Obey - 16. Chapter 16 -- Variation

From sub: day 19. i think videos taken in neutral location while wearing a mask or hood might work. its just the logistics of it all and meeting a willing man. am thinking of visiting some friends alone in nebraska the second week next month. could leave on a friday or saturday and have a day to spend someplace. finding someone online could be my project for next week. also i try to avoid having sex outside my relationship, not that others haven’t done something to me on occasion like foot worship, massage or bondage. just not actual sex. i would consider otherwise as long as it was very safe and it would have to be when i am away in a larger city. also i was actually meaning more online use from a stranger when thinking about the pimping out but am not opposed to something real and might even give up chastity for that. don’t see any way around my cumming and almost did when I read what you suggested. yesterday, usual good breakfast, salad, coffee and skim milk for lunch, dinner two grilled chicken legs, grilled vegetables, small milk and popcorn for snack. regarding having a whole range of ways to humiliate myself, i will rely on you for that Sir. following your suggestion i was able to go outside for a brief period tonight and slipped off my bathrobe and stayed naked til i heard a car on the road.. nipples are appearing sort of larger i think, very erotic. also could you please give me my current instructions of what i should be doing again as i may have gotten off track the past few days

From Alan: You don’t really have many instructions besides eating well, sending me daily notes and pictures, letting your body hair grow out, keeping your hair cut sharply, and being naked in your house whenever you can. And there’s your chastity device, butt plug, and that arousal game to play. I guess that is quite a list, but I don’t really feel it’s something I gave you – more things we agreed on to make you happy.

From sub: mmm yes, i like to think those are all your orders Sir. am looking at possibilities of a dom out of town Sir and one would think that since i have the whole state of south dakota and nebraska to choose from there might be someone available. perhaps you can keep an eye out as well. work has been so busy this week there’s not much time for anything else. have been negligent in using my butt plug but chastity belt was on all night though i used one of my old ones so i didn’t have to sneak new one into the house. diet was a little off today due to boyfriend cooking when I worked late and having to eat what he made. overall though feel i’ve made great improvements

From Alan: You have made great improvements, and I’m always impressed. You might try to make online connections, so you can meet someone in South Dakota or Nebraska, and maybe he’ll make a video of you doing things he asks for you to post. But he’s got to be trustworthy, and you’ve got to keep your face hidden at all times. Personally, I wouldn’t risk it.

From sub: day 20. still 231 lbs. usual breakfast and lunch since boyfriend can’t change them and rice, beans, chips, salsa and eggs for dinner. but small portions and i really wanted popcorn for snax but made myself skip that. work is still extremely busy and stressful, lots going on, so i’ve neglected to wear my plug most of the week. and i must confess that for the first day i do not have my chastity belt on. putting it on and taking it off so many times, morning and night and going home for lunch is overtaxing my capabilities with all that is going on. stroked nips and got hard in bed last night without my chastity belt but didn’t cum and slept all right

From Alan: You could try not wearing your chastity device all week, at least during the day. I wouldn’t risk it at night and I think you were taking a big chance yesterday, unless you’re not nearly as far gone as you say.

From sub: yes Sir wow there’s an idea and truly a punishment even if you didn’t mean it. i got used to wearing my belt again from the trip but i will obey Sir. have still been looking for someone into video things trip wise but nothing stands out at the moment

From Alan: I suspect your dick is standing out.

From sub: yes Sir it is Sir and here’s a pic this morning at work to prove that. Also not wearing my chastity belt again today, day 21. just finishing up work for the week and then a few errands and then home. busy busy busy week and have not been naked outside at all. hopefully can do that tonight when i get home. hopefully can write more later too when my brain settles down

From Alan: Yes. Relax. You don’t want to accidentally come because of the stress.

From sub: yes Sir, i understand Sir. watching some porn tonight but with chastity belt on for safety and fingers only touching my nips. feeling the need to be used so badly like in the videos and humiliated Sir. very you know what and not really doing anything to help it

From Alan: You’re supposed to be very horny – see, I’m allowed to say it, haha. That’s why you’re trying to stay celibate for ten weeks. Celibacy both punishes you and keeps you high, both of which you seem to like, a lot. The other thing you can do to distract yourself from your arousal is massage your whole body. Use a decent lube, and make sure you explore every crevice. Be careful if you hit your prostate, though the worst that might do is make you piss.

From sub: i love your saying piss Sir because i didn’t think i was supposed to mention that either. feeling so submissive Sir, so wanting humiliation, use and degradation. would beg you for it if you were here

From Alan: You’re already degrading yourself by begging, and the more you beg, the more you’re gonna piss me off.

From sub: haha Sir and sorry, i’ll stop begging. day 22. cereal for breakfast though with regular milk since we ran out of skim. will get more later. massaged myself for a while last night as you suggested but relaxed so much i fell asleep. no time for that tonight Sir since company coming today

From Alan: If you want more stimulation for your body, try lying on your stomach in bed and rubbing your chest very slowly against the mattress. That will quickly involve far more than your chest, so make sure your chastity device is on. Don’t want to upset your long range plans.

From sub: yes Sir. thank you Sir!

From Alan: The other thing you can do is simply stop wearing underwear, except for socks, during the day. There are several sides to this, but mainly the added exposure may keep you even more aware of your body. The big concern is not arousing your partner’s suspicion, so maybe you can slip out of your underwear at work when you put on your device – if you’re back to wearing that there. It also depends on whether you’re so constantly aroused that you’ve begun to leak. Want to be careful about that.

From sub: day 23. yesterday was spent motorcycle riding with a friend on her new bike. she stayed the afternoon and evening eating almost anything and kind of wrecking my diet. make up for it today. usual breakfast this morning and salad and iced tea for lunch. i actually won a free steak at my office but will let boyfriend eat most of that tonight or tomorrow. i know red meat is not great for me and have already reduced that. so salad tonight. i tried lying on my stomach and stimulating my chest that way but it didn’t work much. do feel even more sexual without underwear though and have and chatted with several people online about the trip. but nothing has firmed up yet. being barefoot with no underwear has me pretty hard at the moment, along with the thoughts of your use of me in the following weeks

From Alan: I thought your stomach might block your chest from squarely rubbing against your mattress, but your stomach’s nothing like it was even three weeks ago. Also, I wanted to give your nipples a break from your over-attention to them. Try lying on your back instead, with your eyes closed or the lights off, almost like meditation. Then see if you can get any friction going by slowly moving your chest left and right against your top sheet and blankets.

From sub: day 24. more company yesterday and worked on an addition we’ve been building. wore no underwear, just shorts, loose t and sneakers. had usual breakfast, salad and water for lunch, cheese, chips, salsa, and salad for dinner with a little milk and iced tea. have greatly reduced portions of what i eat too and am much more conscious of it all again. not so sure a real hook up thing is going to happen on my trip. difficult finding someone to commit without some kind of meeting beforehand but will continue to try. also will try the new chest rubbing thing tonight plus the old one again on my mattress

From Alan: If you think you can get away with it at work, you can also try keeping your shirt open three buttons over your bare chest. See if that does anything for you. Good news about the smaller portions even when you can’t control the kind of food. That works as well if you have the discipline, but most people don’t. The big thing about eating is this is for the rest of your life. It’s not a one-time diet. So you’ve got to figure out ways than make you comfortable. Plus make sure you’re always getting enough to eat.

From sub: day 25. worked on the addition some yesterday in just my shorts. had company for the holiday but stuck with normal breakfast and lunch. dinner was steak, vegetables and small potato with nothing on it. steak was very lean and grilled but apple and key lime pie for dessert. oh well. overall have greatly reduced the carbohydrates in my diet and am eating better than ever i know. will find a way to continue this. quiet day sexually. rubbed my nipples with lotion instead of trying your idea in bed. got my cock hard then put on chastity belt to sleep

From Alan: Yeah, eating well goes on forever, like taxes. The point is to watch what you eat and not worry about your weight. That should take care of itself. Also, if you focus on your dick, you may be distracted from what goes in your mouth.

From sub: haha again, sometimes you really get me. day 26 and back to work. sneakers, socks, no other underwear. jeans and shirt three buttons open without anyone mentioning it. weight 226, a nice drop from last week but still a little disappointing. just want 20 more lbs to go away. usual breakfast and lunch. dinner, chicken breast, green beans, water, a little plain rice, skim milk. very busy today

From Alan: Again, don’t worry about your weight. You’re doing perfectly, focusing on what and how much you eat. Also, when you get a chance, send me a new photo of you, full front naked, so I can see how your hair’s growing in.

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