Fae Briona

I know it did -- but the love and emotion you put into it is being given to others.

Ahhhh..... repairing fence. Grew up on a farm; that's one thing I won't miss.

Yes, it is -- and, as you've guessed, that's the section that really got to me.

This is one of the chapters that I knew would be difficult to re-read, and it was. But I still loved it.

The worst of it went South of here, thankfully. Baking a potato for lunch, then a nap. And think the pain Rx has made me a bit dehydrated, so plenty of water [but not while sleeping, obvs 😉 ]

Won't be on long this morning. We have heavy rain coming in with lots of lightning and the potential for hail and high wind. Fun morning ahead. 🌩️

Hope the rest of your day is a good one too!! I had to do grocery shopping this morning too, but nothing as fun as a farmers market -- and I was missing one Item when I got home. I did, however, make a wonderful tasting lunch.

I can hear a mower as I type this, but was already awake. One of the reasons I bought the house I did was because it has a very small yard.

Jot some notes and file it away for later.

Well...... that was "fun." Lots of nodding and non-committal murmurings from me. "They never tell me anything! I didn't even know about W's graduation until I saw it on Facebook after-the-fact." Gee... Here's a thought: you know [theoretically] that your boy is 18, you know that High Schools have graduation ceremonies in May, how about PICKING UP THE PHONE AND ASKING HIM WHEN IT'S GOING TO BE!? Was also saying how he was glad he had a relationship with the oldest again and said he hoped the others would come around eventually. He did make one statement about how he might, possibly, have done things during the breakup that contributed to things being messed up now; but why is it all their responsibility to fix things? How about [again] PICK UP THE PHONE, call them, own up to "I know I messed things up", and tell them [honestly] that you'd like to try and salvage what you can of the relationship.

lol -- it's probably a good thing that when I start to get extremely emotional I tend to stop speaking

Same here -- even knowing where it was going, Tad's confession to Nate still hits hard.

I introduced my best friend in high school to my best friend from college and they got married and had 5 kids -- all of whom still call me "Uncle". Then his brains turned to mush, he married the Whore of Babylon, had other kids and forgot about his first family. I've not spoke with him in ages. Last time we talked he apologized for only calling when he needed money -- them promptly asked for money. The oldest boy is angry, but still wants his dads love. He's given L second chance after second chance; oldest daughter changed her last name to her moms' dad's last name; second boy is just sad (he has no money to pay child support so W could get new clothes for school but the last time W saw him he had a brand new PlayStation and X-Box. Not talked to #4 in private so not sure what his thoughts are and I doubt that #5 remembers anything about him ever being around. He got my number yesterday from his oldest. They were on their way back from some trip they took [with $$ that should be going towards back child support]. He want's me to "meet his family". Resisted the urge to remind him I have met his family and perhaps he's forgotten about them and his responsibilities to the young adults who are STILL HIS CHILDREN? Weather was bad last night so I had assumed I'd lucked out and avoided this meeting. Nope. They apparently stopped somewhere last night. He called just a few minutes ago and will be in town in about 90-minutes. I could -- and probably should -- have lied and said I was busy with something but didn't. Meeting in a public place so less likely to blow up and tell him what a worthless human being I think he actually is. Wish me luck.

More rain today. Parts of Oklahoma City got a bit over 5" in just 2 hours. We've only got a half-inch here (so far) but 2" just to our East. Triggered more flooding.

This is something I need to remember. 😞

Yes -- people often forget that the trauma isn't confined to the one person, it overflows and affects all those who are close to them and who care about them. I'm reminded of Patrick Stewart who supports efforts to combat domestic abuse, in honor of his mother; and who supports efforts to treat PTSD -- because more had been known about it during WWII and his father had been able to get treatment, his family most likely would have avoided the trauma. "My childish instinct was to protect my mother, but the man hurting her was my father, whom I respected, admired, and feared."

Raining hard in OKC at the moment, and the rain will continue through the day tomorrow. Joy. Could get more than 2" of rain here, which is 2" more than any of us need right now.

Too much at once [or close enough to all at once] for Jimbo to handle. From what we know of his father, I'm sure there was verbal & emotional abuse in his childhood even if there wasn't any physical abuse.

I do feel sorry for Jasper -- there's no way he couldn't have escaped without some PTSD after what he went through. Sounds like they should both get professional counseling.

You can actually blame the cotton and wood/paper industries for the criminalization of marijuana -- why compete with another industry (industrial hemp) when you can simply make them illegal?

Tried to keep busy this weekend. Think I'm in a much better place mentally now than I was at the end of the day on Thursday. Will try to keep that going once work starts in the morning.

"La petite mort" in French; Hozier references the term in his song "Angel of Small Death & the Codeine Scene" Love the additional scenes with Marcus. Think they'll help fill out his character.

That was who I pictured as well.

Morning all. Enjoy your walk Thorn - hope you finally got some sleep.

I've come to care a great deal about many of our little "family" on this site. Make sure those you love and care about know how you feel, as things can change in a literal heartbeat. There are things I never said to C, because I never thought the time was "right", and then my time ran out. Not saying these things directly is one thing I will always regret even though I know he knew what they were.