Obey - 15. Chapter 15 -- Variation

From sub: plan is to leave here sunday afternoon approximately 2:30. just under 2 hour drive. stay at hotel until next morning around 9:30 am. was planning on stopping at adult store when free. last time i stayed on the 12th floor and it was fairly private, with balcony

From Alan: Are you wearing your chastity device on your drive? And what other clothes? Once you reach your hotel room, if you have a secluded balcony, you might want to lie naked on it for a while – as long as you’re comfortable. If there’s no private balcony but a private window, you might be able to stand naked at that, or just wearing your chastity device. You also might want to sleep uncovered if you can make the room warm enough.

From sub: yes thank you Sir. been trying to do that uncovered sleep thing for years but only manage on hot summer nights. hope there’s a balcony again or private window with no security cams. will have to see. wearing chastity belt on drive and normal clothes. may also tape chest as i said. been a very busy day here so no other stuff going on with other masters, just work. will report more if i have time. feels good to have instructions

From Alan: The combination of your chastity device and the tape should keep you happily aroused. You might also try the arousal game in bed or in the hotel tub.

From sub: day 14. yesterday had coffee, cereal, juice then small greek salad and iced tea for lunch. large salad and glass of skim milk for dinner and later a small glass of cranberry/lime juice. very little free time yesterday. went to bed feeling more and more horny and very very hard. slept five hours and awoke. the soreness of my nipples makes me feel like such a horny sub boy

From Alan: If I order you to do anything, it may be to ask you to find a synonym for “horny.” Also, if you’re going to keep your hair styled as it now, does it need to be cut every week? You want to stay looking sharp. Finally, be careful about not letting your seemingly constant interrupt your sleep. Is there any way you know to help that?

From sub: mmm, haha, all good points Sir. i will keep my hair cut weekly. people in my office think i look great and think it’s just my hair. don’t know how to help my sleep. know i don’t want to get cranky without it but don’t want to give up my hard dick–is that a good word?

From Alan: Does sleeping and waking up that hard pose any risk to your celibacy? You might try the old cold showers.

From sub: day 15. hate cold showers so that could work. can’t take them during the night though as i told you boyfriend might get suspicious. good night sleep last night probably cause i was so tired. yesterday had usual breakfast, shrimp and salad for lunch with small skim milk, beans, fish and 2% milk for dinner. later some cranberry/lime juice. looked at porn sites last night in my bedroom. i think with most porn, you want to be the guy in the video, especially watching the humiliation and degradation, knowing how that all must feel and knowing the guy knows a camera is filming him for everyone to see almost forever. pretty intense. have work to do this morning then have trip tomorrow. not sure what lies between but definitely church with boyfriend and family also chores around house. sort of feeling ebbed and flowed this morning and looking forward to my break in the big city

From Alan: Bismark isn’t really all that much bigger than Minot. Is it “the big city” to you because it’s less familiar? Have a good drive. Enjoy your hotel room. And take advantage of the pool, hot tub, or even the gym. You never mention exercise other than yardwork and chores.

From sub: bismark just feels bigger, don’t know why. also wish i knew why porn and humiliation are such a turn on for me. my nipples get so hard and my hole gets so tight. right now cock is straining at the thought of all this. not sure which gets me excited more–doing it, watching it or sending you naked pix every morning. hard call. tomorrow will look in adult store at new chastity belts and maybe find a comfortable butt plug. would love a pair of leather chastity shorts but too much risk with boyfriend. will look around though. you seem to be a kind dom, sort of suggesting rather than ordering. you said you might be when I wanted cruel but i was wrong and am surprised to be so. been less than a month since you took over and it’s been a good month. not sure if you are this way with every sub. also should i have dinner in the hotel restaurant or eat room service naked?

From Alan: Give yourself a break and eat dinner in the hotel restaurant, with your clothes on and chastity belt off. But don’t suddenly fall for a steak and baked potato with butter and sour cream. Stick to salads. And there may be some good looking guys around to look at while you eat. Just keep picturing them with their clothes instead of what you’re seeing online. And I like your daily photos. Do you post them in many places?

From sub: day 16. today is my day to travel. usual meals yesterday but pizza for dinner last night. yes i know that was bad but what boyfriend wanted. ate small slices though and not many of them. got your message about salad in dining room and should be able to do that though don’t know how the day will work out exactly, when leaving and when getting checked in. haven’t picked out my clothes yet. been wondering if i could possibly drive in tank top and shorts with just chastity belt underneath. keep trying to think of where there’s a field along the way to stop and take off my clothes for a minute. had my usual breakfast and will have a good lunch before i head out later

From Alan: What did you end up driving in? Hope you found a field to strip in and also hope you didn’t get arrested. You’ve got to remember not to take stupid risks. An occasional safe one is OK, for example, if no one can see you on your hotel balcony or in your window.

From sub: hi Sir. trip up was good in shorts, tank top and sneaks. found a field to get naked in outside bismark and took pix then changed into my hotel check in clothes. maybe buying some nipple clamps too, comfortable ones cause tried the duct tape thing and pulling too much hair off my chest. can’t leave marks for boyfriend. had salad for dinner in hotel restaurant like you said. some hot guys there too even dressed. also got new chastity belt and have been trying it in different positions. will send you pix

From Alan. Nice photos, all around. Thanks. And I’m sure you’re busy with your meeting today.

From sub: day 17. had an okay hotel breakfast this morning though cereal size was too small and had to order second one. juice was too sweeten but coffee was good. had to eat what they served for lunch at meeting , steak or chicken and potatoes and string beans. ate chicken but not all I was served and got salad instead of potatoes. stayed away from rolls and chocolate cake. iced tea was too sweetened too so drank water and coffee. drove back with shirt open, no t, and pants open, no underwear. and new chastity belt showing. took picture of that for you. had tomato soup, salad with ham and skim milk for dinner. nipples need attention bad Sir because of my chastity. didn’t find any good clamps so could use your suggestions

From Alan: Glad the trip was good. Did you have a balcony or get a chance to stand naked at your hotel window? And are you using lube for massaging your nipples?

From sub: day 18. weight still 231, would have thought it would be lower. no balcony this time but did stand in front of hotel window probably more than 5 minutes. did it on 3 or 4 occasions. room was on 17th floor so nice view but only someone watching through telescope would see me. big downside to public display like this or in field is risk of losing job. someone in similar job lost theirs a few years ago when internet pictures surfaced. i find myself going through another level of some sort that i am enjoying. feel much more slave like and nipples have become such an erotic zone for me, not so much sore but am conscious of them all the time. just touching them gives me such intense feelings. feel much more like boy sub whore which i am wanting to delve deeper into. an object for sex and use. your suggestions of lube and massage aroused me significantly cause i imagined your fingers on my chest. even if it does not come to fruition it’s arousing. am back at work today and wearing new chastity belt. much better i think for longer term use than previous models. did get butt plug but having bit of problem with it. probably need to wear it next several days to break it in, or break myself in, forgot i have felt in the past a possible reaction with latex. this plug may not have that issue however ass is so sore today i have the plug out. had usual healthy breakfast then salad, milk and coffee for lunch. tonight a few baked beans, milk, small salad and unsweetened iced tea. milk is now always skim or 2% if i forget to say

From Alan: Your weight isn’t going to suddenly drop that much again. As I said, the first time was probably because you were cleaning yourself out and changing your habits. So just be patient, because the healthiest way is to lose about a pound-or-two a week.

From sub: understand Sir. my earlier diet, when I lost all that weight was never good cause i put it all back on. though that took several years. any ideas on furthering my feelings of being a whore boy in some way? some way of pimping me out or making me feel that way more intensely or something? not sure exactly what am looking for here or meaning but thought i would convey it anyway Sir

From Alan: You have to decide if you want sex and if you’ll let yourself have it outside your relationship. Up to now, you’ve said “No,” and chastity was your goal. If you really want to change that, I’m sure you could meet another man discretely, even in a city as small as Minot. But you might not find someone who’ll be willing to let you stay locked in, and you might accidentally shoot when your sucking him off or letting him fuck you. Meanwhile, staying naked in your house when you’re alone, or even risking it at night for a couple of minutes in your dark backyard after your partner goes to sleep, might make you feel like you want. You also have a better imagination than you think, and I’ll bet you can come up with a whole range of ways to humiliate yourself.

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