I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a giant hug, but I can't, so a virtual hug will have to do I think being able to write again is a huge barometer of how far you've come. Before, all your energy was used in trying to function with crippling anxiety. You've developed an essential tool box designed to help you through it, and while not perfect, it's working quite well for you. Now, you're ready to get back to some things that had to be put on the back burner. I'm following your new story and hope to have time to read it this weekend.