Obey - 20. Chapter 20 -- Variation

From sub: day 53. yes i understand though not much time for stimulation or porn right now. but it would be nice. so17 more days–2 weeks plus 3. i can already feel it being a sort of sad day

From Alan: Why do you say that? The point of setting a record is sometimes setting a record to break. Think about that. But also think about starting over and going even 71 days without sex.

From sub: mmm yes i’ve talked with other subs who are permanently prohibited from ejaculating–i mean always cause their Masters carry their keys. i can’t imagine how that feels. i can barely imagine 70 days because i want to cum so badly

From Alan: You’re less than 3 weeks away. And maybe the less we talk about sex, the easier it will be.

From sub: talk is all i have right now Sir and don’t want to give it up. once i start jerking again it’s gonna be hard to stop and maybe you’ve noticed i’m prone to extremes

From Alan: You’re only doing what most guys do for most of their lives.

From sub: haha, thanks for the reminder. day 54. slept okay but nights without chastity belt are still hard. tried doubling jockey shorts under my pj’s but waistbands were too tight even with them tucked under my belly. so woke early and took really cold shower. dick was like an inch long when i was finished and balls had disappeared. still weigh 218 though with less roof work and after heavy meal last night. boyfriend and family wanted to go to favorite mexican place. boyfriend’s also stopped looking at me so carefully since i showed him my hairy body and did it again this morning so he could be sure. funny if that makes him want sex. if that happens i’ll submit and not lie to you. wouldn’t feel good about doing that anyway. also funny how it’s like i’m buzzed all the time. but a good buzz like a lull. still could go into the john any second here at work, jerk, and say fuck all this. looking to take a break from it very soon

From Alan: Congratulations, Grady. You’ve just made pleasure sound like punishment.

From sub: day 55. cold shower again this morning and noticed my chest hair has some gray in it, actually more and more. i hate that. kind of bad day at work yesterday too, just didn’t get enough done. and long day ahead

From Alan: Sorry about the overwork and the gray. I don’t have any gray in mine yet, but I know it’s coming because my dad’s is almost totally white. If it really bugs you, when this is over, you can shave it again – providing you can duck your partner. Meanwhile, take a nice warm bath tonight if you can. But keep your hands off yourself.

From sub: day 56. 2 more weeks, 14 days. not much new here. still very busy at work and chastity belt’s getting a little uncomfortable. i’ll leave it off for a day or so and see if i can sleep. promise to be very careful

From Alan: Just pace yourself through the next two weeks. Maybe it’s a good thing you have all this work to distract you.

From sub: day 57. yes, understood. even thinking about cumming get me too excited. when can that happen by the way? anytime friday after i get up? or is there a certain time when my chastity will be over?

From Alan: If even thinking about it arouses you, maybe it would be best to put a paper bag over your head, chase down some sleeping pills, and doze for the next couple of weeks. As for when you’re allowed to come: you’ve kind of already set the time by the last time you came. I think that was just before you went to sleep. So to get the full seventy days, you have to work all day, get yourself home, pace yourself through the evening, and just before you drift off, shoot. The good news is you won’t be sad all day knowing your chastity has ended. You’ll also be able to fall asleep knowing you can start a new round of chastity in the morning. Or just happily jerk.

From sub: yes, sweet, though it would seem 70 days would end the night before–that when i came thursday night at 10 it would complete the entire 70 days. wouldn’t waiting til 10 pm friday actually make it 71? though sometimes i’m not so good at math. the other interesting thing about chastity is how focused you get on guys out there every day. i get so attracted to them. wondering if they’d have sex with me, what it would take them to do it. or if they’d be any good. and yeah i know–i got it bad

From Alan: Well, figure the math in terms of twenty-four hours – that goes from midnight to midnight. So if you did something at ten on a Friday night, you’d have to wait till ten the following Friday night to make it a week. And you’d have to wait an additional nine Friday nights to make it ten weeks. That’s your current job. I could suggest you count naked guys leaping over fences to improve your math skills, but that would seem counterproductive.

From sub: haha, my loose dick is now hard thinking of naked guys stuck on fences and i think you did that to be mean. day 58. 12 more to go and it’s funny how far that seems and how long ago the first day was. still nothing new here. it’s the weekend so i’m doing weekend stuff but wearing too many clothes damn you. are you trying to sweat my weight off? woke up this morning with a headache which never happens and wondered if it had to do with chastity or working too much? took a normal warm shower and am feeling better and it was fun to see my dick swinging again. huge amounts of rain yesterday with some flooding and some rivers high. but we’re fine so i guess i’ll get back to sweating on the roof

From Alan: I’m sure time seems especially slow when you’re trying not to think about the things you usually do to pass it. But keep moving forward. Also, if you need some low key excitement, send me some new pictures of yourself, but this time keep all your clothes on. I’ll bet you look sexy in them. And did you ever get your bike fixed?

From sub: day 59. no about the bike. too much rain to ride anyway and boyfriend would think i’m a jerk. some of those doms have been sending me orders again and asking when i’ll be home from vacation. not answering them since you said to limit my porn

From Alan: You’ve about equaled your record now – under thirty hours to go. So if you need to break your chastity, you’ve got that. And pay attention to your partner. He’ll be there long after your chastity’s gone, and he seems far more important to you than your idiot doms – including me.

From sub: well any fuck in the wilderness i say. and just cause i’m done with chastity doesn’t mean my boyfriend is. so it’ll be back to jerking again in the shower, or in bed, or any place that’s convenient. so might as well have some horny teenage dom helping me out. by the way, 216 today

From Alan: That’s something else you can focus on – eating properly. The sad thing about our bodies is they’re often not our friends. On top of developing diseases, they also like to hold to the status quo. So your body’s going to want to shoot your weight back up to over 240 again, given the slightest chance. No matter how many years it takes.

(No message from sub.)

From Alan: Well, that’s weird. There’s usually a message from you in the morning, and I figured there’d especially be one today, seeing you’ve hit sixty days. But you said strange things were happening at work, so I hope everything’s OK. In any case, congratulations. You have amazing discipline.

From sub: yes, 60, sorry. woke with a huge headache, 3rd day in a row. called off work, went back to bed, then got up later and soaked in the tub for over an hour. headache gone now and was fun to play with my dick while watching it float. fingered my hole for a while too, very careful not to cum. rolled my nips between my fingers also–whew. still in that buzzy lull though. friend with motorcycle called and wanted to go riding but i needed to drop off some stuff at work i’d done at home. so we did both. wind felt great against my chest even though i was wearing a ton of clothes. and yeah i got to 60 days and it is kind of that sad thing i worried about. the other time seems forever ago and i was so young even though i was 28 or 29. a little weirdness at home cause boyfriend is again saying i’m fooling around on the net and my being naked in front of him twice in one week is proof. he’s positive some dom ordered me to do that. i told him he’s just cranky from not having sex and i offered to fuck him right there in the dining room. he said he was now definite some dom had put me up to that. i told him no one’s ever had to force me to have sex, especially with him cause i love it and miss it but now he’s even more sure someone else is behind this. it’s good i know him so well and love him and know his moods but the whole thing of almost never having sex with him coming at this point in my chastity means i have to play the whole thing by ear. i still want to reach 70 days but will have to see

From Alan: I’m glad you know him that well because I’m not sure I’d have the patience. And I absolutely agree with you – there are far worse things in life than having your long-term partner want to fuck you on the dining room floor. Actually, the best way to end your chastity might be for you two to have sex, but I’m not getting involved with that. So I’d do what he wants. Make him comfortable. And now that you’ve reached sixty days, the rest is a bonus.

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