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Happy Birthday Vance!!! Thought it was Microsoft's Vista's birthday for a second, hehe!

An interesting topic, I agree homophobia is more than just direct action; it can be overt or subversive anti-homosexual actions. However, let me posit another issue that I am thinking about: Can we lump openly gay people as homophobic for certain actions they do? Some gay guys have certain fears of the Feminine model of homosexual men that they are extremely antagonistic against that sub-group within our own community.

Sometimes life is like a slow disaster that we merely witnesses to; hearing what's been happening to you Kev' reminds me of that famous footage of the Hindenburg as it was engulfed in flames to everyone horror and the paralysis of everyone watching it unfold. Perhaps, there is nothing you can do to fix the issues at hand, but I love it that you are willing to help out afterward. The best we can do in life, when facing oncoming disaster before our eyes without the ability to alter it, is merely observe and learn from it. I hope you grow from everything and everyone including yourself will end up better off than where they started. :hug:

Hey! I agree too, but what I thought was true post columbine more than anything else was an overreaction that kids in my school really did not care about. I was one of the only guys that listened to the second seminar, but after the drudgery of the 2nd; I succumbed to the same malaise that everyone else began to have over school shootings and the continuous bombardment of message laden seminars preaching tolerance and acceptance. By the way, I did train a level 70 Magikarp during those boring day! (Pokemon reference for the teenagers of the early 2000's)

Sticks and stones can break my bones But words hurt most of all, because they get beneath your thick skin. Words surprise you and hurt you deeper than punches or even a dagger through the heart (coincidentally, I heard it is less painful than it looks, just a warm tingly feeling). Some people may things that hurt you and it will continue throughout all our lives. Shady, I don't know you as a person, but all in all, you are perfectly normal and flawed like all of us. I don't heap praises ad nauseam, you are what you are and I think sometimes people concentrate too much on the ideal of what they rather than face the reality of what they have.

Well said, it was defining moment in our generation. Before 9/11, it was the most traumatic and important event in my young life. I was in middle school at the time and still remember for days afterward the fear that people kept. Fire alarms with bomb threats became a way of life; perhaps, the best name for our generation is the Generation of Terror. I'm happy to know that people have grown through such tragedy and lived on after the trauma. I agree with the sentiment that teaching others to accept differences would be good to prevent future incidents. I just wish those words did not fall on deaf ears. My high school after Columbine did have a full hour program each term about guidance counselors and not discriminating others with issues, but you know something; most people after the first two "seminars" brought their gameboys or just fell asleep after hearing the same message. It's reality that I am sorry to be the bearer of bad news for. I wish people cared more even after the drama was over.

I was addressing a point made on my prior blog entry from Old bob and somehow I broke into a poetic verse. The nature of conflict: To ignore conflict is a human reaction to seeing too much in their lifetime. To accept conflict as a burden needed for the future of mankind is to have hope Well that is divine Peace will not occur in your time Peace will not occur in my time It comes to whether we are ready to fight for this concept, we call peace Knowing it may fail Knowing it may succeed That we become human in our fullest range of emotions and life That we become closer to nature and closer to breaking the cycle nature has rendered us in

Happy Birthday Kurt, enjoy oncoming Seniority!

This might be my shortest entry, but I just feel like saying it. The world is sad. You hear far too many tragedies created by human beings. There are far too many injustices in this world and far too many false beliefs that must be fought. Yet, how can we struggle against such a sad world. I am going to place here, President Kennedy's Inaugural address on why we must continue to fight:

Let me make some straight jokes :lol: :lol:

I love gay Humor: Now for a little language training in Gay speach: Haha! I never knew about gay language. Now, seriously, there is gay cultural history, which has changed over time. There are subtle changes over time, which is interesting historic convention.

Every time I blog it seems to be a plug for my stories; Damn! I don't like to blog like this, but this one is scaring me. Well, let's see, talking about my new story, which is haunting me. I can actually see it happening and unraveling in my mind so clearly that it gives me the creeps. It's like sympathy, horror, and an inner sense of satisfaction, when I re-read what I wrote and posted. There's something in that story that makes me feel like I really constructed my own world; a tragedy complete with nuances. Then, there is the part of me that says; it's all just fiction; it will never happen. Yet, I keep thinking back to it. There is an old line: I am bothered by it, because I really feel support for my character and think what he is doing is right. He is taking the worst in our society and punishing them in a way that our justice system due to bureaucracy and laws could not. How can I really argue against such a high truth? That's the problem and the darkness that I am feeling in my story, it is not whether he is doing good through such actions, but whether the good he seeks to do is actually something much more sinister in our complicated world. If I just had him go around killing evil religious figures and neo-nazis, then everyone would say I am cliched and the story would fail to me at least on so many levels. Yet, what I wrote and unravelled is complex web of men striving to do good in this world through the corrutpion that inhabits it. Adding the political intrigue, which was subtly hinted into this story, marginalized my character genuine heroic mission to fight against these people who hid in the shadows of justice. Then, I draw another parallel as whether gay rights can become a hired gun in a metaphoric sense of a political faction, who had ulterior motives to take out their competition, silently? This story haunts me on so many levels, because I wanted to make it dark; I wanted to make my characters flawed in every way possible, but amazingly talented in their own pursuits. I wanted the plot to be devestating and people to feel empathy towards the characters for their loss, but the subtext and the politics behind the events are so cold and frighteningly calculated by my subconscious. Each of my stories are researched before I write them in one way or another, but I feel something special and dark in this one that is drawing my attention back towards it. Perhaps I need to take a vacation from writing, because I feel like I have seen the devil's argument and I actually thought he wasn't completely wrong.

Mark, The personal decision to leave anything is never easy or simple. When you become part of a community; you give a part of yourself into it. If you leave, you leave a portion of yourself behind, which lays dormant for your eventual return. Nostalgia, remembering the good times, or as the teenagers call it with the idea of "Retro", you yearn for the past seeking that piece of you left behind. An online community creates roots for people and it will continuously draw and cause others to leave at least temporarily. I have yet to meet some one that does not yearn to return after a period of time. I consider that to be the most influential part of human nature in the online environment; there's never a definitive departure, unless the person dies, or definitive return, unless the person personally say I'm back.

Hey, I want to protect my pink elephants! (Oh wait, not a political statement) If he likes experimenting with the boys, then fine let him, what is wrong with a gay elephant?

Most Republican would be angry with the video you linked Tim. Comparing Republicans to Nazi's is not going to win anyone friends. I wouldn't think too much of it from your friend. It's a defense mechanism, which the republican voters want to insulate themselves. I am not one of those that can't take a pot shot. I disagreed with the Patriot Act and I know other Republicans argued against it, too. It was an idiotic act that was half-ass. Most urban middle class Republicans are smart and contrary to most beliefs, not anti-gay or anti-abortion; although, I am against unlimited abortion on principle. However, the south is not a place where these conventions work.

It happens; I will be awaiting more of your stories as they come. Long stories take longer to write and you build a connection writing them. My best advice is just go with your heart, not plans.

Bogart impression- "Michelle, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship" Honestly, a caring, honest, and good friend is hard to find. The sleeping together part has not affected the way you two act around each other, another good sign. I wish I had your boy in my life.

I prefer mature chickens, not too small or young, and not too old as cocks get pushy, before I fry'em up. I've been burned as well by guys, when I started out, but now I am fine with it. It happens and you don't forget about it; you just block them on AIM.

hey we can have a non-political discussion over here on marriage.

Italy is my favorite peninsula, but I wonder what triggered the earthquake.

Hey, you mean Goats don't you? <hears the terrified bah of a certain goat running off in the distant from an angry mob>

Wow time works fast. Happy Birthday Martin, Enjoy the 20's!

I just figured out another one: 3. I am afraid of tall guys beating me up. I guess it's something from childhood experiences in elementary school. Additionally, my ex-roommate who was extremely tall 6'6"; I had a crush on him after learning not to be afraid of him. Strange, I'm afraid of something that I might love.

Hey jail bait is awesome! Glad ot hear you are sorta-maybe-kinda involved, everyone deserves love in their life.

Life will throw a lot of things at you. I graduated a year early and am I going through Grad school at the moment. I know what you are feeling man; getting the scheduling done and overloading courses is rough. In this economy, you really cannot win; if you delay taking courses, then you must bear more financial burdens with lending still pretty tight for college students. IF you take forcing yourself into a very fast overload schedule, then you might burn out before its over. There is no absolute solution, but the best you can do now is calm your mind and think up what you can do and can't. If you think a specific type of schedule like only night classes for a few days of the week, while working part time might be a solution to your financial woes, then look at the courses possible. IF you want to adjust wait for graduate school like most people after a few years, when your situation improves that might be possible as well.