Life Goes On - 38. Out of the Closet

1982

The boys were in their final term in high school, PT in his large suburban school and David in his small country school. Neither attend the senior prom. While PT’s parents fully understood his reluctance to go David’s parents were bewildered by their son’s lack of interest in girls. Rachel, David’s mother, had made numerous attempts to set him up with the right girl.

A week after graduation The Smith and Kowalski combined families had a dinner prepared by Ann and Louise. The children were surprised that wine was served as part of the meal. While all had experimented with alcohol it had never been done with their parent’s permission or knowledge. To all the children this indicated the meal would be a special event.

Between the main course and dessert Tom was the first speaker of a planned and rehearsed talk to their children, “We have something we want to discuss with our children. Twenty-seven years ago during the fall term of our senior year of high school I met an incredible person. On the outside he and I were very different. In our hearts we were soul mates. I was the popular quarterback for the school football team.”

At this point Peter interrupted, “He was not just a good football player, he was named the outstanding high school football star of the entire eight team league. He was more than just popular, he was the envy of most guys and the dream of many girls, a real hottie.”

Tom continued, “Let’s just say some would say I was popular. One day by chance a classmate I had never talked to before and I shared a seat on a bus returning from an away game. This guy was very different from me. He was a very serious student with one of the highest grade averages in the senior class. He was quiet and not someone everyone knew. Although at first he was reluctant to talk we were soon discussing guy stuff, some things that we had never told anyone. To make a long story short we became more than just best buddies.”

Peter continued, “And have been ever since that fateful day in 1955. We soon both realized this was the person each of us wanted to spend the rest of our lives with. Actually, we became lovers.”

At this point twenty year old daughter of Ann and Tom, also named Ann, broke in, “Are you telling me you are a couple of homos.”

Tom replied, “You may use any term you desire. Yes, we have been together ever since meeting.”

Tom: “About a month after meeting we suspected two girls in our senior class might be in the same situation.”

Ann, the mother, continued, “Louise and I had been ‘friends’ for over a year. Like your fathers we were very different on the outside. I was the head cheerleader and had numerous boys pursuing me. But my real friend was Louise, a very quiet, scholarly girl. To our classmates Louise and I were very similar to your fathers: one quiet, studious and the other popular and outgoing. Of course my future husband and I knew each other, me being the head cheerleader and he the star quarterback. He was probably the only popular guy that was not trying to date me.”

Tom: “And she was most likely the only popular girl that was not hot for me. To most guys this would be a disappointment, to me it was a relief.”

Ann: “The popular quarterback approached me suggesting we, he, I, Louise and Peter, meet at the bowling alley snack bar for a serious discussion. Actually he begged me to ask Louise to meet with them. I realize now why he selected the bowling alley. It was a very popular place and a group of teenagers hanging out together would be very normal. The place was noisy so we could easily have a private conversation. These two guys, your fathers, told us about their relationship, pleading that we keep it secret. They told us about their suspicions about us and suggested the four of us double date so we could go to high school events without the girl / boy pressures. They left the table to play pinball games, a very normal thing for guys to do, while we discussed the proposition. I remember today the words I spoke when they returned to the table as if it happened yesterday: ‘You guys are insane. What you are proposing is the most outlandish plan we have ever heard. You want us to pretend to be hot for you when you are really hot for each other. No one in their right mind would agree to what you suggest’. Your fathers got looks of panic on their faces and I thought they were going to run away as I continued: ‘Nevertheless we are also insane and probably out of our minds. And as you have discovered, we are hot for each other. So let’s go to the dance this weekend and rock and roll. Come on boys, let’s get out of this dump’.”

Louise continued: “That was twenty-seven years ago. The four of us have been inseparable since. We started double dating. To our classmates we were two boy/ girl couples. However, we were really boy/boy and girl/girl couples living lives as our hearts, not the rules of society dictated.”

Peter continued: “Actually, for Louise and I our home life became a lot easier. Both of our mothers had been hounding us about our lack of interest in the opposite sex and dating. Now we were dating on a regular basis while also having quality time with our real love. We attended university together, got married after graduation, had kids and lived ‘happily ever after’.”

Ann’s final statement: “We are not going to pry into our children’s sex lives nor give you details of ours. However, we assume you might be wondering how a girl/girl couple and boy/boy couple had children. To alleviate any concerns, I can tell you that you were all created in the regular way.”

Young Ann who was always willing to criticize anyone for any reason blurted out: “So my parents are a queer and we have been living a lie. That is just fucking great.”

Since all had learned that arguing with daughter Ann was always confrontational, no one commented on her outburst.

Louise then commented: While we four are very happy with our lives it is probably best not to share it with others. While we don’t care if it ‘gets out’ it might make our friends and relatives uncomfortable.”

Tom continued, “If my mother, your grandmother, discovered our arrangement she would probably go into deep depression. She would make the life of Father Sean, her spiritual advisor for years, uncomfortable. She would be in church everyday praying for our lost souls, lighting candles and saying God knows how many Hail Marys. Father Sean has known, through my confession, since I was about fifteen years old of my sexual orientation. He assured me it was God’s will, it was normal for some boys and nothing to be ashamed of although since many would condemn me out of ignorance to keep it to myself. He knew about our situation and counseled all of us prior to our marriages.”

Following a brief period of silence PT spoke up. “Since we are on the subject, I want to explain my situation to you. As I am sure you have noticed, David Winkler and I are close. We have been best ‘buddies’ all our lives. We plan to share our lives as two men together. As soon as I graduate from Ohio State with a degree in agriculture we will purchase a farm together. I came out to our parents a while ago and they have been very supportive. I hope and pray the young adults of these families also support us.”

His sister, Louise, commented: “No surprise there. I love you and support you.”

“As do I.” Stated Sean (son of Tom and Ann and Louis’s boyfriend / bed partner)

As young Ann stormed out of the room she ranted, “Holy shit, I have been living in a house full of perverts all my life. No wonder my life is so screwed up.”

As usual the rest just ignored her.

Then Peter asked, “Does anyone else have an important announcement or confession to make?” He directed his attention to Sean as he said this.

Sean, with a big grin replied, “A few days ago I asked Uncle Peter (while technically not his uncle the children had called their parents lovers ‘aunt’ and ‘uncle’) for the hand of his charming daughter in marriage. We had a man to man talk about such obligations and he seemed very happy to give her away. We are planning a June wedding soon after the end of our first year at Ohio State.”

Peter commented, “The request was not a surprise, for years it has been more of a ‘When’ not ‘If’.

As dessert was served the remaining seven discussed the plans to attend Ohio State of PT, Louise and Sean and most important the upcoming wedding.

A few days later mother Louise had ‘the talk’ with daughter Louise. They had already discussed sex years earlier. However, more for friendliness than necessity the talk was initiated. Mother already knew her daughter was on the pill and assumed she was ‘doing it’ with her boyfriend now fiancée. Tom had a similar discussion with his son. Since they had been very open about sex again the discussion was aimed to keep communication open, not because it was absolutely needed.

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A week after high school graduation David started a full time position at County Feed and Seed. He looked forward to this job as it would give him insights into aspects of farming he had not encountered as in the past he had just done what his father had told him to do. This position would not only give him awareness of supplies that farmers need but the economic aspects of farm management. While over fifty years earlier the store had started selling just animal feed supplies and seeds it had evolved into a full service farm store. As a dealership of John Deere equipment the store sold anything a farmer would need from simple garden tools to heavy equipment such as tractors, combines and balers. With its modern equipment service center David would be exposed to all areas of farm operations and management.

David was not needed on the family farm on a fulltime basis as his older brother, Paul Junior, and father worked there fulltime. Paul Junior had recently married and it was assumed he would eventually take over the farm. David planned to jointly own a farm with PT someday so had no desire to work with his father and brother on a long time basis. Working at a farm supply store would not only give him insight into farm management it would provide a separation from his family while PT attended Ohio State. David moved in with Uncle Will who was not only happy for his company but at his age, 87 years old, wanted someone to help him manage his home.

PT obtained a summer job at County Feed and Seed. While David’s position required knowledge of the products and working with customers PT was hired to be a laborer working in the warehouse and assisting with deliveries. After a hard day’s work that required David’s brain and PT’s brawn they shared nights together doing among other things planning their future.

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July 1982

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Louise and PT
Happy birthday to you.

At the family birthday party PT shared with his twin sister they celebrated a significant age, eighteen. Now they were officially adults. Sean, Louise’s fiancée, would turn eighteen in September a week after classes started.

Now that he was officially a man, PT and David, who had turned eighteen earlier that year, looked forward to their visit to the gay bathhouse described to them in detail by their one year older friend Jim. The day after his birthday party in Columbus PT returned to the farm to be with David and Uncle Will. The following weekend their friend Jim who was home from Trinity College in Hartford for the summer and had offered to take them on a tour of Club Cleveland visited the farm. Although Jim had never visited Club Cleveland he assumed he would find no surprises in Cleveland as he had been to Club Hartford, Club Columbus and St Mark’s in New York City.

Jim who had a summer job in Columbus arrived at the farm Friday evening. While the boys had few if any secrets from Uncle Will they decided not to share their plans to visit the baths Saturday evening. They told him they were going out Saturday evening to celebrate PT’s coming of age and that they might be late. As soon as PT and David returned from their jobs at County Feed and Seed the three departed for the hour drive to downtown Cleveland. Arriving at Club Cleveland about 7pm (19.00) they got a room and locker for themselves and Jim got his own room. Jim told them to go to their room, get naked and wait for him with the door closed. The anticipation of what might happen resulted in the boys getting hard. However, they refrained from touching themselves or each other as they wanted to be totally ready for this adventure. Their feelings ran from total horniness to fear of the unknown while sitting on the bed waiting . Jim’s comment when he arrived: “Looks like you two are ready for action,” was said with a leer and chuckle. “Wrap you towels around your waists like I have done, tuck your hard dicks in and let’s take a tour”. The two tall, young, muscular farm boys were the immediate attention of the mixed crowd. After quick peeks into the sauna and steam room they walked past the whirlpool and TV area where porn was playing on a TV hooked up to a VCR tape. While most men had towels wrapped around their waists the boys saw naked guys in their small rooms with doors open, in the sauna and steam room and in the TV area where a couple of guys without towels played with their hard dicks. The last stop on the tour was a dim room with benches wide enough to lay on along the wall. They could see shapes of men sucking and jerking. As their eyes became more accustomed to the darkness they saw a guy sitting in a chair of leather straps (sling) hanging from the ceiling. His feet were held up by stirrups on the front straps exposing an inviting ass. Jim whispered, “That guy wants to be fucked. He is ready.” To the amazement of the boys Jim walked up to the guy and rolled on one of the condoms he was carrying. He placed his dick against the ready rosebud and shoved in. The guy just let him do it. To the surprise of PT and David there appeared to be no emotion. They had assumed the guy would scream with either pain or delight. Jim clasped his arms behind his head while pumping in and out. They were observing their first real live fuck. They had seen pictures of guys fucking in various positions including the use of a sling in their porn collection borrowed without asking from the hidden catch PT had found in his father’s home office years earlier. After a few minutes Jim pulled out and pulled the condom off. The boys thought Jim was ready to cum but he just stepped back. As he led the boys away he quietly said, “That was a no feeling fuck. That hole was so loose that I hardly had any sensitivity. My hand gives me more pleasure than sticking it into a wide open, unemotional space. While it might have looked enjoyable for me, it was kind of boring. That is not the way most fucks are. With the right guy you can have the most intense and glorious feelings ever.”

Stopping at the entrance to the steam room they followed Jim’s lead removing their towels and hanging them on a hook near the door. Entering the room they were met with a hot, dimly lit, steamy haze. Being only able to see vague shapes they soon lost Jim. David grabbed PT’s hand as they navigated the area. They stopped in a corner and just stood there attempting to see what was going on. David released PT’s hand. Almost immediately PT felt a hand on his dick. He assumed it was David’s. Then to his surprise he felt a warmth on his dick. Through the haze he saw a guy kneeling in front of him swallowing his rock hard piece. He did as Jim had told him to do if anyone advanced on him in an unwanted way, he gently pushed the head away and placed his hand over his dick to protect it from invasion. When he turned to David he saw another guy was leaning into him playing with his nipple. PT turned to David while pushing the guy away. He embraced his love. The two wrapped their arms around each other as their sweaty chests and dicks pressed into the other. PT whispered, “This place is weird. Never did I think so many guys would want to have sex. Would you believe that right now someone is playing with my ass? Oh, my god, he is trying to shove his finger in my hole.” As he said this PT removed an arm that was wrapped around David and reached back to push away the intruder. By mutual consent, without asking, the two boys walked out of the room. The light coming in through the glass door revealed activity near the entrance. They saw a guy standing tall with his arms behind his head pumping into the mouth of someone kneeling. This was the same stance Jim had used when he fucked the guy on the sling. They then realized the standing guy was Jim. Jim saw his friends and said, “I’ll catch up with you later,” as he continued to pump.

The sweaty boys showered and decided to enter the bubbling hot pool. The square pool had underwater benches on each side. The two men in the pool smiled at the handsome farm boys. One was sitting opposite while the other was to their left. Both men were at least the age of their fathers. One was hairy and the other had a hairless upper chest, all that they could see as the rest of the bodies were submerged. As PT and David sat side by side David felt something on the side of his leg moving up toward his dick. He reached down and discovered the foot of the guy opposite him on his leg. The guy had lowered himself into the pool up to his neck to extend his body so his foot would reach across the pool. While David felt the urge to grab the foot and pull on it to force the intruder away he just pushed it away as he clamped his legs closed. PT was not aware of the attack on his friend. David moved his hand to PT’s submerged cock and caressed it while PT returned the favor. A total feeling of contentment overcame the two as the bubbles of the warm water massaged their bodies.

PT’s bliss was interrupted when he felt someone entering the pool next to him. He looked up at the body of a handsome guy of about thirty sliding in next to him. As the man settled in his body pressed against PT’s. The touching of this man felt good. PT did not want to move away. He could have moved toward David to escape from the side touch of the handsome stranger. As the bubbling hid any activity under water the man pressed his leg against PT’s. For some reason unknown to PT having this particular man touch him sent erotic tingles through his body. Then PT felt a hand on his upper leg. He could have and his brain told him he should have pushed it away, but he did not. As the hand moved up it encountered David’s hand embracing PT’s hardness. Man stroked David’s hand. Then David let Man caress PT’s. Man whispered into PT’s ear: “A triple crown: young, big and most impressive – uncut natural.” PT without prompting reached for Man’s now hard dick. The hard, cut, average piece hardened more at PT’s touch. Man reached over to David’s dick and whispered to both, “Let’s go to my room. You two are the hottest guys here.” PT turned to David and the two nodded ‘yes’ to each other. The three hard dicks stepped out of the pool and followed Man down the hall with towels slung over their shoulders giving a glorious parade of young masculinity.

As soon as they were in the tiny cubical Man closed and locked the door. He then kneeled and briefly inspected each hard dick. Leaning in he swallowed all of PT’s uncut masterpiece. After a couple of lip strokes he swallowed David’s. Then Man stood, got on the bed and laid on his back, “Who is going to fuck me first?” Neither of the boys had anticipated this offer nor thought they would want it. But each suddenly had an urge as they ogled the handsome young man with his ass slightly raised on a pillow. Man reached over and pulled PT toward him.

PT said, “I need a condom.”

Man replied, “That is not necessary. I am clean and you two look clean to me. I want to feel your dick in me.”

As horny as PT was he persevered saying, “I will not do it without protection.”

Man reluctantly reached for a small bag on the shelf next to the bed and took out condoms. PT rolled one on and kneeled on the bed between Man’s legs in a position he had seen in photos in their porn collection.

Man reached for a small bottle on the shelf and squeezed lube on his rosebud and PT’s protected dick. As PT shoved in Man cried out, “Go slow big boy. Have not had one that big in a long time.” PT stopped with his dick half way in not knowing what to do. Then Man said, “OK, I’m ready.” PT pushed in as far as he could go. The feeling was erotic, like nothing he had ever felt. By instinct he pulled half way out and then pushed back in. Man moaned in pleasure. After a couple of more strokes PT felt his juices rising. While the feeling was intense afterward he realized it was less than a good suck from his love, David. As PT pulled out Man looked at David, “I’m ready for more!” David was ready with a dripping in anticipation dick. The feeling of rolling on a condom almost took him over the edge. He was amazed at how easily his dick slid in to the opening that had been prepared by his lover. Within three strokes the eager farmer filled the condom. As Man thanked the boys they departed.

As they walked down the hall with towels tightly wrapped around their waists PT asked, “So what did you think of your first fuck.”

David replied, “It was OK, but I prefer the loving of my man. Your lips on my dick feel better than his ass.”

PT put his arm around his love, “Yes, I agree. Did you notice that he was not hard while we fucked? Do you think he really enjoyed it? He certainly was aggressive in getting us to do it.”

David replied, “That is a wonderment. I do not understand. I would have thought our fucking would make him hard and bring him over the edge. As far as I am concerned we have seen it, we have done it, That is enough.”

PT: “You mean you don’t want me to shove my dick up your ass as soon as we return to the room?”

David: “Actually I would rather hold you tight over fucking Mr. Handsome. You are all I need or want.”

PT smiled as he said, “Prove it.”

As they entered their tiny room they rolled onto the bed in a tight embrace. Although each had cum just minutes earlier each was hard as they deep kissed, cuddled, moved into the 69 position and then simultaneously swallowed each other’s juice. Following a short nap while embraced they explored observing various activities in the steam room, sauna, TV area and sling followed by a return to the hot tub. While the tour was interesting neither had any desire to get involved with others.

As the three drove back to the farm Jim raved about his exploits. When he told about the glorious fuck of a guy whose description seemed to fit that of the guy they had fucked, PT asked if he was the tall, handsome guy of about thirty that had a room a few doors down from theirs. When Jim replied ‘Yes’ PT told him that they had observed him being fucked and that they had noticed that although he seemed to be enjoying it his dick was not hard. PT did not tell Jim that the person he watched fuck the guy was his own David. Jim replied that he was also surprised that the guy never got hard. He also told them that since he had already fucked and cum twice his dick took more time to finish and that his fuck lasted at least twenty minutes. He explained that all guys are different with most getting hard when fucked. He had been with one guy who shot his load while being fucked although his dick was never touched.

While they boys wanted to just cuddle with each other after returning home they did not tell Jim he was not welcome in their bed. Luckily Jim’s dick was satisfied with his experience at the baths and he did not initiate a late night encounter as the three slept together. The following morning the boys got up early to milk the cows and did not return to bed. Jim had obligations at home and departed soon after breakfast Sunday morning.

As soon as Jim departed the boys sat in the kitchen and shared late morning coffee and pastries with Uncle Will. They told him about their adventure at the baths leaving out no important details. Uncle Will seemed genuinely interested.

Will then retold the boys about his visit Club Cleveland almost twenty years earlier with some friends. He did not tell that the ‘friends’ who took him to the baths were PT’s father and Tom. He did not think they would be surprised or shocked that PT’s father visited such a place but felt it was something Peter should share with his son if he so desired. Will told about meeting the Russian, Vlad, and the amazement of the friends who had escorted him there when he did not return with them instead going to the home of the Russian. The boys had met Vlad a number of times when he visited the farm with his love Aiden. As a professor at Western Reserve University and an immigrant from the Soviet Union who had been in the Soviet army during World War II and then spied for the Americans when assigned to Soviet command in Berlin he was an interesting person.

The remainder of the summer the boys lived with Uncle Will while working at County Feed and Seed.

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Although the Ohio State campus was an easy commute by car or bus from their suburban home the parents encouraged their children to live on or near campus. PT and Sean hoped to find a small apartment to share while Louise would move into a dormitory. They settled on an apartment over a Pizza Restaurant on High Street not far from the south end of the campus. The three room apartment had a combination living room / kitchen and two bedrooms. The used furniture that they acquired from their grandparents, parents and a used furniture store included a double bed for the small bedroom and single bed for the even smaller bedroom. While Louise’s parents assumed she was planning to stay in a girls’ dorm she had other plans. Her brother, PT, had no problem sharing the apartment with the engaged couple. When Louise and Sean announced their plan to live together their parents expressed no objections. It would have been hypocritical for the parents to object since the two boy lovers and two girl lovers had shared rooms all during their college days at Kent State University.

As the school year began everyone was happy with their living arrangements. PT was content in his small bed in his tiny room where he studied frequently to the quiet sounds of love making in the next room. Within a week the three were comfortable sharing space in the small apartment. At least two mornings a week all needed to be up and out for early classes. Seeing each other in various stages of undress became just a part of living, no big deal. Sean would shower while PT shaved and then they would reverse. Sometimes Louise was also there putting on makeup as one of the boys showered. About one weekend a month PT visited David at the farm. Most other weekends David visited PT sharing his bed as they attempted to be as quiet as possible.

Obnoxious sister Ann was in her third year at University of Cincinnati. No one knew if she was happy but all were happy she was far away.

A few miles away at their suburban home the parents had changed their sleeping arrangements on a modified permanent basis. Louise moved next door into Ann’s bedroom while Tom gave up his bed to move over with Peter. They kept the arrangement somewhat flexible returning to their spouses when the children were home or parents visited.

PT’s first year in The College of Agriculture at Ohio State was rigorous and exhausting. However frequent visits by David to Columbus and PT to the farm gave the young man a welcomed diversion from his studies.

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June 1983

PT happily supported his sister by being ‘Best Man’ to Sean at their wedding. Following the service a reception with dinner and dancing completed the happy day. PT sat at the head table with the bridal couple at dinner and David was assigned to a table of friends of Louise and Sean his age. The handsome rugged young farmer David was surprised when he felt a hand on his leg as he sat at the table. The hand of a girl did not give the same pleasurable feeling he had when accosted in the hot tube of the baths. To politely stop the invasion David asked if he could get her a drink from the bar. After giving her the drink he walked over to the head table and engaged PT in conversation. PT laughed at David’s encounter telling his lover that at the obligatory dance where he as Best Man danced with the Maid of Honor she shoved herself against his deflated dick as she pulled him closer by rubbing his back.

That evening PT and David had the apartment to themselves as the newlywed couple stayed at a hotel near the airport prior to their morning flight to their honeymoon destination, St. Maarten, a gift from their parents. Although exhausted from the activities of the day they eagerly embraced and more without having to worry about keeping their love making silent.