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Steve Jeff Joey Will Dan Robert Sungod Little Buddha Other Steve Michael My list is lacking several people vital to my happy existance... but there it is. PS. Joey, Rich says you forgot him

Oh yeah, I forgot... YOU ARE NOT AN ASSHOLE.

You know babe, from someone who doesn't have much left, and the little I do have left isn't around all that often or isn't all that great to be around, this is what I've come to know... Your 'family' are the ones you love, the ones who love you. And they love you for who you are and who you want to be. They love you enough to help you and not criticize from their perch. They believe in you, even when you stop believeing in yourself, and they lift you up when you need it. They're the people you choose to be genuine with and know you well enough to know when you aren't being so. They are the people you go to for help, even though you hate having to ask for it, and they know that too, so they offer, and then make you say yes, even when you keep saying no. They are the people that make you smile and comfortable in your own skin and proud of who you are. And when you accomplish things, big or small, they congratulate you and celebrate with you. They know what you want out of life and want to be there at the end to see you living it, help you get there. Anyway, that's what 'family' means to me. I have plenty of people I feel some responsibility to under the stigma of 'family' but it''s the ones I choose, the ones that give me all of those things, that are what make me feel like I have a family to fall back on, to be a part of, to give to. Love, Me

So Matty went to an all boys sleepover for his cousin's 7th birthday party and Rich thought it would be nice if we took Annemarie to do something since it was just the three of us without her "annoying little brother", so we took her to see Marley and Me since she'd been asking to see it for a while. We had breakfast (at lunch time) before hand and she tells me how I'm gonna cry cause Marley dies and of course I ask why we're going to see this movie then? Is it like a contest? Who can make Viv cry the most? I mean sheesh people! Must I remind you what happened when we saw My Dog Skip?! But we go... and I cry... A LOT! Like fifteen minutes, easy. Wet face, wet neck, wet shirt, ugh. AND! During the scene where Marley dies and everyone who has at least a tiny portion of a soul is sniffling, this awful man in the row behind us leans over to his wife, and in that really LOUD, obnoxious whisper, he says to her, "And THAT is why we're never getting a dog." UGH. But after that, I went and saw my little guy and snuggled him and then went to see Steve We ate, we desserted, we malled, we bookstored, we movied, we kittied, we beveraged, we did 'pick-you-up-and-spin-you-around-hugs' (me picking him up, not the other way around) and then I went back to get my little guy, my big guy, my teenager, and a partridge in a pear tree. Major bullshit drama going on at work still... whee! I like peaches... just saying. Davey gets home today!! He stopped in to say hi to me one day a couple weeks back and asked me if I had some sort of Dave-withdrawl patch on... and I said no So, I was talkig to T-ben today and he reminded me of some awesome music with awesome lyrics I haven't been listening to lately, and so on my way to work I switched CDs and found them again and also hearing a lot of other good songs I miss. Oh at least we know that if we die... we lived with passion, they said we'd burn so bright... I'm here to say that you're the star you wanna be, just open up and look inside and you will see. Someday you'll sing it out loud, someday it'll make you proud... Anyway, in Marley and Me, there was this awesome narration at the end: Loyalty. Courage. Devotion. Simplicity. Joy. And the things that did not matter too. A dog has no use for fancy cars or designer clothes. Status symbols mean nothing to him. A water-logged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you're rich or poor, educated or illliterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. How many times in your life do you meet someone that makes you feel extraordinary? Who have you made feel extraordinary today? Viv

So we're back on the P90X... my body is sore and I want to smack the dude already, but... it works so I'll do it. Rich just said I smell like a fruit roll-up (after exercising for over an hour)... Fruit roll-ups are yummy. We love Rich! So I found myself in this weird, slightly frustrating conversation at work today with the weird, clingy, slightly creepy girl I work with. Her position was this: She doesn't believe in addiction. Period. She thinks that we are all in control of our lives, choices, actions, and so anyone who has a bad habit, bad behavior, bad situation, such as using drugs, being overweight, being an alcoholic, biting their nails, smoking, is in that position because they're weak. My position is this: It is very hard for me to understand someone being addicted to something/some action because I am pretty much a control freak. I can't imagine ever doing anything to impair my own judgement so much that I lose that control, nor letting some substance have any control over me, but I am fully aware that not everyone is like me and I respect and understand that. She said she doesn't believe in depression or using depression as an excuse to overeat, drink, smoke, use drugs, etc. It was about then I told her she was full of shit, but she likes to argue. I ended up walking out on her cause my break was over, but I don't know. There are plenty of things I think people do out of weakness, but I still respect the fact that it is their choice to do whatever it is. When it comes to harming yourself somehow, and I include things like using drugs, drinking in excess, and repeatedly overeating here, I think that it's important to try and heal so you can live in a healthy way. Thoughts? Anyway, aside from that, I learned again today, that my boss is a selfish, shitty type person and that makes me pretty sad. Furthermore, I'm someone who has always refused to play the 'corporate game' and so being nice to someone I find shitty is something I refuse to do so now it turns into me being civil, but not friendly, because I have to be, and then that turns into her f**king me over like typically happens. On the plus side, I'll likely only be there another six months so, whatever, right? I got a text from Rich today while I was at work that said "Your son just said douche bag" so I sent back "WTF is going on over there?!" and he blamed Youtube. So, on my lunch break I called, and the story goes like this... They were in the kitchen and Rich was getting him some lunch, and he tells Matty to get a juice bag from the refrigerator if he wants one and Matty says, "Did you say douche bag?" and Rich says, "Did you just say douche bag?" and Matty says, "You said it" and Rich says, "Don't say that, it's not nice" and Matty says, "But you said it." So, lemme see, I've seen more movies this week, and overall I was pretty entertained/impressed. I saw Seven Pounds with the guys, and then we saw Role Models which was BEYOND HYSTERICAL, and then I saw Eagle Eye with Rich and Pineapple Express which was also really funny. I may try that duct tape and hold a guy hostage with a cactus maneuver someday Hugs and kisses, Viv

I say you return the camp shovel and shower and take the little one to buy her something... Look at me being sneaky AND effective at the same time! Hugs, Viv PS. It's people like you who should have kids, cause you'll do a great job. You can totally show him up

Mmhmm! and you were gonna give my cookies away, and you insinuated the hotel cookies were better than mine! HMMMMMMMMM! I like how you prove my point though by saying "Viv said we're going to the movies"... *Someone* has to make a decision, sheesh! Oh, and... You gave the first gifts pal, so you started it! Just remember that... but I did think of some ideas you asked me to think of Can you come back now? Viv

I'm sorry you had to work... I was really looking forward to meeting you. Maybe sometime when you have some time off to sleep and breathe and, you know, live a little, we can get together. Take it easy Viv

I like watching you smile too, so much, in fact, I remember I was touching your face... Of course, that makes me smile... vicious cycle

ooooh! MORE Michael hugs for meeeeeee! PS. I LIKE TO HUG!

I believe Steve was whisked away to become one with nature... sorry. Oh, and... WE ARE NOT TWINS!

Alright so I got nominated to write this blog because 1) It's been for-f**king-ever since I've blogged and 2) Of the four of us, I was the one who actually has a blog and internet that is easily accessible, so here goes... So Mike is here visiting! After many first time activities on his part, snowboarding and Christmas in Vegas, and then some awful sounding tour given in Korean and his mom trying to set him up with a 'nice Korean girl' (who happened to be 15 years old) he finally made it to us (aside from a few detours I managed to slip in pre-Sunday) because I'm devious like that I picked up Mike and had breakfast with him on Christmas Eve (pre Vegas flight) and then managed to surprise Steve on Friday night with Mike (which I was VERY proud of) and we picked up Mike and drove out to get Steve. When we got there, we all get out of the car to go up to the door, but Mike is worried about who might answer the door and wants to surprise Steve so I'm standing there with Rich behind me and Steve opens the door expecting to see Mike and instead sees us and is like but then Mike pops out from around the corner and it was all very cute. We went to dinner at my favorite restaurant and introduced Mike to handlebar-moustache waiter guy so every time he walked by, Mike was bursting out laughing. After dinner, we went to a movie, Seven Pounds, but I cried and then they were all uhhhh So Sunday night Steve and I went to pick Mike up and we came back here to my house for a bit to play with the GINORMOUS T-Rex skeletal model that Steve got Matty for Christmas. It was rather amusing to me to watch Rich and Steve trying to put together this 'toy' that said 6+ on the box and having trouble and Matty telling Steve to 'just bang it on the table'. Yesterday we went to Disneyland. Steve said to call and wake him up to make sure they get up, so that phone call went like this: Ring, ring, ring, ring, ring... Steve: TOO EARLY!! Me: Steve: Hello? Me: Morning... Steve: Mmhmm... Me: So I'll see you in an hour. Steve: Okay, bye. Me: Bye. So Rich and I get there to pick them up at 7:15 am cause we have to meet my sister by the 'L' Mike is making scowly faces and apparently there was some pillow fighting involved in waking him up, but eventually he was far less grumpy at us and looking like he was having fun. He totally sold out Steve who told him my sister was my twin SO WRONG, just saying... So we get tickets and we get there and the lines aren't bad at all really. Steve, Rich, and I all go to Disneyland quite often so we keep asking Mike what he wants to do/see/ride, but as it always is when I'm with a group of boys, I get shrugs all around and have to decide myself. We ride some rides, Mike is saying the only way I can make it up to him for getting him out of bed so early is to ride a ride I previously said I wouldn't ride and I'm hmmmmmmmming about that. We go on my favorite ride, and on the way off that ride, we get stopped by some Disneyland Cast Member saying that we won!!! No balloons or confetti, but we do have these snazzy dream fastpasses for you, so that was cool. It was REALLY busy by then so waiting less time in line is always cool. If you're a frequent reader of my blog, you know I don't do down (on rollercoasters, anyway) and so Steve, Mike, and Rich are laughing at me each time we end up going down and I'm saying 'OH MY GOD!!' but then we end up on Space Mountain, and mid-ride I emphatically say 'OH MY GOD!!!' again and I can hear Steve and Mike laughing at me from the seat in front of me. We finally get hungry and go to Downtown Disney to the ESPN Zone and get these RIDICULOUSLY HUGE AND YUMMY hamburgers and then head back into the park to go on some more rides. Steve keeps reminding us to use our sac(k) to store our belongings so we don't lose them mid-rollercoaster ride. We saw a big dude in a tiny shirt, some woman in Prada glasses, a Lacoste backpack, and a Gucci bag cut in line in front of us, and Mike wants to ride the big Mark Twain ship. I tell him (from the comedian a few of us saw in San Francisco) that 'you can't boat if you don't hold big erections'. So Mike and Steve are like... no problema and Rich asks if his own counts, and I'm pouting cause here we are again with me having penis envy... no big erection for me But then Rich says he'll share, cause he's always a giver like that Mike wants to know if he can push someone overboard and I'm saying NO!! but then we decide that if we see multi-label, line-cutter lady, she's going over. Mike says this boat reminds him of Titanic, and I say that if it sinks, he better be sharing his wood and he tells me in no uncertain terms that if I ever try to climb on his wood, he's pushing me off! Non-sharer of his wood! So at one point, the three of them try to gang up on me and actually make a decision that we'll go on this ride I totally hate and don't want to go on. So I'm looking at them all like... nice, just sell me out for your ammusment. So I say FINE! but if we go on this ride, there will be some activities that you all have to participate in that you might not like! So Mike asks what activities? Well, I know Rich and Steve well enough to know that dancing is a terrifying no-no so I say there WILL be a club, and there WILL be dancing, and there WILL be 3:15ing and by this time the two of them are like and saying No, No!! So, I won Rich bought the esteemed macaroon cookie he's been wanting for MONTHS, and then we left so Steve could buy some soap for his sister and then we went to The Block and had Jamba Juice. Mike and I danced cheeks to cheeks and then we saw Role Models which was beyond hysterical. I'm still not sure what to say about the Bagel Dog lady... :wacko: Anyway, so I'm sitting here in bed eating oatmeal raisin butterscotch cookies and cold pepperoni pizza for breakfast, but I'm off to shower. Hope everyone had a great Christmas! Toby, Joey, Ronnie, and Jason - Thanks for the cards! T-bear... I wish the best for you... I hope you can let the past be the past, learn from it, and embrace the future that waits for you. It's yours to make into whatever you want it to be. I love you lots! Davey - You're such a great man I'm sorry you're STILL away from home, but I know that the people you're helping are so much better off because you're there. Love you, Sweetie. Lastly, I'm doing my very best not to freak out, but I would really appreciate it if at the end of all this, I don't have to put you all back together again because someone took advantage of the amazing human being you are... Hugs, Viv

Mike, my very favorite Michael... I'm thinking good thoughts for your mom, and... Hurry up and get here already so i can hug you for real. Lots of love, Viv

...I'll talk to her *raises eyebrow*

He doesn't really stalk... exactly. It's more of a shuffle with his hands in his pockets... unless I'm making him blush like crazy and then... he walks a little faster but, no stalking.

I heard something about karaoke...

... because I am a resident of California, this is for you. For the record, I voted NO on Prop 8... as if that needed to be cleared up. Furthermore, I'm REALLY f**kING DISAPPOINTED that a little over half of the people that live in this state still find it acceptable to take, that's right, I said TAKE away the rights of another human being. Discrimination... bigotry... selfishness... arrogance... ignorance... naivety... hate... You know, I am so against these things that my brain can't even process it... It's like short circuiting as I try to figure out how this happened. I would NEVER presume to think that I get to decide what's right for someone else or that I should even get to have some input. What is wrong with people? Seriously. And then to use children... the same children that are forever the victims of our mistakes, as a reason... disgusting. I'm literally ashamed to be grouped in with these people. I apologize, I thought California and its people were better than this. Also, Rich has decided that we're doing this crazy P90X workout program where we don't say 'can't' and instead say we're 'presently struggling with' but mostly I'm just telling the guy to f**K off. I know I'm not in the best shape, but I'm pretty buff and able to be active, and this guy is introducing me to muscles I didn't know I had... Also, Tony broke up with Danielle... As far as I can tell, it was a panic maneuver... we'll see what happens. I really liked her, and he does, too, but he got scared and a case of 'grass is greener' syndrome, as far as I can tell. My new boss started on Monday and so far, so good. She's nice and smart and seems like a good person, a mom of two girls, and a lot like me and already I've helped her out enough times that I think she's suitably impressed. A HUGE CONGRATULATIONS to Comicality for having a book in print!!! Awesome! Gonna go see my Luvuh tomorrow and get pink with him My daughter got grounded for screaming, "Where did you f**king put it?!" outside and Rich heard her inside and was all OH HELL NO! Hugs, Viv PS. I'm presently struggling with the idea that I'm surrounded by people who feel like their rights and beliefs are more important than the rights and beliefs of other human beings.

You two know that you live together... right? This seems an interesting way to have this argument... all slow motion and you have to log in to get the latest insult. Just saying... Viv PS. Pfat... I like your mouth You should use it sometimes to, you know, talk to me!

My life has been pretty weird these past few weeks... almost nothing is as it should be, it seems. Davey is away for work again and it was like and eternity till I got to talk to him (a week and a half maybe) but when I did, it was perfect! There's just something about talking to him that makes me feel better, like everything will be okay, and he understands everything i'm feeling without me even having to say it... it's like he knows me or something Anyway, he should be home in less than a week so yay for that! Rich got laid off on Monday night for 'economic reasons'. Translation: his boss is a shady, dishonest person who has zero business sense and is now in some major trouble. Assuming Rich can find another job soonish, this will likely be a blessing in disguise. He lloved the work he was doing, but he hated the owner and the company and the way things ran so... I fixed up his resume and it's looking all snazzy, but if anyone has need for a good graphic artist in Southern California... let me know, yeah? Jeff is away for 5 days with his boys in tiny pants... but it's weird. He's spending substantially less time talking to me lately in favor of something/someone else, which is cool as long as he's happy, but I miss him. These people are huge parts of my life, you know? I told my job that I can work more since Rich got laid off, lucky me Yay for adulthood, right? Speaking of, the people I work with should try acting like the adults they are. OH! So the other night on my break, I wanted to go to Jambe Juice, and this guy I work with, Al, was going on his break at the same time so I offered to drive him to get something to eat since I was going, and so after we stopped at Carl's Jr. for him, we headed over to Jamba Juice. Al had told me on the way that he has a friend, Jake, that works there and that he needs to punch him in the weiner. Of course, I was sorta like but I think 'boys' and we go. I asked Al why all the weiner punching, and he said that Jake had broken up with his friend, and that was the rules. When we get there though, Jake is there working. We walk in the door and this is how it went down... Al: (dramatic pause) ... Hello Jake. Jake: ALBERT!! Al: I'm here to punch you in the weiner. Jake: *comes around from behind the counter* (To which, I'm thinking, if someone was there to punch you in the weiner, having a counter in between you two would be a useful thing) *Hugs Al* Where have you been? Al: Working. *I order, they talk about mutual friends and while Jake is mixing our drinks, I turn around and ask Al who it is Jake broke up with cause he's like got 'gay' written all over him, and Al says his neighbor, and I say no Al, I want a name! And Al says Alyssa, and I say hmmmm.* Al: I'm here to punch you in the weiner. Jake: So what time do you get off, Al? *I'm wondering at what point Jake is either going to acknowledge Al's statements or end up hiding or hurt* Jake gives us our drinks. Al: See you later... Jake So when we get back to the car I'm like "Al! What happened?!" And he says, "I couldn't do it! He threw me off with the hug!" Anyway, the next day when I walked in to work, Al was there and said to me, "The deed has been done, twice." Ah look who showed up! Seems my angel knows me too! Anyway, Tony is coming home this weekend, so yay! Hugs, Viv PS. Oh yeah... To those... people who were standing on the corner near my store yesterday with their big, yellow YES on PROP 8 signs and screaming at traffic... Did I miss the part where you get to decide what's right for everyone else? Civil rights, what? Seriously... when I see shit like that, I try to remind myself that each person is allowed to believe and think what they want, but it just makes me sad and disappointed in humanity. Progress already, will you? Besides, we're like a mile from Long Beach... really? LAME!

:hug GOOD!

No on 8!

Well, I haven't heard back from Danielle's mom yet, and I'm really not sure I want to because I'm pretty certain that she's so far gone that nothing even my great words *insert proper amount of humility here* can repair. That said... Tony did get a reply. Dear Tony, I realize that it has been several days since I received your letter and it is only now that I am taking the time to respond. I have read your words carefully and realize that you are very passionate about your beliefs. I have thought long and hard before responding because I too am very passionate about my beliefs. The difference between us though, is that you believe in the concept of God and I believe in the "Personage" of God. You believe that a person has the right to establish their own "moral" code, while I believe that God through the Bible establishes what that "code" MUST be. I truly thought about answering all of your religious opinions with the Bible, but then I concluded that I should not. I am only answering your letter because you made a mockery of all that I believe in. You even put me and the family of God on the same level as Hitler and the Nazi's. It is for these reasons that I am giving this "one time" response to your claims. However, what you believe is certainly up to you. If you choose not to believe in The God of Heaven, you are certainly entitled to do so. If you choose not to believe that Jesus Christ is God's Son, and that he died to be the Savior of the world, be my guest. God did not create us and then make us serve Him. He created us with free will, wanting us to have the desire to serve Him. Tony, I have that desire! I believe that the Bible is true! I believe that the Bible is the inspired Word of God! I believe that because the Bible says that of itself. I believe that the Bible is all sufficient because 2 Timothy 3: 16-17 says so. You see Tony, when you give an answer as to why you believe the way that you do, you respond with your personal "feelings". That's not good enough for me! When I give someone a reason as to why I believe the way that I do, I quote book, chapter and verse. If you are truly interested in the things that I believe in, I would gladly talk to you using God's Word. However, if the common denominator cannot be the Bible, than we have nothing further to say. I will just say this in closing. The Bible is not for private interpretation and God is not the author of confusion. The Bible says what it means, and means what it says. And it doesn't matter to me how many Philosophers have tried to disprove the Bible either. For as the Bible says, "Let God be true, but every man a liar." (Romans 3:4). Sincerely, [Danielle's Mom] Yikes, right? Anyway, on the plus side, I heard from my beautiful pal and that's fanfreakintastic cause I miss him something awful sometimes. Some people you just get, you know? You just WANT to love them cause they're a great person... I mean typically that's the ideal, but a lot of times you end up loving people because you're 'supposed to' which is cool, but when you find someone you WANT to love... that's just icing on the cake. Matty called me his girl today! I won't lie... I LOVED it! OH! And... I feel like I have to share this, but at the same time I want to be greedy and keep it all to myself cause it's SOOOOOOO good, but I found a new (not new to writing, but new to me) author I'm absolutely loving, and I won't even embarass myself by telling you the depths I'm going to to prove that. Anyway, totally check him out, he's f**king awesome! Matthew Haldeman-Time If you click on his short stories section down a ways, I can definitely recommend 'Two Bodies' and 'Third and Madison' and 'Who Knew' but I can tell you I've read every one and none of them will let you down! Happy Reading! Hugs, Viv

Hey, you'll be fine. I'm sans gall bladder for 13 years now... Hope you feel better like... NOW! Hugs, Viv

Sometimes I wonder, okay that's a lie... I wonder a LOT, how some people got to be parents... and I don't mean HOW, I get that part... I mean why, I guess. If you don't want to be a parent, don't have kids... seems simple enough to me, right? And, (I can't believe I just started a sentence with 'and') if you do have kids, for goodness sake, f**king take care of them and be responsible! That said... you know, I think anyway, that Tony's girlfriend Danielle came to stay with us for the summer because her Mom lost her mind. Well no, what actually happened is that she was only allowed to go home on the condition that she attend church weekly with her crazy mom, and she didnt want to, so I said she could come live here in sin with us kewl kids. So she did! And, (see above) I totally love her! Anway, about a week back, her mom sent her an email... Danielle, I am very hurt and frustrated with you right now. I am so hurt because I thought that finally our relationship was moving to a little better place. It has been extremely strained since the move. And let's not beat around the bush. Let's just say it how it is. I am frustrated because since your move nothing I say is right. But if Tony says it then it must be true. I tell you things and you talk to me like i am a child or an idiot. I am not the one that made the decision for things to be the way they are. You made that decision all by yourself. I have tried to keep the lines of communication open - but for what. So you could tell me that "every time" we talk you get "stressed". Thanks a lot. Danielle, I don't feel that you are treating me with any respect. I am your mother. I did raise you to have respect for me. If you are so angry at me then just say it and we can both just walk away from each other. You are living in a way that is sinful. I don't agree with it and I don't approve. God doesn't either. You are stressed because you are so torn with knowing the truth and rejecting it. You know everything you should be doing and you just choose not too. Don't blame me. I didn't do anything wrong. I have been paying your bills for two months now. Your dad and I have given you some money for groceries. I planned to give you more money. Why should I do any of this when all I do is stress you out. Do you tell Tony that he is stressing you out - no. It is just me. I didn't ask for this. You made this college decision and lifestyle decision and now you have to live with it and the consequences. You made some poor decisions with money. We all do. I have. But Danielle, don't think for one second that I am going to take the blame for this. You are a grown up now. We don't have real talks - we just talk around stuff because you life and my life are so different with respect to God. I won't change who I am. You have hurt me so bad. I really was fooled into thinking that we were moving forward with our relationship. You having a bad day and I get the brunt of it. We all have bills. We all have no money. That is called life. Danielle, I am not going to lie - I don't like Tony. I think he is a bad influence and has taken you away from God and your family for the lusts of this world. This world is a fleeting moment. Eternal life is forever!!!!!!! Tony doesn't believe in God so all of a sudden you don't believe in God. You found our family and help put it back together and then just walked away. Everyone misses you and wants a relationship with you. How can you just pick one guy over all this. They are ready to be there for you and your needs. They are ready to worship together with you to the true and living God. I have been holding all this in since you left. I have tried and thought that I shouldn't say anything bad about Tony. But you know Danielle i am really mad at him. He took my baby girl away. She is gone and I want her back. I long for the day when she will come home and will accept the Lord and her family. I long for the day when we can talk openly once again with no barriers. To listen to your dreams and the aspirations that you have in your life. To hear you speak of your God. The God that you loved so much and worshiped so proudly. Satan has got you now. He is so happy and that is why you have all the stress in your life. He is the author of confusion and destruction. He wants us to be torn apart. Danielle I have to draw the line in the sand and say that if this relationship is going to go on you have to make some changes. The huge chip on your shoulder has to be dropped. The anger towards me has to go. And most of all you need to accept God back into your life. I will not serve two masters. I only serve the true and living God from above. He is my master. I love you so much and prayer for your soul often. I don't want to cut you off but I won't be abused by you. I will pay the bills this month. Which includes the car insurance due this month and then one more cell phone bill at the beginning of Oct. After that I won't pay anymore. You have to stand up and take charge of your life. Be an adult that you seem to so desperately want. Things don't have to stay this way. My door is always open to you but you have to come back the right way. God's way. I could accept Tony if he changed his ways and beliefs. I won't accept either of you if you are still living together in sin. I will contact you one more time regarding the bill arrangement and then it is up to you. You will have to seek me out for a relationship. You will have to want a relationship with me. I am done being your hurt. Danielle the day you claimed to not believe in God anymore was the worst day of your life as well as my life. The sadness is still fresh on my heart. I am sure that when you are alone with your thoughts you know it was a sad day for you too. That is if you are really being honest with yourself. The bible says: Seek first the things of righteousness and all these things will be added unto you. When you seek God first he will take care of "everything". Not just some things but all things. We have no worry. No fears. Only peace that comes from above. Now my door is open to you any time of the day to study this with you ... to study the scripture, to pray with you and for you. This also includes Tony as well. My door will always be open to you where ever I live and where ever you live. I love you very very much and that will never change. That is why this is so hard because I do love you and care for your soul. Please think on these things. Love in Christ, Mom Needless to say Tony was ugh, and Danielle was a mess, and I was like... grrr! So Tony writes Danielle's mom a reply.... Dear [Danielle's Mom], I have now read through the email you sent Danielle for the second time. Please excuse any errors you may find in this response. As I type these first words, it is already past 2:00 AM. You see, I was up late tonight working on an essay that is due in 10 hours. I would have finished earlier had I not been comforting your daughter. I have held true to my own beliefs until this point, but I, like you, feel that I must express myself now. Let me first start by saying that the thing I hate most in this world is ignorance. I am a firm believer that you should accept and respect other people

Psst... Happy 21st Birthday Michael!! Hugs, Viv