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What scares me

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Wesley8890

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The thing that scares me most is love. I'm scared because I love easily. I find someone I can connect to and within a week I feel love for that person. I've done this twice and both times that love was not returned. In fact the first time the other guy and I were planning to celebrate his birthday together. The day before I was to come over I tried texting him and he didn't reply as a matter of fact the message was never delivered. I then called his number and that's when my heart broke when the message said 'the number you are trying to dial is no longer in service' my heart felt like it had been ripped out of my chest. I cried, I didn't eat, I barely slept. I felt rejected and alone. Being bipolar this didn't do much for my mentality. So now when I go into a relationship I try not to get attached to people but it doesn't work. I'm not saying I'm easy to love, but I love easy. That's what scares me more than anything

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I can't add much Wesley but maybe this:

 

“And, in the end
The love you take
is equal to the love you make.”

-paul mccartney

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4 hours ago, MichaelS36 said:

Would that more people felt like you, the world would be a better place. Sharing yourself is a gift, whether you are friend, brother, lover or child. There will be those who see this, and those who feel it, who are afraid, and run from it.  You'll be left sad, but know you did right, and that the love you share will come back to you, over your lifetime. And the ones who run will one day stop, when they are ready. Part of that will because of your willingness to share with them, to teach them, that love isn't to be feared. Be yourself Wes, never change that. 

Michael, you have a way with words Sir

 

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17 hours ago, drpaladin said:
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.'
 
Alfred, Lord Tennyson
 
Tennyson completed that poem in 1849, but it still expresses the idea best.

Yes, and we as Gay people should never be shy to remind the others that this is Tennyson speaking about the man he loved, Arthur Hallam :) 

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4 minutes ago, AC Benus said:

Yes, and we as Gay people should never be shy to remind the others that this is Tennyson speaking about the man he loved, Arthur Hallam :) 

Exactly so. :)

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5 minutes ago, AC Benus said:

Yes, and we as Gay people should never be shy to remind the others that this is Tennyson speaking about the man he loved, Arthur Hallam :) 

Amen! I always find it fascinating that many brilliant people in history were gay or bisexual!

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15 hours ago, MichaelS36 said:

Would that more people felt like you, the world would be a better place. Sharing yourself is a gift, whether you are friend, brother, lover or child. There will be those who see this, and those who feel it, who are afraid, and run from it.  You'll be left sad, but know you did right, and that the love you share will come back to you, over your lifetime. And the ones who run will one day stop, when they are ready. Part of that will because of your willingness to share with them, to teach them, that love isn't to be feared. Be yourself Wes, never change that. 

dear husband, this is just a wonderful thing.. 

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@mollyhousemouse @Mikiesboy @MichaelS36 @AC Benus @BlindAmbition @drpaladin @MacGreg At first my petulent child-like behavior made me think you all were just antagonizing me with these words. But as I read over them I can see they came from the heart. Its been a bad week for me and to see so many different people with kind words have humbled me. It shows that I do have friends

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1 minute ago, Wesley8890 said:

@mollyhousemouse @Mikiesboy @MichaelS36 @AC Benus @BlindAmbition @drpaladin @MacGreg At first my petulent child-like behavior made me think you all were just antagonizing me with these words. But as I read over them I can see they came from the heart. Its been a bad week for me and to see so many different people with kind words have humbled me. It shows that I do have friends

keep them.. they are gift fo you Wesley.. lots of people care, you just need to let them.. xoxxo

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2 minutes ago, Wesley8890 said:

@mollyhousemouse @Mikiesboy @MichaelS36 @AC Benus @BlindAmbition @drpaladin @MacGreg At first my petulent child-like behavior made me think you all were just antagonizing me with these words. But as I read over them I can see they came from the heart. Its been a bad week for me and to see so many different people with kind words have humbled me. It shows that I do have friends

oh Wesley, :hug:

I'm glad you were able to read them again and see the love written there.

 

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Just now, BlindAmbition said:

I don't play like that @Wesley8890 I'm from Jersey. As real as you will get. I would never mock someone! 🤗

You might be the first person from Jersey I like

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38 minutes ago, BlindAmbition said:

I don't play like that @Wesley8890 I'm from Jersey. As real as you will get. I would never mock someone! 🤗

You can count on one thing from us Jersey kids. We call em like we see em! Loving is something you should be proud of, and it speaks volumes that you can allow yourself to love easily. So many can't at all.

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