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Morningstar: The Malaise - 18. Chapter 18 A Day of Reckoning

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Morningstar: The Malaise

 

 

Chapter 18

 

 

A reflective and anxious hour had elapsed by the time Elinor and Denver came back into view. Kellar hadn’t moved from the front seat after Tobyn had taken his abrupt leave. At first, his mind went in circles as he replayed every word his friend had spoken, until finally, he concluded Tobyn was reacting to his foundations being shaken… big time.

It pissed Kellar off at just how out of his element he was, interacting with others. Three years in self-inflicted solitude had left him unprepared. One realization he’d come to pretty quickly was Tobyn did deserve some warning. He accepted now he’d made a mistake, and recognized it had something to do with not fully understanding… not taking into account the bond between mother and son, and that son’s fear, irrational or not, of losing her. It had been only the two of them for many years, and Tobyn was a man who’d put himself under considerable pressure and took on a lot of responsibility; now there was a stranger on the scene who was instantly enmeshed in their lives. He had been blindsided, and Kellar could have prevented that from happening. He should have seen this possibility because he was well aware his friend did not like change.

The strong aversion to mates, though, was a difficult one for Kellar to comprehend. He knew the logic behind the man’s deep-seated fears, but why couldn’t he see the good far outweighed the bad? And how many mates could misinterpret the signs of finding theirs like Tobyn seemed able to do? Was it because he didn’t want to see them?

The new, hand-in-hand couple stopped, kissed, and embraced upon reaching the front of the truck. Kellar tried not to watch as they continued to talk after the hug. He thought it a beautiful thing, and his eyes were drawn back to the scene before him. They looked serenely happy. He flickered his vision and saw further dissipation of the husky man’s depression. The healer in him catalogued it away as he took note of their increasingly vibrant colors. Mates strengthened each other immediately. That was one of the answers he’d been looking for, and he was no longer confused. If he was to guess, that was not the only benefit.

His thoughts returned to Tobyn. His friend had changed in the same ways from the time they met. His senses were improved, his colors were closer to optimum, and he could shift and hold it substantially longer. Each day his overall vitality improved. Now, Kellar was certain of the reason. Right from the beginning, when the beautiful blond man was on the highway in front of his cabin, he’d seen Tobyn’s color pattern was identical to his own. It had blown him away, but everything about Tobyn had done that. He hadn’t had a clue what it meant… earth mates had never been part of his vocabulary or understanding at that point… so he’d kept the mystery to himself. He couldn’t waffle in his own head anymore, though, because the proof was standing right in front of him.

He and Tobyn were earth mates. The sandy-haired man was the other half the great mother had seen fit to gift him with. His pissed-off other half. The half that wanted a wife and lots of children. The half that had free will to make his own choices… his own decisions. No matter what, Kellar was determined to respect his wishes because his mate had to want this as much as he did… but he did have one more theory to test before whatever happened, happened.

Elinor and Denver had made their choice, and it certainly appeared there would be no turning back. It was a great thing for the pack, in Kellar’s mind, but would Tobyn come around to his way of thinking? He wouldn’t say it, not to his friend… my mate…, at this point in time, but it wouldn’t surprise him if Elinor could and would have more children now. That was assuming they wanted them, and he couldn’t imagine they wouldn’t. His eyes returned again to the pair as they advanced a few feet closer.

“I’m going to pack up now, my sweet. I’ll see you in four to five hours,” Denver said as they prepared to separate.

“All right, you charmer,” Elinor said with a girlish chuckle. “We won’t get there much sooner than you because we’re taking Kellar to pick up his truck. I can’t wait to introduce our new mechanic to the pack.”

Kellar could see the twinkle in her eye as she glanced at the windshield. He could also see it dawn on her Tobyn wasn’t there, and she frowned for a few seconds. Kellar averted his eyes from her questioning look until she turned her attention back to Denver.

“So, I’m just the new mechanic, huh?” The man showed a nice open smile as he took joking umbrage to her comment. What a difference from the surly man of a year ago.

“We’ll see after you take me on our first date,” she replied.

“Will dinner tonight count?”

“Oh yes. I haven’t been to dinner with a handsome man in a long time. I look forward to it, Denver. I look forward to so many things.”

“Me too, Elinor. I can’t believe I’ve been given my life back.” The playfulness had ended, and Kellar wished the windows of the truck weren’t open because he felt like he was eavesdropping. Wolves could tamp down their hearing, but only to a point.

“My dear, sweet man. I feel the same way, and that was the best run I’ve had in... maybe ever.” They kissed again, this time with a little more passion than Kellar wanted to witness. “Now, where the devil has my son gone to?” She walked over to the open window and asked the same question.

“Uh, yeah, he went for a walk. He should be back soon,” he said with a certainty he didn’t feel. But, he could scent him closer. Kellar wasn’t going to tell her why the man had disappeared, so he felt immense relief when Tobyn arrived at that very moment, sauntering along his own side of the half-ton as if he’d just been on a pleasure stroll.

“Are we ready to go, Mom?” he asked with a surprising cheerfulness Kellar wondered about. Tobyn glanced over at his friend with an expression that gave nothing away.

“Yes, we are. We just have to say our good-byes to Denver.” There was a message in her words and her tone. Kellar let out a held breath when Tobyn, picking up on it, walked over to the waiting man and shook his hand. Kellar got out and followed him to do the same. He saw Tobyn’s shoulders tense briefly and then relax upon Denver saying he would see them all later at the compound.

The mechanic’s tools and much of his other stuff were already packed because he had apparently been about to move on from the rented garage in the next few days. Kellar mentally shuddered at how close they’d come to being too late. The impending move from a thriving business, coupled with his serious depression, indicated Denver had been at a potentially tragic crossroads. He checked his colors again just to verify the improvement was ongoing. Meeting Elinor might have saved this troubled shifter’s life.

The polite conversation between the men over with, Kellar shook Denver’s hand and retreated along with Tobyn to let the mates say their temporary good-byes. Kellar went to his side of the truck to wait, not really looking at his friend. Mate.

“Hey.” Tobyn, after hesitating at the front of the vehicle, walked over to him. “I was a jerk, and I’m sorry. You were being cautious, and I get that. It was a tough situation for you, and I was the one who asked you to be there. I know this is a good thing for my mom, and the pack, and I’ll get used to it. I would be an idiot not to see how happy she is, and it’s going to give Morningstar a boost to have a pair of true mates.” His voice was barely above a whisper. “Am I forgiven?”

Kellar lifted his gaze from the ground, feeling an enormous weight leave his shoulders. As long as Tobyn was okay, then he was okay. “Yes, of course. You were right… I’ve been thinking about what you said; I should have told you, and I’m sorry for that, but we still need to talk….”

“Come on, boys. Let’s get back on the road. Is everything all right here?” Elinor looked from one to the other.

“Sure,” Kellar answered.

“Absolutely. It’s been a good day, Mom.”

“It’s been a great day, Tobyn.” Elinor grabbed Kellar in a hug. “Thank you for what you’ve done for me. You’re like this good luck charm for Morningstar.” She held on tightly, and Kellar looked over her head, happy to see the smile on his own mate’s face. Damn. How was Tobyn going to react to that disclosure, if this morning’s had thrown him so badly? He would wait until they were alone, and tell him all he’d figured out so far, and hope Tobyn was ready to hear it. Elinor finally let him go, and they all piled back into the front seat to begin their journey to his cabin.

They didn’t have to deal with any awkward silence because Elinor chatted continuously, to the point of it being amusing. The men exchanged smirks a few times over her constantly moving head. At one point, when she said she missed Denver already, Kellar understood exactly what she meant, but he didn’t dare look over at her son.

When Tobyn drove up the driveway to his cabin, Kellar felt a pang he couldn’t explain. This had been a lonely place at times, but it had also given him much peace. His life was so much simpler a few days ago. He looked over to see Tobyn watching him. Would he be returning here alone someday soon? Would his earth mate spurn him for the life he’d always envisioned for himself? Have faith, Kellar. He loves you. Remember waking up this morning. “You guys can go ahead. I won’t be long.”

“We’ll wait,” Tobyn responded. “Do you need help with anything while we’re here?”

“No, thanks. I’m just going to grab a bag of clothes. I need to do some laundry soon. Really, there’s no need to hang around,” he said as he got out of the truck.

Tobyn looked over at him. “That’s okay, we’re in no rush.”

Elinor, who’d been staring at Kellar’s home, spoke up. “I love it. What a lovely place you have here. It looks so inviting… would you mind showing it to me?”

“Not at all. Come on. I’ll give you the grand tour.” And he did.

She remarked favorably on virtually everything and Kellar felt pride blossom at her compliments. He was caught off guard when she asked him an out-of-the-blue question. Tobyn was, at that point, sitting on the front steps. “Is everything okay between you two?”

“Tobyn and me? Yeah, sure… we’re good.” He couldn’t stop the nervous swallow.

“I might have been a chatterbox on the way here, but I’m not stupid, my dear. Whatever is going on, you need to communicate. I know my son, and something is bothering him, and it’s not just about me suddenly finding my earth mate. He’ll get used to Denver. I’m not going to interfere, but there is something very special between you boys, and you need to protect it. Do you understand me?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“Oh my God! Don’t you dare call me ma’am. I feel like a young girl again, so there will be none of that,” she said with a blazing smile, and Kellar could see years had indeed lifted from her face already.

“Fair enough, Elinor. I’m very happy for you and Denver.”

“Thank you, dear. I’m happy for anyone lucky enough to find that special person.” The stare she gave him caused him to squirm. Did she know? Had she just given her blessing? Appearing to take pity on his inability to come up with a coherent response, she carried on. “Do you have everything you need? Denver awaits.” She giggled. “Oh, and I must call and let the pack members know we have something else to celebrate.” She giggled again, and Kellar laughed, mostly out of relief they’d moved on to a different topic.

 

Tobyn led, and Kellar stayed about a thousand feet back. If he tried to drop further behind, Tobyn would slow down until they were close again. He wondered if the man realized he was doing it. Kellar certainly understood it for what it was. The more distance between them, the more unsettled they both felt. It was another test that hammered home what he already knew.

Arriving at the lodge, he was astonished to see Denver’s big truck already there. The man had obviously hurried his packing and closing up, because their own trip had been a quick one. He was also caught off guard to see the number of people waiting as he pulled his pickup in next to Tobyn’s. He, his mother, and Denver were in the center of about a dozen people, some of whom Kellar was already acquainted with, and some he wasn’t.

There were lots of excited greetings going on, and he was brought into the midst of them as soon as he stepped out. He met the other two members of the governing council, Ingram and Maynard, for the first time, and was made to feel quite welcome by them amongst all the chaos. Their devotion and happiness for Elinor came through clearly.

This was a huge deal for the pack, and it showed in how they crowded around the newly-united earth mates. Everywhere he looked, Kellar saw joy and hope on people’s faces. That included Tilly and Adelin, who were standing together wearing matching smiles. Denver might have been mildly uncomfortable, but it didn’t keep him from grinning ear to ear as he held Elinor’s hand in his. Kellar flickered and watched the effect the mates had on those around them. At the same time Tobyn arrived at his side, Elinor called for everyone to enter the lodge.

As they all crowded through the doors, Kellar momentarily reeled at the number of people inside. It must have been damn near the whole pack, so there had to be very few people manning the businesses. He shouldn’t have been surprised; this was the biggest thing that could have happened to Morningstar. At least, so far, he thought.

Tobyn soon found him again in this new throng, but it was impossible to have the needed conversation surrounded like they were. As tempted as he was, he wouldn’t ask Tobyn to leave his mother at a time like this. Besides, he was fascinated by what was unfolding before him. His healer mind was in overdrive.

Elinor moved to the upper level, still hand in hand with her mate, one step up at the back of the dining area. She called for everyone’s attention. Some sat, and some stood, watching her and the newest member.

“This is a wonderful day, not just for Denver and I, but for the entire pack. I trust this will give you all as much hope as it has me, for our future. The earth mother has not deserted us as some have feared. We’ve had the miracle of Adelin this week,” she said with a smile at the girl who was seated near the front, “and I have found my mate. He still needs to court me, though.” Elinor winked at the crowd. There was a lot of chuckling at that, especially in seeing the large man blush when she kissed his cheek.

“There’s one person responsible for both of these things, and that is Kellar Haylan, our new healer. My son found him for us, so he shares in the credit,” she said with a pointed grin at Tobyn. “Maybe soon, we’ll find the cure for the malaise that’s been affecting Morningstar. I see this as a day to truly appreciate the positives.

“Kellar, would you like to say a few words, if just to greet everyone? I know I’m putting you on the spot, but so many have been asking about your healing, and what it means to see colors, and I’d rather you explain it than me attempting to. We’re all friends here, dear.”

“No, that’s okay.” He could feel himself flushing as all eyes turned to him.

Tobyn nudged him. “Go ahead. She’s right. You’re a hero,” he whispered, smirking.

Kellar looked at all the expectant faces… kind faces. Sighing, he looked at the man at his side. Maybe it was time for the entire pack to know what he was seeing. “Will you come with me?”

Tobyn nodded, and they made their way through the tables to the far side, stepping up, and joining Elinor and Denver. Turning to face the people, he found he wasn’t as nervous as he would have expected. It helped that the blond man was close to his side.

“Hel… hello, everyone. I’ve already met some of you, and I want to thank you for how welcome you’ve made me feel. Ah… my healing… it’s pretty simple, but I’ll try to explain to you what the colors are about. From the time I first shifted, I could see these colors in all living things. I never understood why, until Miss Sybil told me I carry the name of a line of healers, so I guess it might be a part of my DNA. When a person or animal is ill or injured, the colors are affected. I’m able to spot a color that doesn’t belong; its shade and location tells me what I need to do to fix whatever is wrong, and I use plants with the same shade to assist me.” He smiled at the crowd, and many of them smiled back. “Anyway, about the colors I see in each person… we all have this signature pattern, which I always thought was unique to every individual. I never forget a pattern once I’ve witnessed it, so I remembered Denver’s when I first met Elinor, and saw hers was identical. So, long story short, I verified today that earth mates have the same colors in the exact same pattern.”

Kellar was surprised how engrossed people seemed to be in what he was saying. “You’re doing good,” Tobyn whispered loudly, and there was laughter throughout the crowd. It helped him relax a little more while giving him confidence to continue.

“I probably left a lot out, but that’s the condensed version,” he said with another grin. Making a quick decision, Kellar became serious again. “There is something else I’ve been trying to work out, and today has helped verify other suspicions I’ve had as well. I guess now is as good a time as any to say I’m pretty sure I know what the malaise is, and what we need to cure it.”

As expected, Tobyn was especially startled at that, and Kellar heard his sharp intake of breath over the excited murmurings of the crowd. “Please bear with me while I try to give you my observations on what’s been happening, and remember I’ve only worked some of this out in the last few minutes.” The incredulous sounds quieted immediately. “As a healer, my instincts kept telling me from the beginning this malaise was some form of deficiency. I wasn’t raised in a pack as some of you know, but Miss Sybil, who I don’t see here, was a great help in educating me about the fact we are a magical race created by the earth mother. I believe our magic, which gives us all those things that make us unique, needs energy, and I think she’s provided us with that energy in her own special way, by giving us our earth mates.” That caused more whispering in the assembled group, and he faltered. Looking to a very intense, very attentive Tobyn, he received an encouraging nod.

“Okay, so think of the colors I can see as energy. All of your color patterns are dimmer than they should be, but there are no signs of disease. In my opinion, we get some energy from all living things… possibly, humans do as well... but it’s not nearly enough for our kind, and the energy of the pack is not being adequately replaced. Over time, the depletion is causing this scourge that weakens and sickens us. It’s why shifting is difficult for many of you, and of course it has severely affected the birth rate.” Kellar watched as that mention had an especially sobering effect.

“Today, watching these new true mates move around among you, I’m convinced I’ve seen where the energy we need comes from. You all know mates make each other stronger, but something magical also happens when they are around other pack members.” You could have heard a feather fall in the lodge it had gotten so quiet. “While I watched Elinor and Denver’s patterns, I could see their colors reach for one another on an almost constant basis, and join, and when they separate, something is released. It’s really hard to describe… it’s not a mist exactly… think of the dust you see sometimes in a shaft of light. There’s thousands of little specks floating and slowly moving. What I see is like that, except the dust is made up of a multitude of different colors.” Kellar stopped and looked around. He had everyone’s attention, and had to battle his shyness at the focus on him.

“What does the dust do?” Elinor asked, breaking the silence.

Taking a deep breath, Kellar spoke again. “I don’t think the dust actively does anything at first. I believe the colors, or energy of people in the area attract it in some way and draw it to them so they can absorb it. When it reaches someone’s aura, it disappears. I can actually see little streams of it absorbed. And then it does its work, which I’m convinced is to provide the energy we need to have optimum health as shifters. It gives us back our magic. I know it probably sounds crazy to someone who can’t see it, but….”

“So, are you saying having a pair of earth mates will save the pack?” an excited Adelin interrupted.

“No, Adelin… I really don’t think so. The malaise was becoming an issue when the pack had Fendral and Esther. That alone proves their presence didn’t have a big enough effect. There is only so much energy released from a single set, and from what I understand, our decline coincides with packs closing in on themselves and not actively searching for their true mates. My belief is that while mates will eventually defeat the effects of the malaise for themselves, there isn’t enough energy produced to achieve that for the entire pack. It would be spread too thin.”

“How do you know that? Elinor and Denver have only been back with us for half an hour.” It was Tilly asking the question.

“I, ah… I’m speculating.”

“Oh, okay.” She smiled. “So, we need another pair?”

“Two won’t do it either, Tilly. Remember, our energies have taken decades to deplete, so it makes sense it will take a lot to replenish us to healthy levels. There just isn’t enough energy produced with a couple of pairs to reverse the malaise. It will help, but in my estimation, there needs to be many more earth mates feeding the pack like in the old days.”

“Are you speculating again?” Tilly asked.

“Yes, but I’m pretty sure I’m right about this. I guess you could say I see the supply and demand and they are vastly different.”

“Kellar?” Elinor asked. “How do you know Denver and I having the same color signature isn’t just a coincidence? Maybe we’re the only ones like this?”

“No, you’re not. It’s not a coincidence.” Kellar stopped, realizing what he’d just said. Shit. What had he just done?

“So then this isn’t the only time you’ve come across identical patterns? Is there anyone else in the pack that has a match to their signature colors?” Hutch had entered the discussion now, and Kellar wanted to crawl in a hole… but first he wanted to throw up. He’d done this backward.

Kellar turned to Tobyn who was looking at him oddly. “I screwed up, man,” he whispered. “I’m so sorry. We need to talk.”

Tobyn whispered back. “What are you talking about? You’re doing fine. Just answer the question.” Kellar couldn’t believe he hadn’t clued in.

“So, is there?” Hutch persisted.

Kellar pulled his eyes away from Tobyn. “Ah… yes, but there’s no reason to discuss them here and now.”

“Them?” Tilly directed a knowing smile toward Tobyn. “You and Kellar are mates, aren’t you? I knew it. It’s so obvious, but why are you guys keeping it a secret? I think it’s wonderful. Tobyn, you must be so happy….” She was gushing until she stopped to look at her childhood friend… the one she knew so well… better than anyone else, Adelin had said. Kellar was mortified by what was happening as he watched her expression change to one of dismay. “Am I wrong? Oh my god. You didn’t know? I thought it was impossible not to know… Kellar, I’m so sorry. Tobyn?” Tilly covered her face with her hands when he didn’t respond, but the damage had been done.

Everyone in the room was frozen in place, but Kellar finally dared look at the blond man at his side. What the hell just happened?

He was stunned, and it showed in his expression of shocked disbelief. His eyes traveled around the room at the equally astounded people before they landed back on him. “Kellar? Is it true… what Tilly said? Do our colors match? Have you seen this dust from us?”

Kellar struggled to find his voice. This was the worst situation imaginable, following on the heels of the earlier blindside. It wasn’t the way Tobyn should have been told. Why didn’t he just say no when Elinor asked him to speak? All he could do was try to explain, and hope his mate understood. “Our patterns are the same, Tobyn… not as much dust as from your mom and Denver, but I have seen a few small displays of it. I haven’t figured out….”

“But we’re men. Men can’t be earth mates… can they? I’ve never heard….” He stopped, appearing horrified at the thought, and Kellar experienced pain that had no match in his memory.

Needing to find his voice again, despite wanting to escape from that look, he did. “According to Miss Sybil, they can. It’s happened in our histories. Tobyn, I….”

“Miss Sybil? Are you telling me you’ve known since that visit?”

He felt the rapt scrutiny of the pack members and he hated it, but the only thing that mattered now was Tobyn and what he was thinking.

“No, I didn’t. Please understand. I only suspected. I didn’t know anything for sure until today.”

“But you knew our colors matched… that it was possible we were mates… you talked to Miss Sybil about it, and you didn’t talk to me,” he said so softly Kellar could hardly hear him. Elinor put her hand on her son’s arm and started to speak, but he shrugged it off. “Not now, Mom.” That was all he uttered as he walked through the silent crowd toward the front entrance of the lodge.

“Tobyn, I tried to tell you before we left Denver’s, but…,” he called out to the man’s retreating back. His words were wasted as the door shut with a slam magnified by the lack of any other sound.

Horrified, he looked at all the people staring, most of them sympathetically, and felt like he was going to break apart. He managed to say, “Excuse me,” before he made his own way to and out the same door. Tobyn was nowhere to be seen, and he had no idea what to do… or what to think. He’d never felt so defeated… or so inept. Twice in one day. Fuck!

A big thank you to my editor, Timothy M., and to all those who support this story. I have so much appreciation for you all.
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What on earth just happened?

A few seconds ago we were stuck on the ground for 17 chapters while Captain Tobyn was prevaricating over his flight plans? And now, I'm pretty damned certain that we are orbiting in Space. 🤪

Aren't you supposed to get some kind of  warning about these things?  All I can say right now is WOW. That was a totally jaw-dropping chapter that refused to let up. The show, I sense, has finally begun. 🦊🐺

 

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  On 9/12/2019 at 8:03 AM, Bard Simpson said:

What on earth just happened?

A few seconds ago we were stuck on the ground for 17 chapters while Captain Tobyn was prevaricating over his flight plans? And now, I'm pretty damned certain that we are orbiting in Space. 🤪

Aren't you supposed to get some kind of  warning about these things?  All I can say right now is WOW. That was a totally jaw-dropping chapter that refused to let up. The show, I sense, has finally begun. 🦊🐺

 

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Um... good question. I would say a whirlwind of events happened... fast and furious. If Kellar had of been a little more experienced at interacting with people, it might have gone differently. If Tobyn hadn't been thrown for a loop earlier, it might have gone differently. If Tobyn didn't have bitter views, and ignorance of his history, things might have gone differently. C'est la vie. :)  

A warning might have been nice, but I rather liked shaking everyone up. :P  I also like you found it jaw-dropping... that was my intent. We are definitely in outer space right now, but there is oxygen... lots of pain, but tremendous strides have been made for the pack of Morningstar, and maybe shifters everywhere. Yes, the show has indeed begun... you have no idea. :)  Cheers, Bard! Hold onto your hat. :D 

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That was intense. I wished Tobyn will understand Keller had wanted to tell him when he himself became sure they are mates. Oh God! Now I don't know what to expect but I am sure Tobyn cannot stay mad for long. I especially enjoyed how Keller explain the concept of patterns. It was truly intriguing and how Tilly was so excited about the two boys being mate. I so much love this chapter. The truth is out but though not how it was supposed to. Now I have hope for the pack, all they need are more mates but the problem is where to find them. 

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  On 2/18/2020 at 12:32 AM, Jasmine94 said:

That was intense. I wished Tobyn will understand Keller had wanted to tell him when he himself became sure they are mates. Oh God! Now I don't know what to expect but I am sure Tobyn cannot stay mad for long. I especially enjoyed how Keller explain the concept of patterns. It was truly intriguing and how Tilly was so excited about the two boys being mate. I so much love this chapter. The truth is out but though not how it was supposed to. Now I have hope for the pack, all they need are more mates but the problem is where to find them. 

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Yes, intense for sure. This was the big watershed chapter to this point, where answers for the malaise are finally given. Tobyn has some soul searching to do... his whole world has been dismantled, but mountain man did what he was supposed to... he came through in solving the mystery of the malaise... somehow that seemed to have gotten lost on a distraught Tobyn. It's time for him to suck it up... Kellar... his mate... is hurting. But, yes, there is hope for the pack, if only enough mates can be found. I'm glad you liked how Kellar explained everything... I wanted that to be just right. :)  As big as this was, the journey has only begun... cheers, my friend... Gary.... :hug: 

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Tobyn can be frustrating sometimes. He has to understand that Kellar is new to all of these and he himself doesn’t exactly know for sure what’s happening with them and around them. Of course, the drama queen won’t be deserving of his crown without the “leaving abruptly and slamming the door on his way out” act. Here’s your crown, your royal stubbornness. 🤴🏼🤴🏼🤴🏼

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  On 5/4/2020 at 12:34 PM, nix said:

Tobyn can be frustrating sometimes. He has to understand that Kellar is new to all of these and he himself doesn’t exactly know for sure what’s happening with them and around them. Of course, the drama queen won’t be deserving of his crown without the “leaving abruptly and slamming the door on his way out” act. Here’s your crown, your royal stubbornness. 🤴🏼🤴🏼🤴🏼

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Hey, nix! I warned readers many chapters ago that Tobyn would drive them crazy at times, and this was the chapter I was most warning about. Remember, though, it has only been a handful of days since they met, and everything about Tobyn's world has done a one-eighty. This was absolutely the worst way to find out Kellar was his mate... in front of the whole pack, and I think he was embarrassed at not figuring it out, as much as he was shocked. In looking back, so much was lost in this chapter. Kellar found the cure for a malaise that has plagued the packs throughout their history... and I was incredibly excited about finally being able to disclose that. I wouldn't change how I wrote it, because I know what's coming. Tobyn will always be Tobyn, but he is not or has never been about himself, despite how he's acting. You are in the majority in being disappointed in the guy. :)  We all love Kellar, and feel the hurt he feels. That makes Tobyn a bad guy in our eyes, but like I say... have faith. :) 

Oh, and I really liked writing the scene between Elinor and Kellar at the cabin. Cheers, my friend, and thank you for sharing how engaged you are in the story... you made another day for me. :D  :hug: 

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  On 5/4/2020 at 1:51 PM, Headstall said:

Hey, nix! I warned readers many chapters ago that Tobyn would drive them crazy at times, and this was the chapter I was most warning about. Remember, though, it has only been a handful of days since they met, and everything about Tobyn's world has done a one-eighty. This was absolutely the worst way to find out Kellar was his mate... in front of the whole pack, and I think he was embarrassed at not figuring it out, as much as he was shocked. In looking back, so much was lost in this chapter. Kellar found the cure for a malaise that has plagued the packs throughout their history... and I was incredibly excited about finally being able to disclose that. I wouldn't change how I wrote it, because I know what's coming. Tobyn will always be Tobyn, but he is not or has never been about himself, despite how he's acting. You are in the majority in being disappointed in the guy. :)  We all love Kellar, and feel the hurt he feels. That makes Tobyn a bad guy in our eyes, but like I say... have faith. :) 

Oh, and I really liked writing the scene between Elinor and Kellar at the cabin. Cheers, my friend, and thank you for sharing how engaged you are in the story... you made another day for me. :D  :hug: 

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I don’t think Tobyn is a bad guy, he just gets on my nerves lol. Like Kellar, I’m trying to be patient with the guy, but while reading I just can’t help but want to knock some sense in that sandy head of his, because his behavior can really get frustrating at times. So yeah, I totally can understand why many of us readers sympathize with Kellar instead of Tobyn.

Kellar’s suspicion about the pack’s malaise makes perfect sense. The pack broke away from a system that is vital to their lives as wolves and creatures of Earth Mother. It’s like taking away meat as part of a lion’s diet.

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  On 5/4/2020 at 2:04 PM, nix said:

I don’t think Tobyn is a bad guy, he just gets on my nerves lol. Like Kellar, I’m trying to be patient with the guy, but while reading I just can’t help but want to knock some sense in that sandy head of his, because his behavior can really get frustrating at times. So yeah, I totally can understand why many of us readers sympathize with Kellar instead of Tobyn.

Kellar’s suspicion about the pack’s malaise makes perfect sense. The pack broke away from a system that is vital to their lives as wolves and creatures of Earth Mother. It’s like taking away meat as part of a lion’s diet.

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Hey, nix! Sorry... I don't know how I missed this. I totally get why Tobyn gets on your nerves... I'll just say that Kellar has been lacking some confidence in this new social world, and he really needs to blast Tobyn to wake him up... but knowing him, he won't do that. It's hard to think about what Tobyn is going through when Kellar is such a sweet guy who keeps getting wounded. :(  And yeah, Kellar has figured the malaise out. Once he explains it, it's pretty obvious there is a deeper purpose for earth mates... the earth mother is a smart mom, and I like your analogy... thanks and cheers, my friend... G. :hug: 

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  On 12/26/2020 at 3:50 AM, Story Reader said:

I knew it and I knew the hurt would get worse! Poor Tobyn and also poor Kellar who feels like a heel for blurting it out by mistake before he could tell Tobyn!

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These last two chapters were monumental for the story. Kellar solves the mystery of the malaise, after verifying that Elinor and Denver were earth mates, and then his world falls apart. I don't blame Tobyn for reacting like he did. He really hasn't had any time to absorb the changes in his life in the past four days since he met Kellar. I don't blame Kellar either, for letting anything slip. He was really put on the spot. Nor do I blame Tilly for what she revealed. She genuinely thought Tobyn knew they were earth mates. Now, they are all hurt... it's as bad as it can get... for the moment. Hope you enjoyed all this drama, my friend. Cheers! :hug: 

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  On 8/28/2021 at 10:11 PM, Albert1434 said:

Wow what a chapter so powerfully sad and hopeful. I wonder where this will lead I only wish for happiness for the we can only a wait the next chapter!

Thanks for sharing Gary :thankyou::worship::worship::worship::2thumbs:

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OMG. I was right back in it, experiencing Kellar's feelings as the chapter unfolded. The biggest thing in pack history just happened, with Kellar figuring out the cause and cure for the malaise, and it all got lost in how everything went down. Not for the other shifters, but for Tobyn and Kellar. Yes, it was sad for sure, but I'm glad you felt the hope all should be feeling. Still, it's hard to think of that when our hero is in such pain. 

Absolutely love rereading this with you, buddy. :hug:  :kiss: 

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  On 10/6/2021 at 8:10 AM, drpaladin said:

Naturally, it would have to come out in the worst possible way and despite all the clear signs Tobyn was oblivious and blindsided by his strong beliefs. Given this new knowledge though, the best action he could take for the pack's welfare is to embrace it.

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You're exactly right, Dr. P. This chapter caused a lot of Tobyn-hate, but I think most readers understood Tobyn enough to see this would be hard for him. For it to happen in such a public way after just having to accept his mother's new situation, had him reeling. A lifetime of learning to resent earth mates and what happens to those who lose theirs, and convincing himself they were a thing of the past, has allowed Tobyn to be oblivious. It is tough to be so wrong. Give him time... he is and always will be Tobyn. :) Cheers, buddy... I see you have been busy... I got some catching up to do. :hug:  

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  On 12/5/2021 at 3:58 AM, raven1 said:

Sorry Gary, no great review from me.  They have all been made by your great following. With nothing more to say, I'll rest and take the....Sorry, I got to run off to read the next chapter.  Thanks for the Great Drama Queen chapter.  😬

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Fair enough, buddy. :)  It definitely had a lot of drama. It took a lot of work to build up to this chapter, and I was relieved to finally get to this point. Cheers, and happy reading, my friend. :hug: 

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 The healer in him catalogued it away as he took note of their increasingly vibrant colors. Mates strengthened each other immediately. That was one of the answers he’d been looking for, and he was no longer confused. If he was to guess, that was not the only benefit.

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I had forgotten this part totally.

I had to laugh when Tilly inadvertently spilled the beans and set Tobyn off for the second time today.  She really was excited for Tobyn and Kellar.  I think it gave her hope for finding her own Earth Mate.  Elinor and the rest of the pack didn't have a problem.  That's why I commented about Tobyn being a Drama Queen.  He certainly had a lot of drama for one day.  

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  On 8/15/2022 at 7:25 AM, raven1 said:

I had forgotten this part totally.

I had to laugh when Tilly inadvertently spilled the beans and set Tobyn off for the second time today.  She really was excited for Tobyn and Kellar.  I think it gave her hope for finding her own Earth Mate.  Elinor and the rest of the pack didn't have a problem.  That's why I commented about Tobyn being a Drama Queen.  He certainly had a lot of drama for one day.  

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Every part of this entire chapter was important. I think we all can see that even though Kellar is out of his element socially, it was not his fault things played out in such a way. His scientific half (doctory) is methodical as his mind works out this mystery... but no other pack member really thinks that way. I felt truly sorry for him, but he was not equipped to say no to Elinor, and that he needed to talk to Tobyn before he went with the flow. He thought he could speak a little and not divulge that he and Tobyn were mates.

Enter an excited... and very smart Tilly, who saw what Tobyn couldn't. That must have been especially embarrassing for Tobyn. Truly, he had a really tough day, feeling left completely out of the loop. Yup. This was drama central, for all the pack to see, but the important part is Kellar has solved the mystery of the malaise. Woot!  :hug: 

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  On 5/4/2023 at 1:39 AM, Albert1434 said:

This chapter was the sadness, sad moment in this story. From light to dark just like that, I think the single most important chapter in this story! OMG I am speechless.

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I know right? Absolutely gut-wrenching for me, as the writer and as a reader. You're right... it is the most important chapter, up to this point at least, and what makes it even sadder is that Kellar did what Tobyn had hoped for... he solved the mystery of the malaise and yet there is no celebration, only heartache. The fact this all played out in front of the entire pack made it all the more hurtful. That said, I'm proud of this chapter and for reaching this point in the story without screwing it up. :)  Thanks, Albert. :hug: 

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  On 5/28/2023 at 2:52 PM, Dan South said:

Three words: “But we’re men”. I’m more troubled by that reaction than any of the other drama at this point.

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Great to hear from you again, Dan. Unfortunately, the most important part of this chapter, the revealing of the cause and cure for the malaise, got lost in all the drama. I mean, it was understandable and even necessary given the strong feelings between Tobyn and Kellar, but the focus should have been more on the triumph of the day. Tobyn has been blindsided twice in one day, but who is to blame for that? I would say some of it rests with his stubborn approach to needing to sacrifice for the pack. He missed all the signs and that's on him. Yes, those words are troubling, but we have to hear from Tobyn to find out what they really mean. :unsure2: 

Thanks, buddy... I hope you are still enjoying this. Cheers! Gary.... :hug:   

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I have to admit that I totally forgot this town meeting.  It's actually there that Kellar made the observations and formulated his theory on the cause of the malaise.  Tobyn definitely has a problem dealing with the idea.  Tilly really should have kept her mouth closed, but her excitement for Tobyn as well as the earth mates information seemed to overwhelm her.  Great chapter, now on to the next round of Tobyn's crashing world view.  

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