[Nephylim] Enigma II - Fighting the Man

[Nephylim]

New chapter posted. This is just the beginning of a very tough time for our boys. I guess it's hard to read. I have been to so many of these shit conferences that it makes me angry to write. I have sat with people like River and Silver... well not quite like them you will understand... mostly with the ones in the waiting room.. but people like Mrs Stokes seem set on crushing spirits while pretending to be friendly. THey always smile, they never accuse, they never even try to understand.

 

it's going to get worse before it gets better but it does get better... for one of them at least

[Ara]

Dont do it River, ooooooh your lining youself up for a major fall here

 

Damn that woman and her interfering ways she brings out my angry side. I sense this is a major turning point in the story and also in the relationship and I can already see that River needs a slap and the next chapters not even up yet. Have arranged a nice suprise for him though hipefully it will knock some sense into him

 

Edited April 9, 2011 by Ara

[Nephylim]

He's really really really going to need it and deserve it. Don't worry he gets it eventually

[Nephylim]

I've posted a new chapter. It's a pretty heavy one.

 

Before anyone asks... yes it really is like that. yes they really do that, just like that. I have been to too many of them to pull my punches... yes i do have a bee in my bonnet.

 

The next few chapters are heave. They lead up to something big and so they have to be. I was thinking that maybe I would post twice weekly because I think it's going to be hard to get through them.

 

I don't want to put people off with unremitting doom and gloom when there is something brighter(well at least relatively) on the horizon.

 

What do you think? Should I post more frequently? If I do will you read and review and comment because if not, what's the point

[Ara]

Oooooh that was painful, methinks poor River was not truly prepared for what awaited him and has been a bit blindsided by it. It was a rough chapter though you could see and feel what River was going through Im pretty sure I got as frustrated with the muppets as River did in the end and though we saw very little of him in this chapter poor misunderstood Silver

 

As to your question Nephy, im not sure theres anyone around who would say nay to more from you and if there was any naysayers I would have to kill them anyway

[Nephylim]

Ooooh a duel to the death. YES!!!

 

Maybe it should be duel by Kitteh

 

Thanks hun

[Nephylim]

Okay... I have always had a real concern that the first part of this story would be too heavy and too much for people to handle.

 

My thinking behind it is that I have always felt that RIver and Silver couldn't go on the way they were because the relationship was one to dependency and far too unequal. At some point Silver was going to have to grow up and River just wasn't letting him do that.

 

I figured that the only way that Silver could grow up was if he was first torn down. That's the only way he would get an independent voice.

 

And so the painful tearing down begins bit by bit. As he falls he separates himself from River and he has to do that before he can stand alone.

 

I felt, myself, when I was reading back over the story that it would be too heavy and too painful for a lot of people. I mean we read for enjoyment, right? It's so very different from Enigma and the characters are put through so much pain BUT.... That is just for the first half of the story. What is torn down is then built up. So how do I keep people with me past the pain until we get to the exciting bit.

 

I have come to the conclusion that taking this piece by peice chapter by chapter is just too much to expect and so i am going to post all the chapters up to chapter 22 together to get the painful stuff over so we can start again with hopw.

 

hope it works

[Frostina]

Really? wow! that should be a tret to the readers. and yes.. if i hadnt gone through it first, I'd have begged you to put me out of misery as well...

In fact, this is one story i edited, where i couldnt keep on reading and editing.. i just couldnt! i HAD to read the whole thing just because i wanted to know.. and then i went back and edited it! so.. yes... i fully know what it feels like.. I cried again when i read the chapter and more so because i couldnt help thinking what follows.. and that just made me sadder!!!

[Ara]

Vodka, check

Free time, check

Sanity, does not compute

Pants...........processing

 

Im good to go

[Nephylim]

Okay I am going to post all the chapters up to Chapter 22 where it all turns around and starts to get better... kind of. At least SIlver gets as low as he can go and HAS to start coming up again.

 

I really think that this is a part of the story that really can't be read in bits.

 

I want you guys honest opinions as to whether this is just too much and if i should seriously overhaul the story.

 

I know that it's impossible to please all the people all the time but this is such a special story to me and these are such special people I can't bear to think that people abandon them because I've hurt them too much.

 

Honest guys things do get better and you not only get to look inside Silver's beautiful mind but you also see him turn into the person he is in the painting.

[Percivial]

Had had to post here in response to your question about whether it's getting too heavy. I can see why people might think so, maybe I'm a heartless bastard who's been desensitized(well right now I'm reading another story about a teen who cuts himself and smashes his fingers against stuff as a coping mechanism and I loved Ice Blue Assassin by Dking, so go figure) but I don't think it's too much at all, neither do I want it darker . What Silver has and is going through and River having to choose is heart wrenching, but I think that if you were able to get through the first story, which disturbed me a lot then I don't think this part should be too hard to get through at all as it's only marginally darker than the first.

 

Your story's wonderful and should stay just as it is. If you get lots of complaints, I might need to have my sensitivity chip fixed.

[Nephylim]

HAHA. I don't think I have a sensitivity chip

 

I LOVED Ice Blue Assassin although I think that Aziel could have been more creative with his drugs

 

May I suggest that you give Lugh's Forever Boy a try It's the story that gave me a lot of inspiration for Silver's past.

 

Thank you so much for the comment. I't feels like there is actual a dicussion going on in the discussion forum. I have posted up to Chapter 22 (of 40) and I am hoping that reading all the really heavy part in one go will make it easier

 

I really don't want to change anything becasue I think it is all necessary for what I was intending for the story. I've given my ratio plenty of times and I really really want to make it clear that Silver needs to find his own voice and the only way he is going to do it is to stop being River's slave and truly freeing himself by becoming his own master. Maybe that's a spoiler but who cares. You have no idea how it's achieved or what happens after so if you don't like it bit me (Oh... I think I should add that I am talking generically at this point and not about anyone in particular)

[Ara]

ooooooh Silver needs a hug and River needs a slap and a hug and Ben needs a hug and Social Services need shootin.

 

That was quite a journey, I see what you mean about it being a downward spiral and I have to say I think you made the right choice in speeding it up, Im not sure that 6 or 7 weeks (cant count) of it getting worse and worse and wanting to beat some sense into River would have been a good way to spend time.

 

Im also pretty sure silvers so low hes not only hit the bottom but hes then dug a hole and gone deeper. Fingers crossed he can find his way out now that Rivers finally seen what he has done

[Nephylim]

Oh don't worry, Silver is about to be bounced right back up by a wicked little creature and a much darker one we haven't met yet. I think that, of the two, it is River who is going to have the worst of it.

 

I really realy enjoyed writing the parts at the Theatre de vie and I hope that you will find them as fun to read... although you know what my kind of fun is like. This is really the turning point and things change dramatically... and so does Silver

 

Thank you so much for your continued support and yes, i think I made the right decision too.

[Frostina]

Wicked little creature!!!

[Nephylim]

No, not you... Ariel

[Anya]

Nephy I loved all the chapters! I can't believe you stopped there though...I would have never thought.....this is just terrible lol.

If you really dn't want to put us through so much pain you should post the next chapters asap, because the ending of the last one was terrible

[Nephylim]

Really? I would have thought that you would have love Ariel

 

Silver's back where he belongs, River's stewing in his own juices getting kicked around town by Sam... what more can you want? All's right with the world... isn't it

[Anya]

Lol....oh yes....it definetely is I did like Ariel...I wonder how he is going to help Silver...

[Percivial]

I'm a little sad about the ending of the last chapter, . It seems like Silver and River might be apart for a while. Hopefully, not too long because I can imagine the guilt and sadness eating away in River because he'll blame himself for everything. I hope Ariel will help Silver somehow before he slips back into his old life.

[Nephylim]

well... there's always hope but sometimes it manifests in unusual ways. I think you might be surprised how it goes from here.

[Nephylim]

I am going to be out of commission a little over the weekend and then next weekend too. I have visitors coming and I kind of feel that it might be rude to sit at the computer the whole time they are here.

 

Sooo... I was thinking.

 

The next two chapters of Enigma II are a HUGE change in .. well everything. So I figured that to ease you into the transformation I might post one chapter on Friday and then one on Monday. Then I'll probably be posting on Sunday the following weekend.

 

Acceptable?

 

I would imagine... and really really hope that you will have something to say afterwards... they're... um... yeah

[Bumblebee]

OMG Poor Silver!!!!! I just want to hug him and make his world all better

[Nephylim]

Don't worry, someone else is going to do just that for you

[Nephylim]

Chapter 23 Meeting the Boys posted,

 

This is where the real change begins. It anyone was scared for Silver maybe you can start to stop now.