Cia

Welcome to GA CTownKid94! Whoo, that's a mouthful You'll probably find that shortened to CT if you hit chat I hope you enjoy the site. Look around, check out the teen forum and all the topics there, enjoy the fiction and the fun.

Take care of you, as best you can. Only you can decide what's right in the end but I truly hope you'll be back someday.

I urge you to find someone to talk to. This is a very low point for you but if your previous blogs have been any indicator one that will not go on forever. I can not help you from here other than to say that you should seek help. Your talk of a loss of self, even if not suicide, is not healthy. Please reconsider your actions before you can not return from them.

I bake things to give away to friends usually. Really bad for you things. That way after making a thousand or so candies the very idea of eating any nauseates me Really I love Christmas the most out of the holidays but it's not about the presents for me. The kids really do make the holiday, it's so fun to watch them. We have one tradition that I follow through on no matter where we are for Christmas Eve though. The kids and I always make vanilla sugar cookies for Santa so they're fresh. They love to cut out the shapes and then decorate the snowmen and gingerbread people. M&M's make great christmas ball ornaments for the cookie trees. All in all it's a great family time.

I knew we shouldn't have let you have that cake! Happy Birthday hun!!!!

Hi newer members! I'm Cia, one of the mods here at GA. I'm often found in chat and once you make 5 posts you can contact me there if you have any questions or send me a pm. I was a newbie just last year so I still remember how confusing the site can be when you're just learning the ins and outs of GA's little quirks. If I can't figure out how to help you I'm sure I can point you to the right mod or admin who can! Otherwise, I hope you all enjoy GA as much as I do. GA is my fav place online to be and I love seeing new faces and reading new stories!

Okay, so I beta for you and I've read this before. That lessened not one whit of the impact for me. I've firs- hand knowledge of what kind of insecurity nasty scars on your body can inflict. The fact that you were able to show Alex's pain and fears so vividly drew me in; I identified with him immediately. Brent was easy to figure out, his honest care and love for his friend went above and beyond but being predictable took nothing away from his final confession of his feelings for Alex. I know from working with you that it isn't as easy to get the raw emotions to come out the way you make it seem to be but sheesh, sometimes I think you can take an issue I feel personal toward and hit every key emotional point with unerring accuracy. A good writer lets you identify with the character and feel for them, a great writer lets you become that character and feel as they do. You, in my opinion, are a great writer.

Huh. Sounds like you are thinking too much. btw, love the books from the first class, I read most of those in grade and middle school. Robison Crusoe was a fav of mine when I was 10. You've always seemed a bit like a Tom Sawyer to me. Irascible, always in some form of trouble and yet essentially good at heart. This blog is all about you being down on yourself. Lighten up. No, that was not 'light up', though that helps some people relax it sounds like you are using it more to function normally. Do something new, getting laid might help with the immediate fugue but you need something to shake up your life. I can't really give you any idea of specific things to try but I'm sure if you think about it you'll figure it out. A dom boyfriend might help you figure out what you're slacking in but would you really listen to someone telling you what to do if you don't agree? Somehow I doubt that. Good luck!

Happy Birthday Hummingbird!!!

For those of us who are html incompetent the new GA Stories will solve this issue. It doesn't mess up the formatting from Word documents so it will be easy peasy to use!

What?? I guess I shouldn't assume that people get the story updates in e-fiction before they come in here. I forget that my routine: read chapter, review, check forum and comment isn't universally used. It should be darn it! Sorry for the spoilers if I ruined it for anyone.

Great work Grommett. I really loved this chapter; you have so much emotional development going on with the characters. Your writing style continues to impress. You have a great flow and your sense of pacing and dramatic impact is well used. This story has more twists and turns than a labyrinth. I for one am quite eager to see what chapter 4 will have for us.

Another bit of agreement with hh5 and Nephy. Your story is yours. Whether you are writing it for the first time or the fifth it's your vision and your world. If you don't write it for you then it's not going to be something you can be proud of or enjoy. Readers go hang, sometimes you just have to do what you have to do.

One... who are you writing this for? Do you understand what you wrote? Does it make sense to you? Okay, I know the whole thing of what's the purpose of writing if people can't read what you write versus you only write for yourself is a total catch 22. I love when readers enjoy my stories but I don't sit down and write a story going, "I think that they would like it if I had this in my story versus that." I worry about what I see for the story and how to best express the idea I have. I think you should do the same. I don't know the context of this paragraph you wrote or why Charlie is thinking this way or what events have precipitated this thinking but reading what you wrote in 'my terms' I get this: Charlie is having his identity verified by a machine that is checking his image, his identification card and a password he has been given to memorize. He is wondering the validity of the fact that a machine decides if the person standing before it is actually him or not by those few details but what makes those things 'what he is?' When was that essential question, 'What makes me, ME?' that most people are constantly seeking to find boiled down to a few specific details that is judgeable by something as mundane as a machine with all it's limitations? And if that is really possible what does that make him? Okay, so maybe I'm pretty far off base. I don't hold degrees, I'm not a genius, I don't actually like reading philosophical treatises or debates for the most part. I do like a story that makes me question things and reevaluate the concepts I think I know or believe in. I like them a lot better couched in a fictional tale that doesn't bore me than a dry article that poses the questions for me to consider without giving me someone to compare and relate to. If you have something you are trying to work out in your own mind and it's coming out in a story that is filled with things that intrigue you then by all means, keep writing how you feel comfortable. But will 'dumbing' it down for people perhaps make it more readable by the masses and keep still it true to the vision you have for it? Will it affect your satisfaction if you do that?

See, Lugh's an emotional marshmallow inside. He's just got all you peoples fooled LMAO Alright fine, so I'm lying. The test is rigged, he has no redeeming core of ooey gooey sweetness lurking in that heart of his. And his tongue is way too acid.

Barring the wish to not have to worry about money endlessly and bad economies I don't have it half bad. I'm with someone I love, I have kids I love and other family close by. The thing that would change my life the most, to get rid of the pain I have daily, isn't really possible but I've found that you can live with just about anything. Thanks for reminding me of how good I have it.

We're not the the 'truck nuts' kind of folk. I'm not quite that flavor of redneck I don't know as I'd never see a guy with them but to be sure they'd be gone before I set foot in the vehicle. Josh leans more toward stickers, he has a line across the bottom of his back window with hunting stickers. Only one is 'offensive' though. It sure ticks off the tree huggers in my Moms club with I drive the truck. I just laugh.

OMG, snickers. Yeah, I'm known as the huh, what? type when it comes to that sort of thing. Though for me my solution isn't to call someone, though I have a hubby, it's to look it up online. *worships internet* You can find just about how to do anything on ehow!!

I was born in Florida and visited off and on. I will have to say it's hot and muggy, even in spring. I was there once in January and it was 90 degrees. Sunblock, lots of water and enjoy! I don't like the sun but even I enjoyed the change from cold and rainy. Have fun traveling and working for a good cause!

Awww, local library perhaps? At least to put in a presence? My library doesn't block GA so you might try it. Hope you get net soon!! In the meantime, internet time can be focus toward writing insteadl Still a win for readers

No kitty for me? I'm hurt, even. I'm glad you are enjoying the story so far. It is coming to a head soon and things will come together. I'm trying to keep the pace of posting from getting too spaced out, here's hoping I can continue as I am out of ready chapters!

Hee hee... Mr. Echels is NOT gay. That's all I'm saying though.

This chapter was a pivotal one for me when I read this. I had to take a break from the story for a few days, it was too emotional and I just cried my eyes out. It didn't get much easier to read this go round either. This isn't the 'worst' I've ever read when it comes to a chapter just breaking my heart but it was close to it. Knowing what is to come though, as soon as I made my way back to the story I wished I had continued right away. From one extreme to the other this story plays the emotions (and lusts) of the readers like a master. I can't think of a single one I didn't experience as I read and the journey this second time round is just as good!

That is so hard! I lost a bunch of peers as a teenager and pre-teen but have been lucky as an adult to have that not be the case. It's never easy when you are faced with the knowledge that death is not always the logical conclusion of a long life hopefully well lived. It can be senseless and sudden and tragic. It can weigh on your mind but instead of focusing on the bad aspect that it can happen really at anytime I try to focus and make each day be one that I would be able to say I was satisfied with. I strive for happy but I'm way too tempermental for that

Oh no, unh uh. It's a taste and texture thing for me. I've had all sorts of innards and I don't like any of them.