Obey - 14. Chapter 14 -- Variation

From Alan: Then buy a new chastity device and leave the others for your partner to see. Good about skipping the clamps and I guess about your itchy chest. That would make me crazy. Touch your nipples whenever you want but be gentle and remember to use lube. And don’t buy a butt plug if it’s only going to fall out.

From sub: nipples–i rub them, roll them, give them attention but never pinch or clamp them. also one dom had me put a piece of duct tape across my chest, pulling nipples together and putting pressure on them. was shaved then so not sure that would work but might see if it does anything. playing with my hole makes me feel like a pig, hot. but then i need to make sure everything is okay and am not smelling like a pig to return to boyfriend or work. i definitely need more and more abuse. i’ll purchase the chastity belt and look at other toys while in bismark. they have a large well stocked dungeon toy store. also would be good to be controlled in some way from the time i leave until i’m home. unfortunate we can not text or call but understand. weather looks like it will cooperate tomorrow for pic taking. growing more submissive and piggish i feel with your direction. thank you for taking time with me

From Alan: Oh, sure, it’s great fun to torture a perfectly nice guy. I’ll go to Heaven for that. And sorry we can’t text or phone, but please let me know what you’re doing with other masters and use your judgment before following their instructions. If you don’t want to do something, tell them you have to check with me first, and then tell them I said “No.” As to what you can do on your trip: well, if you suddenly decide to temporarily give up your chastity and hook up with some guy, that would be fine. We can always start over when you’re back. And I’ll bet anything you’re going to stay naked whenever you’re alone in your hotel room.

From sub: oh yeah you got me pegged but don’t feel guilty. i’ll write you a great rec to get into heaven, haha. yesterday got up, used bathroom, made coffee, checked messages online, dressed in white sox, sneakers, jeans, long sleeved dress shirt and wore jacket to work. for lunch came home, had salad, iced tea, was naked and wanted to stroke so badly but didn’t. had stuffed peppers and milk for dinner, unsalted popcorn later. am looking forward to hotel visit and will try the duct tape chest thing while driving. the new dom that i just started chatting with has me text message all day when i have to use the bathroom and he gives me permission or has me wait. it’s very humiliating but so hot

From Alan: Letting another master control your bathroom trips obviously is your decision, so I’ll stay out of that. You also don’t need to tell me that you’ve used the bathroom every morning or what you’re wearing anymore, since I’ve got a pretty good idea of your habits and wardrobe. But you do need to continue tracking what you eat and drink and maybe start counting the number of days since you’ve come. I think this is day 11.

From sub: am home and naked now. wanted to take pix but am overwhelmed and behind on stuff for work and know i’m missing work on monday. am very very horny and just got offline with a dom who wanted me to gargle you know what but didn’t do it following your instructions. weighed myself for the first time since we started and was disappointed that i was only down to 232 but think i was heavier than i said when i told you 240 so diet is probably working. the dom that i message regarding the bathroom permission is a twenty year old in texas and i think he jerks every time i ask. that’s hot for him and me so i don’t mind it being stupid

From Alan: That’s great news about your weight, and I know you want to lose more, but you really need to be careful about dropping more than a couple of pounds a week. Still, early weight loss is mostly about cleaning out your system, and it levels off from there. Also, I know it may be fun, but I warned you that taking orders from too many masters can make you crazy.

From sub: yes you are correct in many things Sir. my mind is turning to mush as it has before when in chastity. feel almost constantly like i need chastity belt to stay focused or maybe butt plug. will look again when am in bismark. i look so forward to my private hotel room and have some really kinky thoughts about stuff. have to say i find the fact that i was shaved a turn on and have started thinking of doing it again though boyfriend hates when my balls and stomach get so smooth. am very horned up and need more use, more risk, more kink. damn i am horny, piggish and submissive

From Alan: Nice new photos – you somehow look more aroused, and I didn’t think that was possible. You also look happy, where I’d be swinging from trees. A few more questions: How did you get through nine weeks of not coming the last time? Can you remember? Was there anything special that helped? And let me know your kinky thoughts. Maybe we can use them. Also, try not to use pain to distract yourself.

From sub: day 12. was home alone about 3 hours yesterday naked. not sure how i got along the other time without cumming. think it was because i wasn’t seeing anyone so only had chastity belt and jerking for distraction. i often find that the times of my craziest horniness come in waves. i remember having them before so intensely i would literally shake. pain things and abuse distract me and temporarily decrease my horniness. also remember it is a very different feeling having a butt plug in at the same time as wearing my chastity belt. feels very confined, controlled, almost like bondage so will look for a good one in bismark. some kinky ideas i have because i am intensely horny: being driven around bound naked and blindfolded. posting online that there is a naked sub pig in a hotel room to be used. giving out my text information so others can constantly text me with verbal abuse. before i forget here’s what i ate yesterday, you’ll see I made some changes. coffee, shredded wheat, unsweetened cranberry/lime juice, two hot dogs, salad with ham, glass of 2% milk, diet pepsi. the hot dogs were a fluke, i hardly ever eat those but it was an office party. i have not heard from the 20 year old for two days and he doesn’t answer my texts. he is mostly a sub himself so was possibly following orders. another kinky idea is i keep thinking of hooking up in bismark with a dom to inflict some pain and humiliation on me. getting horny wave again Sir

From Alan: You’ve got to pace yourself better if you’re going to make it another seven weeks. You’re right about pain: it can distract you. But it can also push you into coming, and so could this frenzy of sexual activity you’ve worked yourself into. The idea is to maintain a constant pleasant buzz. You’re really edging yourself, if you know what that means. If you push too hard, its’s all going to be over.

From sub: mmm, this frenzy of sexual activity is so cool though, but now i forgot the kinky thing i was going to tell you. my weight today is 231 but i know it’s not important to check every day because that makes me nervous. just need to keep eating the good stuff. today so far i had coffee, shredded wheat, cranberry/lime juice, water, salad. oh yeah, the kinky thing – i got sent to a video store by a dom once to watch videos in the booth. i had to jerk in my boot and wear it like that all day. boyfriend is home today so no naked alone time. one dom told me yesterday i should get an enema kit and message him while i use it. know how you feel about that so just telling you, haha. think i can last as long as i want without cumming because am committed to not doing it till you allow me

From Alan: That’s very good to know, and maybe it’s the reason I’m here, because so many of the other things you could do by yourself. And, yeah, you know I don’t want to know about the enema, and I should have you do something really nasty to yourself as punishment, but you’re always so far ahead of me. As for the butt plug: yeah, buy one and wear it if it gives you that sense of confinement you like – especially since any discomfort seems to distract you from your horniness, and that seems like a safe way to pull back when you’re making yourself too crazy. It may also be a way to maintain your high.

From sub: mmm, long work day but headed home now. boyfriend home so no naked time till bed. got an awesome new haircut today to celebrate weight loss. short sides and back, more hair on the top, high and tight. i like it!

From Alan: Show me your new haircut. You can take that photo in your bedroom tonight, no matter the light, so there shouldn’t be any problem.

From sub: day 13. here’s haircut pic but i look better than that cause there’s too much flash. will take another outside work this morning. yesterday had coffee, good cereal, good juice, salad, iced tea, water in the afternoon, then chili for dinner with 2% milk and unsalted popcorn. last night playing with nipples made my cock rock hard and springing up and down but massaging my hole a little in the bath did bring it down a bit and let me relax. this morning have those intense feelings of horniness again. so hot. texas master messaged me yesterday and told me he wasn’t going to be available to take my texts or respond to my requests for a few days. wonder if the kid got his text bill. he is also extremely good at verbal abuse which i find hot from young guys. different clothes today, hotter looking, less conservative so i think weight and haircut making an impact. thank you Sir. pretty busy day here work wise. also the dom i was chatting with about the thing you don’t want to talk about invited me to what appears to be a very exclusive web site catering to that specialized type of activity. they have some awesome videos on the site, some are hugely humiliating and quite a turn on. i like that part but won’t look at site again Sir if you don’t want me to

From Alan: Haircut looks great and glad you’re keeping the hard edge of horniness. I can’t tell you what to look at online. That’s your call, and I don’t always have to know about it. But let me know how private your room is in Bismark because I may have some goofy ideas.

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