Obey - 18. Chapter 18 -- Variation

From sub: wow Sir i am home again. that went fast. day 43? i am sorry to say i have lost track of the days again but think perhaps that number is right. well i was not very good on the trip in so many ways. i did little that you asked me to and sort of got caught up in the vacation and being away thing. i did drive most of the time only wearing tight bicycle shorts and most importantly i guess is that i did not cum or orgasm while i was away. i wore my too small tank top a lot too in public and sometimes even when I was with friends though with regular shorts . They said i looked great. i had a terrible diet as the people i was with seemed all consumed about eating. i will get back on track now that i am home. i got lots of sun though and find myself very horny. chastity belt is off and i can see where it was starting to rub into my balls some. hope all this is okay. sorry for not being as obedient as i should have been about everything. mowed on tractor today in bare feet only wearing normal shorts. got a good sunburn on vacation which left me feeling very aroused. had to park the tractor and walk over to the garage through some mud which turned me on as it got my bare feet dirty. took a hot bath afterward that left me slick and took a picture of myself in the foggy mirror which turned me on even more. i am very very submissive now. leaking precum. feeling like a whore boy

From Alan: Yes, yesterday was day 43. Today, Sunday, is day 44. My main instruction was for you to have fun, which it seems you did, so don’t worry about anything else. But glad you’re still in chastity. Also, send me some new photos with your suntan, before it fades.

From sub: day 44. wow seems like forever instead of 44 days. trying to get undug here from all that stuff that happened while i was gone for over a week. but trying to get too much done too soon i think. was sooooo hard last night back naked in my own bed. looked at porn but that made things worse, so many hot guys. can i weigh myself to see how bad i’ve been?

From Alan: 44 days is 26 from where you want to be, so you’re over 60 percent there. Even if it ends tonight, look at what you’ve accomplished. Now focus on getting through the rest of the time. You obviously don’t have to worry about staying aroused. That will take care of itself. So concentrate on not coming. And, yeah, weight yourself. But don’t put too much value in whatever that number is. Your body will quickly correct itself once you’re back on your usual diet.

From sub: day 45. holding my breath i weighed myself this morning and i was only 227. not as bad as i thought i would be. whew Sir thanks. here’s a pic of me smiling on the scale

From Alan. You certainly should celebrate that.

From sub: day 46. out of town the next two days for work. here are a batch of pix i took on the trip, naked and in shorts and my tank tops. regular meals yesterday and today and feeling better about that already

From Alan: I’ll hear from you when you get back. Meanwhile, thanks for the photos and don’t make yourself crazy.

From sub: Sir yes Sir. i will work on everything once i get back.

From Alan: Are you going to that hotel in Bismark again?

From sub: day 47. yes bismark but no real time to use on this trip for play. but some humiliating experiences from a dom online i can tell you about another time Sir. i have had a request to relay to you from another dom regarding my pubic hair and if it may be removed. i told him you said no because i really don’t want it shaved so i hope that’s all right. but i also wondered if i were lucky enough to get into a real scene and a dom wanted to shave me again completely what i would do. i don’t want to disobey and you know i find it hot following orders but i really like my body this way–thank you Sir–and feel more like a whore man. i have also told all the doms that cumming is completely off limits until you say so. i had a very mellow day food wise yesterday, modest portions and small salad for dinner. i have reduced porn input into my system, not sure why but thought this would be a good thing. also a guy was just looking at me and looking at me in the hotel restaurant. i was just wearing business clothes, dress shirt, khakis, socks and shoes and he couldn’t have known i had no underwear. i really wanted to say something but didn’t have time to follow through. daytime and evening meetings

From Alan: I told you: you’re a good-looking man. You always were, twenty pounds heavier or not. So I don’t know why you’re surprised at being cruised. Maybe you’ve spent too much time in smaller, even more conservative Minot than you think. As for taking control of your body and telling some dom to fuck off, even if you did lie about it in my name – well, that’s probably the best thing you’ve done since we’ve known each other, and it’s even better than just being cruised. And both those things should make your already hard dick even harder. As for being a man: Grady, you’d be a man totally shaved and in complete drag. You just are, and nothing’s going to take that way from you.

From sub: wow Sir wow! THANK YOU! i haven’t had such a great pep talk since high school football. and this is stupid Sir but i really want you to fuck me right now Sir. i want to give up this whole chastity thing and let you fuck me till I cum for you Sir. and i’ll do anything else you want me to Sir. you deserve that and a lot more for all the things you’ve been doing for me SIR!

From Alan: NO! No, no, no! There, I’ve lost my cool again and hollered at you, and it wasn’t even about shit. But it was about a different kind of shit, and just let that go. Now!

From sub: yes Sir. thank you Sir. i’m thinking clearly again Sir. i think all the good things you said just went to my head Sir and i’m sorry i lost control Sir. it won’t happen again, i promise you that Sir. i’m still in bismark but didn’t go to the restaurant for dinner again to see if that guy was there since we had a kind of business banquet tonight. i did stop by the hotel bar afterward to see if he was there but he wasn’t and that was probably good. because i wouldn’t have really known what I wanted. i do enjoy humiliation immensely Sir, you know that, all types of humiliation. but i don’t think that’s what he was after. i know i come off as a top, i always have and he may have even thought i was straight. but i need to be used in real time Sir, so fucking much

From Alan: That’s still your horniness kicking in. You think you’re thinking clearly, but you’re not. Under any other circumstances, I’d tell a guy in this shape to go out and have sex – or at least go into a corner and use one of his fists. But you’re not in those circumstances and the humiliation you’re begging for – of having your body shaved, or having me fuck you, or hooking up with some anonymous guy – you just have to use as your submission. “Offer it up,” as some Catholics still say. Remember, you just about signed a contract with me – seventy days till your chastity is over. That’s the deal, and your humiliation is to get you as aroused as possible without breaking it. As for real-time use: again, I’m not sure your judgment is as sound as you think, and the only person I’d feel comfortable with you having sex with is your boyfriend. I know you don’t want to talk about him, but you said he gets interested in sex about once every three months. So isn’t it about time?

From sub: you’re right Sir, it’s the horniness in control and i’d even let you talk about my boyfriend now. i’d send you a pic of him naked and being fucked Sir if I had one and i find that so humiliating it makes me feel like such a little faggot boi Sir

From Alan: I don’t particularly like those words, Grady. Now go take a cold shower, strap yourself into chastity, and quit writing me tonight. It’s already late. And stop calling me “Sir” every other word.

From sub: day 48. the shower helped a lot and i took another one this morning though you know i hate cold water. that made me feel even more submissive. i’m heading home this morning, well after lunch and i’m not sure i’ve lost weight again but my clothes feel better. so if i haven’t lost any, i must be redistributing it. on the trip here a dom called me on my cell phone when i was on the highway and had me pull over. then he had me, get out, go to the back of my car, take off everything I was wearing including my chastity belt and butt plug, lock them in my trunk and get back in my car and drive down the road for exactly 10 miles. then I had to pull over and wait until he called. that took another 10 minutes and both were the longest ten minutes of my life. i was really hating him and myself for listening to him but i couldn’t stop and i was hard and leaking the whole time. i had to put my windshield wiping rag under my dick it was so bad. finally he called and had me take a picture of my hard dick and send it to him. then he called me a stupid white trash cock sucking shit eating asshole licking scum bastard and told me he never wanted to hear from me again. when I tried calling back to say thank you, he’d already blocked my number

From Alan: I’m sorry about that Grady. But I’ll bet you anything he writes again. You’ve got him as hooked as you are, but he has no excuse.

From sub: you don’t think he was doing it for some dom and was being forced by some kind of threat?

From Alan: That could be it – easily. You know how dangerous it can be online, and he sounds like a kid.

From sub: no he’s our age. he sent me a pic last week. when i was on my trip he had me go into a large grocery store wearing my business clothes and find a john. then he had me take everything off except my shirt, making sure the shirttails covered my dick, ass, and balls. this was intense. then he had me buy a magic marker and say out loud a few times in the store that i was a fucking faggot. i checked out while he was still listening on the phone and once i got outside he had me put on my shorts, take off the shirt, open the marker and write FAGGOT across my chest in huge black letters. then i was sent through the wendys drive thru to get a frosty and i had to tell the guy taking the money,“sorry i’m dressed like this way but my Master wants to punish me.” the dom was listening again on the phone and lucky for me the guy at the drive thru was foreign and probably didn’t think understand a word i said

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