Something Unexpected - 15. Chapter 15

“He’s just a friend.” I learned my lesson; keep the relationship a secret until he’s ready to tell.

“Come on Chandler we’re not retards.” Amber countered as everyone gathered around the doorway after I arrived.

“Just drop it guys me and Andy had a fight and I want to just get drunk off my ass. So stop asking questions and get ready to leave.” I groaned shoving past them to get into Sean’s house to wait for them.

“What was the fight about?” Amber who finished getting ready first asked after sitting down.

“I told his friend Tim that I was gay.” I answered and she looked confused.

“Why would you two fight because of that?” She questioned curiously.

“Well because Andy thinks that Tim would figure out that we were together. So he got worried.” I shrugged looking down at the floor.

“So you really like the kid huh?” Sean asked walking into the room overhearing the conversation.

“Yeah I do.” I answered. I was still trying to figure things out in my head as to how to make it right between Andy and me.

“Well then you’ll have to get used to Andy being a kid.” Sean offered and I looked up at him not knowing exactly what he meant.

“What?” I shook my head not wanting to know where he was going with this. I didn’t like it when they called Andy a kid either.

“Well he’s going to be scared shitless all the time and if you want a piece of ass you’re going to have to wait.” Sean explained then sat down beside Amber on the couch.

“When are you the expert on gay guys anyway Sean?” I growled crossing my arms and leaning forward to look at him.

“I’m just saying that you’re going to put up with a lot of shit here.” Sean countered carefully.

“Why are you even with someone Chandler?” Kurt asked joining us in the living room.

“I am with Andy because I want to be.” I exclaimed sternly.

“I mean it’s not like you to settle down with someone. You usually just sleep around with ‘em for awhile then leave ‘em.” Kurt quipped and I heard Sean laughing slightly.

“Do you guys think that I’m not capable of having a good relationship with someone?” I asked them all and when none of them answered me I stood up no longer wanting to suppress my anger.

“Chandler some people just sleep around it’s what they do. There’s nothing wrong with that right now. Andy is cute, but come on he’s not going to keep you from straying and you know it.” Amber was the bravest person to speak up after the short uncomfortable pause.

“You know what, fuck all of you.” I hissed walking out the door leaving them to find their own way to the party. I could be a good boyfriend no matter what they said I was. Sure I slept around a few times and hurt a few people who thought it meant more than just a good time, but I was over that.

When I finally arrived at the party it was already crowded and the music was already blaring and could be heard from the main street. When I entered the house the party was in full swing with people already drunk to the point of stupidity and I was looking forward to joining them.

“Hey Chandler have a beer man.” Someone yelled from across the room causing me to look around until my eyes settled on Marcus. He was a senior and we fooled around a little last year, but nothing serious as he was still trying to figure out which he preferred, now though after dumping his hot cheerleader girlfriend I guessed he found out what he liked.

“Thanks.” I smirked taking the bottle from him and guzzling it down.

“Thirsty?” Marcus asked amused and I shook my head.

“Give me another one.” I answered and he left for the kitchen and returned with two beers.

“Haven’t seen you around much these days what’ve you been doing?” Marcus asked before taking a drink of his beer.

“I’ve been tutoring some kid.” I answered frowning.

“What’s his name?” He asked curious.

“Andrew Keller, do you know him?” I then downed half the bottle of my second beer of the night.

“Yeah, he’s that new future basketball star the coaches are always talking about. That’s Laura Keller’s little brother too.” Marcus responded and took another drink.

“Yeah you know him.” I answered taking note to tell Andy that the coaches thought he could kick some ass.

“So is it more than just tutoring?” He asked and I about spewed the beer that I was drinking all over the place.

“No, that’s stupid.” I lied coughing slightly after I forced the beer down.

“So you’re not tapping that ass then?” He prodded and I shook my head pretending to be amused.

“No man, I’m not.” I confirmed and he shook his head.

“You’re getting slow, man.” Marcus joked and I smirked.

“What is that supposed to mean?” I questioned half-heartedly.

“It means that you’ve lost your touch. Since he’s available I will definitely be looking into getting it done.” Marcus explained and my jaw dropped.

“Come on man he’s a complete straight boy.” I tried talking him out of it.

“With enough alcohol and sweet talkin’ I’ll be in his pants no matter if he’s straight.” Marcus confidently assured me and I frowned then drank the last few drinks of my second beer.

“I’m going to go get me something stronger.” I excused myself and went into the kitchen grabbing two glasses of vodka and returned to find Marcus still sitting there by himself.

“Are you trying to get drunk off your ass?” Marcus asked pointing to the drinks.

“Yes.” I rolled my eyes and took a drink squinting as it went down.

“Do you want to go into a bedroom?” Marcus asked slyly running his hand up and down my arm.

“I don’t think I will.” I answered brushing off his hand as it trailed over my shoulder.

“You turning down sex?” He asked amused.

“Yes I am turning down sex.” I spat wondering if everyone I knew thought I was a player that is just looking for the next plaything to walk past me.

“I think after those two glasses of vodka you’ll be changing your mind.” He whispered seductively. It did make me shudder as he leaned in closer to me and I felt shitty even being here, but I stayed.

“Where are you going to college?” I asked trying to change the subject.

“Stanford.” Marcus responded backing away to finish off his beer. I was now starting to feel the drinks that I had consumed, but that didn’t stop me from finishing the first glass of vodka and starting on the other one.

“Are you accepted to there yet?” I had to focus on what I was saying as to not slur words together.

“I’m still waiting, but I make good grades and shit. I don’t know why they wouldn’t take me.” Marcus stated disinterested in the conversation.

“Yeah, you’ll get in.” I assured him, but then I looked over at Marcus for the first time really paying attention to his features and what he was wearing. Marcus was tall and he’s on the swim team. Although he isn’t all that good at swimming, but still just good enough to make the team. Tanned, black hair, brown eyes, and a scruffy appearance to his face like he hadn’t shaved for a day or so. I had to force myself to turn away, but Marcus had caught me checking him out.

“So, you still say no to the bedroom?” Marcus asked coyly and when I turned to look at him he licked his lips.

“I uh, I’m going to go piss.” I lied I just had to get away from Marcus. I then took the last drinks of my second glass of vodka instead of just leaving it there fearing that Marcus would slip me something when I came back to retrieve it then made my way to the bathroom. Which was upstairs. I knew this house well as it was Marcus’s parent’s house. I knew there wouldn’t be anyone up here since they also had a bathroom and a few guest rooms down stairs. That’s why I chose to come up here. I was regretting my decision to get drunk, but the alcohol was making that regret go away more and more by the second. I then went over and looked at my slightly blurred reflection. I squinted my eyes and leaned forward laughing slightly when I knocked my face against the mirror. Then I turned the faucet on splashing my face with water trying to subdue the feeling. I then toweled off my face and flushed the toilet making it sound like I had been using the bathroom. When I exited the bathroom I was pulled up the hallway and into the bedroom. The lights were off and who ever it was wasn’t going to turn them on so I felt for the switch finally finding it as the body pressed up against me.

“Get off of me.” I threatened but only got a muffled moan as lips made contact with my neck. Finding the switch I turned it on finding Marcus in the room with me. “Marcus I told you that I didn’t want to do anything with you.”

“You know you want it.” He whispered and I felt him tugging at my shirt.

“I don’t think that I do.” I attempted to explain, but he wasn’t listening as the shirt was pulled up to my armpits, as I had not lifted my arms to let the shirt be pulled completely off.

“Stop that.” I protested weakly. I hadn’t attempted to push him away from me.

“Are you sure you want me to?” Marcus whispered after resting his head on my shoulder to whisper in my ear.

“I well..” I started to turn him down but stopped.

“You what?” Marcus asked seductively. I could feel his breath rush across my dampened neck causing goose bumps to spread across my body. I didn’t give him my answer in words, but I raised my arms letting him take off my shirt.

“I want to do this.” I assured him, but he didn’t need it as he bent down to remove my belt. I ran my hands over his shoulders.

“Good.” He responded and I could feel the belt being tugged through the loops of my jeans. He then led me to a bed that I was familiar with and he unbuttoned and pulled down my pants. He then gently shoved me into a sitting position as he pulled them off. He then didn’t waste any time pulling down my boxers exposing myself to him.

“You’ve grown a lot since last year.” He announced and I giggled slightly.

“So I was small last year?” I asked looking down at him on his knees.

“No.” He whispered then I leaned back enjoying what he did to me next.

Andy and my problems rushed through my head the entire time I was with Marcus. I still didn’t let that stop me as we had sex through out the night. My inhibitions didn’t return after I had sobered up either. I had wanted this and Marcus was there to gladly help me get what I wanted. I wasn’t thinking what this meant for me or how my friends were right. As his climax took over his body as he was positioned behind me screaming out his love for me it didn’t register that I was cheating on Andy. I was looking out for myself alone I was always doing that. I wanted things in my life to go my way and so far it had all been that way.

“I love you, man I really do.” Marcus mumbled as he lied down next to me as we both collapsed in a hot sweaty heap. The covers were bundled up and the pillows were off the bed completely.

“You know that isn’t true.” I whispered turning to look at him.

“I know it is.” He countered and he moved his face towards me preparing to kiss me for the first time tonight, but I turned my head to look up at the ceiling.

“Don’t kiss me.” I sternly protested. Marcus then turned grabbing the pillows from the floor and he put one under his head. I then took the other one putting it under my head. I watched Marcus as he stood up to go turn off the lights. Then he returned he scooted closer to me on the bed. I was still facing him trying to figure out why I’m still laying here in his bed.

“You are seeing some one aren’t you?” Marcus asked abruptly catching me off guard.

“No I’m not.” I lied diverting my eyes from his. There was just enough light entering into the room from the streetlights outside for us to see one another.

“Then do you want to be my boyfriend?” Marcus asked I could tell he was nervous.

“No I don’t want to.” I answered then I tried to get up to leave but he stopped me.

“Why not?” He asked grabbing my hand.

“I just don’t.” I responded then there was an uncomfortable silence and I knew I had hurt him.

“So what’s wrong with me?” He asked in a hushed voice.

“There is nothing wrong with you.” I attempted to assure him.

“Then tell me the real reason why we can’t try and move on from this.” He spat reaching up to rub my face.

“Because all I was looking for in you is a good time. We had that good time and now it’s over. I need to go.” I answered and he frowned.

“Well um ok.” Marcus gave in and I turned around in the bed no longer facing him. Then I fell asleep unexpectedly.

The next morning I woke up to a throbbing head ache forgetting all about last night and what happened the night before. Then Marcus entered the room from just showering and everything flooded my mind from last night and I felt terrible.

“Fucker, you took advantage of me!” I growled and Marcus jumped.

“What the hell?” Marcus asked amused. “You wanted it all, bud.” He continued and I frowned.

“I was drunk.” I stated evenly trying to convince myself it was a good enough excuse.

“You were still wanting that to happen.” Marcus countered and I rolled my eyes.

“Didn’t mean that you had to jump me.” I groaned standing up to gather my clothes.

“I feel sorry for who ever you’re with.” Marcus spat his anger rising in his voice.

“Fuck you.” I snapped zipping up my pants.

“Been there, done that.” Marcus quipped turning away from me to fix his hair in the mirror.

“You’re the most fucked up person I know you little shit.” I wanted to walk up and punch him, but I stood there staring at his reflection watching me in the mirror.

“I am at least single. You even lied about not seeing someone, but when your cell rang I just had to answer it.” Marcus announced and I grabbed for my cell phone not finding it in my pants pocket.

“Where’s my phone?” I asked horrified.

“On the table by the bed.” He answered easily.

“Who called?” I asked wanting to know.

“I told you that your little boyfriend back home called. You know who it was.” He smirked turning to face me.

“What did you tell him?” I asked taking a few step towards Marcus who stood his ground.

“He asked who I was when I answered the phone and I told him that you were asleep in my bed.” Marcus sneered.

“You little fuck.” I growled as I rushed at Marcus who side stepped me then grabbed my shoulders.

“I didn’t do anything to you, Chandler. It was you that lied and told me that you weren’t seeing anybody. We even talked about him and you said that he was even straight so this is all on you man. What are you doing with a boyfriend anyway? People like you are dangerous.” Marcus explained and I had to fight back the urge to kick his ass. I knew that he was right, but it didn’t make my anger for him at the moment go away. I wasn’t ready to put all the blame on my shoulders.

“Did you tell him that we had sex?” I whispered looking down at the ground no longer struggling.

“No I didn’t.” Marcus answered immediately letting go of my shoulders feeling safe.

“What do I need to do?” I asked more to myself, but I saw Marcus smirk.

“There’s not much you can do dude, you blew this one. Andrew Keller is such a catch too.” Marcus replied to my rhetorical question.

“Stay away from him.” I threatened and he started laughing.

“Why is his big bad ex-boyfriend-to-be going to kick my ass if I try something?” Marcus mocked shaking his head.

“I just might.” I growled stepping over to the bedroom door.

“Oh wait, I wanted to tell you that it was a very pleasurable evening.” Marcus quipped and I flipped him off leaving the room. It was later in the afternoon when I finally arrived at my house. I walked up to my room and I had one message on my answering machine and I frowned when it was from Andy.

“Well obviously you lied to me when you said you’d be there for me and that you wouldn’t go away. I thought that you’d at least attempt to stay with me a day after the fight, but you had to go and do what ever you did the very night. I needed you so bad this morning and I was going to tell you so much. I had this day all planned out in my head and I was excited..” Andy’s voice sounded sadder as the message kept going. It trailed off until the service kicked off the message, but Andy didn’t call back to complete the thought and I felt even more like shit than before. I then picked up the phone and dialed Andy’s number and I sighed heavily when he answered.

“Hello?” Andy asked politely and my heart skipped a beat not knowing what to say. “Is anyone there?” Andy asked still just as polite as he had before.

“Andy?” I questioned even though I knew who it was.

“Why did you call me?” Andy asked no longer being polite.

“You left a message.” I countered carefully and I heard him sigh into the receiver.

“That was because I was pissed and didn’t know what to do. I didn’t expect to hear Marcus answer your cell phone this morning.” Andy snapped causing me to cringe.

“I can explain, please..” I started but was cut off.

“No, I don’t need the nasty details I can put two and two together. All I want to know right now is why and what you were thinking and how it happened.” Andy strongly countered.

“I was hurt Andy.” I have never been put in this situation before. I actually cared about Andy.

“So you go and fuck around with Marcus. He didn’t even know that you were with me. He even asked me if I had a girlfriend yet.” Andy snapped his anger weakening. I could tell Andy was crying over the phone because he would sniffle and his breathing intensified.

“I don’t know what to say Andy I am shit.” I tried to sooth him, but he didn’t want that from me.

“So what was I?” Andy asked abruptly.

“Was?” I asked before I thought.

“Yes, was.” Andy snapped loudly.

“What do you mean?” I asked wanting him to explain before I answered.

“Was I just your little toy of the moment? Would I have ended up being just another name to add to your long list? I want to know what I meant to you Chandler.” Andy explained and I rubbed my eyes and sat down on my bed.

“I like you Andy. You meant a lot to me.” I offered weakly.

“It wasn’t enough though was it?” Andy asked sarcastically. “I need to go Chandler before Laura hears me being upset.”

“Just know that I still love you Andy.” I stated hastily before he could hang up.

“Yeah, right. Don’t even attempt to convince me of that Chandler not after what you did last night. I don’t think you should talk to me anymore and just go on being you since you can’t seem to change. I didn’t know you Chandler if I did I wouldn’t be in the situation I am in right now. I guess I’m the blame for that. I’m the loser that didn’t trust my sister when she told me to stay away from you..” Andy trailed off then I heard the dial tone and I sighed dropping the phone to the floor after hanging up.

“I’ve fucked myself up this time.” I said aloud stripping down to go take a shower. I felt dirty this time. It was definitely different with Andy and I was going to try and convince him that I can change. First though I’d have to convince myself.