I'm really sorry for your loss. He sounds like a special person.

I'm sorry for your loss.  Hug!

I'm so sorry for your loss, Myr 

Haha, yeah. I worked with my dad for a while before he died, and before we split off to start a new company, I worked for him at an IT staffing company, where I was totally in the closet. They had a Christmas party, and one of our staffers was a cute, young gay dude. He brought his boyfriend to the party (that's how we found out his orientation).

My dad comes up to me at some point and said "so, xxx is cute, you keep looking at him." I said yeah, but I was really just admiring the balls it took for him to bring his partner to this party.

My dad said "bullshit, you want to do him." I was appalled. I said (a) get out of my business, and ( he's got a partner.

He said "well, there's your challenge then", and walked away. We never spoke of it again, except for when this guy quit and got a new job, and my dad made a comment that I'd missed my chance.

Sorry for your loss, Myr, go be with your mom and take care of business. It's gonna suck for a while, and you'll never really get over it. But you'll remember him always and, when you dream of him, give a little nod and say "hi dad" when you wake up. Cause that's when he'll pay you a visit.

Silly things will remind you of dad at the oddest times. It may rip you up at first but it does get better!

Sorry to hear of your sad loss Myr, 67 is no age, and as I sat reading your blog entry it took my back to my own mother's death in 2006, I was 24. Its very hard to lose a parent when you are relatively young. My mother just like your father died pretty quick, except mine died of a brain hemorrhage and not a heart attack. Also like you, the last words we said to each other was "I love you" because for my mum, it was her 41st birthday celebration. I waited until she went to bed and left her and my step dad's house by Taxi with my partner. Basically between then and the morning a blood vessel burst in her head and she never woke up again.

Your sad event brings home so many memories and although each situation is different, I truly know how you feel at this moment. 

Much love and Hugz. Look after yourself and be strong for your mum.

Matt

the silly memories are the best ones to hold onto. Our condolences.

I lost my father to cancer in 2003. AS an only child, I know exactly what you mean except that I watched him wither. We had some good conversations, then, though.

My father was the master of embarrassing my mother. As a child I guess I was kind of dumb. I recall when I found out my father knew all the swear words I did, and be shocked, thinking I had this big secret. It was funny.

We were in Elyria, Ohio on our way to New York to live. We'd gone down a one way street in a 24 foot U-Haul with a car attached to the back. If you tried to back up, the car wanted to jackknife. So we wind to the end of this street, and it's a dead end. My father throws the truck in park, says 'Fuck' and climbs out of the cab. I turn to my mom and said, at 12 years old, "I didn't know dad knew that word.'

Unimpressed my mother said, a bit sourly, 'He knows a lot of words.'

Later, he took me to my first gay bar. I'm so sorry for your loss, Myr.

I know I've given you a lot of these over the last week, but I can't help but give you another one.   Hearing you talk about your dad this last week, there's no doubt in my mind that he knew how much you loved him. He sounded like a wonderful man. You know where I am if you need me.

I feel the love and fondness in your post Myr.  Your Dad sounds like a memory to be treasured and that breathes love into your day.  Hugs and much sympathy for your loss.

Jo ann

Sorry for your loss, Myr. That golf cart story, so insignificant over the span of the years you shared.. but it is a good example of the unconditional love and acceptance he had for you. Sometimes it is difficult for fathers to show their love and acceptance of their children, your father did. I can't imagine the loss you feel now, but I don't doubt he loved you completely. 

I'm sorry for your loss, Myr.

Sad for you, Myr.

Losing someone who's been part of your whole life is like being hit with a permanent black hole - so much stuff you've almost taken for granted is just gone.

I hope your sadness can be buffered by the treasures of good memories.

I'm so sorry for your loss, Myr. I know you must be getting that a lot, but I hope each condolence helps you feel better knowing that others are wishing you well. I wish you all the best getting through this hard time, and I hope that your mother is able to move on too. Hugs.

Been giving you hugs all week, but there are more where those came from.  I feel honored that several of us have been able to talk with you and help celebrate his life with you this last week.  While his loss is immense, he lives on in the hearts and minds of so many people that his life touched in 67 years.  As you told me a few days ago, your father could walk into a room and raise everyone's spirits.  He knew how to make people laugh and his life's legacy includes you.  You built and shared GA with all of us.  Your site has touched countless lives and given hope to people struggling with their sexuality.  You too have made this world a better place.  Like father, like son.

I'm deeply sorry for your loss. I know how it is to lose a parent. It's never easy. :*(