Obey - 12. Chapter 12 -- Variation

From Alan: Thanks for all that. About diet and discipline: we might order you to eat healthier foods and lose a little weight, or the medical problems you’re going to have later may be more torturous than anything some deviant master could devise. You don’t need to lose weight all at once. It will come off naturally if you simply switch over to eating better – or even eating smaller portions. But that’s hard because small is perceptual, like something else I’m sure you can think of.
Speaking of which, here’s an early start on your pictures for next week. These can all be taken at once if it’s easier. What’s most important is that they be taken in outside light. For a couple of reasons: One, semi-exposing yourself might give you a kick. Two, the pictures will be clearer. But don’t get yourself arrested, and don’t embarrass your neighbors. Take the pictures in some sheltered part of your yard.
Here’s the list: 1. That good close up of your face – you still haven’t sent it. 2. A profile of your body, full-length, naked. 3. Same thing, but from the behind. And you may as well do the same from the front, while you’re at it, maybe both with and without your device.
Also, here’s a game you might want to play when you’re naked in bed: Lie comfortably on your back. Without touching it, take your dick up to full hard, almost to the point of coming. As soon as that happens, lie immediately with your hands at your sides – no movement until your dick goes completely soft. Then get your dick hard again, the same way, to that same point. Then let it go soft. And try not to howl.

From sub: very frustrating long day which began with me in the office at 6:30. was hoping to leave early but alas it’s 5:45 and i’m still here. i fully understand the diet thing and will move that way. it’s just that this will require a shift in food purchasing, which i do not do, and meal preparation, which i also do not do. so over time i can integrate more of this into my routine. 15 years ago i lost 70 lbs when I’d mushroomed to over 260. i lost it by eating a diet of poached egg on toast for breakfast, yogurt and banana for lunch, and a very large salad for dinner. i didn’t deviate from this for 6 days a week and lost it all with about 3.5 months. so i do know of what you say is true

From Alan: That weight loss was terrific, but this is kind of beyond losing weight once. It’s learning a better way to eat for the rest of your life. So you need to tell your partner, in the gentlest way, that he’s killing you both, and it’s going to be a slow and terrible death if not a sudden one. And I’ll leave you with that pleasant thought and your dick locked in.

From sub: yesterday morning got up, showered and signed online. dressed in white sox, sneakers, boxers, jeans, dress shirt and still had chastity belt on cause I decided to sneak it home and sleep in it. after coffee went to work which was a long frustrating busy day and did not get to leave early. had four small pieces of pizza for lunch because it was shared as part of work meeting. got home, had grilled steak, about 12 oz probably, yeah i know way too big. later had shredded wheat with a little granola mixed in and banana. had diet pepsi with the pizza and glass of milk with dinner. today will wear boxers, white sox, jeans, sneakers, pullover shirt and put chastity belt on at work. i’m probably going to be around home earlier today some as i wasn’t able to be yesterday. am trying to shift food over more the way you are indicating. know you are right Sir

From Alan: I know we’re supposed to be tormenting you physically, but if your body isn’t there, your dick won’t be, either. More early warning for next week’s photos: I notice from the latest ones, your pubic, belly, and chest hair are growing in. Any reason not to let that happen? Also, did you try that arousal game at night, and does it making you even hornier? And what do you do for work that has you working such erratic hours?
Here’s a possible steady diet. I know you know this, but still:
Breakfast: 10 ounces of unsweetened juice. 10 ounces of shredded wheat, dry. 10 ounces of 2% milk, in cereal. Coffee
Lunch: Large salad with chicken or fish. No dressing. No soda. Unsweetened iced tea or water. Coffee
Dinner: Large salad with chicken or fish. No dressing. No soda. Unsweetened iced tea or water. Coffee
Snacks: Unsalted, unbuttered popcorn – unlimited amounts. Fruit – unlimited amounts
Of course, following that diet for the rest of your life is probably more boring than living in rural North Dakota.

From sub: i have been naked in the house since i arrived back home from errands this morning which was about 10 am. going to go lay down in a little while and get some rest before i have to leave and drive to a meeting. if there is more personal stuff to tell you about please ask. turns out it’s good to answer

From Alan: Being naked when you’re alone sounds good. Do you do it just to humiliate yourself, or are you tempting yourself to masturbate? Or did you sneak your chastity device home again and are you wearing it? Also, next week, I’m not giving you any particular photo assignments. Just take some pictures of your body that would surprise me.

From sub: well Sir i have encountered my first set of problems so to speak. i have tried several times to get an asshole pic to surprise you and i can’t seem to accomplish this. i can’t spread my cheeks wide enough, haha. also since you are not letting me touch my cock i have been playing with my nipples a lot and they are very sore. but good sore i guess. i can feel my shirt rubbing against them. the diet is great and not that unfamiliar but the night meal may not always match up to what you suggest because of my boyfriend. though we often have fish and rice and i can already feel myself losing weight. i run the place where i work so i have a lot of freedom about coming and going most days. minot isn’t boring. it’s just in the northwestern part of the state and it’s nothing special, more a small town than a city

From Alan: Trying to take different pictures is fine, but I’m not really sure I needed to see one of your asshole anyway. Here’s something that may help your nipples: Use a little lubricant, and tickle don’t pinch them. I hope to hell you’re not clamping them. Fish is great for dinner, and plain rice in small amounts is fine as are small amounts of plain potatoes with no oils, butter, or gravy.

From sub: got up yesterday, made coffee, went online, used bathroom, dressed in jeans, boxers, white sox, pull over shirt, sneakers, later chastity belt. went to work around 6:45 and was there to about nine am. went downtown, ran some errands, came home, got naked, got online, had a bowl of shredded wheat and asmall juice. cleaned up kitchen, took a nap, checked email, had a small bowl of cottage cheese, small piece of cheese, small milk. put on clothes, left for meeting, drank water when i got there, had meeting, came home, watched tv, checked email for messages, went to bed. got idea for taking pic of my asshole and will try that today. still want to get your reaction. today will wear boxers, khakis, dress shirt, dress sox, dress shoes and chastity belt. will check messages later. feeling good and horny again though and can feel my nipples, cock, balls, hole and feet all wanting attention

From Alan: Again, good. Also, continue detailing your weekend days, even though you don’t have time to send as many or any messages because you’re busy with your partner, family, and friends. You can include details in your normal Monday morning message with any photos. So far, you’re doing fine. I have a picture of your life, and your sense of control over part of it. How are you doing with not masturbating? Sounds like it may be time to do it again. And have you thought about masturbating every night some week, to see what it does to you? And also not letting yourself wear your chastity device? After a week of coming nightly and letting your dick swing freely during the day, it may make you nice and edgy. I wouldn’t want to be your partner or anyone in your office though. And what exactly is your job?

From sub: hi Sir, home now after long day and feeling sort of tired. have not got the picture of my ass taken yet and know there is no hurry cause you don’t really want to see it. but hopefully i can get that later so it can be ready for tomorrow. i have a busy schedule tomorrow as well. this morning i got up around 7 but wasn’t able to have breakfast. had a chicken salad and iced tea for lunch and not sure about dinner yet cause not sure what my boyfriend has planned. i have some reservations about a week of masturbation and sustaining a horny level of any kind for the next week. chastity has always been my interest as it peaks my horniness and ability to serve, be obedient and be kinky. i respectfully ask you to reconsider but if it’s what you really have in mind i will follow. i have already been good and horny this week. my job is to run the office

From Alan: I told you: the asshole picture was your idea, so you can always forget it. I understand that you like celibacy, and that’s why I was curious what would happen if you masturbated seven nights in a row – if it would make you more horny or less. Also, the descriptions you’ve been sending me are great, and here are some other things you might want to explore: 1. Describe the last time you had sex with your partner. When was it and what happened? 2. Tell me what you think would happen if you initiated sex with him again. What might be your best approach? What would happen if he put you off? What could you do to get by that? 3. Tell me what your ideal love-making session would be. Who would it be with? What would you do? Where? How long would it last? 4. Describe your most extreme sexual fantasy. Who would it be with? What would happen to you? Where? Why would you want it to happen? 5. Describe your worst sexual nightmare. What would take your life so completely out of control that you’d never get it back again? Why are you glad this won’t happen? Or are you not?

From sub: wow, for being such a good boy for so long i hate to make waves by saying i am not going to do something. but some of the questions you asked i will not answer. i told you my boyfriend is off limits. he’s completely out of bounds with anything that goes on here. i can answer some of your other questions but first i have one for you. what do you think about the sub’s interests and fetishes being met? is that at all important to you? you have been a good Master and understanding and creative. but i do have serious doubts about the masturbation thing. what i sought and first wrote you about was chastity, not being milked or cumming. i had an experience about 20 years ago of 60 days of not cumming and it was awesome. there have been years and years when i have jacked off every night so i get what that is about. i really seek not being allowed to cum so i can be a submissive pig and feel the high of cum denial and i am not sure you understand. i don’t mean to top from the bottom or be difficult. i’m home alone and naked for the next 2 hours so i’ll try that arousal game to make you happy. but I won’t cum

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