Musings of a Messed Up Mind - 22. Questions and Answers

I could be disturbed by this, but I'm not. I understand hidden pain, emotional and physical, and I get the whys of life. I liked the title because that sums up our existence. It's all about questions and answers and maybe the strongest drive we humans have... the curiosity you speak of. As a race, we are driven to learn more, and as people, we have a need to understand... and when our 'whys' are usually cries of pain, we dig down and hold on. Why? Because our will to comprehend, and the chance we have to gain ...what I will call a different plain... but, really it's just 'tomorrow'... takes us over, as it should. See, I think, despite our differences, the human experience is much the same for us all... the degrees may vary, but pain... and joy.. are the same. Sorry... I should probably delete my 'musings,' but it's against my nature . I believe I really got this, and your last line lets me know you're doing okay as you contemplate your personal journey... much love, my friend... if we don't count our blessings, we're idiots... cheers... Gary...

Oh, my little brother. Perhaps life is a quest, a journey, to learn the answers to why that is never fully realized. We sometimes laugh in exasperation at the small child that repeatedly asks "Why?" and yet if we are honest on to ourselves we realize that once asked that constant remains ... to question ... why?
When I first began to read a shudder ran through me for I know that for you life is oft difficult. It seems the great wrong done you as a youth plagues you body and soul. Know I would scoop you up and make it all right and wipe away all hurt and sorrow ... and yet, I cannot. A tear forms. I read on and see in your words the resolve to continue on for curiosity's sake to see what tomorrow might bring by way of understanding ... and if not tomorrow perhaps the next day. So in fact I see that you too do as I ... live life despite all while gathering in the simple gifts and small joys to be found along the way ... and yet ask and seek answer to ... why?
Thank you for this gift of yourself given and know that it is accepted with love. Namaste.

On 07/04/2016 04:59 AM, Reader1810 said:

Hey tim

First, don't feel bad but this made me cry (well that and reading Dugh's review). I don't regret the tears not a bit as they are proof positive that I am not empty inside. I cannot be there to help you with your struggles, but I rejoice knowing that there is someone who can. I salute you both for carrying on.

As always...well you know the rest.: hug:

I was just sitting here..looking out the window at the sky and clouds and I was wondering why. Why us, why here, what's the point when it all ends so soon? Not feeling down or anything really. It's all such a miracle, each cloud and tree and squirrel, maybe we are the mistake. I'm sorry this made you cry, not what i wanted, it's just me thinking and trying to work things out. You are lovely and never empty inside.

tim xo

On 07/04/2016 04:47 AM, dughlas said:

Oh, my little brother. Perhaps life is a quest, a journey, to learn the answers to why that is never fully realized. We sometimes laugh in exasperation at the small child that repeatedly asks "Why?" and yet if we are honest on to ourselves we realize that once asked that constant remains ... to question ... why?

When I first began to read a shudder ran through me for I know that for you life is oft difficult. It seems the great wrong done you as a youth plagues you body and soul. Know I would scoop you up and make it all right and wipe away all hurt and sorrow ... and yet, I cannot. A tear forms. I read on and see in your words the resolve to continue on for curiosity's sake to see what tomorrow might bring by way of understanding ... and if not tomorrow perhaps the next day. So in fact I see that you too do as I ... live life despite all while gathering in the simple gifts and small joys to be found along the way ... and yet ask and seek answer to ... why?

Thank you for this gift of yourself given and know that it is accepted with love. Namaste.

I feel that the question why, will never be answered, even still I ask and hope that a reply will be given. I just cant get my head around the idea that one day i will not exist. We are so hard wired to survive. Ah well I'll get over it. Too much time on my hands.

hugs and much love my friend,

tim xo

On 07/04/2016 04:41 AM, Valkyrie said:

:hug:

Aw thanks Val xoxxox

On 07/04/2016 04:05 AM, Headstall said:

I could be disturbed by this, but I'm not. I understand hidden pain, emotional and physical, and I get the whys of life. I liked the title because that sums up our existence. It's all about questions and answers and maybe the strongest drive we humans have... the curiosity you speak of. As a race, we are driven to learn more, and as people, we have a need to understand... and when our 'whys' are usually cries of pain, we dig down and hold on. Why? Because our will to comprehend, and the chance we have to gain ...what I will call a different plain... but, really it's just 'tomorrow'... takes us over, as it should. See, I think, despite our differences, the human experience is much the same for us all... the degrees may vary, but pain... and joy.. are the same. Sorry... I should probably delete my 'musings,' but it's against my nature . I believe I really got this, and your last line lets me know you're doing okay as you contemplate your personal journey... much love, my friend... if we don't count our blessings, we're idiots... cheers... Gary...

You got this, Gary. I am okay, sometimes an idiot! But I know I'm lucky. I'm very glad you dont delete your musings!

xoxo tim

Not going to say much that so many others have said, but I saw so many reflections of myself - young, middling, old, thoughtful, depressed, euphoric, grounded - in your words. Good stuff.

On 07/04/2016 12:27 PM, Lux Apollo said:

Not going to say much that so many others have said, but I saw so many reflections of myself - young, middling, old, thoughtful, depressed, euphoric, grounded - in your words. Good stuff.

That sums it up, lux. Appreciate you reading this but the stuff in Musings, isn't very pretty. May not be the best stuff for you to read. There's some comedy, right this way, just past the elevator! Thanks again...

My dear brother, how your words make me ache with you. My heart hurts for your hurt. But your summation, your curiosity and desire to see what is yet to be, made the corners of my mouth turn upwards. Perhaps all of us should get in line with you to see the second show together. I think I'd like that.

Thank you for sharing this reflection with us.

On 07/05/2016 07:32 AM, Parker Owens said:

My dear brother, how your words make me ache with you. My heart hurts for your hurt. But your summation, your curiosity and desire to see what is yet to be, made the corners of my mouth turn upwards. Perhaps all of us should get in line with you to see the second show together. I think I'd like that.

 

Thank you for sharing this reflection with us.

Aw Parker, you can stand in line with me anytime. I'll be here until the day I'm not.

Thanks for your wonderful comments and insight.

tim xo

All I have to say is I'm happy your curiosity about life is keeping you around. And that you're going to stay for the second show.

On 07/05/2016 12:49 PM, LitLover said:

All I have to say is I'm happy your curiosity about life is keeping you around. And that you're going to stay for the second show.

I'm not the suicidal type really but I sometimes don't see the point of the lives we lead. Seems to me all this working for money to buy stuff we'll use for a bit and leave behind is rather a waste of the time we have. But money makes the world go round, and we have to find our light in spite of it.

thanks for reading LL xoxo