I'm a Vegetarian and I ain't f**king scared of him!
Time for another blog! Woo!
Nothing really too important to say except to tell those that haven’t already heard, that I’m a vegetarian for the summer. Yeah, weird right? I’m going to start out with the summer and see if I can do it, and if it’s not that big of a pain in the ass, I’ll see how long I can keep it up until I fall off the bandwagon and devour a cow.
This is day 11 without meat for me. Not really a milestone by any means, but I haven’t had much trouble to be honest. I’m not craving it or anything even when I’m working around it constantly, so I’m taking that as a good sign. Granted, I do crave chicken nuggets when Michelle so politely eats 20 of them in my car while I’m starving, but other than that, I’m fine.
And before anyone else asks me, yes… fish is meat too. I’m not eating any animals damn it! I don’t care what the Catholics say! I’m not on a ‘no-red-meat diet’ or any of that crap, so chicken and fish count! Which really does suck because I can’t eat sushi anymore =( But oh well.
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Yeah so my dog ate 6 of my donuts this morning. I had 7 left when I went to work. They were in a box in my room on my shelf. When I came home, I let him inside, grabbed something out of my room and went back out to my car to fix my subs. This took about 3 minutes. In that time, I came back inside, the box was on the floor, void of any donuts. When I went looking for the little f**ker, there was one donut left, uneaten, at the bottom of the stairs. Next to a pile of shit. Apparently, he ate six of them, got full, took a shit, then left the 7th one as a gift to me. All in under 3 minutes.
f**king dogs.
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In other news... that guy I mentioned last blog? Yeah, ignore that. Didn't work out like I planned and I broke it off once, but in my quest to put him down easy, I left an opening for us to get back together. It wasn't until after I said my whole speech that I realized I'm giving him an excuse to keep talking to me and eventually have him ask me out again. Which he did. And me being the idiot I am, couldn't say no. So we're back together, but technically not 'official' because I refused to say the magic words and specifically ask him to be my boyfriend. Which irritates the hell out of me because at the time I pretty much considered us together and a couple, so I didn't think the words needed to be said. But now, I guess it could be a blessing because I can't really add him to my list of ex-boyfriends. It's his fault I can still tell everyone I'm single, even though it feels like I'm not.
But I'm still stuck in this 'relationship' I guess you could call it because I'm either too nice to dump him, or I'm too much of a coward to do so. I don't like the idea of being single, but it's frustrating that I would have to work so hard for things with us to work when I don't really feel that much of a spark between us. I don't really want to rag on him because he really is a nice guy, but he's not the type of guy I'm looking for. He's too clingy sometimes and fell too hard too fast for me. It was 3 weeks when I tried to break it off the first time and he pulled the "but that's the Joe I fell in love with" card and I got even more freaked out. I've been there, done that. I can't handle someone like that. He has too much time on his hands and doesn't understand that I have a full-time job, full-time school, GA, and I have other friends that I want to be with and it's hard enough to find time alone as it is. And when he's sitting there bugging me to drive my happy ass out to Forth Worth every spare chance I get, I can't handle it.
So I know it's not going to work out with us, and I'm trying to distance myself from him by slightly ignoring him. He doesn't have a cellphone so that helps and prevents him from texting me. I disabled the AIM forwarding to my phone, but he can still send me messages through it periodically. I didn't talk to him all day yesterday except a few minutes at night before I went to bed, and then I haven't responded to any of his messages or phone calls today, so I'm hoping he gets the message. But I know he won't. He won't give up, and it frustrates the hell out of me that some people can't take a hint that they're being let down easy. I can't do a harsh breakup. It's just not in me to say the words. I choke up and swallow them. And I can't exactly say this in person to him because he doesn't have a car and can't meet me anywhere to talk. So I'd have to drive to his house, break it off, then drive back home. And it's damn near 30 minutes away from me and I'm broke enough as it is without having to pay for gas there and back. I don't want to do it over the phone or over AIM, but I don't really have any other choice. If he doesn't get the hint soon enough, then it'll be tough shit and I'll have to force myself to get over it and just tell him to f**k off.
After all that, my question to anyone reading this is... how would you suggest I go about breaking it off? He can't exactly just pop over to my house. Granted, he can have his friends drive him over, but there's a good chance I won't be at home anyways. And he does know where I work, so if I just stop talking to him altogether, then it'll be pretty easy for him to track me down and give me hell.
Help? Anyone?
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