how old were you when you realised you were gay?

[Yuki Winchestor]

i am kind of curious to know what made you realise it.

[Ramon]

For me, it was pretty straightforward. When I first caught my older brother looking at porn on the web, he asked me to look at it with him. I just noticed that I looked more at the guys that the girls. I think I was 10 at that time. After that, I think I started looking at guys bulges more. I remember going to a water park in Australia and counting how many guys had big bulges. I know that sounds creepy and weird but I just turned 12 by then so.... yeah. hahaha

 

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[Yuki Winchestor]

For me, it was pretty straightforward. When I first caught my older brother looking at porn on the web, he asked me to look at it with him. I just noticed that I looked more at the guys that the girls. I think I was 10 at that time. After that, I think I started looking at guys bulges more. I remember going to a water park in Australia and counting how many guys had big bulges. I know that sounds creepy and weird but I just turned 12 by then so.... yeah. hahaha

 

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Haha, never heard about the bulge before. Truthfully said, i kind of liked female bodies better when i was a kid. But for some reasom, i like guys better now. I was afraid of them before due to wrong information. I used to think that the girl would die if they had sex. I was 12 then and thought that periods had something to do with bleeding to death

 

For me, it was pretty straightforward. When I first caught my older brother looking at porn on the web, he asked me to look at it with him. I just noticed that I looked more at the guys that the girls. I think I was 10 at that time. After that, I think I started looking at guys bulges more. I remember going to a water park in Australia and counting how many guys had big bulges. I know that sounds creepy and weird but I just turned 12 by then so.... yeah. hahaha

 

The how old were you question is also being discussed in this thread.

 

Haha, never heard about the bulge before. Truthfully said, i kind of liked female bodies better when i was a kid. But for some reasom, i like guys better now. I was afraid of them before due to wrong information. I used to think that the girl would die if they had sex. I was 12 then and thought that periods had something to do with bleeding to death

[TrevorTime]

I suspected it at 12, but I knew for sure at 13. From the different gay guys I have talked to online, most knew when they started puberty (which can start as early as 11 nowadays, I guess).

 

I never felt guilty about it, I just figured this was the hand I was dealt. So if I played my cards right, I would be okay.

[Cyhort]

12 I think. I didn't really have any big revelation it just kinda gradually happened. I kinda went from straight porn, to bi porn to all out gay porn and back again depending on what I was in the mood for and somewhere in between all that my pre-teen mind said "Huh, guess I'm bi or something." and that was that.

[JamesSavik]

I had a clue when I was having sex with my then boyfriend.

[John Galaor]

Haha, never heard about the bulge before. Truthfully said, i kind of liked female bodies better when i was a kid. But for some reason, i like guys better now. I was afraid of them before due to wrong information. I used to think that the girl would die if they had sex. I was 12 then and thought that periods had something to do with bleeding to death

 

I started to be ware at twelve. But I had a few fantasies about girls. The problem is that I was in a boarding school permanently, and there were not any girl that I could feel or touch up. Then, out of sight, out of your the mind. One cannot have in his mind permanently an ideal impossible to watch and to feel. But one could have some degree of lust at this age.

Or at least a few boys of this age could have a feeling of lust. Then, a few were adventurous enough to experiment with other boys; that was my case. It was not easy, for most boys did not show any lust at this age. Then in my case, I was driven by lust, not by any special instinct to do it with other boys. About this question of substitution in sex, I remember a journalist that asked a famous escapist inmate, "I heard a saying that you had a male lover in prison. What can you say about this?" The inmate replied, "in a prison full of males, the most likely female you could find is another male."

 

Then, when one is young lad and had not any decent job to earn a life, when I felt lust it was very, likely that I looked for another male. By my previous experience with girls, they do not showed any interest in the punky young man I was. Then I was guessing, probably rightly, that females were not interested in relieving your lust in the least. It worse that this. I felt they did rejected me. I probably showed a low rank punky profile. So they could not care less. Then, in my case it was easy to conclude that if I wanted something more thrilling than a lonely jerk off I needed to look for another young male.

 

Then, the famous theory of conservatives about a choice in sex is false.

To have a choice you need a situation in which the weight of both options are balanced. To be called "a choice" the case should present two or more options of the same cost, and the rewards should be also comparable.

Analyzing this case in this light, anybody would see that options were not balanced. It is a simple philosophical problem.

On the other hand, there must be young males that had felt interested in other males since adolescence. They feel a little like girls who like manly males; but not like sissy males, except as sisters or friends.

The case of gay women I cannot analyze well because I am not a woman. Perhaps they feel threatened by males, by their rough manners, and lack of empathy. Or even by bad sexual experiences. As lustful males are very fast and rough, while females needs more "frotage"; more rubbing of skin with skin, for twenty or thirty minutes, to get in heat. To get into the play of sex. This is only a theory of mine. A rubbish speculation.

[TetRefine]

I had a clue when I was having sex with my then boyfriend.

 

Thats usually a pretty tell-tale clue.

[Eddy]

First off, you need to know that I was a Baptist raised teenager during the late 1940's and into the 50's. Gay was an unknown factor through and into the 60's. I had just finished 5 years in the Air Force and returned home when a friend dragged me into a "homo" bar.

 

At that point I was 25/26 years old and had no idea that I was 'one of those guys' that gave out candy to young boys: not that I ever did that -- more a metaphor. I had just gone completely through puberty, never realising that my 'attraction to guys' was, in fact, equal to the candy guy.

 

So my friend had dragged me into this 'homo' bar' and I realised, as I entered, I had just come home! I was one of these guys. At that point I realized that I wasn't alone -- other guys enjoyed this too. I'll never forget that moment.

 

I had lost 13 years of "adolescence" at that point and I still wish today, that thing's had been different.

 

You younger guys have a walk in the park today~~~~~!

 

Hugs

[Tipdin]

There was never a time that I did NOT know that I was different - in many ways. Before I had the correct vocabulary, I knew that I preferred the company of boys. By the time I was finishing elementary school, I knew what the word homosexual meant. And in those days, it meant something VASTLY different, (read worse) than what it means today.

Before I was ten, I knew that 'playing doctor' with my best friend was my favorite 'game.' The first time I had to take a shower after gym class, I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up: a locker room attendant! Everything about the male body obsessed me. I couldn't see enough of them.

Forty plus years later, that obsession is just as strong, if not more so. The knowledge regarding what being gay meant came before puberty. My first 'real' sexual encounter happened when I was almost eighteen. Now, well into my fifties, not a single day passes where I don't see at least half a dozen men that I would like to drag back to my cave.

[Organic]

You younger guys have a walk in the park today~~~~~!

 

Hugs

 

 

The younger guys may have it a bit easier with being able to identify their sexual orientation, but it remains a struggle for many to feel and be accepted.

 

Anyhow, I was in denial for a long time, but if I would've been honest with myself I would've identified as gay at around 12 or 13... I can still remember all the cute boys I had crushes on

Edited March 23, 2011 by Organic

[WatchPatRun]

Well, if I were smarter, I would have realized it when I played barbies with my sister, however it was much later when I reached the 6th grade when I had my first crush on one of the male singers from A*teens that I was gay LOL

 

Denial went on until my sophmore year, then I finally just accepted it and met my first boyfriend shortly there after. Then everything else kind of fell into place...Fell hard. LOL

[Benji]

.............. I realized my attraction when I was 8 years old, knew for sure when I was in the 7th grade.

[W_L]

Let's see, I don't know I always had an interest in guys. I don't know what it was.

 

I guess if I had to pick an age, I'd say around 10, when I first started wanting to see boys naked, because I was curious how other boys looked without clothes (I was a really young Voyeur )

[wildone]

I'll be different and say that looking back, probably knew when I was six. That was the first time a boy (same age as me) asked me if i wanted to get naked and act out some pictures from a magazine he found in his parents room.

 

It felt normal, and to tell the truth, I never had illusions of growing up and having kids or having a wife or got turned on by women. Ever.

 

Now if you asked when I personally accepted this, that was much later. I knew I was different but knew I had to keep it as a secret.

[Yuki Winchestor]

I had a clue when I was having sex with my then boyfriend.

 

Hmm..very unusual time to realise that !

[colinian]

I was 10 years old and I realized that I liked to look at boys more than girls, and was very curious about what they looked like underneath their clothes. This was aided when I switched to intermediate school for the 6th grade and had the opportunity to see boys in the changing room for gym class. I connected this interest with the word gay when I was 12 years old and in the 7th grade.

 

Colin

[Eddy]

The younger guys may have it a bit easier with being able to identify their sexual orientation, but it remains a struggle for many to feel and be accepted.

 

Anyhow, I was in denial for a long time, but if I would've been honest with myself I would've identified as gay at around 12 or 13... I can still remember all the cute boys I had crushes on

 

I can appreciate your comments and can 'after the fact' also agree that I may have had similar feelings but in no way could I catorgise any feelings I might have had in a sexual way. I had no clue. Whether my parents had any idea where I was headed, I just don't know. I didn't have any idea that I was gay or even what a homosexual was. I know, that really is pathetic, but I just continued on; oblivious to my feelings.

[J.T.]

12 when I first suspected... didn't anything about that until I was 21...

[Pai-kun]

The first clear memory I have is when I was six years old and kissed a girl because I was dared to. I remember being fine with it because I thought "I only like boys anyways". And that stuck through, lol. Obviously, I had no idea that it was "different" back then, or that there was a word for it. I've always been very sure about it though, so a few years later when I learned the meaning of the word "bög"("gay" in Swedish), I knew instantly that it was exactly what I was and am.

[Rakuten06]

I think I first realized that I'm gay was at 13 when I have a huge crush on a jock in high school. his body was muscular, tall, and have black hair... compared to me, I'm short, fat, and quiet, so... but it's nice to have a crush on anyone for once

[Rizan]

I first knew I was born to teach at around age seven. My favorite game to play as a kid was 'School'; I knew I was different when no one else ever wanted to play.

 

...Oh wait, we're talking about being gay. I started looking at porn when I was about 12. I would always watch straight porn though so I could deny the truth to myself (I'm looking at the girl, not the guy kind of stuff). I continued to deny it to myself until around sophomore year(ish). Somewhere around then.

[Jack Frost]

As far as my memory is concerned, I showed some gayness until I was only five.

 

When I was a boy, Dad left his porn next to the couch by accident. I was just looking at dicks mostly and it never really came to my mind.

 

Hell, it didn't hit me when I got my first blowjob at age of eight or nine... Too bad he turned out straight now since he's cute.

 

When I was about 13, I ran into some gay porn (don't ask how)... then it finally hit me and made sense. Unfortunately I didn't accept it until I was 17.

[Michael9344]

I was somehow attracted to boys when I was 13, realised it at 15, and then accepted it last year.

[West Coast Dude]

As far as my memory is concerned, I showed some gayness until I was only five.

 

When I was a boy, Dad left his porn next to the couch by accident. I was just looking at dicks mostly and it never really came to my mind.

 

Hell, it didn't hit me when I got my first blowjob at age of eight or nine... Too bad he turned out straight now since he's cute.

 

When I was about 13, I ran into some gay porn (don't ask how)... then it finally hit me and made sense. Unfortunately I didn't accept it until I was 17.

 

And your very lucky cuz montreals got a great gay scene