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    Weekly Wrap Up (Nov. 17 - Nov. 23)

    By wildone

    Steve has climbed into his cave and don't wake him up until the end of April.  I think it it is @Slytherin's turn to stay awake this winter   That bear just happens to be the colour of outdoors.  We got dumped on the past week. No road lanes, no sidewalks, no nothing. All buried in snow. It is beautiful if you don't need to go out into it  Also, the temperature dropped into the minus celsius without windchill  Winter is here, I hereby declare. May you all share the wonder of it  
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Remembering Tim - Redux And Feeling Better Thru Chemicals

Remembering Tim is ready for a republication with material from Tim and the Corsair added with a bridging chapter. Publication will follow under the title Remembering Tim - Redux.   Mental state is stabilizing and will probably stabilize further with a change in dosage I'm implementing. From now on I'll be taking 1500 mg of Divalproex and 1 mg of Risperidone. I was taking that two years ago and will take it from now on. The only foreseeable problem is a dulling of creative abilities, but I'll
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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Broken Prince, Mismatched Eyes And More

I've been meaning to do a new blog post for awhile, but now I have a bunch of things to share. As those who have been reading ....And All Shall Fade To Black have seen, i have finally started working on a new story after more than a year. This doesn't mean that I've forgotten my other works, I have plans to finish them all, as time frees itself up. About a month ago I landed a job with the local newspaper, something i had initially applied for when I first got to town a decade ago. It's a thrill
layla

layla

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Comparing Past And Present

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my writing lately. I was curious to see how I've changed and grown as an author over the years. The best way for me to figure that out, was to look at my earlier works, primarily Eternity.   Eternity was only the second novel I ever wrote, and the first M/M novel. Looking back at it now, I can't help but cringe. There are so many things with it that I'd change if I was rewriting it now. Back then, I didn't know any different. I've been considering re
Renee Stevens

Renee Stevens

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I Quit My Job :)

So I quit my job this afternoon and I feel great about it. I wasn't really all that happy with teaching stuff that sort of got treated like a 'spare part' in their education and some classes were just badly behaved.   But! I had an interview on Friday and I got a new job as a Supply across different years:   Drama Instructor (Year 7-Year 13) Cover Supervisor (Year 1-Year 13) SEN Teaching Assistant (Year 7-Year 13)   Its better paid, it's in my home town. After 10 days I get a extra days p
Johnathan Colourfield

Johnathan Colourfield

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New Ebook: Maze For Three - Edited And Expanded

For those who enjoyed my A Maze for Three anthology series, I released it as an eBook with about 12,000 more words in edited and extra scenes, like a new ending!   Miah’s always had something to prove—to himself, his family, and all the people who thought he’d fail. It doesn’t matter that he has to do it all alone, he won’t give up on his dream. On the cusp of a new beginning that could mean the difference between success and failure, he decides to finally enjoy a night out at a city
Cia

Cia

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Remembering Tim In A Bipolar Sort Of Way

Finally, I threw caution to the wind and ended up speaking with my psychiatrist this morning about how I'm feeling, which, basically, I'm not, feeling that is. It boils down to my choice. Do I want to wait and see if I get used to the new medication levels and hope for an easing of the mental dullness I'm experiencing? Or, do I want to go back to the way it was and be mentally unstable, but be more creative? The only serious problem with mental instability is the risk of suicide goes up signific
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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A Very Schticky Thing To Do

Over the past few days I went back to one of my stories, A Very Schticky Thing To Do, to see if there were any things that needed to be changed and/or clarified, plus find those little typos that always seem to sneak through. It was a fun journey reading through a story that I thoroughly enjoyed writing.   When I first went to it I noticed that I left it as on hold. I couldn't remember why that was so. There was only one thing to do about it and that was to give a good read. The chuckles are s
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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Fleeing Your Student Loans By Going Overseas?

In a time when high student loans and a shaky economy have made it harder for borrowers to pay them off, some Millennials have found a solution...flee to Europe and never live in the U.S. again! The article below talks about the young Americans who are making their life overseas in the hopes of being free of their student loans.   Meet the Americans Who Moved To Europe to Bail on their Students Loans   Honestly, it's a definite fantasy of mine...escaping my student loans. I have fantasized a
methodwriter85

methodwriter85

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My New Life

I almost called the VA hospital emergency room today, but my son talked me out of it because he definitely wasn't in any mood to take me down to Seattle. I just wanted to talk to the on-call psychiatrist about how I've been feeling. You know, just talk to someone. If I feel bad again tomorrow morning, I will call, just to talk if he/she will go along with it. I'm not bad enough to call the suicide hot line, but sometimes I need to talk to someone and there's only so much Rambo is willing to list
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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Snowed In Thoughts & The State Of Me In 2016

So, I'm stuck in this blizzard hitting the East Coast right now. I'm alone in the house, as my mother is staying at the nursing home she works at.   I've got some beef stew roasting, thoughts of brownie-making in the future, and a belief that I will likely chase some shots of rum with hard cider while I watch some movies.   Alone with my thoughts, I thought I'd go over where I'm at right now, as a newly-minted 30-nothing, and where I want to be, and the general confusion I still have.   Fi
methodwriter85

methodwriter85

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Avocado Pasta

This is a quick and easy dish suitable for vegans, vegetarians, and days when you just don't feel like eating meat. For two people you need:   2 ripe avocados 2 spring onions 1-2 cloves of garlic a handful of walnuts or pine nuts (or both) the juice of one lemon olive oil salt and pepper pasta of your choice 1. Toast the nuts. You can do this in a pan or in the oven. I recommend oven for walnuts and pan for pine nuts. In the oven: lay out the nuts on an oven
Thorn Wilde

Thorn Wilde

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Dulled

Despite having dulled thought processes probably due to the increased dosage of risperidone, life seems to be getting along. I have noticed it's harder to write. The motivation just doesn't seem to be the same as it was. I've started Chapter 4 of the new Hercules III book, but it's going slow. Chapter 3 was relatively easy, so I can only say that it must be the dulling effects I'm getting from the combination of the increased risperidone acting on the divalproex (mood stabilizer). An increase in
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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Gender Politics In Art Therapy Group

Today a dude in my group presented a painting with a bunch of hearts, meant to represent how sharing in art therapy group had helped him and put him in touch with his emotions and stuff, which, good for him. He prefaces this by saying, 'So, a bunch of hearts... Boys don't really draw hearts, I guess that's a little feminine...' This is the guy who's previously complained about his boss being a woman, said he doesn't think a female therapist can understand a male patient, and made a whole bu
Thorn Wilde

Thorn Wilde

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A Shallow Recess

I’m going to try and write this without sounding childish, but perhaps that’s unavoidable. I may, in fact, be completely out of line to write this at all, but I feel the need to vent my frustrations.   Over the past two and a half years, I’ve channeled nearly all of my free time into becoming a writer, and learning and striving to become the best one I could possibly be. Obviously that’s a work which will continue until I either die or decide to stop, as I can always improve. One doesn’
Cynus

Cynus

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Maybe What We Should Do Is Change Your Medications. . . .

Last week the shrink dropped my antidepressant and doubled the dosage of my antipsychotic. And, then, the world as I knew it began to change.   I'm sure I'll eventually get used to the extra mg of risperidone, but right now I've experienced an incredible increase in weight, increased tiredness, decreased libido, and to top off everything else Microsoft ended the 30-day restriction I was experiencing with my account due to attempting to change my password, thereby enabling me to finally use my
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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Amor Fati

Amor fati, or the death of desire, is a common goal sought after by those that pursue the spiritual path. Desire dissipates the overwhelming, ruthless Will, which should be paramount. The Will of one that serves the Light would achieve what is right and best and good. Desire surrenders control to external entities, transitory and of limited value. This is why desire should die in one who seeks more than the obvious from this life. And so mystics since time began have sought amor fati. For desire
Drak

Drak

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College, My Schedule, And My Future

Today is MLK Jr. Day, so my Spring Term won't start until tomorrow. I just want to outline what my time will be like at school.   Well, I'm not taking that many classes, just 13 credit hours in total. Plus, they are spread over the week: on Monday/Wednesday my classes begin and 8:30 AM and on Tuesday/Thursday at 9:55 AM. And they end at 12:35 PM each day. What about Friday? Well... my college doesn't hold classes that day, so... three day weekend! Of course, these classes I am taking are fa
Drew Espinosa

Drew Espinosa

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I Need Your Help With Something

Hello, everyone!   I'm preparing for a short story competition in a couple weeks, as well as a personal goal I'm setting for myself in February.   The short story competition follows a specific pattern, which I need to practice if I expect to do any good at it, and since the second and third stages of the competition happen in March and April, I intend to practice through all of February.   This year I will be doing something I'm calling "Flash Fiction February". I'm going to write a short
Cynus

Cynus

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The G. M. Os., The End

Well, The G. M. Os. has finally come to an end. 26 chapters, a little over 179,000 words. Quite a project.   Now all that is waiting is the publishing. Chapter 8 went up today. Chapter 9 is out for proofreading.   Frankly, I’m very happy with the story. It was a good mental exercise and kept me sane for two months.   Yesterday had a bit of a letdown and almost had to call the suicide hotline. Haven’t had that feeling in over five years, but I know it’s always there. Good thing I’m going to
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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The G. M. Os., Thoughts

The G. M. Os. has come down to the last chapter. The cycle of the story has come around to a point close to the beginning as far as relationships go. All I have to do now is write it. No, there is no block. It’s just a matter of tidying up and giving any possible continuation of the story a jumping off point.   My dreams last night were very troubling. There were images from my childhood and family and friends. The scenes were very different, but they had a familiarity to them that was unsettl
CarlHoliday

CarlHoliday

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New Story Is Up

Hey All,   I decided to start posting my newest story. Parker and Caz have been helping me with it for a month or more now, and I so greatly appreciate their help and input.   I'm actually a bit stuck on this story--at ch. 14--so I thought posting might get me motivated to write instead of reading all the time. I really feel I need to get it out of my head, but I just keep putting it off. I'm hoping it was maybe just the busy-ness of the holidays and now that they are over I can get back
craftingmom

craftingmom

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