Wry Ramblings From A Hot Wing

[Jason Rimbaud]

I have decided to re-organize my life. My birthday is coming up and I have decided I am spending to much energy on my business and not enough on myself. 

At times I feel thin, translucent, when dealing with the public. Ten hours a day I talk to other people, give them my time, my happiness, my joy for my food. I find when I get home I don't have enough left of myself to give to my life, much less my husband. 

I've tried to combat this by staying up later than I should, trying to make myself not exist by getting up, going to work, going home, going to sleep. At first this worked, I'd go to bed around 1am and get up at six am, this gave me the illusion that I wasn't just working. 

A few days ago, this strategy failed in epic proportions, and the fight that ensued was so epic I was rather proud of the destruction in a morbid curiosity. How can two people who love each other be that cruel, inhuman, to one another? And that was just my behavior. 

Mental health is something many don't talk about, but its always good to remember that suffering in silence isn't being a man, it's being an idiot. 

Take time for yourself, have a bubble bath, listen to Bach, jerk off in the rain, something to remind yourself that you matter. You are not your job, your are not a deadline. You're a person, you deserve to shut off your phone and watch a stupid movie with your husband just because. 

And yes, we are okay. Sometimes the anger burns away the bullshit and we see the fire of love that burns under all the weight of hurt feelings. But fire without fuel eventually burns its out. Feed that fire you feel for your loved ones.

That's my one serious thought of the year. My usual silliness will ensue I'm sure far faster than some might wish.   

[Okiegrad]

29 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

I have decided to re-organize my life. My birthday is coming up and I have decided I am spending to much energy on my business and not enough on myself. 

At times I feel thin, translucent, when dealing with the public. Ten hours a day I talk to other people, give them my time, my happiness, my joy for my food. I find when I get home I don't have enough left of myself to give to my life, much less my husband. 

I've tried to combat this by staying up later than I should, trying to make myself not exist by getting up, going to work, going home, going to sleep. At first this worked, I'd go to bed around 1am and get up at six am, this gave me the illusion that I wasn't just working. 

A few days ago, this strategy failed in epic proportions, and the fight that ensued was so epic I was rather proud of the destruction in a morbid curiosity. How can two people who love each other be that cruel, inhuman, to one another? And that was just my behavior. 

Mental health is something many don't talk about, but its always good to remember that suffering in silence isn't being a man, it's being an idiot. 

Take time for yourself, have a bubble bath, listen to Bach, jerk off in the rain, something to remind yourself that you matter. You are not your job, your are not a deadline. You're a person, you deserve to shut off your phone and watch a stupid movie with your husband just because. 

And yes, we are okay. Sometimes the anger burns away the bullshit and we see the fire of love that burns under all the weight of hurt feelings. But fire without fuel eventually burns its out. Feed that fire you feel for your loved ones.

That's my one serious thought of the year. My usual silliness will ensue I'm sure far faster than some might wish.   

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻.    
 

Good for you!

[BendtedWreath]

49 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

 jerk off in the rain

[Jason Rimbaud]

3 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

Here in California we have warm, almost hot rain. It's amazing. You should try it. 

True story, first time I did anything with a guy was in park down the street from my house. It was late, raining, we were on a picnic table. I have fond memories of doing dirty things whilst be under the cleansing rain.  . 

[BendtedWreath]

9 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

Here in California we have warm, almost hot rain. It's amazing. You should try it. 

Our rain is cold. Almost always cold.

[Jason Rimbaud]

12 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

Our rain is cold. Almost always cold.

What part of the world do you live in when the rain is never warm?  

[BendtedWreath]

17 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

What part of the world do you live in when the rain is never warm?  

Further North. 😂

[Lee Wilson]

18 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

What part of the world do you live in when the rain is never warm?  

What makes you think he lives on our world? 😆

[Jason Rimbaud]

2 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

Further North. 😂

The Great White North? The frozen wasteland that is Canada?  . No wonder the rain is cold. 

[Lee Wilson]

10 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

Further North. 😂

Santa!!!!

[BendtedWreath]

35 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

The Great White North? The frozen wasteland that is Canada?  . No wonder the rain is cold. 

27 minutes ago, Lee Wilson said:

Santa!!!!

Not that far north. But good guesses.

[Jason Rimbaud]

28 minutes ago, Lee Wilson said:

Santa!!!!

 

Just now, BendtedWreath said:

Not that far north. But good guesses.

I'm so sorry for this...truly.

I wanted to sit on your lap!

[CassieQ]

37 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

 

I'm so sorry for this...truly.

I wanted to sit on your lap!

*slaps her goggles back on*  I want this too.  

[BendtedWreath]

49 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

I'm so sorry for this...truly. I wanted to sit on your lap!

I either walked into that one or @Lee Wilson set it up. Either way, I'm not mad. 

[Jason Rimbaud]

3 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

I either walked into that one or @Lee Wilson set it up. Either way, I'm not mad. 

Truthfully, I just like to see @CassieQ wearing goggles. I find it attractive.

Picture this, Cassie, in her golden crown, scepter, and steampunk goggles, sexy!  .   

[Jason Rimbaud]

5 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

I either walked into that one or @Lee Wilson set it up. Either way, I'm not mad. 

Sorry again, and @Lee Wilson had nothing to do with this, promise. Sorry again.

After I get up from your lap, you won't be walking anytime soon. 

Spoiler

Could be a fat joke too, don't be a perv

 

[BendtedWreath]

21 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

After I get up from your lap, you won't be walking anytime soon. 

  Reveal hidden contents

Could be a fat joke too, don't be a perv

 

[Jason Rimbaud]

5 minutes ago, BendtedWreath said:

Normally I don't threaten, I promise usually. I'm a man of my word, so theres that.   

[Jason Rimbaud]

So in three years of doing business in San Francisco as a restaurant owner. Today I can not open my restaurant. I ran out of chicken wings last night, Saturday. The 49'ers were in the playoffs and we had one of our best days, though we ran out of chicken wings by seven pm. We close at 9pm, so it was a bummer but I was happy as I sold my entire supply of Saturday and Sunday wings. 

Today, Sunday, I went as far as San Jose searching for Chicken Wings and found none. I went to Oakland and they had no wings until Tuesday. 

This being a huge day, as there are playoff games, not being able to open is really frustrating as a business owner. 

As someone who works 90 hours a week, seven days a week, the potential of having a day off is glorious. I have one more place to check but it's not looking great. We shall see if I go home and try again tomorrow. 

Maybe I go home, crawl into a whiskey bottle and watch LOST.  

[Lee Wilson]

32 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

So in three years of doing business in San Francisco as a restaurant owner. Today I can not open my restaurant. I ran out of chicken wings last night, Saturday. The 49'ers were in the playoffs and we had one of our best days, though we ran out of chicken wings by seven pm. We close at 9pm, so it was a bummer but I was happy as I sold my entire supply of Saturday and Sunday wings. 

Today, Sunday, I went as far as San Jose searching for Chicken Wings and found none. I went to Oakland and they had no wings until Tuesday. 

This being a huge day, as there are playoff games, not being able to open is really frustrating as a business owner. 

As someone who works 90 hours a week, seven days a week, the potential of having a day off is glorious. I have one more place to check but it's not looking great. We shall see if I go home and try again tomorrow. 

Maybe I go home, crawl into a whiskey bottle and watch LOST.  

Can’t you open but put a sign on the door saying no chicken wings. I’m sure there are people who would be happy ordering something else.

[Jason Rimbaud]

1 minute ago, Lee Wilson said:

Can’t you open but put a sign on the door saying no chicken wings. I’m sure there are people who would be happy ordering something else.

We are a chicken wing restaurant. The only things we offer besides chicken, is salads, and no one is going to come to a chicken wing restaurant to only eat salads. We have no sandwiches, no tenders. Without chicken, we are fucked.   . 

[Jason Rimbaud]

Update, found some wings. So we won't open on time but we will be open. Fuck, I was really wanting to go back to bed. 

[Lee Wilson]

1 hour ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

We are a chicken wing restaurant. The only things we offer besides chicken, is salads, and no one is going to come to a chicken wing restaurant to only eat salads. We have no sandwiches, no tenders. Without chicken, we are fucked.   . 

Yeah. That would be an important detail.

[Jason Rimbaud]

So its Thursday, I missed my scheduled Monday posting. 

But I had a real good reason. 

With my new story, I am forcing myself to write/right outside of my comfort zone. There is a really hard scene, it should be dramatic, nerve racking, but I think its falling short. 

I am not accustomed to writing those types of scenes. I feel its missing real tension. But the more I tinker with it, the more I feel like I'm pushing a boulder up a hill. It's like I'm an ostrich, trying to bury my head in the sand, except there isn't any sand, and I'm standing on concrete cement. 

My head hurts. 

On a separate note, I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express so I could probably do brain surgery on myself. 

 

[Lee Wilson]

17 minutes ago, Jason Rimbaud said:

So its Thursday, I missed my scheduled Monday posting. 

But I had a real good reason. 

With my new story, I am forcing myself to write/right outside of my comfort zone. There is a really hard scene, it should be dramatic, nerve racking, but I think its falling short. 

I am not accustomed to writing those types of scenes. I feel its missing real tension. But the more I tinker with it, the more I feel like I'm pushing a boulder up a hill. It's like I'm an ostrich, trying to bury my head in the sand, except there isn't any sand, and I'm standing on concrete cement. 

My head hurts. 

On a separate note, I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express so I could probably do brain surgery on myself. 

If you’d like another pair of eyes, feel free to dm it to me. I probably wouldn't get to it until tomorrow morning, but it’d likely be before your day really gets started.