[underthehoodster] The interview between P & J as adults

[Dalmania]

I found it the interview between P & J, after Perry has sent his story for Jesse to read (Part IV, 17), very overwhelming emotions- wise. I am interested in knowing how other of you P & J fans reacted to this section. I am wondering if my reaction is more due to my own personal sh*t or if this section is tough to read because of what it means is going to happen for P & J in the future.

 

Here is an quote from the interaction: ....."There were lots of good times," I finally noted.

 

Jesse nodded, a hesitant smile at last appearing on his youthful face.

 

"Lots of good times," he repeated. "There's no need to rush to...the end, is there?"

 

"The way I'm going, it could take years!" I shrugged helplessly. I sighed and I felt the tightness in my chest. "I'll send those 3-D's in the next day or so..."

 

"That'd be great," Jesse said quietly.

 

"Okay, you be sure you get some rest over there. I don't want to hear about you collapsing from exhaustion again," I warned him.

 

"That was like ten years ago!" Jesse reminded me. "Actually, Jonathan really spoils me..."

 

I didn't need to hear that, and I'm sure he knew it.

 

I saw his chest rise and fall with a heavy sigh. "Listen, Per," he said, his eyes only occasionally making contact with mine, "I know that we made choices--serious choices back then. I know that things could have been...different. But whatever you may think, whether we were right or wrong, the thing of it is--the main thing is--you're still here. You're still alive and well. You have two beautiful kids..."

 

I didn't want to hear that--couldn't hear that again. I knew I was going to lose it any second now. "All right, Jess," I broke in quickly. "It was great to see you again," I said, getting ready to close the link.

 

I saw the pained expression on my beautiful angel's face and I almost felt like giving in, telling him how none of my feelings for him had diminished in the least, how I regretted the choices we had made so long ago.

 

As if reading my mind, Jesse responded, "There's no one way for things to turn out, you know. But I honestly think things worked out for the best. You have *****, Pierre, Taira..."

 

Yes I did, and I loved them all deeply. I couldn't imagine my life without them. But that didn't mean there couldn't have been a different way, a different life......

 

Frances

[jessehotty]

omg I know, I read that and I was like... "OH NOOOSS!"

 

But Hoddy responded to our outcries with criptic reassurances, so i am holding out judgement. plus stories cant all end with super happy endings, especially good ones.

[Dalmania]

....plus stories cant all end with super happy endings, especially good ones.

I agree that all stories cannot necessarily all end super happy. Anyhow, a happy ending does not always have to mean the expected ending. I find it distressing that Perry says that he regrets the choices he had made back then. I think it is the regret part that hits me hardest.

[Guest Don]

I found it the interview between P & J, after Perry has sent his story for Jesse to read (Part IV, 17), very overwhelming emotions- wise. I am interested in knowing how other of you P & J fans reacted to this section. I am wondering if my reaction is more due to my own personal sh*t or if this section is tough to read because of what it means is going to happen for P & J in the future.

 

Here is an quote from the interaction: ....."There were lots of good times," I finally noted.

 

Jesse nodded, a hesitant smile at last appearing on his youthful face.

 

"Lots of good times," he repeated. "There's no need to rush to...the end, is there?"

 

"The way I'm going, it could take years!" I shrugged helplessly. I sighed and I felt the tightness in my chest. "I'll send those 3-D's in the next day or so..."

 

"That'd be great," Jesse said quietly.

 

"Okay, you be sure you get some rest over there. I don't want to hear about you collapsing from exhaustion again," I warned him.

 

"That was like ten years ago!" Jesse reminded me. "Actually, Jonathan really spoils me..."

 

I didn't need to hear that, and I'm sure he knew it.

 

I saw his chest rise and fall with a heavy sigh. "Listen, Per," he said, his eyes only occasionally making contact with mine, "I know that we made choices--serious choices back then. I know that things could have been...different. But whatever you may think, whether we were right or wrong, the thing of it is--the main thing is--you're still here. You're still alive and well. You have two beautiful kids..."

 

I didn't want to hear that--couldn't hear that again. I knew I was going to lose it any second now. "All right, Jess," I broke in quickly. "It was great to see you again," I said, getting ready to close the link.

 

I saw the pained expression on my beautiful angel's face and I almost felt like giving in, telling him how none of my feelings for him had diminished in the least, how I regretted the choices we had made so long ago.

 

As if reading my mind, Jesse responded, "There's no one way for things to turn out, you know. But I honestly think things worked out for the best. You have *****, Pierre, Taira..."

 

Yes I did, and I loved them all deeply. I couldn't imagine my life without them. But that didn't mean there couldn't have been a different way, a different life......

 

Frances

 

I found it the interview between P & J, after Perry has sent his story for Jesse to read (Part IV, 17), very overwhelming emotions- wise. I am interested in knowing how other of you P & J fans reacted to this section. I am wondering if my reaction is more due to my own personal sh*t or if this section is tough to read because of what it means is going to happen for P & J in the future.

 

Here is an quote from the interaction: ....."There were lots of good times," I finally noted.

 

Jesse nodded, a hesitant smile at last appearing on his youthful face.

 

"Lots of good times," he repeated. "There's no need to rush to...the end, is there?"

 

"The way I'm going, it could take years!" I shrugged helplessly. I sighed and I felt the tightness in my chest. "I'll send those 3-D's in the next day or so..."

 

"That'd be great," Jesse said quietly.

 

"Okay, you be sure you get some rest over there. I don't want to hear about you collapsing from exhaustion again," I warned him.

 

"That was like ten years ago!" Jesse reminded me. "Actually, Jonathan really spoils me..."

 

I didn't need to hear that, and I'm sure he knew it.

 

I saw his chest rise and fall with a heavy sigh. "Listen, Per," he said, his eyes only occasionally making contact with mine, "I know that we made choices--serious choices back then. I know that things could have been...different. But whatever you may think, whether we were right or wrong, the thing of it is--the main thing is--you're still here. You're still alive and well. You have two beautiful kids..."

 

I didn't want to hear that--couldn't hear that again. I knew I was going to lose it any second now. "All right, Jess," I broke in quickly. "It was great to see you again," I said, getting ready to close the link.

 

I saw the pained expression on my beautiful angel's face and I almost felt like giving in, telling him how none of my feelings for him had diminished in the least, how I regretted the choices we had made so long ago.

 

As if reading my mind, Jesse responded, "There's no one way for things to turn out, you know. But I honestly think things worked out for the best. You have *****, Pierre, Taira..."

 

Yes I did, and I loved them all deeply. I couldn't imagine my life without them. But that didn't mean there couldn't have been a different way, a different life......

 

Frances

[Guest Don]

I was deeply troubled by this exchange precisely because of the life choices I have made. I made the same choice that Perry did and today I am a grandfather. I rejoice in my family, while I simultaneously mourn my loss of my authentic self. When I read this exchange I heard a primal wail come from deep inside of me as that lost part of my essential nature cried out in agony. I heard myself call out, "No, no no!" I can't help but say that for those personal reasons I will feel devastated if Perry and Jesse do not reconcile as adults because it will simply reinforce my own personal sense of loss.

[billyga]

I was deeply troubled by this exchange precisely because of the life choices I have made. I made the same choice that Perry did and today I am a grandfather. I rejoice in my family, while I simultaneously mourn my loss of my authentic self. When I read this exchange I heard a primal wail come from deep inside of me as that lost part of my essential nature cried out in agony. I heard myself call out, "No, no no!" I can't help but say that for those personal reasons I will feel devastated if Perry and Jesse do not reconcile as adults because it will simply reinforce my own personal sense of loss.

A word as simple as "no" can change your entire life.

[Guest Don]

A word as simple as "no" can change your entire life.

I am not on here very often since there is not much happening right now with Perry and Jesse. But I have recently come out to my wife and close friends. At age 57 I am finally beginning to move into integrity. I hope Perry doesn't have to wait that long to do the same.

 

All the best,

 

Don

[Guest djd]

I am not on here very often since there is not much happening right now with Perry and Jesse. But I have recently come out to my wife and close friends. At age 57 I am finally beginning to move into integrity. I hope Perry doesn't have to wait that long to do the same.

 

All the best,

 

Don

Don,

 

Kudos. I too was once married (no kids) and came out when I was 40, so I have some understanding of the journey you are taking. If you ever have a need to talk to someone, please feel free to contact me via the Contacts page at underthehoodster.gayauthors.org. Select "Webmaster."

 

Good luck,

 

Dennis

[Rad]

I found it the interview between P & J, after Perry has sent his story for Jesse to read (Part IV, 17), very overwhelming emotions- wise. I am interested in knowing how other of you P & J fans reacted to this section. I am wondering if my reaction is more due to my own personal sh*t or if this section is tough to read because of what it means is going to happen for P & J in the future.

 

Here is an quote from the interaction: ....."There were lots of good times," I finally noted.

 

Jesse nodded, a hesitant smile at last appearing on his youthful face.

 

"Lots of good times," he repeated. "There's no need to rush to...the end, is there?"

 

"The way I'm going, it could take years!" I shrugged helplessly. I sighed and I felt the tightness in my chest. "I'll send those 3-D's in the next day or so..."

 

"That'd be great," Jesse said quietly.

 

"Okay, you be sure you get some rest over there. I don't want to hear about you collapsing from exhaustion again," I warned him.

 

"That was like ten years ago!" Jesse reminded me. "Actually, Jonathan really spoils me..."

 

I didn't need to hear that, and I'm sure he knew it.

 

I saw his chest rise and fall with a heavy sigh. "Listen, Per," he said, his eyes only occasionally making contact with mine, "I know that we made choices--serious choices back then. I know that things could have been...different. But whatever you may think, whether we were right or wrong, the thing of it is--the main thing is--you're still here. You're still alive and well. You have two beautiful kids..."

 

I didn't want to hear that--couldn't hear that again. I knew I was going to lose it any second now. "All right, Jess," I broke in quickly. "It was great to see you again," I said, getting ready to close the link.

 

I saw the pained expression on my beautiful angel's face and I almost felt like giving in, telling him how none of my feelings for him had diminished in the least, how I regretted the choices we had made so long ago.

 

As if reading my mind, Jesse responded, "There's no one way for things to turn out, you know. But I honestly think things worked out for the best. You have *****, Pierre, Taira..."

 

Yes I did, and I loved them all deeply. I couldn't imagine my life without them. But that didn't mean there couldn't have been a different way, a different life......

 

Frances

I think I went melancholic reading the chapter I'm dreading P&J's the inevitable separation. usually I don't read stories where the relationship didn't last. But I was too hooked up to P&J by the time that to stop reading is not an option.

 

Regretting the demise of P&J' s relationship.... I'm guessing that, several years from now- when we reached that point in their relationship, it'll make an emotional and heart-breaking read....

 

Cheers!

 

Rad

[Cyberia_Desire]

I think I went melancholic reading the chapter I'm dreading P&J's the inevitable separation. usually I don't read stories where the relationship didn't last. But I was too hooked up to P&J by the time that to stop reading is not an option.

 

Regretting the demise of P&J' s relationship.... I'm guessing that, several years from now- when we reached that point in their relationship, it'll make an emotional and heart-breaking read....

 

Cheers!

 

Rad

Yea I wonder why he left Jesse??

[Former Member]

Maybe he left Jesse for Dana because he got her pregnant? Although he still loved Jesse with all his heart, he felt it morally right to raise his child with Dana, therefore ending his relationship with Jesse.

Whatever the reason it saddens me a great deal. No other story has ever touched me the same way as P&J has. No other characters have come alive so well for me either.

When I discuss stories of this genre online. P&J is the one that always comes to my mind.