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i am who i am

mad_artist

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is it any wonder i prefer hiding inside my sketchbook

over being in a crowd of people who don’t understand?

my lifestyle — a mystery they try to dissect

put me under a microscope all you want

but you won’t get it because you choose not to

 

i am no slave nor toy to kick around

have my own opinions and voice to be heard

give over control to another, because that is my choice

gain strength and reassurance from my submission

i can be no other way and no other person

 

who i am, and who i am when i am with Him

is protected and taken care of

loved in ways that may not appeal to most

but they are ways that fulfill and make me whole

pain and discipline needed and desired

 

just as others need kind words and soft caresses

i need a firm hand and guidance to focus

and when i stumble

there’s comfort in knowing i am not alone

and Someone believes in me

 

He will pick me up and dust me off

always, tirelessly

so go ahead misunderstand me if you must

but your ignorance will ultimately destroy you

not me

 

 

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Special thanks to

@MacGreg Sir for giving this writing task and to @Mikiesboy for help with arranging.
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On 9/4/2017 at 2:26 PM, Renee Stevens said:

So much feeling in this, sean!  I'm glad Mac Sir gave you this writing task and the finished product is amazing. :hug:

oh i dont know about amazing but it was cathartic to do...thanks renee!

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On 9/4/2017 at 2:26 PM, mogwhy said:

speak your truth, for it is a beautiful voice! i'm sorry that others can't or refuse to hear it.

thanks moggy i have a hard time sometimes but support of others helps. 

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On 9/4/2017 at 2:27 PM, Mikiesboy said:

this is a beautiful and heartfelt poem .. it is wonderful ... i'm sure Mac Sir is proud of you, but you should be very proud of this poem, sean xoxox

you were huge help in laying it out better and im grateful tim!

thanks for taking the time and being a friend.

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On 9/4/2017 at 2:33 PM, Defiance19 said:

I think, everything that needed to be said and is felt,  is in this piece.. 

You did a great job sean... stay true. 

thank you for encouregment def!

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On 9/4/2017 at 2:44 PM, BlindAmbition said:

This is beautiful and heartfelt. There are many moments we are expected to be silent... not this moment. Be proud of the boy you are. Own who you are without apology or shame! Love You! xoxo

thanks jp!! im working on it....many lessons still, like listening....but i might get there someday lol. 

thanks for your  friendship! 

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On 9/4/2017 at 5:38 PM, MacGreg said:

The writing exercise was for you, to release the frustration and emotion of yesterday, and also for us, the readers who get to ruminate over the message. you have important things to say, my boy. Let your voice be heard. Enlightenment is good for everyone. you did a great job on this, sean. 

thank you Sir i am grateful 

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On 9/4/2017 at 7:03 PM, Reader1810 said:

sean, I really appreciate the words you have written to explain who you are and why. It's a shame that there are people out there that need a 'lesson' to understand that who you are is perfect and right, and there is nothing negative about it. 

 

In the final stanza, you clearly show that Mac loves you because he is always there for you. With your parting words, you stand tall and unshakable. Strong and meaningful are these statements. 

 

From your posts in the DIC, I know that you are kind and thoughtful. Two exceptional attributess, imo. 

 

:) 

wow thanks reader :*).....very sweet of you to say,your kind to be so understanding!

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On 9/4/2017 at 9:36 PM, MichaelS36 said:

On the front door of the DIC is a beautiful picture...have you seen it? Your words are beautiful and right. Submissive are not weak, they cannot be. Mac will not allow you to fail, and He will always and tirelessly pick you up. Be proud of knowing who you are and for having the courage to live your life.

 

M

yes Sir thank you Sir! i did see the pic in the forum.....i need reminders sometimes about who i am and that its okay

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47 minutes ago, mad_artist said:

thanks jp!! im working on it....many lessons still, like listening....but i might get there someday lol. 

thanks for your  friendship! 

We just have to be the best boys we can be. Giving our best and being mindful. We will always be learning lessons. Guided by our Sirs patience with us! xo

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Where are you, boy ... you are here. Read your own words...then look around and see the man who is there. Who you write these for...whose hand reaches out to you. The path is clear, you only need to look.

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I got a notification you were around. We hope to see more scribbles of yours, my boy.  you will find only acceptance here. 

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22 hours ago, MichaelS36 said:

I got a notification you were around. We hope to see more scribbles of yours, my boy.  you will find only acceptance here. 

thank you Sir but really writing isn't my thing and i only dig deeper holes by posting stuff ... 

but thank you for your words about accepting, but easier said then done .. 

i do appreciate it though Michael Sir.

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4 hours ago, mad_artist said:

thank you Sir but really writing isn't my thing and i only dig deeper holes by posting stuff ... 

but thank you for your words about accepting, but easier said then done .. 

i do appreciate it though Michael Sir.

Dig deeper holes? What does that even mean, boy? you wrote these blogs, these poems, from the heart. I'm proud of your efforts. you have friends here; don't shy away from people who genuinely care.

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