Musings of a Messed Up Mind - 15. Fade

It's a heartbreakingly beautiful poem, Tim. It's precise and almost honed to be like the words you mention in it.

The only thing I can hope is that writing out these feelings is a way to forget them and move beyond the pain trapped here, as if in amber.

Sad, so sad. I ache hold the speaker, to interrupt the voice of the 'alter,' the nasty, sarcastic voice that tears away at the self and all that is good and whole. You make me want to shout that voice down, to send it in full retreat. But shouting rarely does that. Sometimes it flees at a smile, or a good word, or at an encouraging squeeze. God, do I ever know about that. You write about what I know can hurt. Thanks for this: it is so accurately and compellingly expressive.

These words are powerfully moving ... I want to wrap you up in my arms, an embrace of safety, sancutary from the hurt and doubt but it is not my place ...

Namaste little brother

Haunting and sad tim.

The speaker has an inner logic to his argument which makes it all the more ominous.
Very convincingly developed.

Well done tim!!

Sad, but brutally honest.

Incredible. Powerful. Heartbreaking. The hurt and pain and the fear spill out in your words... but the tim I know will refuse to fade. He's come too far... down but never out. One brick at a time, tim, and if part of the wall falls, pick up the bricks and return to the task. You'll kick that bastards ass if you can learn to love him too... there aren't two of you, my friend... there is one amazing man with some demons to finish slaying. Tremendous writing, tim... sincerely... Gary...

On 12/03/2015 10:31 AM, Headstall said:

Incredible. Powerful. Heartbreaking. The hurt and pain and the fear spill out in your words... but the tim I know will refuse to fade. He's come too far... down but never out. One brick at a time, tim, and if part of the wall falls, pick up the bricks and return to the task. You'll kick that bastards ass if you can learn to love him too... there aren't two of you, my friend... there is one amazing man with some demons to finish slaying. Tremendous writing, tim... sincerely... Gary...

Oh Gary you have more faith than i do. Thanks for the comments I appreciate it, as always.

tim

On 12/03/2015 10:15 AM, R J Drew said:

Sad, but brutally honest.

Hi RJ thank you so much for reading. Bad, bad, scary day. I appreciate you reading..

tim

On 12/03/2015 10:08 AM, Reader1810 said:

Hey Tim

The good thing about knowing he is there, is that you can't be blindsided (at least not too much). My hope is that he moves on to a new locale sooner rather than later.

As always, nicely done.

Hi Reader, i'd be happy if he left, but he seems happy. Guess we'll see. Thanks for reading and for your comments...

tim

On 12/03/2015 09:35 AM, skinnydragon said:

Haunting and sad tim.

 

The speaker has an inner logic to his argument which makes it all the more ominous.

Very convincingly developed.

 

Well done tim!!

hey sd .. thank you for your comments. Sometimes it's like im two people, but only one of us is gonna make it.. Thanks for reading my friend...

tim

On 12/03/2015 09:30 AM, dughlas said:

These words are powerfully moving ... I want to wrap you up in my arms, an embrace of safety, sancutary from the hurt and doubt but it is not my place ...

 

Namaste little brother

Hey dugh, thank you. Wish hugs could fix me. If they could just the ones I've gotten from you would have done it.. thanks dugh.

tim

On 12/03/2015 09:14 AM, Parker Owens said:

Sad, so sad. I ache hold the speaker, to interrupt the voice of the 'alter,' the nasty, sarcastic voice that tears away at the self and all that is good and whole. You make me want to shout that voice down, to send it in full retreat. But shouting rarely does that. Sometimes it flees at a smile, or a good word, or at an encouraging squeeze. God, do I ever know about that. You write about what I know can hurt. Thanks for this: it is so accurately and compellingly expressive.

Thank you Parker. I wish i didnt know and i wish it wasn't accurate but it is at least for me. It was pretty bad yesterday. Thank for reading and for your comments.

tim

On 12/03/2015 09:04 AM, AC Benus said:

It's a heartbreakingly beautiful poem, Tim. It's precise and almost honed to be like the words you mention in it.

 

The only thing I can hope is that writing out these feelings is a way to forget them and move beyond the pain trapped here, as if in amber.

Hey AC.. it does help to write down. Kinda like facing up to the bully I guess. I love what you wrote there, about trapped in amber, it's a beautiful visual. Thanks for your comments and your support. I appreciate it always.

tim

I'm a bit lost for words...

On 12/04/2015 07:20 PM, Bucket1 said:

I'm a bit lost for words...

Hey B, you dont have to say anything... i had to so I wrote what was happening. I'm doing better.. have a real life appt with my pysch on monday morning...

tim

A very heartfelt piece. I found your descriptions quite effective, such as ‘cutting words’ and particularly the second verse. I hope things are better for you.