes less heroic. -Just as big bets in gambling are met by big rewards, so too is it so much more rewarding to have a risky personality type and be loved for it than to have a safe, low-risk personality type and to be loved for being a conformist. -For certain people, their lives are the piece of art which has more value than any other person could, and they choose it as a life partner in a very literal sense of the term: their life is their partner. In any event, if you put yourself out in the world as you do on this site, then if there is someone for you, then s/he will certainly find you. You will never have to regret that you didn't do all you could.