Obey - 10. Chapter 10 - Variation

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From sub: hi Sir, a sub here. another dom i was chatting with online suggested perhaps we may find ourselves somewhat more compatible Sir?

From Alan: I’m in Cedar Rapids. Where’s Minot? The only one that comes up in a search is in North Dakota.

From sub: that’s where i am Sir

From Alan: Thanks. I thought maybe it was some tiny town in Iowa I hadn’t heard of.

From sub: nope, north dakota. sorry Sir

From Alan: Nothing to apologize for, though we’re not even close together. So I not sure just what my friend was thinking.

From sub: i think he was thinking i was into forced submission and possible blackmail to force me into depravity and he kind of thought you were twisted enough to be interested in such things

From Alan: Thanks. But forced anything isn’t my interest. Nor blackmail, nor depravity. So you’re kind of barking up the wrong whip.

From sub: sorry but i like you already Sir. the thought of a whip cracking on my back just made me hard

From Alan: Glad to do that. But I’d be lucky to know which end of a whip’s the handle.

From sub: and you’re funny Sir. i’ll bet you can be cruel too

From Alan: Probably also outside my range.

From sub: for fun? to be nasty? online?

From Alan: Even if you just wanted to play online, I’m sure there are better guys.

From sub: i haven’t found one yet. and i’ve been looking for months

From Alan: Then keep looking. Make it part of your submission.

From sub: see that’s what the other dom said i’d like about you Sir

From Alan: That was two-thirds a joke.

From sub: well haha Sir. keep them coming and i’ll be naked

From Alan: Aren’t you now?

From sub: how did you know that Sir? i don’t have my cam on

From Alan: A lot of guys online are. Easier for their hands.

From sub: haha again Sir. are you naked? if you don’t mind my asking?

From Alan: No. I don’t masturbate online. Normally.

From sub: what does it take Sir? again if i’m not prying?

From Alan: A reason. A very good one.

From sub: did you look at my pix Sir?

From Alan: No.

From sub: that’s the first thing i check out Sir and the first thing i checked about you. only you don’t have pix posted

From Alan: But you still wrote.

From sub: the dom told me to

From Alan: Ah, so a dom told you.

From sub: i didn’t mean that Sir, not the way you made it sound. he suggested it

From Alan: OK. And I just looked at your photos.

From sub: kind of a porker Sir

From Alan: You’ve got the height to pull it off.

From sub: i’m a pig Sir and deserve to look that way

From Alan: You’re a good-looking man.

From sub: no one’s ever said that Sir

From Alan: No one? Ever? That’s hard to believe.

From sub: well no one’s said it recently. not since I got fat

From Alan: You don’t think much of yourself.

From sub: i think about myself all the time

From Alan: That’s not what I meant. I mean you don’t think well of yourself

From sub: well how could i Sir? why should i? you’ve just seen me just about naked. with my big shaved belly hanging over my jock

From Alan: There are lots of guys who look worse than you. And I’ll bet if you stood up straight and pulled back your shoulders, most of that belly would disappear. Did you play football?

From sub: only in high school Sir. i wasn’t good enough in college

From Alan: Would you’ve liked to?

From sub: there’s lots of things i would’ve liked that never happened Sir

From Alan: What’s your biggest regret?

From sub: that’s getting kind of personal Sir if you don’t mind my saying so

From Alan: Isn’t that what you wanted?

From sub: no. i’m looking for a dominant kink master. i’m into bondage, cock and ball torture, tit torture, forced scenes, humiliation and cum control. no one’s ever asked about personal stuff

From Alan: Have you really done all those things? For real? Or just pretending, online?

From sub: definitely for real Sir

From Alan: Why did you stop? Or haven’t you?

From sub: i got married Sir and don’t laugh. for a while he was into it then got bored.

From Alan: I’m not laughing. How long’ve you been married?

From sub: we’re not really married Sir, he’s my live in boyfriend. but we’ve been together for 15 years

From Alan: I figured that – about your marriage. But 15 years is great.

From sub: and i’d do all those things again Sir if i could. i think about them all the time. and i watch videos

From Alan: It’s a lot easier to watch someone pretend to be hurt than it is to feel that pain.

From sub: do you know that Sir?

From Alan: I can imagine. I’m no masochist.

From sub: i am Sir up to a point. and you didn’t tell me if you watch those videos Sir

From Alan: Let’s say I’m familiar with them – some of them. There must be millions. And they don’t do much for me.

From sub: why not Sir? again if you don’t mind my asking

From Alan: Let’s say I prefer actually being with guys

From sub: you’re a better man than i am Sir

From Alan: Let’s say different.

From sub: i really want to play with you Sir

From Alan: That’s flattering, but I don’t think I’d be able to take you where you want.

From sub: you don’t know that Sir. can we try? please?

From Alan: Are you begging?

From sub: if that’s what it takes Sir. would you like that?

From Alan: No. And besides that, it’s unrealistic. I mean, what’s the worst thing you could possibly do – online – to supposedly please me?

From sub: i’d have to turn on my cam Sir and show you

From Alan: No. Please. Among other things, I don’t use them.

From sub: why not Sir?

From Alan: Because I don’t trust them. They’re not secure.

From sub: that’s your limit Sir

From Alan: Or my discipline.

From sub: oooo i like that Sir

From Alan: Very funny.

From sub: thanx

From Alan: Now what’s the worst thing? Without a cam?

From sub: i could send you pictures Sir

From Alan: I already have them.

From sub: no i mean new ones Sir. every day. of me doing things you ask

From Alan: Like what? What could you imagine?

From sub: i’m not very good at imagining Sir. it’s why I need a dom

From Alan: Well, what’s the worst thing a dom’s ever made you do?

From sub: online?

From Alan: Or off.

From sub: eat his shit Sir

From Alan: NO. I DIDN’T WANT TO KNOW THAT. I don’t even want to hear about it.

From sub: oooo screaming Sir. you lost your cool

From Alan: Yes. And look, it’s been fun chatting with you and all. But it’s time for me to go to bed.

From sub: more tomorrow Sir?

From Alan: No. I don’t think so – unfortunately. And I don’t mean to hurt your feelings.

From sub: you couldn’t hurt them Sir. i’m a sub, i’m meant to be hurt. and i’m really sorry i was disgusting. we were doing so well

From Alan: There are certain things you can’t take back – certain images.

From sub: please let me try Sir. it was a long time ago and i was only 16. or 17. i didn’t know what I was doing

From Alan. But you remember it.

Frob sub. yes Sir. it was hot. at the time

From Alan: And if I asked you to do it again?.

From sub: i’d do anything you asked Sir

From Alan: That – particularly – is why this is never going to happen.

From sub: i know that Sir

From Alan: And you’re disappointed?

From sub: you don’t understand me Sir. i’m not looking for that kind of thing again, not anymore Sir. i mostly want to be ordered around and i think you can do that and you’d be good. and it would be fun Sir

From Alan: For you.

From sub: yes Sir

From Alan: And me?

From sub: it could fun if you tried Sir

From Alan: I’ve been thinking about that – since we began writing. I’d be role playing. It would all be role playing for me. You’ve got to understand that. I’d be role playing as much as you were.

From sub: except I wouldn’t be Sir. it would be real

From Alan: And probably not much fun.

From sub: please let me try Sir. what if I promised never to eat shit again?

From Alan: Yeah, well, we know you can be funny – I expected that. But now you’ve brought that image back.

From sub: i’m sorry Sir

From Alan: And I’ve really got to go to bed.

From sub: let me send you another pic of myself first Sir. this one’s fully naked and i’m spread eagle on the ground. my cock’s nice and hard. i’ll send you one from the back too Sir so you can see my ass. you can make up your mind but first look at my pix please Sir

From Alan: OK. I can do that.

From sub: did you get them Sir? did you look?

From Alan: Yes, I did.

From sub: wouldn’t you like to own that Sir? wouldn’t you like to hurt that? look how vulnerable i am Sir. all there for you

From Alan: You’ve probably sent those pictures to a hundred guys.

From sub: no Sir i really haven’t Sir. i’ve sent others, other naked pix. but those are special

From Alan: Then thank you.

From sub: you’re welcome Sir. and you’re thinking about it now?

From Alan: I’d never own another human being. Nor would I want to.

From sub: that was just a word Sir. i’m still getting used to how you think. every dom is different Sir

From Alan: Just so you know my limits.

From sub: then you’re thinking about it Sir, that’s so good to hear. and please give me something I can do Sir. tell me something i can do for you for tomorrow. i’ll send you a pic of me doing it first thing in the morning Sir. please make it as humiliating as possible. i’m sure you can be cruel

From Alan: Let’s start with strict, if we have got to. And disciplined. And see how that goes.

From sub: yes, Sir!

From Alan: OK. Then send me another photo of yourself. Again, full-length, naked. But standing up – and straight. With your shoulders back and your stomach sucked in. And try not to look like you’re begging.

From sub: yes Sir, i can do that for you Sir. and thank you Sir. thank you for this chance

From Alan: And no groveling. You’re a good-looking man. Try to remember that.

From sub: yes, Sir!

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