Hi tim, it breaks my heart to read this. I can only guess (don`t know the exact word in English for what I want to say, hope it covers it enough), how you feel.

 Lyssa

I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and value your friendship. My thoughts are with you. If you need somewhere to vent or whatever, you have my email address. Please keep in touch....you will always have a friend here when you need one. Love your brother, Jay

Hi tim, it breaks my heart to read this. I can only guess (don`t know the exact word in English for what I want to say, hope it covers it enough), how you feel.

 Lyssa

No broken hearts!  Life is what it is.. now I need to get on with it. I needed to tell you all .. cuz things could change tomorrow and I needed to tell you I'd never just go ... so if that happens and one day i'm just gone.. well there was a reason... now.. let's go!!

First off, doc's are wrong, all the time. Don't become one of the walking dead, the ones who just give up and wait in misery for the end.

 

 

Remember the squirrel.

 

 

Even if they are right, you are alive, so live! Do the things you want, enjoy. Write if that's what makes you feel good. Rant at us if you need to. We are friends and are here for you.

 

We love you.

The squirrel is never far from my thoughts and i have zero intention of giving up anytime soon. 

love you too xxoxoxo

Oh little brother ... I feel for you and Mike and selfishly for those of us privileged to call you friend. Kitt is right. Doc's can be wrong. Life is finite for all of us, you just have a better idea of the possible limit. So there may not be as many tomorrows there is still today. The important thing is what you do with the time remaining. I can't imagine you just surrendering ... You know you have my love and prayers and Mum's too. Namaste little brother.

There's enough time ... and i dont know how to quit. I have a day under my rock but then, i have to get up and move on. We're okay. I am okay. 

love you and mum xoxoxo

tim, it's a guesstimate. Something that you, Michael and medical science could prove to be completely wrong.

 

I hope that once you've got over the initial stomach-churning shock, you will regain your typical determination to live your life. I regard your attitude as something I'd do well to emulate.

 

My best wishes, as ever ... 

Thanks northie.  My determination crawls under a rock when i get upsetting news, but it's only allowed to be there a day and then.. life goes on, yeah?  My doc said the same thing, things change so fast, meds do too. .So until it's time, i'm going to live.  hugs xoxo

Like quite a few people have already said, doctors are frequently wrong.  I admire you so much.  Even though I don't know you well, what I have seen is a strong, intelligent, sweetheart of a man who hasn't let adversity win.  The world would be a much  better place with more people like you in it.  We are all here for you in whatever capacity you need... so vent, post or not your writing, but don't stop writing.  It's in your blood and a great outlet.  Even if you never share what you write now, it may be what you need to get through this.  At any rate, lots of from me.  Prove them wrong.      My thoughts and prayers are with you. 

You know Val. I have tried in the past to stop writing ... but i dont think i can do that ... pretty sure i'd have to be dead.  And i know it's not time for me to leave here either. I love you all.  I had to do this blog though, so people know ... id never just leave with without saying goodbye... if im gone one day.. its cuz i cant be here.. 

thanks for your love and support.. xoxo

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AC .. what can i say .. you know it all... hugs and much love my friend xoxox

Doctors underrate human spirit and will. A work accident and injured my dad's back. He was told he would never walk again. He walked out of the hospital and resumed his volunteer fire fighting. 

 

My older brother developed an artery disease when he was 42, one not usually seen before 80. 6 years later his doctor told him that he was suprised, he didn't think my brother would live 6 months. My brother lived to a few months short of 53.

 

My older sister was born 6 weeks early in 64. She only lived an hour. A friend I made in college was born 5 yeas later, 7 weeks early. Medical science, knowledge and equipment had advanced enough tha he lived, obviously, but spent 4 months in intensive care.  Advanced to 2007, my sister's youngest was delivered by em rgecy c-section, 6 weeks early and not even 4 pounds. He was home to celebrate his 2 week birthday. 

 

Also think about HIV+. It once was a death sentence. Now there are treatments to prolong life, and even prevent it. Hopefully a cure or immunization will be found soon. 

 

sometimes doctors say it that way to make you realize you have to make changes. Not knowing your circumstances, I'll tell you this: don't give up. Medical science may come up with something in the next decade and a half. Keep living your life as best you can. Cause once you stop living, you start dieing.

Thank you for sharing ... miracles and sadness.  You're right of course science changes all the time.  I don't know how to quit ... i don't think i can. And there is too much to do, too much to say and to see. 

Thank you again

tim xo

tim... My heart just broke a little... I can't imagine how you must be feeling.. Just promise not to stop living... You are one of the most determined people I know...don't give up.. 

I love you, and you know I'm here.. 

MUAH.. you know me too well, Def. You know I can't quit .. that's for ...well... quitters!!  My sense of humour seems to be creeping back..sorry. LOL   You know as well, i just get tired of being down .. it is beyond boring. And a waste of time. It's funny ... when we think there is something wrong with people, we say live.. do what makes your feel good etc.   But i dont understand why EVERYONE doesnt live that way... no gets out of life, alive. So!!!

thanks for your love and support.. 

tim xoxo

Hi Tim - I don't really know you and don't know your situation. But I'd like to reiterate what others have said, "Don't give up." I've never been in your position, so I don't pretend to know what it's like. I can only think to say that I think you should fill your days doing things you love and that make you happy. If that means continuing to write and post on GA, then please do! If that means doing other things, then go do that. Make every day yours. 

Hello Hudson. Thank you for reaching out and your thoughtful advice. I appreciate it. I know that you're right ... if i'm honest, i dont think i could stop writing ... it just calls me too much. I have no intention to quit living. Not until i have no choice at all.